Date: Mon, 6 Dec 2010 11:52:14 -0800 (PST) From: Edward Dufresne Subject: Ch 12 Beyond Brothers This story is fiction and all usual warnings apply. I can be reached at vtgfor7@yahoo.com or Edward Dufresne on facebook A reader pointed out that I have never given a good description of Kyle. He is 5'6" tall with brown hair cut short-spiked and brown eyes. When Kim returned to her office she spoke with the director, telling her that she now had gotten a truthful statement from Justin and his mother was coming to the office tomorrow morning to give her statement verifying everything that Justin had told her. Mrs. Johnson thought for a minute and than said, "give Jerry Bennik the DA a call and let him know what we have for evidence. I think with what we have we can get Mr. Blake to plead guilty. After what he has done to his son I would love to see him spend time in jail, but lets face it the important thing is that Justin is now going to live in a safe place. Where he will be loved and treated with respect." Kim called Jerry Bennik and they discussed the their case against Phillip Blake. Jerry told Kim he would call Dillard Hatcher III Philips lawyer and let him know what they had for evidence and see if would go for a plea bargain in which Phillip would plead guilty to child abuse and assault. "Hello, this is Jerry Bennik may I speak with Dillard please." "Just a moment he is on another call but it shouldn't be long." "Jerry what can I do for our illustrious DA this afternoon?" "I'm calling as a courtesy, we have a truthful statement from Jason Blake and his mom verbally verified everything he said and she is going into Kim Preston's office tomorrow morning to give a formal statement. Along with the Dr's. evidence and that of his friends we have your client dead to rights. What I'm offering is if he will plead guilty to child abuse and assault then I will recommend a sentence of two to five years a ten thousand dollar fine and ten years probation. He will be required to join an abuse treatment program; finally he will not be allowed any contact with Justin until such time as his counselor lets the Child Protective Services know that they feel he is ready to see his son. But all contact will be supervised by their office. This offer is good only for 24 hours if I don't hear from you by 3p.m. tomorrow then the deal is off and I can guarantee that your client will serve time and I will ask for the maximum sentence." "I will try and reach my client as soon as we hang up and try to get you and answer today. You have a good day now." As soon as Dillard had hung up from his call with the DA he bussed his secretary, "Linda will you please track down General Blake if he isn't at home try Green Hills Country Club. If he isn't at either of those places call the base he might be there going through part of the out processing from the Army." Dillard sat back and thought about the DA's offer. It was clear the General had assaulted his son and his attitude towards his son was so bad that if this case ever went to trial the General would be doing a long stretch in the state pen and Georgia's prisons were not noted to be friendly to men who abused their children. In fact with his attitude Dillard wouldn't bet on his living through his whole sentence. It never ceased to amaze Dillard how bright and successful people could get their lives so screwed up when it came to personal and family relationships. It was almost as if those people had two personalities one for the public and another for their home life. As he sat there thinking about Phillip's mess Linda buzzed him and said, "the General is on line two." "What is so damn urgent Dillard. I was on the fourteenth hole and I was two strokes up over my nearest opponent, and suddenly a club worker some punk kid rolls up in a golf cart and tells me I need to make and urgent call. All I can say is this better be urgent or I might just fire you!" shouted General Blake. "Phillip, you arrogant fool shut up and listen. The DA has made an offer, if you plead guilty to child abuse and aggravated assault, you will be given a sentence of two to five years prison time, and ten years probation, with required counseling, and a ten thousand dollar fine." "I told you I didn't do anything and I am not pleading guilty." "Phillip, Justin has testified and your wife verified everything that happened, how you beat him and dragged him across the lawn. The evidence the doctors collected verify his story. You are going to jail and the only question is for how long. If this goes to trail you could get twenty years. Take the deal, or I won't be your counsel any longer." "I get back to you tomorrow." said a bewildered Phillip. "Listen, this offer is only good for twenty-four hours so don't wait too long I want an answer by noon at the latest," said Dillard. Phillip hurried home to speak with Penny. "I just got off the phone with Dillard and what is this bullshit of you testifying against me, how dare you defy me. You are my wife and you must stand by me." he bellowed. "Phillip you are a fool, and I am one too, we have wasted fourteen years ignoring and hurting our son. Yes, we lost our beloved Jeff, but have you ever thought of how we have dishonored his memory by mistreating Justin. He loved Justin more than he loved us and how many times did he try to get us to change towards Justin. Our only son is in a hospital because you are a bully and asshole. I am glad you are going to jail I will wait for you, but I hope when you get out you will have a whole new attitude. Now pack some clothes and go stay in a motel or something I don't want to see you for a while." ordered Penny "This is my