Date: Tue, 4 Aug 2009 12:24:26 -0400
From: K J <writenowin@gmail.com>
Subject: Finding Another Like Me: Chapter 9

This story is fiction.  Any similarity to any persons living or dead is
merely a coincidence.  If you are not allowed by law to view this material,
please do not do so. If you are under 18 years of age, please leave now.
This is a love story between two barely under the age of 18 year old boys
in high school.  If that offends you, I apologize and ask that you not read
any further.  Otherwise, enjoy.

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey guys. I know this is a wicked quick update, because once
I started writing this chapter it came so easy. Once again I want to thank
my proof reader for he is a great help! So enjoy and writenowin@gmail.com

Chapter 9

I felt his hand grab mine as we drove down the highway. The windows were
slightly open so I felt the breeze on my hair and I looked over to see him
smiling.

"I could do this every night! Drive down the highway with my babe in the
passenger seat and the country music rocking." Chris howled and laughed.

I couldn't help myself but join in on his laughing. "I told you'd enjoy
country music big guy."

"I love it and definitely enjoying the idea of relaxing with a beer tonight
and playing it."

"Hmm." I replied. We were on the way to a party with all his friends, at
this Ben's beach house. "I don't think I am going to drink tonight."

"Why hun?" He gave me the said face.

I laughed. "Well for one we need a sober person to drive home..."

"But like I said we can just stay down there for the night..."

"But I don't want to. I'd rather you all to myself in your bed tonight!" I
smirked.

"Hmmm...well in that case maybe I won't drink either, so I can remember it
all."

"No! Don't do that you been dying to relax and have a beer with your buds
all week. I know because you told me. Football training has been wicked
tough on you. Party and enjoy yourself tonight. I'll be the responsible one
for the night."

"Yeah alright, but I'm not getting drunk maybe just a few. Football has
been stressful. The new coach is crazy and now he wants me...." He broke
off.

"He wants you to...what?" I asked questionably.

He was silent and then said, "Nothing forget it. We're here!" He pulled up
next to a small cottage with a beach on the back drop. I wanted to pursue
the conversation more, but he popped out of the car. I dropped it for now.

We got into the party and we saw all his friends. Ben was there with his
girlfriend Deb, who instantly started up a conversation with me. I turned
my back for a few seconds and lost Chris in the crowd of people. After a
little while I started to walk around and run into a few others of Chris'
friends. A few of them looked happy to see me and others just seemed to not
like the fact that I was there.

I couldn't tell if it was a rival town issue or the fact that I have been
hanging out with Chris a ton and they were jealous. I swear I heard some
girl call me a "fag that clings all over Chris." I was very tempted to tell
that bitch where to shove it but decided not to.

Eventually I found Chris at the keg and downing beers like crazy. I walked
over to him to see he how he'd become in the last half hour or so since I
had lost him. "Hey tank how you doing?"

"I'm great! Never been better!" Chris yelled as he slowly stumbled up from
his seat.

"Wow buddy relax." I said grabbing in so he didn't tip over. "How many have
you already have had?"

"Like five!" He screamed.

"Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Dude relax a little on them. We're here for a while. You
don't have to get your fill of them now. Weren't you just telling me in the
car you didn't want to drink a lot tonight?"

"Hey bro lay off the kid a little. Football has been stressful this week!"
A kid in a football jersey behind me yelled.

I heaved Chris back into his chair and turned to face the kid. I realized
there was no reason to fight, so I just said, "Yeah whatever" and then
walked away.

I'll let him have a night to himself. It does sound like football camp had
been tough for him. I don't know why he likes it so much but he does and I
just had to support him. I went and found Deb and we began another
conversation. We ended up hanging out for the next few hours with Ben
stopping in one or twice too.

Once it was about 11:30 I decided I should probably go find Chris so we
could head back to his house soon. I walked around the entire party, until
I saw him drunkenly sitting next to the girl I had heard call me a fag
earlier. She had blonde hair and was really pretty. She looked in great
shape and the captain of the cheerleader type of person. She saw me coming
and turned towards me.

