This is a story of friendship, commitment, love and trust. It is not a sex story. However, this story deals with love between male teenagers. If you are offended by stories involving love between two teenage boys, please do not read this story. There may be some sex scenes in this story; however, sex is not the main theme. If you are under age 18 or 21 or it is illegal to read this story where you live, don't read it. Reproducing this story for distribution without the owner's permission is a violation of that copyright.
Author's Message: Author's Comment: I appreciate your e-mails. When I started writing this story I had no idea where it would go - there were two boys one called Hawken the othe Alex. It went no where for over a year then as I sometimes do I read over this fragment of a story I wrote six chapters then stopped I only posted five. Why? Because I realized I knew nothing about being blind or blindness but thanks to the help from my friend Drew I decided to actually find out more about blindness and as a result of that have amended chapters 1 through 6. My research including talking with and emailing some gay blind guys have definitely given me more insight and understanding if the character Alex Ambrose. The story continues and my hope is that chapters 7, 8 and onwards you the reader gain a better understanding of blindness and prehaps more compassion for those individuals who are visually impaired be they gay straight or bi.
by Sam Lakes
"Gotcha!" he laughed and got off of me.
It was good that he hadn't
seen my face because he would have known the
"Hey! I'm not the one that was popping a boner!" He laughed.
We got ready for bed and about
3:30am I turned of the light. It was only
"I just wanted to thank you."
"The best day of my life. Good night."
I lay there for another fifteen
minutes and as I started to drift of to
The next day I woke at 9:30.
Alex was still sleeping in his bed. I watched
I recorder the script on tape
while Alex took his shower. He'd listen to
"Hawk, I would do that part like your doing it. It sounds to artificial."
"How would you do it? Come on show me."
"I'm not an actor."
"You could be."
"You think so, me being blind and all?"
"Yeah. I do. So, come on then, give it a go, mate."
So, he did. You know I really,
really wanted this part because it was a
"Hawk? You okay?" Hawk?"
"I'm fine Alex. Give me
a few minutes I'll be right back." I left and went
"Honey. What's up?"
"I'm just trying to figure
some things out. Feelings and stuff and what's
"In regards to Alex?"
"Yes, no, yes...maybe."
"Well, that's a decisive answer," she mused.
I sighed. "I really wanted
that part. I know I could get it! It would be
"I do believe I heard that before. Like from you and Jack."
"Yeah, I know."
"It's not my part the part belongs to Alex."
"Yes, he brings it to life, Mom. Wait!"
I after a little persuasion
I had Alex repeat his performance. Mom was
"Hawk, you're not thinking what I think you are thinking?"
"I finkso, Alex but where
are we going to find a duck and a hose at this
"Hawk, I can't."
"Yes, you can! This part
is yours! I could practice from now until the end
"Alex you were fantastic.
I'm a little disappointed that Hawk isn't going
The rest of the day I spent
coaching Alex then after dinner I persuaded him
Funny how just telling him
how much I loved him made me relax.
"Alex wake up."
"Huh? What?" he asked groggily.
"Let go for a run. It's a beautiful day."
"You'll have to guide me."
"Cool," I said as I tugged on his arm.
"I don't have any running shorts," he complained.
"I have an extra pair.
Don't argue with me dude resistance is futile!" I
We walked to the park with
Alex bitching and whining the whole way. He is
"I suppose," he replied.
I took both his hands up and placed them on my
"This is a face you can
trust. I'm not going to let you fall or do anything
He blushed and muttered yes. I took his left and in my right.
"We can't do it like that.
I'll hold you here," he said as he took hold of
It took only a minute or so
for us to get used to each other. We were doing
"Faggots." I abruptly
stopped and had to catch Alex to keep him from
"Hawk, forget it."
"No, he has no right to say that to us! Just wait here."
I ran up and grabbed the back
of the guy shirt, "You! Asshole, homophobe!
"I don't owe you pooftas anything."
"He ain't a poofta, he's
blind. We have to run like that so he does go
Alex and I continued on our
run. We ran on in silence. I hate guys like
"How are you doing?" I asked.
"Good. I-I can't believe
this. It's been a while - most people I
"You want to take a breather yet?"
"Yeah, I'm getting a bit knackered."
We stopped and sat down for
a bit neither talking. I guess for once I kept
"I would have never had
the balls to do what you did earlier with that
"It sort of pissed me
off him making that assumption. I hate people like
"Bloody rude! I mean even if someone is gay, it's not right."
We sat in silence for a few moments.
"You haven't always been blind have you?"
His hands reached towards my
face and he gently felt my face, his fingers
We were in good spirits when
we got back to the hotel. Mom said that Jack
My emotions got the better
of me and the tears started rolling down my
"Hawk? Are you there?"
"Hawk, I know you're there.
Please tell me what's wrong."
He gave me a 'yeah right!' look but didn't say anything.
The trip to Lingfield I was
my old self, meaning I was back to joking
"You've changed," said Alex.
"Oh, yes and you should see me when zee moon ist full," I joked.
Mom came back and we went quite.
Mr. Ambrose arrived and drove us to their
I was getting so depressed
thinking about the inevitable that I really
Alex was sitting on his bed
in his boxers and a t-shirt as I walked in. I
"You hate me, don't you?
You figured it out and now you hate me," he said
"What? No! No!" I
said as I saw tears pouring from his eyes. I rushed to
"But you haven't really
talked to be since the park. And then...Why?"
"Hawk, talk to me."
I was crying too hard to speak.
Hey if you like Sci-fi I have a story going on over there too. ;-) Sam.