house you can't order me out," and then he drew back his fist and for the first time ever he hit Penny, knocking her to the floor. Penny stood up walked to the phone in the kitchen, and dialed 911. "Police, yes this is Penny Blake the General's wife, he has just assaulted me can you come right away." Phillip sat at his desk trying to understand why all of a sudden his life was out of control. He heard sirens, but thought nothing of it until two officers walked into his den and tried to arrest him. He went berserk and tried to throw them out of his home. He pulled his service revolver from his desk and then an officer shot him in the shoulder forcing him to drop the gun. Phillip was handcuffed and taken to the hospital for treatment. Penny called Dillard. "Dillard, Phillip has been arrested and shot. He hit me and I called the police, when they came he pulled his service revolver and they shot him. He must be the most stupid man in the world. Can you go to the hospital and see him please." "I'll go Penny, but this is a lot more serious and he is going to jail for a long time, now let me see what your dumbass husband has done now." Dillard went to the hospital and spoke with the arresting officers, then he went into the exam room. He had been told that Phillips wound was superficial and would cause no permanent damage. "What to hell were you thinking pulling a gun on the police Phillip?"asked Dillard. "I guess I wasn't thinking, I was just so mad and I hit Penny, I have never done that in my life. I really fucked up didn't I?" "But, why did you pull the gun on the police? That was beyond stupid." stated Dillard. "I told the officers it wasn't even loaded, the clip was in my desk drawer. I just wanted them out of my house. I know I was stupid so what do we do about it." answered Phillip. "I will talk with the DA, but you are going to have a assault charge for hitting Penny and if you are lucky we can get the other charges reduced resisting arrest. But I would say you are now looking at a minimum of ten to fifteen years at best." Dillard went out to speak with the arresting officers and did determine that Phillip had stated the gun was empty, but when he refused to put it down and pointed it at them they had no choice but to shoot him. He then left and called the DA to see what he could find out. The DA was pissed and said no deals until he had all the facts but it wasn't going to be good for Phillip. Justin went for a short walk after his mom and Kim Preston had left. It was the first time he had been able to walk by himself. His groin still hurt like hell, but what the nurse had said was true, the more he moved around the easier it got. When he got back to bed he was in a lot of pain, trying to let it ease off by itself he lay on the bed wondering what was going to happen to the General now that the truth was out. His mom had really surprised him when she backed up everything that he had told Kim. Tears formed in his eyes as he thought why did things have to get so bad before his mom began to love him. The pain slowly subsided as Justin lay in the hospital bed thinking about what the surgeon had said about the possibility of his needing testosterone shots for the him to go complete puberty and than to maintain his maleness. His father had done this to him and he decided it was only right if the General's only remaining son never became a man that would be something that the General wouldn't be able to ignore. Justin decided that he wouldn't take any shots and lets the chips fall where they may. It would only be serve his father right to have an undeveloped son. Justin didn't hate his father. But he should have to pay some price for all the pain and abuse he had inflicted on him. He lay on the bed thinking when a orderly came in and asked him "are you Phillip Blake's son?" "Yes, the General is my father, why?" answered Justin. "Well they just brought him with a gun shot wound. The police went to your house when your mom called them and your old man resisted arrest and got shot."said the orderly. "Is he alive?" asked Justin. "Yea, it was just a flesh wound to the shoulder. I heard he pulled a gun on the police." said the orderly. The orderly left and Justin lay on his bed in deep thought wondering what was going on and how it would effect him. He was so deep in thought that he didn't even see Kyle and Ben walk into his room. When Ben gave him a quick kiss he shook his head to break the deep almost trance like stupor he had been in. "Hey dude where were you, did they give you some strong pain medicine?" asked Kyle. "No, I was just thinking and I come to a decision." "What are you talking about? What decision have you made?" asked Ben. "I've decided to let nature take it's own path and not take any hormones. Oh, Kyle my mom is coming in a few minutes she has agreed to buy me a laptop computer, she doesn't know anything about computers so could you go with her and help her pick out a good one for me?" "Is there any limit on how much?" asked Kyle. "After everything I have been through I doubt it, why?" "I was at the Best Buy the other day with my dad and saw the latest Mac Book Pro model it's absolutely unreal. It can do just about everything but walk, of course it cost $2299.99 so I guess she wouldn't go for that one. But I will make sure you get a good one." answered Kyle. A few minutes later Penny came into Justin's room, she had a large bruise on her cheek. "Mom, what is going on some one said the general got shot by the police and you look like he hit you." yelled Justin. "The General got shot by the police," shouted Kyle and Ben in unison." "Yes the fool pulled a gun on them when they came