Date: Sat, 18 Apr 2009 21:48:48 -0700 (PDT) From: Christoper Lock Subject: finding love on the field chapter 5, highschool section This is my story, read it if you will, but if you know that you shouldn't be reading this, then don't, this story is a slow process, im still learning how to write so bare with me, suggestions or comments on my story is appreciated, CONSTRUCTIVE criticism is welcomed. This is a love story, sure sex will come, but not just yet, if your patient enough then read on. And thanks in advance for reading my story. Chapter 5 Before I arrived to school I was in an okay mood but once my first and second periods got done with I was in a baaaad mood, I hate the fact that I made an ass of myself to Jason with my ranting, but what made me mad was the fact that he told Zach about my attitude, because while I was in Mr. Alvarez's class Zach told me he got a phone call from Jason telling me how I was acting, I mean come on what ever happened to privacy?! Now I look like an asshole in Zachs eyes too. I was in no mood to talk, so after I grabbed my lunch, I headed for Sheldons table, even though he was cool with the guys now he still preferred some alone time to himself, and I couldn't be more relieved that he was alone, but before I got there I heard my name. "Trevor." I searched for who it was and to my surprise it was Spike with Lee right behind him. " hey hows it going guys?" "better question is, how are you? Jason told us everything, and we just wanted to see whats up?" I was clenching my jaw so tight I actually felt like I was shaking. "what did Jason actually say?" Lee spoke up this time. "he said that you and him were just talking and then you flipped your lid for no apparent reason." For one I was glad that Jason didn't reveal to the guys that we were together and that it was a relationship problem, but the fact of the matter is, im looking like an asshole to the eyes of the people I surrounded my self with. "I just had a rough day, and well yeah, don't worry im good though, catch you guys later." And with that little conversation I lost my appetite, instead of heading to sheldons table I headed outside in the courtyards to get some fresh air, god knows I needed it. While outside I felt a rush of wind hit my face, ahhhh that feels good, I swear my temperature was boiling the more I heard Jason telling the guys about my antics. As I stood outside in the cool breeze I felt a presence behind me and lo-and-behold, Jason. "could we talk?" his face was serious. "about?" "last night." "....fine." We headed to a secluded area by the corner building of the cafeteria. I turned to him. "what do you want?" he was kind of taken back. "whats wrong?" "whats wrong Jason is now I look like an asshole to your friends." He looked confused. "what? What are you talking about?" "are you fucking serious bro? Zach, Spike, and lee came up to me asking why I flipped out on you." His face went white. "oh." "oh? Dude is that all you can say? I admit I had no right to go off on you like that Jason, but for you to tell your friends what happened, that's just some bull shit."He got closer to me and tried to hold my hand. I brushed it away. "what the fuck are you doing?" he looked real sad now. " Trevor, I didn't meant for them to hound you the way they did, I was just concerned about last night and I told them, I didn't know what I did wrong." "you honestly don't know?" he just shook his head no. "Jason, you told me to leave shit be, as if I was a fucking dog bro, like I had to be obedient and shit, no one ever tells me what to do, not even my parents, and im not going to take orders from you either." He tried approaching me again. "listen Trev, im sorry, I didn't mean it in that way, I was simply asking you to.." as he was speaking he tried to take my hand again. "dude! What the fuck did I tell you about keeping your hands to your self!" that stopped him in his tracks. "you know what, im not going to let you ruin my day Jason, imma catch you later." I stormed off to my next two periods, it seems like im running away from my problems, and well,your right, like father like son I guess. I just didn't want drama in my life, im done with that petty immature shit. "6,7 one more Sheldon,8" Sheldon got off the bench panting, for a small guy, Sheldon can lift, I underestimated this kid, and for a guy who is 150 he can bench that and then some. "dude, you got this man, I thought I would have to help you out more, but you got it down, good job Sheld." He was just smiling. "thanks Tev, I never knew I had it in me, I was just to afraid to come to the school gym because I knew I was going to get picked on, if not to my face then behind my back." "bro don't worry about it, from now on you can be my lifting buddy." He just nodded, as I was talking I loaded the bar with two forty-five pound plates on each side. (225lbs) but before I could begin my set I heard the doors swing open and in walked Jason and Zach. I just ignored them and did my set. "1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8" just looking at Jason got me fired up. Sheldon spoke up. "wow, you did that set effortlessly." I was looking at Jason as I spoke. "well when you need to let out some steam this is the best outlet." Sheldon sat by me and whispered. "you and Jason okay?" I looked at him. "to make a long story short, we argued last night, he told the guys and the guys asked me about it." "oh, I can see where the problem is." I just nodded yep. "Lest go and do our last set and