Date: Sat, 19 Sep 2009 22:22:51 -0700 (PDT)
From: Peanut Shields <peanutshields@yahoo.com>
Subject: Forever and Always part 3 Chapter 3

Nate: Ryan looked so empty, so hurt and it was my fault, i want to talk to
him so bad but he just ignores me, huh wheres dave when you need him.

"Hey Nate" "Hey Cj whats up" "A lot" "like" "well your ex Kelly she is all
nice to everyone and she even asked me out" "What?" "yeah she did" "well
what did you say?" "I turned her down i'm going out with melissa remember"
"Oh sorry" "yeah what about you and..." "Shut up!" "Woah i'm sorry it's
just that he used to be so nice to everyone and now he like snapped" "Don't
you think i know that huh it's my fault he's acting so crazy" "He's not
crazy!" "Well it sure looks like it to me" "Nate everybody has a boiling
point and Ry reached his he takes every body's shit and its too much, if it
were me i would have snapped a long time ago" "I miss him so much" "Your
going to have to give it time" "But i don't want to" "You have to" "what
should i say to him Cj he hates me" "That i don't know why don't you talk
to one of his friends" "ok text me later" "k cya"

I walked towards my period three class, huh i was in this class with him
too. He walked past me and gave me a glare.

"What do you want" "you" i mumbled "What the fuck is your problem" i didn't
answer, "You see Nate thats your problem, that was our problem, lack of
communication, ever since Mike passed in that accident we haven't been the
same," "Ry i want to communicate with you but the thing is...." "One don't
call me Ry only friends call me that two there shouldn't be a problem now
get out of my way" "Or what Ry" "I said move" "Make me" "look Nate I don't
want to do this" "Neither do i so just talk to me" "No" "Thats it" I picked
him up and took him to the boys bathroom "sit down OWWW" he bit my arm "Get
away from me" "No Not till you here me out" "I told you i was done with you
Nate!" I slapped him across the face leaving a big red hand print on his
cheek "You....hit....me" "You deserve it" "Get away from me" "No" "Nate
please leave me alone" "Ry I'm sorry" "What?" "I'm
 sorry for all the hell i put you through, i'm sorry for not listening or
talking to you when you need me too, I'm sorry for the lack of trust
between us, i'm sorry Ry, i truly am and if you can find it in your heart
to forgive me it will..." "Look at us Nate, we used to be so close, but
some where we went wrong" "Ry...." "Did you regret us Nate, Did you forget
what it felt like when we were together" "No Ry everyday, and night i wish
and pray for us" we stood there in the bathroom crying"Ry please don't hate
me anymore" "Nate it's not that i hate you i can't hate you and since i
can't i hide, i hide from the sorrow and the anger"we stood there looking
at eachother for a few minutes "Nate" '"yeah" "I want to forgive you but
i'm just not ready yet" "What do you mean" "Huh i just need a little time
thats all" "Ok how much" "Nate you clearly don't know what i'm going
through, you were my first. My first kiss, my first relationship, my first
experience, and most important my first love" "Ry i.." "I want to be with
you buti don't at the same time and until i can make compromise i think its
best that we both just move on for the time being" "Ry...ok but until then
you will always have my heart. Bye Ryan Shcaffer" "Bye Nathan Snedden." "Ry
Wait" "What?" "Isit stil ok if we just like talked as friends and did
things together as just friends" "Umm i don't know about the doing things
together part but sure talk to me whenever" "Ok thanks"

Ry: I walked out of the bathroom and everyone was looking at me, I hate
this, it feels like i'm in slow motion and everyone else is moving at the
speed of light. Almost everyone knew about me and Nate Thanks to Kelly, but
now that we're over it feels like lifes over itself. I wish Dave would come
back but he is well in a better place right now, at least till he gets
better, as most of the day passed 5th period was over i walked down the
hall way the lunch bell rang, huh great i have no money on my account. As i
walked in the cafeteria i saw Nate sitting alone, He motioned me to sit by
him, so i walked through the crowd of people and sat right across from him.

"Nate whats wrong?" he looked all puffy and red "A lot of things Ry" "Do
you want to talk" "I don't know if we should, you know with the whole
relationship breaking down..." "I know i mean we still could talk as
friends" "Ok fine" "Well?" "Huh where should i start" "At the top" "Ha ha I
miss that about you, ok well I'm in way over my head with this stupid
reaserch project" "For American Lit" "Yeah and my teammates on track and
foot ball won't talk to me at all because we broke up" "Really?" "Yeah it's
like they put me in an invisible cage" "Well what did they say?" "They said
that i screwed up big time, that you are a nice guy and that if i don't
learn to take care of the things i have then they'll leave and i'll be left
alone" "Well Nate as a friend i won't leave you, but as a...." "I know ok"
"Sorry"

"huh thats not the worst of it" "Well what is" "Kelly asked me out again"
"What! you can't go out with her" "Why?" "Cause she is um ahh bad" "Ry it's
not your choice though, and since your not my boyfriend anymore i can date
whoever i want" "But Nate" "You went out with Jared" "Yeah but that was for
like a day and he only used me" "What do you mean" "He just wanted to get
in my pants" "Oh, im sorry, well did he?" "thats none of your business"
"Sorry" "Yeah i'm sorry too, look Nate i gotta go i have to go see if the
lunch peoples will let me slide with a free lunch today" "Why?" "I have no
money" "Well what do you want?" "You cant buy me food Nate" "Yeah i can
it's what friends do" the minute he said that i saw the old Nate, the one
from the first time we went out, the one that i fell in love with

"You know what this reminds me of Ry" "What Nate" "the first time you were
in my car and we went to mcdonalds" "Yeah i remember that, and you were
going out with kelly then" i mumbled

He bought me a slice of pizza and a bottle of snapple apple, my favorite
snapple "You know me too well" "I even put a little bit of hot sauce on it
cause i know you like to spice things up" "Thanks Natey" "You haven't
called me that since..." "Yeah i'm sorry if you dont want me to call you
Natey then...." "Ry it's ok it brings back good memories" we sat there in
silence for a few minutes, i finished my food and threw my empty plate away
"Can i walk you back to your locker" "Sure" we got up and headed towards
the staircase and up to the 4th floor "well Ry umm" "Yeah this is kinda
awkward" he started to laugh "Thanks again for the lunch Nate" "No prob,
well i better get going i have Spanish with blubber" "ha ha see you later
Nate" "Bye" he moved closer to me and kissed me on the cheek "Don't worry i
won't ever go out with kelly or anyone else, i love you and only you"

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