after I called them because he hit me and I am not going to let that start." Penny went on to explain all that had happened. "I am through with your father Justin. He will be going to jail and I am going to get a divorce. I hope in time I will learn to be a good enough mother that you will want to come home to live. Now I need to check on him for a moment, then I will take Kyle to get you a notebook computer. Don't worry everything will be all right now and Justin I think Ben makes a real cute boyfriend." Ben, Justin, Kyle, all stood there with their mouths open, not knowing what to say or do. Justin's face turned bright red and he said, "How did you know mom?" "I stopped by the other day and saw you and Ben together. I closed the door and left and I haven't said anything to the general and I won't it isn't any of his business. Do your parents know Ben?" "Yes and Kyle's parents do too. They are all fine with Justin and me," answered Ben. "Well then I will go check on my soon to be exhusband and will return."answered Penny Penny found the general in the ER still, Dillard had just left so she asked one of the officers to go with her to talk with the General. "Phillip I have stood by and watched you abuse our son and today you hit me that is the last straw, I am filing for a divorce and you can rot in jail for all I care." She turned and walked away for him forever. After Penny left all three boys were silent trying to understand what had just happened. "I think my mom just told me it is ok for me to be gay and that she approves of you Ben as my boyfriend." said Justin "I think you are right Justin, your mom sure sounds different than she used to."said Kyle. Just then Penny walked back into the room, with a new look of determination on her face. Kyle looked at her and said, "I ready if you are?" "Ok, I sure hope you know what to get because I don't have a clue." The two of them left and Justin and Ben were left alone. Justin looked at Ben and patted his bed and said, "get your cute butt up on this bed and hold me I need to feel your love real bad." "What if someone comes in and see you holding my love," giggled Ben as he jumped on the bed and wrapped his arms around Justin. Ben could feel Justin shaking. He looked into his boyfriends deep blue eyes and saw so much pain there and yet now hope, that it didn't seem possible that anyone could mistreat and hurt that beautiful person in his arms. Ben began to place small delicate kisses on Justin's face. The kisses weren't sensual rather they resembled the kisses that a mom or dad would give to a newborn infant, as their hearts overflowed with love for their child. As Ben kissed Justin's face he saw a slow change in his eye's, the pain slowly faded and the sparkle of joy and happiness replaced the hurt. Justin stopped shaking and a smile burst across his face. "You don't know how much I needed that. I'm worried what my life is going to be like now. If the rest of the swelling goes down in my penis by tomorrow and I can pee without the catheter I will be able to go home with Kyle on Saturday morning. Maybe I'm being silly but it feels like my whole life has been turned upside down in the last few days, and that scares me." "If it was happening to me I would be totally freaked out they would have to drug me to keep me calm. You have every right to be scared about your future, but one thing I do know is you will always be safe now. Kyle's parents love you as much as they do Kyle and once you settle in at their house I'll bet you will love it" "I know they love me and living with Kyle will be great, but I still feel scared about my future." The two boys talked for a half hour until Penny and Kyle returned. Kyle seemed to be so excited that he was jumping up and down. "Kyle what's the matter with you, why are you jumping up and down.?" "She got it, she got the Mac Book Pro and all the software and three games as well!" Kyle gushed. All that was said as Kyle hurried across the room to Justin's bed. He opened the large bag the he was carrying and began to take everything out. Not only was laptop but a all the extra's needed, even a printer that would work with the laptop Penny walked to Justin's bed and saw the ear to ear grin on her son's face. "I take it that you like the computer." "Mom, thanks so much for the computer it is totally awesome, rad , and out of this world!" Justin stood at the side of his bed and hugged his mom goodby. Penny hugged him for a long time and kissed his forehead. "Baby I am going to make up for all the harm that has been done to you. I promise that from this day on everything will get better. Justin I love you and I hope some day you can say the same about me." After Penny left the three boys played with the computer, loading all the software and each having turns at the games. By the time it nine p.m. all three of the boys were tired. Ben and Kyle promised they would be there right after school. Just as Justin was almost drifting off to sleep a nurse came into his room and told him she was going to remove his catheter. "I know this is embarrassing for you Justin, and your penis is going to burn after I take it out. But if you can urinate without it in the morning then you should be able to go home tomorrow." Justin just turned his head and tried to think about school, until he felt the burning sensation in his penis. Justin felt like the nurse was trying to rip his penis out by the root. He let out a small yelp. "There it is all out now. I just need to squeeze some special ointment up inside your penis it will hurt a little but the burning will go away, so here goes." Justin gritted his teeth as the nurse inserted the tube