Date: Mon, 2 Aug 2004 09:03:19 -0700 (PDT) From: JMH Subject: Circle the Noun Chapter 10 Well folks I hope you enjoy this next chapter. ******************************************* After that all Greg heard was moans and groans coming from the bathroom. Well after he shot his load and cleaned himself up he heard he could tell the two of them were still at it. Then just as their moans were reaching fever pitch they went silent. Five minutes later Greg heard a knock on his door. "You decent?" Nathan's voice called out. "Yes... are you?" Greg laughed. "Uhmmm... we left our clothes in your room." "Well then come out and get them," Greg insisted. He wanted to see what the two looked like after sex. Nathan opened the bathroom door, looking a little embarrassed. Seeing them on the floor he rushed over to pick them up. Philip on the other hand walked out beaming and proud over to the bed where he sat next to Greg. With Philip so close and naked, he could not take his eyes off the eight inches of meat that lay between Philip's legs. He tried to imagine how much Nathan was able to take into his mouth. "I was just teaching your bro the art of nipple sucking," Philip said smugly. "Nipple sucking- I thought the two of you were..." Greg said surprised. "Sucking each other's dicks. Well I sucked Nate off but he just gave me a hand job. We are taking things one thing at a time." "Man... and here I was thinking Nathan was a natural in giving head." "Well he will be when I am done with him... my nipples was to give him practice," Philip chuckled. "Why are ya'll talking about me as if I'm not in the room," Nathan complained as he put his underwear back on. "We still know that you are here," Philip grinned. "We are just giving you a professional analysis," Greg said getting into it. "And?" Nathan asked as he started to put on his shirt. "Well keep that shirt off, get in bed with us and we'll tell you." Philip winked. "Ok..." Nathan replied. "Where do you want me?" "In the middle of course... right Greg?" Philip asked. "Uhhh... sure," Greg replied nervously. "Ok..." Nathan agreed as he gingerly made his way up the middle of the bed. As soon as he was up to where the pillow were, Philip grabbed Nathan around the waist turning him on his side so Nathan butt was spooned against his groin. "Come on Greg... I gave you his front. Why don't you take a hold of it?" "I can't... he's like... well like my brother." "Then hug him like one. It'll do you a world of good." "Is that ok Nathan?" "Sure Greg," Nathan tried to say without sounding nervous. Greg snuggled up closer to Nathan until his head rested on his chest. Philip then took Greg's hands and brought them over till they were wrapped around Philip's ass. Greg then felt Nathan wrap his arms around Greg's back, holding him close. So close to Nathan, his face against Nate's firm chest, Greg could not help but kiss the tanned, smooth skin. "Nathan..." Greg sighed as tears feel from his eyes. "Yes Greg," Nathan asked as he stroke the back of Greg's head. "Don't leave me," Greg whimpered. "Why would you think that?" "You are going to go to college soon. You can go anywhere you want. Me... I'll always be stuck in a low end job." "No... you're going to become an artist," Nathan insisted. "Well even if dad lets me go to art school, there is no guarantee that I will be a success." "I'm sure you will and even if your dad won't pay for it I know mine will." "Yes... your dad has always been supportive." "That's cause he loves you as a son." "And I love him like a father. I just wished our dads were still together." "I know. Greg, I have thought it over and I only see one option available. You are going to have to chose who you want to live with." "What do you mean?" "You will be turning 18 soon. After that, you can live with anyone you want." "You want me to leave my dad," Greg said surprised. "No..." Nathan quickly said to comfort Greg. "I just want you to know that you have a choice. You sometimes don't realize that." "So what do you want me to do?" "That's just it Greg, I don't want to tell you what to do. You need to decide on your own. If staying with your dad is most important to you ...do that. If living with my dad is more important to you then you should not let your fear stop you from making that choice." "I know but I can't decide right now." "That's ok." "Well now that that is out of the way we can talk about what all of us are going to do," Philip said after a moment of silence. "What is that?" Greg asked curiously. "Well as Nate's "brother" I think you need to know that I plan on dating him if not one day marrying the guy." "Really!" Nathan said surprised. "Oh you have no idea babe," Philip said as he planted light kisses on the back of Nathan's neck. "So it looks like I better get used to having you as a brother in law," Greg giggled. "Yep... which brings up another issue... what to do about David." "Oh man... yeah, he has a major crush on you Nathan. What are you going to do?" "I don't know," Nathan sighed. "Well Nate you might not like what I have to suggest but I want you to give David a chance," Philip said in an insistent tone. "What!" Both Greg and Nathan said surprised. "I know...everything should be fair in love and war but I feel bad for the guy." "I feel bad for David too but I want to know why you feel bad." "Because Nate I have been watching you for some time and in doing so I have