we can get out of here, cool?" Sheldon just nodded. Before Sheldon can do his set, Jason and Zach approached us. Zach spoke first. "whats up Trev, hey Sheldon, haven't seen you here before." I wasn't paying attention to Zach, I was have a staring contest with Jason. He indicated with his body to follow me so I did, and left Sheldon to do as he pleased. "Trevor, im sorry for letting the guys know, I just let it slip, im sorry." I was just looking at him, not saying a word. "trevor, come on please say something." He was pleading now. "what do you want me to say Jase?" he got closer to me, but im guessing he remembered what happened during lunch because he kept his hands at his sides. "just say yes to dinner so we can sort all of this out, because im miserable knowing that I might have fucked things up majorly." I looked at him when he said this, he was really worried, and it showed in his eyes, the pain, and right there and then I felt so bad for being such an ass to him, he was only trying to help me out, but I took it negatively. Youre not the only one who fucked things up Jason. I touched his shoulder. "Yes, we'll have dinner, and Jason, don't worry were still fine, we just need to talk this out okay?" he just nodded. Zach was approaching us. "imma call you when im done so I can pick you up." All he did was nod. I headed back to Sheldon. "things okay?" I nodded when he asked me. "yeah were going to have dinner so we can sort this mess that we created for ourselves, man not even a month in and were already arguing." "hey a little argument is healthy, but yeah work it out, get things resolved." I just nodded. "you ready to do your sets?" he shook his head. "no, im done zach helped me out, its your turn now." I had a confused look on my face. "really?" "yep, he even asked if I wanted to join him whenever he goes to the gym." "nice!, good going Sheldon." Im glad things are going well for Sheldon. "thanks, aight enough dilly dallying, lets get you your sets in." Sheldon said with a smirk on his face. Thank god I have Sheldon to talk with, id go crazy if I didn't have an outlet like him. After dropping Sheldon off at his house and getting ready I was now on my way to get Jason, I text him to be ready so it was no surprise that when I got to his house he was on his porch chair waiting, in only his shorts and a tank top, man he made that outfit look HOT!!!! I wasn't going to let him know though, tonight is serious business, im going to tell him more about me, and why I acted the way I did, he deserves at least that, and he needs to know his boundaries when it comes to us in public, I like the guy but im not ready to be out like he is. "hey." Jason said. "hey." I nodded while I said this. God were not even at dinner and our demeanor is in the wrong place. I shifted gears and headed to a small pizza parlor where we can talk and be in private as well. "im sorry." I spoke out first, he looked at me confused. "why are you sorry?" "well, you didn't deserve that tantrum that I handed to you, but were doing this dinner because I want to tell you why I felt offened when you thought I questioned your judgement." He just nodded. "I understand." The rest of the drive was uneventful we talked a little bit about classes, but you can tell that we both wanted the conversation we were going to have out in the open already, and I did too, the faster we resolved this, the better. The drive wasn't too bad because we arrived fairly quickly. We got seated and ordered a large deep dish pie, even though this is suppose to be serious, im still a hungry guy and I needed some food pronto. "soooo?" Jason said. "bro, I don't know where to start." I couldn't even make eye contact with him, that's how hard it is to talk about myself. "start from the beginning, it can take all night if it has too, okay?" he took my hand as he said this and squeezed it, I was just thankful he was so understanding. "I...ummm" *in hales* *exhales* " I was always taught to fend for myself, as a young kid with no older siblings to watch over me, and my mom and dad always working, I HAD to learn to take care of myself." We were interrupted by the food, man this place is fast. I continued what I was saying. " from school work and foot ball, actually anything school related, that was all me, I didn't want to bother them because I felt that they had bigger things to worry about, you know?" he just nodded and I continued on. " and being independent at such a young age changed who I was, I worked hard, believe it or not I never attended the weekend house parties the kids usually went to because I was too busy starting on a project that wasn't even due for another month, I knew I missed out on some crazy and memorable things, but it was fine by me, and I guess that's what ticked me about our fight the other night, it seemed as if you were telling me what to do." He took my hand, before I could even finish what I was saying, at first I wanted to withdraw my hand, but at the same time, I knew we were in a secluded spot where people couldn't see us so I continued to hold his hand as well. Jason spoke up. " Trev, I never meant to be so bossy, I just, I don't know." Now it was my turn to listen. " Jason go ahead bro. tell me whats up?" "well I was so thankful that no one pried into my business, even after I came out, and I guess, I just wanted to be as respectful to Zach and Sheldons privacy as other people were with mine, I don't know what I would've done if people constantly needed to know what