into his penis and squeezed a small amount of ointment into his penis. "There now if you need to urinate please use the plastic urinal in the bathroom, and then call the nurse so we can measure the amount. This is very important; because you can't go home until we know that your waterworks are working all right. Now that, that is done is there anything I can do for you, like a back rub or something to eat or drink?" "Thank-you but I'm fine, goodnight." After the nurse left Justin reached down and felt his penis just to make sure it was still the same as it had been last Sunday night. He went into the bathroom and filled his water pitcher and returned to his bed. He drank the whole pitcher dry, and then refilled it and drank that dry also. Laying on his bed he tried to will himself to need to pee. Without realizing it he drifted of to sleep. The next thing he knew he was dreaming of walking along a gurgling stream and the sound of running water was causing him to have a strange feeling, suddenly he understood that for first time in five days he needed to take a piss. Justin rushed to the bathroom lifted his hospital gown and started to pee. He suddenly remembered the urinal and grabbed it from the back of the toilet. Stopping his urinal flow in full stream was very painful, but it was only for a second and then he let loose into the urinal. The bottle slowly began to fill Justin began to worry if it would overflow. When he was finally finished the urinal was full to the top. He returned to his bed and rang the bell for the nurse. "Justin what can I do for you?" "I need you to measure my urine." "Someone will be there in a while."answered the nurse. A short while later an orderly came and measured the urine and marked in on his chart. "How did you manage to go that much so shortly after having the catheter removed?" "I drank a lot of water, I want to make sure that I can get out of here tomorrow." The aid left and Justin went to sleep. He awoke at 6:30 the next morning, and needed to pee real bad. Again he came close to filling the urinal. After brushing his teeth he rang for the nurse to measure his urine and to see if he could take a shower. When the nurse came she said, "I will have to check with the on call Dr. to see if it is ok ,but I don't think it will be a problem." Ten minutes later a voice came over the intercom telling Justin that it was ok to take a shower. Justin wasted no time in getting into the shower in his bathroom. As he was showering he decided to try to masturbate, but no matter what he tried he couldn't get an erection. By the time he finished his shower he was quite upset. Justin put on clean boxers and his favorite pair of soccer shorts with his jersey that matched the shorts. The jersey and shorts were electric blue with gold pipping and they matched his eyes perfectly. Ben loved to see him dressed in this outfit, he always told Justin that it made him look as hot as molten lava. At 9:00 Dr. Manchester came in to see Justin along with a group of interns. "Justin, would it be ok with you if I showed these interns your scrotum, I know it will be embarrassing, but we don't see many cases like yours and it would help them to be better doctors if they could see what I have been telling them about your case." Justin's face was beet red , but he understood why Dr. Manchester had asked. "I guess it is ok if you look if you can do something for me." Dr. Manchester looked at Justin and said, "bud, after what you have been through anything you want that I can do, I will for you." "I just want to talk to you alone when everyone is done." "You have a deal, now someone pull the privacy curtains and then we can proceed." Justin was sure that he would pop a boner when he was examined. The first two interne's were very hot looking young men. Justin squeezed his eyelids shut and tried to think of anything but what was happening to him. After all eight interns had seen what Dr. Manchester wanted them to see he said, "all right everyone take a ten minute break, while I talk with Justin. You did just great I know that some fourteen year olds are very modest and feel embarrassed to be touched in their sex organs. Now what can I do for you." "Well this morning when I was in the shower I tried to you know." Dr. Manchester let out a little laugh and said, "Justin do you mean you tried to masturbate?" Justin's face turned red and he just nodded. Then he said, "when I tried to do it nothing happened to my penis, it wouldn't get hard. Before my father kicked me I got boner's all the time. When the two first two interns started to examine me I was sure I would get a boner, but nothing, its as if I'm dead down there." "Justin before I answer I need you to tell me something so I can better understand what is happening." "Sure what do you need to know?" "When you masturbate are your orgasms dry or wet? Do you know what that means." "Yes, a wet orgasm is when you shot cum. I have only had that happen a few times and it hurt the last few times." "Justin you have undergone both physical and emotional trauma this week it may take a while before your penis and testicle begin to work like they use to, I don't want you worrying about it. Your urine flow is fine so I'm going to release you. But, I want to see you in two weeks. You should continue to try to get an erection, touching yourself gently may help you to heal and get back to normal." Justin got redressed and turned on his tv waiting for someone to show up and take him to his new home with Kyle's family. A short time later Don called and asked Justin if he had been released from the hospital. When Justin told him that Dr. Manchester had said he