Date: Thu, 5 Jun 2003 22:02:06 -0400 From: Jasin Chau Subject: Finding Bobby 3 It was dark from where I was sleeping. I could see the moonlight illuminating my lover's body next to me. This was what I've been waiting for all my life and now, he's right here with me. I felt an overwhelming good feeling in me and tears began to drop from the sides of my cheeks. It wasn't because I'm hurt, sad, or angry; actually it's the tears of happiness and love. Bobby was beginning to flitch around in bed, so I held him closer to me, cuddling each other till we fell asleep with my warm body against his. I woke up with a bad case of morning breath and the sunlight striking my eyes. My eyes winced a little, but Bobby was looking down at me with his hands pressed down on my arms and blocking the sunlight. Right then I witnessed a miracle. For a second I really thought I saw an angel. All you could really see was Bobby's face and the sunlight glowing from the back of his head. I gasped and just admired what a beautiful person Bobby was inside and out. There was an irresistible attraction between us and it was 'that' attraction that caused us to kiss. Not just any normal kiss, but a kiss with so much love and passion that it just radiated off our bodies. His mouth escaped a cute whimper as our kissing continued. His smooth body felt so good with my hands roaming around him. Every part of him, I loved and everything ABOUT him, I loved. I never wanted this moment to end, but we had to come up for air. Both of us were breathing hard, not able to take off our gazes towards each other. There was an addiction that I couldn't explain. The more we looked at each other, the more we wanted it, love. "Bobby, I love you." "Jason wake up." "Huh? What the fuck was that?" "Wake up." What was happening? My head was throbbing really badly and there was this horrible echo in my head. I was just trying to go back to kissing Bobby but that annoying echo continued. "Wake up . . ." Then it hit me, a blinding light streaming across my eyes. AAAhhh it hurts. "Oh, sorry baby." It was just like the dream; Bobby was blocking the light with this angelic glow around his face. Sigh . . . he's so beautiful. "Where am I?" "Your in the hospital." Bobby said about to cry. "Why you crying baby." "Noth. . . nothing, it's just that I missed you soo much." He gave me big hug. "It's ok I'm awake." Nurses and doctors entered the room. I never really liked doctors much and it really made me feel uncomfortable. Bobby held my hand tighter trying to make me feel better and it did, till they told him to exit because they needed to check up on me. Our hands were broken from its bond and I already missed him. He mouthed I love you and left. Haha he can be real adorable when he wanted to be. The next few days later, when all the doctors and nurses left, it was just I sitting there bored as ever with nothing to do. I spent the whole day lying on my bed watching old Hulk movies. The hospital didn't have much cable; so I couldn't see, "Queer as Folk" or anything like that. I don't think they would of even allowed those kinds of shows in a place like that. With nothing else better to do I thought about having an intelligent conversation with the boy next to me. There was a new patient next to my bed as well trying to kill some time with the T.V. He was around my age, but looked a little more mature. "So, you bored too huh?" He smiled back at me and replied, "Hell yeah, if I don't get out of this hospital soon . . . OMG. I don't know what I'll do." "Yeah, well at least there's some people coming to visit you or something right?" He looked at me with a hurt expression. "I don't think so." "Why not!?" I was shocked. "Not anymore, I think? Ever since this happened to me." "What happened." He seemed to be getting more uncomfortable as I asked more questions. I felt really bad and stopped. Who am I to ask questions about other people's lives, it felt wrong and stupid. So I apologized, but he didn't answer. I guess he didn't accept it. It's cool though, I understand why. After a few more minutes of uncomfortable silence, he spoke up. "I got beat by a bunch kids from my school." "What? Why the fuck would they do that." "I don't know." I knew he was leaving something behind. Maybe it was another big secret I shouldn't go to that would make him sad again. "Look if you don't want to talk about it, I'll understand." "No, I do; but I don't think you would of liked what I was about to tell you." "It ok, I wouldn't do anything to hurt you, man." I showed him my broken arm and leg. "Umm, I guess, but you probably would later." "Dude, I'm probably the most understanding-" "I'm gay." He said cutting me off from finishing my sentence. My jaw dropped and he noticed my expression. He probably thought that I hated him, but really I was surprised that there was another person who was like me, being gay and all. It was creepy actually, but cool at the same time. I started chuckling a little. Maybe it was the wrong thing to do at that moment, but I couldn't help myself. "Dude, don't worry about it." He looked really scared, but after I told him that, he calmed down. "Actually, I am gay too." His jaw also dropped. "Oh my g-."He was speechless and couldn't find the words to say what he wanted to say. "Really you are?" It was funny the way he said it. Gays seemed to be such a tabooed thing; almost like catching the cooties. I wanted to tell him everything. Like about Bobby, love, sex, my opinion, society, and etc. "Yeah really, actually-." The nursed entered before I could of finished and she told me to sit in a wheelchair. I told the boy goodbye and sat on the wheelchair. "Where am I going?" "It's a surprise." That really made me thought about what that surprise could really be. As the nurse pushed my wheelchair through the hallways to the visitor's area, I was indeed surprised. It was Bobby! He looked so sexy with that outfit he was wearing. God, I missed him so much. It wasn't that long ago since I last met him. But I still couldn't live another day without seeing him smile. It was something that really had to be seen, well, for me it had to be. That simple smirk he gave me just made me melt on my wheelchair. "Hehe, hey how you doing?" Even his voice was sexy. Sigh, " Hehe, uumm nothing much, I just missed you these past couple of days." "Yeah me too, hehe god, I can't stop giggling." I whispered to him and said, "I think it's cute. You are soo adorable, you know that." That really made him blush. His cheeks were red all over. There was soo much I wanted to tell him. But I couldn't put my feelings into words to show exactly `how' much I loved him. "I miss you so much. I don't know what to say." "But I sure do know what to do about it." I gave him a wink. "Haha, you are such a horn dog." "But I'm your horn dog." I said chuckling. "Shhh, people can hear you." He whispered. "I don't care if people know that I love you." He really didn't know how to respond to that. Those three simple words really meant something to me, no actually `us'. A stray tear left his eye and slid down his cheek. It was a heart felt moment, which really made me wanted to kiss him. "Hehe, I know what you want to do right now." He said teasing me. "Aaww com'on. You better give me one before you leave. Or else." "Or else what?" I used my unbroken arm and gave his cock a quick squeeze. Obviously, he jumped back, but I think he liked it. Well, that's what his growing cock over there was telling me. "Haha, ok ok ok." He said giving up. He looked around to see who was looking. And when the coast was clear, he planted the most innocent kiss I could of asked for. It lasted a little longer than I think he expected to, but when his tongue was about to come into my mouth, he stopped himself. Damn it was about to get good too. We said our goodbyes and left the area. I returned to my room and found that my roommate was waiting for me. But it was getting late, so I told him, "I'll tell you every tomorrow." and slept the night away dreaming about Bobby. Sowwie, it took me sucha long to continue with this story. A friend of mine said it was really good. So I just started with a few words then BOOM I couldn't stop. If you have any comments or ideas I would be glad to hear from anybody. So TELL ME or else I DON'T know what you think. Magic2312@msn.com Or my website and you could actually see my pic. www.xanga.com/aznprodigy2 Get more from the Web. FREE MSN Explorer download : http://explorer.msn.com