Date: Wed, 9 Jan 2008 16:35:21 +1100
From: kim brush <nirvana@dodo.com>
Subject: He Was Mine From Start : chapter 2

Wow, I just got kissed by a dude , I didn't know what to think or say to
him as we sat there in silence , I turned and faced him and there was
still tear drops falling from his beautiful clear eyes , I lifted my hand
and wiped them off his cheeks , then all I said was "don't be sorry for
anything" even though most people would think after a kiss with a person
of the same sex would be awkward afterward , it wasn't , we laid down
together and Billy said "when I kissed you it was the only thing i could
do to take my mind off my parents divorce , and I liked it Tom , I liked
it a lot , but I don't want to scare you away , I want to be friends with
you heaps " I laid there after Billy told me and wondered what to do ,
what to say . I looked at him laying down on the grass , the moon shining
on his tear stained cheeks and I said "I wouldn't have had the guts to
do it so im glad you did" he turned and looked at me and asked me
straight out if I was gay ,I couldn't say yes or no I don't know why so
I just said "we should head back" . We got up from where we laid talking
for ages and we started heading back to the party, I didn't know how many
people would still be there as it was about 1:30am in the morning, I
hoped Wes was there because I need to stay at his house tonight and if he
has left I really don't feel like walking back by myself "so Billy, where
are you staying tonight, how did you get here? He said "I was going for a
walk around the neighborhood checking things out and I walked past this
house then some guys said come in , but then they left me sitting there
by myself , I was about to go until you come up and said hello , and I
think I will just walk home after this party, Billy said , "well I'm
really glad I did go up and say hello to you Billy then I gave him a slap
on the bum , he just looked at me and giggled , it was so cute. We
finally got back to the party and it seemed like nobody had gone, it was
still raging, people were drinking, music was blaring. Me and Billy
walked in the house and went and got some more alcohol because we decided
we deserved one, after a while me and Billy were really, really drunk,
then some girl come up and took Billy by the hand up to the dance floor
and started dirty dancing with him , poor Billy didn't know what to do ,
he just stood there stunned then when he tried to walk back in my
direction the girl grabbed him and pashed him rubbing all up his chest
and crotch and any where the drunken horny bitch could get her hands , he
finally got away and come up to me , I said "how was that Billy , nice
kiss" he just looked at me and said with a cheeky smile on his face "I've
had better" it made me feel good , he meant it , it was something he
wanted to do .

we went upstairs into a silent , vacant room because we were getting sick
of the people downstairs acting like idiots , and as soon as Billy closed
the door I grabbed both of his hands gently and pressed them up against
the wall then instead of going in for a rough pash , I slid my lips over
Billy's gently and moved to his neck I slowly started kissing his neck ,
I could see he was getting relaxed, I ran my tongue along the soft
perfect skin up to his mouth I could feel his warm breathe against my
face , then we just passed a few minutes looking into each others eyes
while I played with his hair , then I leaned in for the kill , his lips
touching mine , it felt better than the first time , our tongues sliding
over each others , something went through my body that I couldn't
describe , it was like white light was flowing through my body , it just
felt so right. I just stood there kissing him and feeling him against me
till somebody burst through the door , as I left Billy's lips I saw Wes
standing there , oh fuking hell I'm busted for sure , "ummmmmmm , I can
explain Wes" , "hi Tommy , god damn man , I'm out of it , I could of
swore I just saw you kissing that new kid , whatsis name , umm Billy" ,
phhft what man your wasted man I said , Jesus , he is so drunk he doesn't
know what he even saw , lucky for me , or maybe its time I told him , no
way , what am I thinking , I think I've drunk to much, if I told Wes I
could lose him forever , and he is my best friend, the one that has been
there for me when things got bad in my life , so no , I can never tell
him. I looked around and Billy wasn't there, I was worried, where would
he go , he has no friends here and doesn't know his way around .

I walked into the hall leaving Wes in the room half knocked out on the
bed, I searched the whole house top to bottom so I decided to look
outside , I was walking round and I was approaching the side of the house
till I heard whispering and it was Jessica , the chick that has been
hanging out with Wes the whole night she is so annoying , I heard her
with somebody saying "I saw you and fucking Tommy , I know what the fuck
you were doing with him , I was standing at the door he whole time , Wes
was too out of it to know or realize what he saw , but he would be so
hurt if he found out Tommy was ga... Then Billy interrupted "wait, Tommy
isn't what you think he is , he isn't gay or anything , it was me I
kissed him , I'm gay but please don't tell anybody , but just know that
Tommy isn't and Wes has nothing to worry about ok , but please just don't
tell him what you saw" ok , but if I see anything like that again I'm
telling Wes and you cant fucking stop me , got it , then I heard her
walking away. I walked inside and thought about what I was heard , Billy
took the blame for me , even though I was the one to kiss him , and I was
the one to put him up on the wall , wow. What is that I can hear outside
everybody was saying, and then I heard somebody yelling from outside
where Billy was last "YOU FUCKING DICKHEAD , GET UP OFF THE GROUND WIPE
THE BLOOD OF YOUR FACE AND FIGHT YOU PUSSY , KILL OR BE KILLED
MOTHERFUCKER ..... Oh my god , Billy , the only thing I could think of as
I ran downstairs and outside , what have they done to him . Billy was not
a big guy , he wasn't built for fighting. I got outside and I saw about
10 guys in a circle kicking and punching , the girls were screaming and
one of the guys hands was covered in blood , I was so worried I felt a
tear drop roll down my cheek I mean I can fight and I can fight really
good but not 10 guys at once so I was screaming "STOP , STOP YOU FUCKERS"
. I stood there speechless as they all spread out and I could see him
face down lying on the ground with a ripped and blood soaked t shirt
mixed with dirt....

Not very long i know , but chapter 3 is longer , feedback please at
tommathy@hotmail.com