could go home, Don said, "I'll be there in thirty minutes to pick you up." Justin began to pack up all the things in his room, he quickly realized that he was going to need several bags to hold all the stuff. He rang the nurse and asked, "do you have any bags that I can use to take my stuff home?" "Sure sweety how many do you need?" "Two should be enough as long as they aren't to small." "Ok sweety I'll bring them by in a few minutes." Justin gathered all his things and put them on the bed. What's all the sweety stuff about anyway no nurse had called him that before. I guess she must be some kind of a nut, he thought. He had hardly gotten that thought out of his mind when and large white haired nurse waddled into his room. "Here you go sweety, you sure have a lot of stuff, but I think it will all fit in these bags." "Are you new here I haven't seen you before?" "Actually I'm an old hand here sweety, I retired five years ago, but still work on the children's ward about four days a month. My children all live out of state and I miss them and my grandchildren. So working here one day a week gives me a little extra money and I get to be around children and play grandmother with them." "What's your name, you seem real nice I have never had any grandparents so I just wondered who you are." "I'm Julie, and if you ever need anything you just give me a call. My number is on this card. Even though I'm a grandmother I have a computer and my e-mail address is there also, I you ever want to talk just contact me. Oh my I better get going. If I spend too much time with one patient the head nurse gets upset with me. She acts like someone put a broom up her butt if you know what I mean. Don't tell her I said that ok." she said as she left the room. As the door swung closed Justin thought that it would have been nice to have had a grandmother like Julie. Five minutes later Don arrived fifteen minutes later Justin was headed to his new home and life. Justin was quiet as he and Don drove home. Don keep glancing at Justin wondering what was going on in his young charge's mind. As a trained counselor Don knew that the boy sitting beside him had already had a lifetime of pain in his short life. He glanced once more at the silent boy and saw tears roll down his delicate cheeks. As Don approached Benton Ave. the light turned red just as he was about to cross the intersection. Don slammed on the brakes the tires squealed as the van skidded to a stop. Both he and Justin were thrown into their seatbelts. "Are you ok," asked Don? Justin never made a sound, but as Don watched he saw Justin look across the intersection to the soccer fields where he and Kyle had learned to play, and then suddenly Justin's body began to shake and then an eerie primordial cry erupted from Justin. Don tried to reach Justin but he seemed to be totally incoherent. All of sudden Don realized that this was the place where Jeff had been killed and where Justin's life had begun to fall apart until now when he no longer live at his home. The light changed and Don drove the final miles to his home. As soon as he pulled into the garage he ran around to Justin's door and opened it, Justin was still shaking and that another world sound was still coming from his mouth. Don noticed that Justin's eyes were opened, but rolled back in their sockets. Don unbuckled Justin and carried him into the house and gently laid him on the couch. He ran to the bathroom and pulled a ammonia stick from the shelf. As soon as he was back in the family room he broke the ampule and placed it under Justin's nose. At first nothing happened, but sudden Justin begin to cough and his eye's returned to normal. He turned his head to Don and suddenly wrapped his arm's around Don's neck and then he cried even harder. Don stroked Justin's hair and keep telling him that his pain was over and from now on thing were going to get better. "Justin you are loved and Peg and I are going to see to it that no one ever hurts you again." Don took Justin's head in his hands and twisted it so he could look into Justin's eyes. As soon as he made eye contact, Justin tried to turn away, but Don held him in place. "Look into my eye's Justin and don't turn away as until I'm finished saying what I need to." Justin slowly met Don's gaze. "I want you to see that I'm telling you the truth, I love you as much as I do Kyle. From this day forward for as long as you want it to be, I am your dad, and no one can hurt you any more. Do you believe me?" Justin looked deeply into Don's eyes and saw what he had just heard was true. The General had never looked at him that way. "Yes, I believe you. If I'm now your son can I call you dad?" "Oh Justin, I would be honored for you to call me dad." With that he gave Justin a huge hug and with no warning begin to tickle the young teen without mercy. Justin tried to get away but Don was too big and Justin was soon a mass of giggling boy. "Stop, stop I'm going to pee my shorts and then you will have to tell Peg that you made the mess on the carpet." "Ok I sure don't want the wrath of Peg on me this evening." They both laughed at the thought of that especially since Peg almost never got mad and even when she did she was still a wimp compared to most other women. It just wasn't part of her nature to be mean or offensive. "Are you ok for now Justin," asked Don? "Yea, thank-you for loving me," answered Justin. "Alright how about we bring your things from the van into your and Kyle's room." "Ok, but I want to wait until Kyle gets home before I put this away and make sure it is where he wants it. When school let out Kyle and Ben hurried home to Kyle's home. The three boys rearranged