Date: Sat, 19 Jun 2004 13:34:34 -0400 From: Just Jake Subject: From the Heart of a Little Guy IV (highschool) This story is a work of fiction and any resemblances to any person or written works are purely coincidental. The author retains all rights to the work, and requests that in any use of this material that my rights are respected. Please do not copy or use this story in any manner without my permission. It does contain consensual sex between young men. You've found this site like the rest of us so the assumption is that material of this nature does not offend you. If it does, or it is illegal for you to view this content for whatever the reason please just keep on passing by. Please read of your own free will, and direct any positive comments, constructive criticism or general feedback to: mission_hockey_4_life@hotmail.com. * * * * * * * * * * * * So things went, Jon would come over when my mom was at her night job and Uncle Arnie was out with his buds. Of course when my cousin Todd was staying Jon never came around. We kept our new friendship on the secret side. We did hang out together at school and after school a bit more than we used to, but that was usually with other people anyhow. We equally spent about as much time with just us together with out anyone knowing as we spent in public. It was like living a second, secret life or something, but you've got to be careful right? About a year ago things in my life started to get pretty messed, towards the end of grade 10. First off, my mom stopped sleeping out on the couch in the living room and started sleeping with Arnie. Now don't get all weirded out or anything; Arnie is one of my dad's brothers, so it's not incest or anything. I don't even know how I feel about it. I just don't think about it. I don't want to think about it. It makes me mad and hurt I guess. My first reaction was disgust, she is my mom after all sleeping with my dad's brother. But I hardly ever see her so I guess I've been able to run from dealing with it. She's got her life, and I have mine. Just so you know my dad is the 3rd of 4 sons, and was closest to Arnie growing up. He went to prison for theft and fraud and some other crap when I was in grade 8. He had been in jail or prison since partway through my seventh grade year. Yeah, that was a great time. I got a lot of alienation at first from my friends back then. Michael was one of only a few friends that didn't change towards me. Not that I especially thought that I was gay at the time, but I guess that's when I learned that for sure I could never come out to anyone about my sexuality. People act strange to you for anything and I never intended to give anyone a loaded gun like that to use against me, Jon being the obvious exception, for obvious reasons. Anyhow, when Dad actually went to prison, mom was a Customs Agent and had to quit because of her relationship to a convicted criminal. So now she works rotating night security shifts, 4 on and 4 off, and is going to school for accounting. Right now for school she is on a work placement with a national accounting firm, but last year at the time when I was in grade 10, she was 5 days a week school just like me. When mom lost her job and dad left us bankrupt because all of his money was frozen, and then his legal fees had to be paid we moved in with my Uncle Arnie. Again, I was in grade 8 at the time. We moved in with Arnie because his old lady left him years ago. Actually I hardly remember what Janice looks like, it's been so long since I saw her. Arnie has a really nice house that he bought after his settlement with Janice, funded from his auto body shop and an auto parts store that he both started and owns. So being family he took us in and let us have use of his house. Arnie took the second bedroom, and gave the master bedroom to his son Todd and myself. The room basically fits two twin beds, and two dressers with my computer on a sewing table between the beds. I get most of the closet. So I've kinda raised myself a lot so far through high school because I would get in deep if I screwed up but was otherwise left to myself. My cousin Todd was actually my biggest influence. Todd is now 18, and plays college ball at Texas Tech and is a total chick magnet. Before college, back when mom and I moved in, Todd was only staying over every other weekend as per Arnie's divorce settlement. But I looked forward to those weekends. He's never been a jerk to me, and didn't seem to mind me or treat me like crap. Todd is like a perfect gentleman where his dad is a typical biker, and he is really cool to me. Of course I know where Todd keeps his weed hidden in his old gym bag, his frequently replenished condoms in a cookie tin in his dresser and that he hides his porno mags in his baseball card binders. Yeah, I've done a bit of snooping. But I stopped looking at the porno mags when I started talking to Jon a lot more. Cock shots are nice, but the girls do nothing for me. Plus I didn't ever want to think of my mom and Arnie doing that stuff. Yeah that's right, they go at it in the next room a lot now, and hearing them at it grosses me out sooo bad as it is. So it got to be that Jon started coming over a lot more in the spring and summer of last year. But at first it was always only in those times when I was home alone. A big personal accomplishment occurred for me finally in May of Grade 10. I finally had a wet orgasm! It was so intense and I wasn't ready for it. I was used to the 2 or 3 times a day dry cum and totally messed my bed. Ugggh! It was everywhere, and I didn't want mom or Arnie to know, so I