seen how David looks at you. He really loves you." "And you don't?" "I love you more then anyone in my life Nate. I just feel guilty. The only reason you are with me is that I came on to you first. If David had come clean with his feeling just a few days before me it would be him holding you right now. His leaving home just made me feel worse." "But you did come on to me first. You have helped me see something that has been missing in my life and I'm not talking about sex." "Well besides my charm what else?" "Love silly... a different kind of love. Not that which I feel from my dad and Greg but a lover's love." "Ohhhh I like that. Keep on calling me lover and I might not let you go see David so easily." "Then why do you want me to go out with him?" "Because I want to know you are with me of your own free will." "But I am." "Nate... why are you making this so hard?" "Because I want to understand." "Ok... I'm a slut. I love you Nate but when I see a cute guy I just have to have him. I'm only 18... so many dicks are still out there." "Then why are you with me?" Nathan said as he turned around to face Philip. "Because when all is said and done, you are the person I want to end up with." "Then why didn't you wait until you were ready to settle down before making a move on me?" "..." Philip remained silent. "David... you were afraid of David," Nathan finally realized. "Yes..." "Now I see why you feel guilty," Nathan said shocked. "I will understand if you don't want anything to do with me," Philip said as he got off the bed, tears stinging his eyes. In any normal situation a person in Nathan's situation would be mad but Nathan was not normal. He was the son of Josh Harper, a man who loved Robert, one of the biggest players in town during his heyday. Nathan knew that during his father's early relationship with Robert that Robert had slept with other men while still emotionally bonded to Josh. It had been Robert's fooling around that had led to their break up because Robert, just like Philip, didn't feel he deserved the person they loved. "Philip you have to do what you need to do. There is someone I want you to talk to before you make a final decision though. Greg we need to go. Will you be ok?" "Yes... I think I know what you are going to do and you are right to do it," Greg said as Nathan and Philip started getting dressed. "Thanks Greg... want me to come over after school?" "Yes please. If the only person here for me to talk to is Emily I think I'll go nuts." "Sure," Nathan said as he gave Greg a parting hug. "So where are we off to?" Philip asked as they headed down the stairs. "To see my uncle Robert. The two of you have a lot in common." ************************************************************ Robert and Josh camped themselves in the living room, snuggled on the couch as they always seemed to do even when they were apart. The first to come home was Mike. On seeing the two on the couch he could not help but grin. He also took the time to apologize to Robert and Josh for telling Robert to stop his pursuit of Josh. It had been a mistake, which had hurt everybody. Both Josh and Robert forgave him easily. It was hard to be mad at Mike when Josh and Robert had already made love three times today. Mike then told them about his talk with David which came to a big surprise to them both, as they had not known of David's leaving. Mike eyed Josh when he told him that David loved his son. "Mike... I never wanted that for my son, but if David feels that strongly about it I won't stand in his way." "Good then I won't have to kick your ass," Mike half joked. After that the three of them settled down until Patrick came home. As soon as Mike made eye contact with him, he excused himself and followed Patrick up the stairs to their bedroom. "I think we will need to get their room sound proofed," Robert sighed when the shouting started. "They enjoy making a scene," Nathan chuckled. "I know... you would think that they would have grown up by now." "Well you are the "older man,"" Nathan grinned. Robert was 48 to Nathan's near 40 and Mike and Patrick's 42. "And you like having an older man," Robert said, as he held tighter on to Josh. "Nope... I just like having you." With that the two of them began some serious kissing and petting. By the time the front door opened again, both were shirtless and pants unbuckled. As the two men turned their faces toward the main hall, they saw Nathan and Philip enter the room. "Hey Nate," Josh blushed as he tried to zip himself back up. "Hey Dad," Nathan replied, turning as red as his father. "Oh come on you two... nothing for us men to get embarrassed about," Robert said as he turned Josh's head to face him before planting his lips on him. "Robert!" Josh panicked when he was able to speak. "Josh... I'm your lover and your son is a man. There should be nothing wrong with him seeing us make out." Philip, liking Robert's personality took a shocked Nathan and pulled him into his own passionate kiss. "See... nothing wrong with a little kissing." "Dad... I would like you to meet my friend... Philip," Nathan blushed. "A boyfriend!" Both Robert and Josh shouted at the same time. "Not a boyfriend... not yet at least," Nathan corrected. "Well let me welcome you to the family then... potential boyfriend," Robert said as he got up, walked over to Philip and gave him a bear hug. "Uncle Robert, can we talk with you in