Kyle's bedroom and spent the rest of the evening hanging out together, Ben was spending the night. After watching several Horror films the boys got ready for bed. Ben and Kyle wanted Justin to sleep in the middle of the king size water bed. "Look guys I'm ok you don't have to protect me anymore." said Justin. "We know but we will just feel better knowing that you are between us , besides that way we both get to cuddle next to you. And just maybe we could kiss a little if you want to and Kyle doesn't mind." answered Ben. "With or without tonight guys?" asked Justin. "Without of course as long as that is ok with you." answered Kyle. Justin nodded and the three dropped their boxers beside the bed. Ben looked at Kyle and said, "you shaved them for real." "Yup, my dad showed me how and it was cool we even measured our dicks." "Can you show me how right now?" asked Ben. "Sure," said Kyle. Kyle went and asked his dad to borrow his clippers and shaver explaining what was going on. "Do you want your boy friend to do it for you? I can show him how if you want." asked Kyle. "Yes, that would be so cool." answered Ben Kyle showed Justin how to clip all the hair and then shave the whole pubic area. By the time he was done Ben was harder than he had ever been. Justin was kneeling in front of Ben and just couldn't resist giving Ben's beautiful dick a kiss. He leaned in and wrapped his lip around the head of Bens dick and gave it a kiss. It was too much for Ben and he shot off filling Justin's mouth with his hot cum. Although Justin was surprised he knew Ben had not intended to do that so he just swallowed all of it and then stood up and kissed Ben on the lips. "Well I guess that will teach me to not kiss you there unless I want a mouth full." giggle, giggle, said Justin. "Oh God I am so sorry Justin," said Ben almost in tears. "Why I started it your dick just looked so good I had to kiss it. Ricky is right is isn't bad at all in fact I liked the taste of your cum. So please don't feel bad or you are going to make me feel bad for doing it for you." All boys climbed into the bed. After they were settled Justin whispered softly "guys I don't want to do anything tonight, my thing isn't working yet. I hope it is ok with you Kyle I know how you like to do it every night." "Hey bro not a problem, if I can't stand it I'll go use the bathroom." "Not on your life, this is your bed and I don't want to stop from doing what you usually do, we are going to be sharing this bed for a while and I want you to be free to do what ever you want." "Are you sure?" "Yes" "Ok you guys kiss and I take care of little Kyle." Justin elbowed Kyle in the ribs and giggled "little sure is the best description for that poor excuse of a male appendage." Kyle reached over and began to tickle Justin and Ben couldn't resist joining in. Soon all three boy were in a tickling frenzy. Just then the bedroom door opened and a deep voice said, "I think that is about enough for tonight." and then the door closed again. "BUSTED" all three boys whispered. Justin and Ben wrapped their bodies together and began to gently kiss, Kyle moved to the far side of the bed and took care of his problem. Once finished he cleaned himself up and was soon snoring. "Do you need to get off tonight?" asked Justin of Ben. "Nah, I just want to hold you in my arms all night. Five minutes later all three boys were asleep. On Friday Justin stayed inside of the house, and rested waiting for Kyle and Ben to get home. Just after lunch Kim Preston stopped by to let him know that his father had appeared in court that morning and pleaded guilty to double assault and child abuse, as well as resisting arrest charges. The judge accepted his guilty plea and will sentence next month. But until then he has to stay in jail so he will not be free for a long time. I think he might get as much as ten to fifteen years. "There is one other thing I would like to ask you about. You know that Kyle stillattends the abuse group as well as Jamie, I would like you to go as well. I know you weren't actually sexually assaulted but it was very close to it what with your injuries. Jimbo runs a good group and nothing said there goes beyond the room, I think being there might help you to deal with all the issues that you have with what has happened to you." "I'll talk to Kyle and let you know on Monday." "Justin, if there is anything that I can do for you just call." "I'm ok really, Don and Peg are great and have always treated me as if I was their own son, and my mom is changing and I hope someday to live with her again." said Justin. Kim gave Justin a hug as she stood to leave, she could feel Justin's involuntary shaking. As she drove away she thought what kind of monster Phillip Blake must be to hurt such a wonderful boy like Justin, so much that when some one like her went to give him a hug he shook in fear involuntarily. On Saturday afternoon the three friends were throwing a football around in Kyle's backyard, when they saw Jamie pull his car around to his back yard to give it, it's weekly cleaning. Justin was standing where he could see everything that Jamie did, after a while he called to his friends and said, "let's take a break, I'm tired and thirsty." "Me too," both of his friends answered. With that the three boys trudged into the house and raided the fridg for drinks. "I was watching Jamie while we were throwing the ball and he keep looking over at you and then he would get a real sad look on his face and turn away. What's up with that?" asked Justin. "I guess it just reminded him of all the times we used to throw the football together. I know what he did to me was wrong, but I think he has