was going on." Man I feel like a dumbass, here I am thinking that Jason was being bossy and domineering, but all he wanted to do was be courteous. Now I feel like a total jackass treating Jason the way I did. I don't know what made me do it dear reader, but I leaned over my table and kissed him. He didn't even have a chance to speak, because I had a lot of apologizing I had to do. " Jason, I am sooo sorry that I acted the way I did, I had preconceived notions in my stupid head that you were trying to boss me around when all you wanted to do was give them their space." I looked up at him and all he was doing was smiling. "what?" "you kissed me, in public." The words echoed in my head, I guess I did, hmmm, it wasn't so bad I guess, but then again we were in a restaurant where the main theme is privacy, maybe that fact alone allowed me to kiss him so easily. "yes I did, but don't get any ideas that its going to happen a lot." All I could do was smile, because looking at him and his goofy grin made me smile. "Jason, I really am sorry." He shook his head as he took a sip of his coke. ( by the way, throughout this whole conversation, they were eating..lmao) "no you shouldn't be, it's the way you are, growing up having to tend to yourself, I can understand why its hard for you to take instructions from anyone else, let alone me." The more he talked about me, the more I seem to look like a kid that can't ever be reasoned with, and that's not what I want, not with Jason. "im going to try." I said in a small voice. "try what?" Jason said. Even through the noise of the restaurant he could still hear me. "im going to try and change, I don't want to seem like you cant ever reason with me." He just looked at me, he took my hands and massaged mine with his softly. I continued to talk. "its going to take some time, but I AM going to try." He just smiled at me. "you can take as long as you want, always know im going to be right by your side, every step of the way." How did I get so lucky to be sitting across this man, not boy, man. Jason is so understanding, and has a way with words, like he knows exactly what to say to me to show that he cares. I couldn't help myself, I took the hand that was caressing mine and kissed his knuckles. At that particular moment, our waiter came in to drop off our check, and by the look of things wasn't too disgusted because she had a smile on her face. All I could do was nod and say thanks. Jason looked up to see who I was looking at and just smiled as well, maybe being out wasn't so bad I knew there were bad people out there that didn't understand, or didn't WANT to understand. But for the moment I was content with spending this night with Jason, getting to really know a kind hearted, sexy as hell guy, that I could talk with so effortlessly. After paying for our check, me and Jason hit the road once again. We were holding hands as I drove back to his house. Words weren't exchanged during our ride back home, and to be honest I was content with that, nothing was needed to be said, because the smallest gesture of holding hands with the guy I was with spoke volumes in my book. When I arrived at Jasons house I parked my car by his garage. "Im glad we did this." I turned his way as I said this, and as I looked at him I saw longing in his eyes that only I had the answer to, I unbuckled my seatbelt and initiated the first kiss, and right on cue Jason took the lead( did I ever tell you dear reader that I love a man that can take charge? Hmmm? LOL) I could feel his large hands hold the back of my head as he inserted his tongue in my mouth to meet mine. As he was kissing me I couldn't help but touch his thighs and grope the package that he was concealing in his shorts. I took his fabric clad cock in my hands and slowly jerked which elicited an audible moan from his mouth. After what seemed like hours, which I can honestly say was only minutes (this sentence right here, is so cliché isnt it? Lmao) I had to back away before it went any further which I knew in my head I wasn't completely ready for. Also we both had to catch air, we were both panting. I don't know why but I just blurted out what I had in mind at that moment. "you have a big cock!" all Jason could do was laugh his ass off. "wow! I didn't expect that! But im glad you noticed." It was my turn to laugh. "sorry, random I know." He just came over to my side and kissed me on the cheek. " I like your silly randomness though, so don't be embarrassed kay?" Jason said, followed with another kiss, this time by my ear. God this guy is awesome. " aight you better get going we got classes tomorrow." I heard him groan as he got back on his side of the truck. "thanks for reminding me buddy!" I couldn't help but chuckle. "my bad for being a kill joy but we can pick up where we left off some other time." He looked hopefull now. "don't make promises that you cant keep White!" I gave him a quick peck on the lips, and unlocked his door. " I promise, now go to sleep!" Jason got out and just waved as I reversed out of his garage way. I drove in silence as I replayed my day, it started off shitty, but ended on a high note, I couldn't complain, lets just hope me and Jason will always work out our problems. I slept with Jason on my mind, and let me tell you folks, it was a pretty sight! thanks for all the email! loved all the comments, criticism and all that too! appreicate all your messages...sorry if this is way! to short..lmao but chp6 is in the making as we speak... cheers Chris