Hey, here's is the thing that nobody reads. If your not 18 dont read this. This story is made up, not real. It came out of my Crazy, messed up head. And to start off i want to apologize if this bring back any repressed memories.
“How are you feeling honey?” my mom asked.
“I think you need to call a few friends and got out. You’ve been doing nothing but sitting on that couch for a month and a half.”
“I don’t feel like it.”
“You can’t do this to yourself. I know that you are heartbroken, but you can’t live your life in depression. Call your friends, go out and have a good time. Call Collin. He has been asking about you. Go to the movies with him. Go see that new Christmas Carol movie with Jim Carrey.”
“He’s part of the reason I’m in the situation that I’m in.”
“No, you’re the reason. I’m sorry, but you’re blaming someone else for something you did, for something that you could have stopped. The fact that you didn’t stop it tells me, and I’m sure everyone else, that you wanted that to happen.”
I opened my mouth to say something, but my mom stopped me.
“Either you are going to call Collin, or I will for you. I’m not going to let you sit around and pout.”
“Fine, I will call him.”
“Good, then take a shower.”
“Will you get off my fucking back?”
She just stood there. I felt bad for saying that to her, but at the same time, she was pissing me off. This is my life; I will do whatever I want with it. If I want to wallow in self pity for being such a moron. Then I will. I don’t see how she can tell me how to live my life.
Without another word, she walked away. I grabbed my phone and scrolled through my contacts. I found Collins name. I stared at the tiny screen for a few moments. I pressed the call button and put the phone to my ear. The phone rang once and then I heard his sweet sounding voice.
“Hey, glad you finally called. How are you doing?”
“Not very good.”
“Sorry to hear that.”
“Thanks. Would you want to…………… um………….you know…………………. Go out tonight?”
“What did you have in mind?”
“I don’t know. Anything to get me out of this house………….. and near you.”
“Well, I’m indecisive, you have to choose.”
“What about a movie?”
“That sounds great. What time?”
“I need to get in the shower, so how about you come over here and we will decide what movie and what time. “
“Ok, sounds good. I’m going to change clothes then head over there.”
We both hung up the phone. I grabbed some clean clothes, threw them on the bed, and went to the bathroom. I turned the radio on and got in the shower. It wasn’t a long shower, just enough to get the stink off my body. When I was done, I got out and dried off. I wrapped a towel around my waist and went back to my room. I opened the door and walked in. I started to take off the towel when I noticed that Collin was on my bed.
“Wow, you move fast.”
“What are you doing here so soon?”
“Hoping to get a view of this.”
“You’re a little perv.”
“I know, but I’m ok with it.”
We both laughed. I got dressed. It was very strange. Collin was just lying on bed and staring at me. Nobody looked at me like that other than Tyler. He had a look of lust on his face. It was the look that tells you that that person wants you and everything about you. As much as I thought it was weird, I loved it.
“Did you enjoy the show?”
“Yeah, but I think you could have gone slower and sexier.’
“Ok then.” I ran over, pushed him over so that he was lying down then I jumped on his chest. I held his arms down so he couldn’t get up.
“You told me to make you. This is my way of doing that.”
“Well I can still talk, so I guess your way sucks.”
I lowered my head and planted my lips on his and gave him a huge kiss. I made it last a while. I broke the kiss.
“Wow that got me to shut up.”
“Yeah……………. Collin, you’re a good kisser.”
“So are you.”
“Well thank you. So what movie did you want to see? My mom suggested that we see the Christmas Carol.”
“That’s sounds good. I think it looks pretty good.”
“Then it’s settled, let’s go.”
We walked down stairs and out to my car. I didn’t see another car in the drive way. I started wondering how he got here. It is too far of a walk, so his parents must have dropped him off.
We got in my car and drove up to the movie theater in Council Bluffs. We bought our tickets, grabbed some drinks and some popcorn. We walk to the I-max room. We sat in the back. I lifted up the arm rest so that Collin and I could cuddle next to each other.
How did my life get to where it is now? Wait, I know. In one life changing moment, my life was thrown to the wolves. One day my door bell rang and my half brother was standing on the other side. Since then, those wolves have been toying with me. They are only taking little chunks of my body at a time. Sometimes, they leave me alone. Those are the times that when something good happens. The last one was Brent. They went away for so long, so I thought they would finally leave me alone. But they didn’t. They came back, and when they did, they tore me into pieces.
I had been ignoring my phone. I wasn’t in the mood to see or talk to anyone. I was too depressed to talk to anyone. When I first broke up with Brent, I was kind of excited. I mean I still loved him, but still happy to be out of that.
Now that some time has passed, I hate myself for breaking up with Brent. I want to give him another chance. I want to be in his arms one more time. But I can’t.
My phone rang. I looked down at the screen. It was Peter.
“What’s that word?”
“You want to start moving in tomorrow. I will run the keys out to you right now.”
“You don’t need to do that. Aren’t you going to get a truck to get my stuff from Brent’s?”
“Yeah, also tomorrow I will get James and Brad to help me get the rest of you stuff at Brent’s. I’m sure you don’t want to be there.”
“I really don’t, but I want to. There are things in the room that I want to leave there.”
“Ok, but I will make sure you and Brent stay away from each other……….. Do you still want me to get James and Brad?”
“No that’s ok. We can handle it. There isn’t a lot of stuff there. ”
“Ok, I will see you tomorrow morning.”
I hung up the phone. I was lying on my bed, starring up at the ceiling. I started to day dream about how different my life would have been if Tristan never showed up. I imagined that I would be happy. I would have a relationship with my dad and my mom would still be here. I would be able to sit at home, and watch TV with both of them and laugh.
Thinking about all of that made me even more depressed. I rolled off my bed, walked over to the dresser. Brie let me use one of the drawers so that I could put my clothes in there. I grabbed a small box out from under my jeans. I sat back down with the box in my hand. I opened the lid and took out a small metal object. Just as I was pulling it out, Brie opened the door. I dropped it and closed the lid.
“Hey…………….What’s that?” Brie asked pointing at the box.
“Sure it is. Tell me.”
“No. I don’t have to tell you everything.”
“I’m moving out tomorrow. Peter got me an apartment. He is going to help me. So now you won’t have to put up with me.”
I lay down and rolled over so that I wasn’t facing her.
“How can you think that I’m only putting up with you? You are my best friend. I will help you out no matter what.” I said.
“Yeah, you’re only my friend because you feel sorry for me. That’s the only reason that people are friends with me. Brent was with me was because he wanted some ass. He went to Collin because I wouldn’t give him that ass.”
“Shut up Tyler. You know that is not true. You’re only saying that because you’re hurt. You need to get over it. Talk to Brad, he likes you. Don’t think of him as a rebound. Think of him as a new chapter in your life. Brent’s chapter in your life is closed. This self pity thing needs to end.”
“If you won’t call him yourself, then I will call him for you. I have watched you lay there for a month. I’m tired of seeing it.”
“Fine, then I will leave now.”
Tyler got off the bed and grabbed his bag. He grabbed everything that wasn’t already inside and threw it in there. I stood there and watched. I didn’t know what I was supposed to do. He is an emotional wreck. I tried to reason with him and he blew up. I’m just going to let him go. He is acting stupid, but I don’t think he will do something stupid.
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