private?" Nathan asked after his uncle let go of Philip. "Sure... lets go over to the study," Robert agreed after seeing the look Nathan gave him. "I guess they want another sex talk," Robert grinned at Josh before leading the two boys away. "Ok... I better get started on dinner." "No... let the boys do that. I think Mike and Patrick will want to go out and I know I want to take you out for dinner. Dan is also working the night shift. Why should you cook just for Nathan and Philip?" "Ok," Josh agreed. "I better get myself cleaned up then." "No you should not... I plan to get you dirty before the night is done." "Ohhhhh.... A surprise!" "Yep... now if you can excuse me beloved, I have to go teach the youngsters," Robert excused himself. He took Nathan and Philip down a long hallway lined with doors, on each one was a person's name as if it were an office building. "Welcome to the "cave"," Nathan laughed. "The "cave"?" Philip asked confused. "Well with all of us trying to live under one roof things can get a little tense. These are the adults' private spaces where they can go to be alone." "It was not part of the original house but after everyone moved in here I talked Josh into building it. I have to say it was one of my better ideas. Kept the peace at least." Near the end of the hall was Robert's sanctuary. In it was a futon, several full wall bookcases filled with videos, a leather chair with ottoman that faced a plasma television and a writing desk. "Welcome to my sanctuary," Robert said as he went right for the leather chair. "Oh man..." Philip said amazed, as he looked at all the titles lining the shelves. "You could open your own porn video store." "Well that is sort of what I did. The city changed its zoning rules forcing my favorite store to close. As they could not afford to move they agreed to sell me their entire gay collection." "Man... can I borrow some of these. I can play them on my computer." "Well... it would not be right of me to add to the corruption of a minor," Robert sighed. "I've already 18." "Then go ahead and pick out three of them," Robert grinned. This took some time, as Philip wanted his three picks to be good ones. When he was down to his last choice Robert reached over and pick out an old looking video. "Here... watch this one." "What is it?" Philip asked, as the cover was blank. "Safe sex video." "Why would I need to see one of those. Most of these videos show men wearing them." "Yeah but in this video the condom does not magically pop on. It also shows how to prepare someone for their first anal penetration, controlling the gag reflex, and giving enemas." "Ok..." "I know the two of you must have already fooled around but I want ya'll to be safe." "That is why we wanted to talk with you." "Ok, but lets go someplace more comfortable," Robert said as he turned and pulled a ring on one of the shelves. The bookcase moved to show a small passage that led to the back of a door. Robert turned the handle and the door, which was also disguised as a bookshelf led to another room. "This is dad's room!" Nathan said surprised. "I've only been in here once but it looks exactly how I remember it." "Yep..." Josh tends not to change things often. "Are all the room connected like this?" Philip asked. "No... only Josh and mine." Robert smiled. "Josh didn't even know I added this passage to the blueprints until I surprised him one day in sneaking into his room. That day was the closest he got to cheating on Andrew. He had been staying in his private room a lot for a while. I just wanted to see if anything was wrong between him and Andrew. It turned out that he was hiding from me," Robert said as if the words hurt him to say. "What do you mean, uncle?" "Josh wanted to have sex with me again. He thought that his feelings for me would change but they remained just as strong. When he saw me entering his office he broke down and cried and confessed." "So the two of you made love right then and there." `No, as I said it was the only time Josh almost cheated on Andrew. I wanted to take away Josh's pain and make love to him but I knew that after we did so Josh would have been filled with guilt and I didn't want that. Instead I took him over to my room, undressed him, and snuggled up to him on the futon. For three nights we slept together in my office without making love. After that, your dad was in a better frame of mind and was able to go back to sleeping with Andrew." "Uncle Robert, does that happen often to my dad... get depressed that is?" Nathan asked out of concern. "Not too often but yes, your dad has a history with depression. It's nothing to worry about." "But I do worry." "Yes and your dad knows that. That is probably why he would not be too happy with me in bring it up." "I wish he would talk about it." "He does... with me," Robert said as he hugged Nathan. "I'm glad he has you... dad," Nathan finally got the courage to say. Robert broke down into tears, holding ever tighter to Nathan. "I have always thought of you as my son Nate. You don't know how long I have wanted you to call me dad." "When you first came over for Thanksgiving," Nathan smiled, tears running down his own eyes. "So you do know," Robert chuckled. "When you found me in bed with your father you asked me if I was a mommy or a daddy. You rubbed the rough of my face and decided that I was another daddy," Robert remembered. "And I told you that dads were