"What do you want fag boy?" She said in a low hiss.

"Excuse me?" I replied. I was trying to give her a chance to rephrase
herself.

"Exactly what I said. What do you want fag boy? What are you coming over
here to talk to my boyfriend? He doesn't need you to talk to him. Actually
he doesn't even need you in his life. Since you came into all you did was
fuck it up."

"What the hell did you say?" I could not believe this was happening right
now with Chris sitting right there just staring mindlessly at me. He was
drunk but he still should have said something.

"I just basically told you to get out of here and don't talk to Chris ever
again. Got it?"

"Nah I don't got it. Who do you think you are anyways?"

"I know I am his girlfriend. I know I'm the girl he is in love with, not
some all guy school fag. Don't you have enough guys at your school to hit
on? Do you really need to come to ours?"

I laughed right at her. "Oh so your the psycho bitch he dumped! No
wonder... you're crazy. Chris let's go you said you wanted to leave by
12. Time to go." I kept my cool.

"Like I said He's not going anywhere with you tonight. Are you Chris?"

Chris just nodded towards her in a stupid way. She guided him drunkenly up
and towards the house.

"And who are you in love with Christopher?" She asked him leaning in
towards him. "Me?"

He looked straight into her eyes and then stuttered, "I'm in love with
you. And only you." He then leaned in and they started to passionately
kiss.

After about thirty second of standing dead still in my spot I started to
move towards them.

She broke the kiss and stared right at me, "Now its time for you to fuck
off fag boy! Leave!"

She pointed towards two huge guys who started to approach me. They were
definitely jocks and were moving towards me with the arms out. I held my
ground and looked towards Deb and Ben for support. They saw my stare and
they could see the fear, sadness, and humiliation in my eyes.

Deb made a motion towards me. "Don't touch him!" She shouted.

The girl walking with Chris turned around and death glared the girl. "And
what do you think gives you the right to say that? Remember I'm Queen Bee
of this school. What I say goes."

"And this is my boyfriends party and I want..."

"You mean the same boyfriend who's been cheating on you for the last two
months with three girls on my cheerleading squad? That boyfriend?" The girl
said this in a very evil voice.

Deb immediately turned to face Ben in rage forgetting about her defense of
me. The two guys started towards me again but I slipped by them and walked
towards the front of house. I hoped the gate and headed for the parking lot
across the street.

I could not take another second of that party. I saw Chris' car and bolted
towards it and unlocked it with the keys I had already grabbed from him
earlier. I hoped in and turned it on and whipped out of the parking lot. I
drove a little down the road realizing I couldn't drive anymore before it
came. I pulled into the public parking section of the beach and parked the
car. I unbuckled my seat belt and just felt my head fall forward onto my
arms on the steering wheel.

I began to cry. I could not control my emotions anymore. I felt tears roll
down my face as a flash back reel of tonight's events played through my
head again. I saw them kiss. I saw Chris tell her he loved her. I saw him
look blankly at me like he had no clue who I was.

This guys I had just spent almost the last two months of my life with just
acted like that. He had acted like I was some stranger he saw on a street
corner. It hurt me so bad. I felt myself cry and cry and cry.

Hours most have went by as I sat in that car, because once I looked up from
the steering wheel I could see sun slowly rising above the sky line. I had
always loved the sun setting and rising especially on the beach. It always
had had a calming effect on me. I finally moved my stiff body out of the
car and started to slowly walk towards the beach.

To me it didn't even feel like I was the one walking to the beach. it felt
like I was watching someone else walk towards it. Once I got the sand I
slowly sunk down and just sat. I pulled my knees up towards my chest and
embraced them in my arms and just sat. I had no more tears to cry in my
body. My body ached so bad I had cried so hard.

