Date: Tue, 7 Jul 2009 20:32:03 -0700 (PDT) From: Peanut Shields Subject: Forever and Always part 2 chapter 1 As we got out of my car i opened the door and tip toed in, i whispered to ryan and told him that my parents were asleep. He followed me into the kitchen where i found a note on the fridge " Nathan me and your father will be out of town for a few days please try not to cause trouble, and don't forget to feed the dog love Mom and Dad." I turned on the light and explained to Ryan that my parents will be out of town for a few days he just smiled a (sexy smile, whoa why was i thinking about this i have a girlfriend, keep it together Nate the plan is almost finished). I told Ryan to go upstairs to my room and put his bag away. As i walked upstairs trying to find Nate's room, I found his cell charging. I picked it up like the snoop i am and i went through the messages. I started to tear a little when i found out he had a girlfriend, but that doesn't me we can't be friends. I looked through some more messages and one was from Derek ( the meanest guy in school) " make sure you bust that cherry tonight" what was that supposed to mean, then it hit me Nathan was going to fuck me and spread it all around school.. I felt sick, scared and used what was i going to do. He then walked up and i glared at him "Whats wrong Ry having trouble finding my room?" "fuck off" "Hey whats with the attitude" " just take me home" " i told you i can't" thats when he realized i had his phone. "Oh my god" was all he can say. there was a moment of silence and he approached me i backed away. "Ryan it's alright calm down i'm not going to hurt you" " then why does Derek say your going to fuck me tonight?" "huh you saw that" "yes i did, i knew you were just another jock" " hey wait a minute, I'm not like the rest of them" "prove it" " did you see the reply?" "No" "well look at it" as i went through the messages the reply said " Derek fuck you, i wouldn't do that geeze whats with you lately all you try to do is hurt people, and i can't be friends with a person like that" "You see Ryan i'm not like that, he came closer to me and i couldn't back up anymore. He kissed me. There was silence between us, till he finally broke it. " I'm sorry i thought you were into that stuff" "I am i think but you have a girlfriend" "No i don't at least not anymore" he showed me another text from 3 weeks ago. " oh i see" "well lets go to bed Ry we have suicides tomorrow" "ok" Huh that was close Nate thought to himself, his cell started to ring it was Kelly "Ry i have to piss be right back". "Hey boo whats up" kelly said " Hey Kelly nothing how bout you" "Well i was hoping we could get together tonight and have some fun i heard your parents are out" "Kelly i can't at least not tonight i'm sore" "I can rub you and make you feel better" " I said no" "What kind of Boyfriend are you?" " The unhappy kind" with that being said he hung up and started to cry. What am i going to do i like Ryan but i'm not sure if i love him or if this is just a phase but i do feel something. The next morning was rough after practice i decided to hang out with my besties Mary, Sarah, Sam, Dylan, and Andrew. We were walking through the mall when i saw nate he was holding hands with Kelly. " What are they doing together" i said "they have been going out for the past six months you didn't know" said Mary. " No" he walked up to us with Kelly and Said hi to me i shrugged him off and asked him what do you want. he pulled me away from everyone else and asked me if we can talk. i told him no, the he grabbed my arm and pleaded with me, i gave in. " I'm sorry i lied to you but i do like you." "no you don't you were going to use me i'm just a quick fuck and thn your going to throw me out just like yesterday's paper" " Ryan thats not true" " Yes it is" i started crying. i whipped my tears and told my friends we should be heading home. I was hurt and ashamed i really did like Nate why does this happen to me huh i hate life so much. I walked down the stairs when Dominique (Dom for short) handed me a julius "Whats wrong boo" " Love problems" "I hear ya i was going out with Nate till i found out he was going out with 4 other girls at the same time now we are just friends i guess". that hit me like a ton of bricks now i was worse "Dom can you give me a ride home" "Sure" On the way home whitehorse played on the radio "say your sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to" all i thought of was Nate.