more fun," Nathan laughed while tears still ran down his face. "Well I can say that I am," Robert agreed. "Can you say it again?" "Yes dad." Nathan replied. "Ohhhh you smart ass. I should put you over my lap and spank you one." "Really daddy?" Nathan replied in a childish voice. "No... you know I would never do that," Robert said before letting go of Nathan. "I know dad." "So what are you going to call your real dad then?" Philip spoke up. All this family stuff was getting to him and not in a good way. It just showed him how much love had been missing from his real family. "I'll still call my father dad as well." "Won't that confuse everyone?" "I don't mind," Robert replied. "As long as he doesn't call me father." Why not father?" "Well that's because it is what I called Andrew," Nathan said guilty. "Yeah... and I'm no Andrew," Robert snickered. "Ok Nate... why did you want me to meet your new dad?" Philip said a little impatiently and in hope of changing the topic. "Yeah... what is it you needed me for," Robert said, noticing Philip's annoyance. "Well I thought that Philip and you should talk to each other as you two have some similar issues." "Well take a seat and we can talk about it," Robert said at the round table surrounded by chairs. "I never understood why dad had all these chairs in here if this was to be his private place." "Well that's cause this was the place where the family meetings were held. Rules, punishments, purchases were all made form this room," Robert explained. "Why dad's room?" Josh asked. "Well think about it. You dad might come off as a shy and sometimes timid guy but he was the one who controls this family with an iron fist." "The money?" Nathan asked. "No... not because of the money even though he does pay all the utility and food bills. He only does that because he would feel uncomfortable collecting rent from everyone. No... the reason why we all follow Josh is because he is the only person they all feel they have something in common with. We all love him. Andrew and me have been his lovers. Mike is his best college buddy. Patrick is his half brother. Dan... well Dan loves Josh because he loved seeing Josh and I circle around each other failing badly at hiding our feelings. Your dad was the love that bound us all together." "Can we get back to the issue at hand?" Philip whined. "Sure what's up?" "Well..." Nathan began. Nathan went through all of Philip's recent history. His relationship with Trevor, his being kicked out by his family and his wanting to be with Nathan but also wanting to be able to sleep with other guys as well. After Robert listened to all Nathan said he asked him to go back to his office and wait. Once the bookcase was closed on his end Robert turned his attention on Philip. "You are making a mistake. You don't try to start a relationship with someone with the intention of keeping him if you plan on still sleeping around." "I want Nate. I love him. I just..." "You just don't like the idea of giving up any other sexual relationship so early in your life," Robert finished for Philip. "Yes... how did you know?" "Cause I felt the same way as a 34 year old man about Nate's father. You see it is not a matter of age. Giving up on the possibility sex or more happiness does not get any easier with time." "But when I see a hot guy I just want to..." "You want to fuck him, regardless of the fact that you don't feel any love for him. You might be gay but you're no different they any other guy. The need to mate with as many people as possible is part of our psyche. While we men have natural instincts to fuck, we also have a need to love and be loved." "I love Nate." "I can tell you do but you still want other men. You ARE a lot like I used to be. You don't have any family left. You have a sex drive that lets your dick do some of your critical thinking. You are also in love... and it scares you." "Yes..." Philip admitted. "Well now that you know I have a good idea what kind of person you are, let me tell you some things about Nathan. Where you are a lot like me, Nathan is a lot like his father. He is reserved to a fault. He always thinks of others even at times when he should be worried about himself. He is kind and loving but has a woman's sex drive." "Hahahaha... what do you mean?" "I mean that for Nathan and Josh it is not the physical act of lovemaking that is important to them but the emotions that sex brings out. Unlike you and I, Josh and Nathan, will never go through a slutty period. They will only sleep with people they feel emotionally connected with. "What are you saying?" "What I am saying is that Nathan has feelings for you. He would not have let you so close to him and brought you to me if he wasn't falling in love with you." "Damn..." "So... you want Nathan to go see if dating David is a possibility so you won't feel so bad cheating on him." "Well I thought that if we agreed to have an open relationship that it would be ok," Philip quickly defended himself. "Ok for you," Robert admonished. "Do you think that David will just be a side attraction for Nate while you get your act together. David loves Nathan. Unlike you David has loved Nathan almost his whole life. Nathan, though, is just coming to terms with the reality of his sexuality. Until a week ago the idea that he and David could have a more intimate relationship never crossed his mind." "I know." "Maybe... but let me