suffered a lot more than me. I heard that word got out at the highschool about the upcoming trial and now the other kids shun him as if he were a leaper. He used to have friends over at his house all the time. But now I never see anyone there and I don't think he has a girlfriend anymore either. I never see him go anywhere except school and work. I wish I could talk to him outside of the group but he would get in more trouble if he did that. This may sound weird but I still love him as if he was my real big brother. From going to the abuse survivor group I have learned that for some people they have the misguided idea that if you love someone than having sex with them should be ok no matter the age or, sex of the other person. I realize now that Jamie really didn't want to hurt me, he was only trying to take our relationship to a closer level and the only way he knew how to do that was the way his cousin Steven had taught him." "Maybe if I went over and talked to him I could make him feel better. Do you think that would be ok ?" asked Justin. "I think you better ask mom first." answered Kyle. Justin found Peg in the livingroom watching a video with Kyle's sisters Kelly and Kim. "Peg, while we were outback throwing the football I saw Jamie washing his car. He keep looking over at Kyle and then he would get a real sad look on his face. So I was wondering if I stayed in the back yard where Kyle and Ben could see me if I could go over and talk with him for a while. Kyle said that if Jamie would get in trouble if he went over and talked to him. The look on his face is how I'm feeling myself, maybe it would help for us to talk." "I guess it would be ok as long as you stay in the back yard where I can see you." Just then Peg called Kyle in for a phone call. "Hello, this is Kyle." "Hey Kyle this is Brenden do you remember me from the sports store where you got your speedo's." "Of course I remember are you in town?" "No, but I will be next weekend and was wondering if you guys wanted to hang out." "Yea, we would love that. When are you getting here and where are you staying?" "I am coming down on Friday afternoon and I will get a motel somewhere." "Hold on a minute I need to talk to my parents." said Kyle "Mom that is Brenden from the store where we got our speedo's he is coming to town next weekend can he stay here my bed is big enough to sleep four please mom." "Oh, well what is one more boy, sure tell his he is welcome." "Brenden guess what my mom says you can stay here." "Are you sure, I wasn't hinting at that." "I know only thing you will have to share a king size bed with the three of us." Brenden got an instant erection at just the thought of sleeping in the same bed with those three hot boys. Kyle went on to update Brenden on all that had happened including about Jamie and his fun with Ricky and the shaving of their pubes. Justin walked back into the kitchen and told Ben and Kyle that he was going over to talk with Jamie for a while. "We will come out and toss the football some more if that is ok with you." said Ben Jamie looked up from cleaning his chrome wheels and saw Justin walking across his backyard, "Justin, I'm not supposed to be close to be in contact with boys your age. If Peg or Don sees me with you I could be in real trouble, so you better go back to Kyle's yard." "It's ok Peg said I could talk with you as long I stay where she can see me. I told her that I thought it might help both of us if we could talk." "What about?" "I saw you looking at Kyle while we were playing and I saw how your face keep getting a sad look. I'm not sure but, I think I sort of know how you feel. I think maybe you feel like I do. I know how sorry you are for what happened with Kyle and I think you miss being with him as much as he misses being with you. You had something real bad happen to you, some of it was your fault, but from what Kyle has told me most of it wasn't. Your life has been ripped from you, and it will never be same. Even though you are surrounded by people who love you, you feel all alone. Anyway that's kind of how I feel. I just thought maybe if we talked it could help us both. I'm sorry I bothered you. Bey." Jamie stood with his hands clenched at his side wanting so bad to be able to talk with Justin but at the same time too afraid to try to help himself or Justin. He suddenly turned and marched back inside his home. Slamming the door as he entered the house he stormed through the house to his room. His mom, Marie, knew something had to be wrong, and followed him down the hall towards his bedroom. Knocking on his door she asked, "Jamie, honey what's wrong, may I come in?" There was no answer, but she could hear her son crying in his bedroom. Marie stood outside the door and quietly tried the knob to see if the door was locked. She was able to turn the knob, but hesitated knowing that Jamie insisted that his room could only be entered when the door was closed with permission. She and Bill, her husband, had long since remove any obvious objects that Jamie might use to harm himself. They had almost lost their son no that long ago and even though he had made a lot of improvements from when he had to be hospitalized, he still remained a shattered remnant of his former self. Marie could still hear her son's muted cries and again gentle knocked and asked, "Jamie please may I come in; please tell me what's wrong; what happened?" "Leave me alone!" came the angry reply from within the room. Marie turned and slowly walked back down the hall to the livingroom. She sat on the couch and went into deep though wondering when all her son's pain was going to end. The trial of Steven and his friend was