just slept the rest of that night in Todd's bed. OMG! I was on a cloud because finally I had a way of feeling like I wasn't a little boy among men. As stupid as it might be it gave me such a personal high, and it gave me more confidence in myself. I told Jon about all of this the morning after it happened as we walked to school. "What were you thinking of?" "To be honest, I was hoping like the last few hundred times that I'd finally have something other than friction burn to show for my hard work!" "Did you shoot a lot?" "Yeah, totally!" "Like how much?" "I dunno. A lot!" "How much jizz, how many squirts?" "Like a ton, it squirted out twice." "Hahaha, that's not a lot, but that's great! I'm so happy for you!" "Cool, now you can eat my cum!" Of course we hadn't even touched each other yet, but it seemed like the right thing to say for a reaction. The reaction I got wasn't what I expected. I was trying to gross him out, not meaning it at all, but somehow I think he really wanted to do just that. So after my development we talked a lot about shooting off and decided that we were going to take the huge plunge and jack off together one night. The night of my first wet orgasm I guess I didn't make Todd's bed right because he asked me about using his bed, so I told him. I do my own laundry, have for as long as I remember, so it's not like something new that I washed my bed sheets, and therefore mom never found out thankfully. We hardly talk as it is. How do you have a talk about puberty finally hitting you with your mother? Anyhow, Todd laughed and told me maybe I might finally start getting some pubes other than the ones on my head. Hahaha.aside from a little down there, and more under my arms I'm still almost hairless. But again, somehow the same thing happened for the night that Jon stayed over in his bed, Todd knew right away that his bed had been used. I washed his sheets again, but I guess I didn't put it together exactly the same way, although I could swear that I did. It was a Friday night when Todd was at his mothers. Jon and I were so nervous, but so excited. Jon came over for dinner on a night that mom wasn't working which was the rule for having a friend overnight. Right after dinner Arnie went out like usual to some biker bar, but mom stayed home and Jon and I went to bed early. Mom had sold her Harley to pay some of dad's legal bills before she had to declare bankruptcy, so she has to ride on Arnie's when she goes with him, but again because I was having Jon over she begrudgingly stuck to her rule and stayed home. By going to bed early it meant locking the door, turning the lights off, and stuffing a shirt along the crack so that we could look at gay porn on my computer. I stuffed the shirt at the bottom of the door so that no light from the computer screen filtered out. On the computer Jon showed me his favorite free sites and I showed him mine. We were both really nervous and I was in a hurry so that mom wouldn't notice the phone line was tied up. Jon didn't even get totally naked, he just used the fly in his 2xist boxer briefs while I went for broke and pushed my gitch half way down my thighs. We didn't touch each other and were too embarrassed to even really look at each other. Jon had used one of his socks over his dick like a condom. He told me that's how you jerk off without being caught. I copied that from Jon because I so far had just used whatever clothes were handy to wipe up and the sock made sense. We were so horny that we were literally both soaking up our socks with cum in like a matter of a minute. But right after that was the first time we ever kissed! It sort of happened I guess, we were both like feeling really good like you do right after cumming, and Jon just sorta turned towards me and I turned towards him and we kissed on the lips. It was magic. I had never really kissed many girls ever, not that it bothers me in the least. In fact I haven't ever had much practice at kissing anyone at all. Kissing Jon was so good, it felt so right. His lips were so tender and dry, meeting mine, I felt an excitement in my body that probably rivaled my ecstasy at finally ejaculating! The kiss was pretty brief, we pulled away quickly, and then mashed our lips together again for a little longer. We were both all smiles, I know I couldn't stop a big grin even when I tried. I turned off the computer and unlocked the door and we watched Letterman. Then when it was time to go to bed for real I worked up the nerve, and changed into my Joe Boxer pajama pants in front of Jon. Knowing from Michael's party that he sleeps in his boxer briefs and is body shy, I was hopeful for a return favor, but didn't expect one. In return for my display, Jon shocked me again; he put on a show and tell for me and dropped his gitch to the floor and did a 360 for me before quickly whipping them back up. He had like a totally full bush on his dick like mature guys do to match his armpit hair but was otherwise mostly hairless. He was really cute and we were both red faced, but he sat down on the edge of my bed. "That was really awesome before," Jon said, making the first acknowledgement of us having jacked off together. "Yeah, it was super cool!" "Did you like it?" "Yeah." "Did you like what you just saw," He asked about his quick striptease. "Yeah!" "Can I kiss you goodnight?" "Yeah, please. That'd be cool!" Dangerously, we kissed again, on the lips and it lasted for a while this time before Jon slipped over to Todd's bed. Four weeks later we pretty much repeated the same routine. This time however mom had the night off again, but took