tell you something. If you give Nathan the go ahead to see David then don't be surprised if Nathan stays with him after you decide you are ready for a serious relationship." "Then what should I do... become practically celibate?" "No... you becoming resentful won't help endear yourself to Nathan. What you need to do is reach an agreement with David." "What do you mean?" "He is an attractive guy, you are an attractive guy. If you are interested in a little variety why not keep it in the family." "You want me to seduce David?" "Well I don't know how much real seducing you would have to do but getting on his good side would be very good for you both. What are your feelings toward David?" "I don't know. I don't think he likes me very much." "Well he knows you are a rival for Nate.... But if you can get him to see that both of you can take care of and love Nathan in a partnership things can work out." "I don't see how that is possible." "I'm not saying that it will be easy. It did not work with Andrew and me but then again Andrew disliked me from the beginning. It would have been great if the two of us could have kept on both loving Josh but I guess it was doomed from the start." "Why?" "Josh and I... we have a connection that runs very deep between us. It was something that Andrew could not share in," Robert said sadly. "What was that?" "We were both orphans and during the short period in our childhoods that we were together I became his family and he became mine. It was to me that he would tell how he did in school. It was to him that I told my wins and losses in football. After we lost contact with each other he still remained the person I worked hard in the army and college for. I wanted to make him proud. When we found each other again all those old feelings came back." "True love..." Philip said as if he could not believe it. "Yes... true love. It had to be that or else Josh would not have put up with all my shit. That is why I worry about you and Nathan. Nathan might be falling in love with you but I don' t think it is the same as Josh and me have. You two have no shared history." "David does," Philip realized. "Yes he does." "So when I told Nate to go out on a date with David..." "You were really telling Nate you want him to dump you." "I thought..." "You thought that all Nate would do was have some fun while you did the same... you were wrong." "Then I'll tell Nate not to date David." "I think it is too late for that. Nate now knows how David feels about him. Nate will give David his chance one way or another. In this way you are more like Andrew. If you want to keep Nate it will be because you are able to accept David as part of Nathan's life without becoming bitter." "I should have never told him to date David," Philip said in frustration. "Philip... it was not you telling him to date David that set this up. It was you just getting close to Nate. David, on seeing your effect on Nathan was finally forced to act on his feelings. This led him to leave home... something so drastic as to get Nathan's attention." "So there was no way I could have gotten close to Nate..." "Without Nathan realizing that there was another person who really cared for him. I'm sorry Philip, but that is just the fact of the situation. You can try to see if keeping Nate away from David works, you can give up and find another man to be in love with, or you can find a way for all three of you to be able to live together. The last way is the hardest but I think will be the only way you will have any future with Nate." "You want Nate to be with David," Philip realized. "Yes... I do. I've watched the boy I help raise come to realize that his older brother feelings for Nate were really something more. David loves Nathan and I know he will treat Nathan right. Josh had hoped another person would fall in love with his son but even he can't deny that David's feelings are genuine. So yes, being a romantic and a parent, I want Nathan and David together." "Then why are you trying to help me?" "Because I think you deserve a chance at happiness. I don't know if you will be good for Nate but I do know that Nate would be good for most men and woman even." "He wants to have kids," Philip pouted. "Can't you blame him? He loves his dad. Having a dad like Josh has made Nathan a little obsessed with the idea of parenthood. His dad is his hero and like most kids he dreams of becoming just like him." "But to have kids..." "He thinks he needs a woman." "Doesn't he?" Philip asked. "There are surrogate mothers and adoptions but yes... Nathan does not see that as an option yet. Even living here he still as the mindset that the perfect family takes a man and a woman. I'm hoping that you and David can teach him otherwise." "I'll try." "I know you will. Why don't you go back to my office and ask Nathan to come in here. You can put on one of the porno video's you selected while we talk." "I don't think I should watch a porno. I feel a little stressed out." "That is exactly why I recommend it. Nothing like a good jerk off to relax the body." "Ok... thanks Robert." "No problem kiddo." ******************************************************** Well folks I got some good new... just had a story appoved for publishing in an e-zine. When it is all set up I will give you more details. Till then... take care. JMH trandar2004@yahoo.com http://groups.yahoo.com/group/adultwritingworkshop/