still two months away and she couldn't see how Jamie would survive testifying at it. Suddenly she realized that the phone had been ringing for sometime. "Hello" Peg had watched the whole exchange between Justin and Jamie. She had seen the frustration on Justin's part and the pained expression on Jamie's face, after waiting five minutes for Justin to come inside and explain what had taken place she went outside and asked him. "Justin, what happened when you tried to talk with Jamie?" "He said he couldn't that he would get in trouble, and then when I turned around to come back to your yard he stormed into his house." Peg turned and walked back into the house. As she sat at the breakfast bar she thought there has to be something that I can do to help these to hurting boys. She picked up the phone and dialed. "Hello, Kim this is Peg Russell. I'm fine. The reason I'm calling is a few minutes ago Justin tried to talk with Jamie, yes that Jamie, and he was too afraid to talk with him. After what those two boys have been through, I really think that it would help both of them to be able to talk. Also Don and I have talked and we would like to see the judge's order preventing Jamie from having contact with Kyle outside of the abuse survivors group modified so that they could spend time together as long as a set of parents are supervising them." "As the case worker in both cases, I am going to give permission for Jamie to talk with Justin, as I agree that their sharing may help both of them. And as of right now I will agree to the supervised time for Jamie to spend with Kyle as long as at least one parent is within sight of the boys at all times. I will talk to the family court judge on Monday and see if they agree to change the order, but for this weekend it is ok. I will call and let Jamie's parents know." "Thanks Kim, I sure hope that this helps all of the boys." "Me to, bey." "Hello Marie this is Kim Preston, Jamie's case worker, I just had a call from Peg Russell and she told me that Justin had tried to talk with Jamie, but he refused to talk with him because he was afraid to get in more trouble. She also told me that both she and Don want the court order concerning Jamie and Kyle to be changed, so that they can have contact as long as on parent has them in sight at all times. I have agreed to this and will try to get the judge to change the order on Monday. For this weekend I have given my permission, but one parent must be present at all times. I want to see Jamie helped as much as you do, I think he had suffered greatly for his attack on Kyle and he needs to heal some, before he has to face the trial and those defense attorneys. I'll call you Monday and let you know about how it went with the judge." "Jamie I need to talk with you right now." "Go away, I told you before leave me alone." " I'm sorry son but I can't" and with that she opened Jamie's bedroom door and walked into his room. "That call was from Kim Preston." As soon as she said that Jamie curled up in the fetal position and yelled, "I didn't do anything I didn't touch him." "That not why Kim called. Peg had just called her after she watched the exchange between you and Justin, she asked Kim to allow you to be able to talk with Justin. She and Don have asked for the court order to be changed so that you can spend time with Kyle as long as a parent is present during the time you spend together. Kim has given permission for that to take place this weekend and she is going to see the family court judge on Monday and try to get the order changed. I know you are still hurting but Justin is only fourteen and he is hurting also. Please go out there and try to help him and you might just help yourself at the same time. " Jamie stood and wiped his eye's and then walked out to the back yard. Justin was still throwing the football when Jamie walked up to him. "Justin, I'm sorry about not wanting to talk with you, I was afraid to get in more trouble. But, Kyle's mom called my case worker and I have permission to talk with you and I can spend time with all of you as long as there is either Kyle's or my parents watching. So would you like to still talk?" Justin looked at Jamie, shrugged his shoulder's and said, "yea, if you really want to I guess it would be ok." The two boys walked over to the deck and sat down. Jamie asked Justin to tell him his whole story. Kyle and Ben continued to throw the football until they became to warm, then they went inside and sat at the kitchen bar sipping sodas. Ben watched as his boyfriend told Jamie about all the abuse and injuries that he had sustained. As Jamie listened to Justin's story he wanted to pick Justin up and hold and protect him, but he was afraid to even touch him for fear it would be misinterpreted. "Justin I am so sorry for what you have been through, I would give you a hug, but Peg might not like that." said Jamie. "Well I would like it." said Justin as he stood and hugged Jamie. Kyle saw what was happening and he and Ben rushed out into the yard. Jamie jumped back as if he had been hit with a tazer. But Kyle walked up to Jamie and wrapped his arms around his friend and hugged the pain from Jamie's face. "It is going to be ok Jamie, both for you and Justin." Jamie sat on the grass and cried tears of relief. The four boys all cried and hugged. A new page in the lives of these four boys was turned today, and it was a good page. Well that is all for ch 12 only two more chapters before I start to write new chapters from scratch..I am sure I will take more than a week to do this, but I will try. With the holidays coming it will take longer. So please be patient with me. Merry Christmas to one and all.