I stayed in that position for so long. I watched the sun finally come
completely above the horizon before I moved. I turned towards my side and
saw that Chris had been sitting beside me. He was staring at me not the
sunset. He had a look of fear in his eyes and a look of sadness.

We just sat there in silence for another few minutes before I spoke. "How
long have you been sitting there?"

"Since the sun was about half way over the horizon. Ben had pointed out to
me that you were down here. I figure we needed to talk I'm so..."

"Why Chris? Just tell me that."

"Why what? Why did I kiss her? Why did I tell her I loved her? Because I
was drunk."

"Is that the same reason you looked at me like I was nobody? Like I didn't
matter to you, but that girl... but to you it looked like that girl
mattered!!!" I felt myself raise my voice and the tears return to my eyes.

"I'm sorry Kyle. I was drunk. She knows how I get when I'm drunk she used
it to try and get back with me, but I don't want her back. I want you!"

"She called me a fag, a bunch of times. She told me I ruined your life." I
grabbed my legs harder as I said these words.

"No baby you didn't at all." He started to reach over to hug me but I
pulled away. "You were the best thing that ever happened to me!"

"Then why didn't you defend me Chris! At least as a friend!"

"I was drunk Kyle!"

"Bullshit! I don't want to hear that lame excuse. You told me you weren't
going to drink that much and you were chugging them! I'm not dealing with
an alcoholic. I'm not. My uncles are! My grandfather was! I'm not, you hear
me!"

"I hear you . I'm sorry!" He started to move towards me again but I once
gain backed away.

"You still haven't told me why you did it?"

"Did what?"

"Drank so much."

He paused. "I was stressed."

"About what?"

"Things..."

"You're not going to tell me?"

"No..."

"Then I'm not doing this Chris. If you can't give me the reason that was
the root of our problems tonight. Then I feel like I can't trust you." I
stared him in the eyes. I was as serious as can be.

He looked straight into my eyes and knew I wasn't budging. "It's about
football..."

"What about football? Does it have to do with the new coach?"

He nodded and then became real serious. "What do you know about steroids?"

I paused for a second to think. Seemed like an odd question. "Not much. I
never really was into sports. You know that so I never really followed all
the steroid stuff. I guess I know they enhance bodily ability, but are also
harmful to your body?"

"True depending upon the dosage, but they can also give players the upper
edge over others..."

"Well I also know they're illegal in sports. Especially at the high school
level. If they ever drug tested ..."

"Well the new coach wants to take that risk. He approached me and a few
others of the seniors and wants us to start taking them. He figures it will
give us the upper hand for college and especially for me it will make me
the best."

"You're already the best. You guys are one of the top teams in the
state. Especially with you. You have been doing it naturally for the past
three years. Are you honestly considering it?"

"Yes..."

"What the fuck! Why?" I started yelling again.

"Because Kyle unlike you sports is my only ticket to getting into
college. I don't have the brains, and I want to go the best college I
can. I will do whatever it take to do it!"

"Even if it means hurting yourself? What would your parents think!?!" We
both hopped up off the ground.

"Whatever. I'm a big boy. I won't hurt myself. I can handle it. And as for
mom and dad they don't have too know. I'm helping them in the long run
too!"

"Whatever! I'm not being a part of this!"

"I wasn't asking you to be! It doesn't concern you!"

"Yes it does! I'm your boyfriend! I care about you! It does concern me!"

"No it doesn't!" I could see him losing control as he yelled in my
face. "So fuck off!"

I stared straight at him.

"Whatever!" I felt the tears return to my eyes. "I watched my uncle throw
his life away to drugs I'm not watching you throw yours away to steroids. I
can't be a part of it and I won't. I'm done! We're done!"

I took his keys and threw them at him. I started to walk away towards his
car. I jumped in the passenger seat.  I folded my arms. I watched him stand
on the beach threw my teary eyes.

Finally he moved towards the car and got it. We sat there as we pulled away
in silence. Both of us were crying, but we knew we couldn't fix it.


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