off with Arnie rather than make dinner and baby sit me. In our secret times, when we could, Jon and I were kissing a bit more frequently, and for longer. So on that night we were just sitting there in my bed, both fully naked but shyly under the covers, with our lips pressed together for like half a minute or something so I turned it into a series of pecks. I guess that was the green light he was looking for so he started to push his tongue against my lips. In no time we were figuring out how to French kiss. I'm sure it totally sucked and we are a lot better now, but it was so awesome at the time. Our bodies pressed together a lot and it felt really good. We both were hard and eventually we both were sitting on my bed jacking off again, and looking at each other this time. Jon gave me the sock he had used earlier and picked up the one I had used. I was weirded out by this and rather than use his cum filled sock I made it look like it fell off the bed on its own. I mean it was sorta exciting to hold his sock with his cum in it, but it was also sorta disgusting at the same time too. I watched in awe as Jon took the sock I had used and slid it over his dick! In just a few strokes I could see his nice addition to my wet spot forming in the sock. He told me that it was the best orgasm he ever had when he felt my cum. I wasn't too attentive because while I was way busy stroking away! Seeing his body tense and his cum soak through the sock was so hot, it made my little body spasm and I instantly shot a messy load halfway up my chest and onto the blankets! I cleaned up as best as I could and we went to bed, Jon in Todd's of course. But man I tell you, I jacked that image of Jon cumming in my head for months!!! After that night we started to hang out a lot more with each other and started dating, secretly of course. The only person that knew about us right away was Todd. He put it all together pretty quickly. He knew that Jon was using his bed from time to time when he wasn't there, and one Monday night he stopped by to get some textbook he had forgot and I didn't hear him coming into our room and he saw me looking at gay porn. I was totally embarrassed and tried to convince him that it was just a pop-up, but as I tried to close the window, one after another, a different gay page popped up. I then tried to lie my way out of it and make it like I was just looking at pictures of developed guys because I was so underdeveloped and felt insecure. He didn't buy it at all, but I kept saying I was totally straight and with a huge grin on his face he was like `Whoa there little dude. So you like to stick your dick in the mud from time to time then. Don't get all worked up over it.' He said he had to go, but showed me where he hid his condoms in a ziplock bag in the bottom of a cookie tin underneath a pile of Reece's pieces. (I knew this because one time I found and ate enough of his Reece's pieces to find the condoms and had to buy more Reece's pieces to cover up that I was even eating his candy in the first place. But I've already said that.) He told me to use them if I get ever really get the chance to need one, especially if I `went for a ride down the dirt road' but not to let my mom know because she freaked on him when we first moved in about ever corrupting me into having sex at a young age like everyone knew he did. The next weekend Todd was over he changed his bed right away and was acting like a bit of a loser to me. I felt so bad. I felt like a pervert. Now I knew how Jon felt when he had touched me and didn't know I was gay too. I was so afraid that Todd was going to tell on me. He went out to a party and when he came home that night mom and Arnie were already home and in bed, so it was damn late for sure. He reeked of pot, but seemed totally clear headed when he shook me awake. He told me to turn on my computer and wanted to show me something. He then told me about times that this guy on his football team used to suck him and a buddy off in the woods and in the bathroom at school. He said he didn't get it why a guy wants to do that but it sure feels great. When my computer booted up he signed onto the internet and showed me this site. He said that he had just been with the guy who sucks him off, and that guy told him to tell me about this site. He told me to have fun with the site, but don't ever let Arnie know because he and his buddies beat up faggots for fun so I better be careful. I saved the site, turned off the computer, and before going to bed I smoked my first joints ever with my cousin. On the second joint, Todd told me he knew exactly which of my friends is my butt buddy and to be careful because Jon is totally obvious. But for the rest of the year at school Todd and his jock friends looked out for me and Jon at school. Again, Todd's at Texas Tech now, but the acceptance from the seniors on the football team made Jon and I the cocks of the walk in our grade. Coach Maynes even took a grater interest in us too, not surprisingly though, as and I found out from Todd that the guy that used to suck him off was actually Coach's son. Coach never ever said anything except for once telling Jon and I in private to be mindful because we have a tougher road to walk through life than most people and if we need his help we only have to ask. * * * * * * * * * * * * Sorry that this one took a little longer to post. Thanks for continuing to read and for the encouraging feedback! I am just starting the revisions for part 5 so it should be up soon, time permitting. For those that live in the rainbow kingdom, Happy Pride Week! ~Jake