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Therefore, Any resemblance to persons living, dead or not yet born are completely accidental and unintentional, so don't go thinking I'm talkin' about you!
The Author reserves all rights. copyright 2005
The Author is Andrew Simon van Ryan. Email me at Zlatazobo@att.net
It's a boys' life!
By
Andrew van Ryan
Copyright
2005
In the
morning I called David Hayes and he confirmed what Norman had said the
previous
evening. After that, I wasted some time doing dumb stuff like picking
up my room
and taking my dirty clothes to the laundry room before making my way
down the
path that ran amongst the orange trees to my grandmothers' house.
Her
home was just two hundred yards away from our house, but the view of it
was
completely obscured by the trees. This provided both homes with
privacy
from the other, a feature I think my dad planned when he built
them.
I spent a little over an
hour
talking to my grandmother about Norman and how he was going to come
make
apologies today. I also told her I'd decided to give him the
chance to
prove himself as a friend. She expressed concern that he had been
drunk
the night he'd awakened her and I reassured her I'd ask if he was still
drinking or if it had been a one time thing. Then she wanted to
know if I
liked him and I told her the truth, that I didn't know. I
explained how I
was giving him a chance to show me what he was really like and that I'd
make a
decision later. She winked at me, and then announced she was
going to be
away for the afternoon and that Norman and I could stay as long as I
wanted.
See, my grandmother knew I was
queer, and
I knew that she knew I was queer, but we never discussed it,
ever. It was
hinted at, but we never had a direct conversation about it. It
didn't
seem to bother her, so it was cool talking about guys with her. I
just
didn't give her too much information, knowing she didn't want to hear
about
what we did together. About fifteen minutes before Norm was
supposed to
show, I walked to the retaining wall that separated her front yard from
the
edge of our street. The wall was only about three feet tall and
provided
a place to sit and watch what little traffic flowed by. It was
almost
always one of nine cars that passed, each one a car of a neighbor, the
closest
of which lived over a mile past hers' and my parents houses. On
occasion
a strange automobile would rumble by and we'd stare, trying to identify
the
occupants.
I was gazing off towards the dry, brown hills in the
distance when Norm arrived, nicely dressed and obviously nervous.
Leaning his bike against the tree in her yard, he grinned at me as
I
greeted him.
"Hey!" I said, giving him one of
my
half crooked smiles that made me look shy. He looked nervous as
he spoke
up.
"Hey, so here we are." he said before
casting a glance at his shoes.
"You ready for this?"
"I guess. How should I start?"
"Well, first thing is, you should call
her Mrs.
van Ryan. Don't call her Grandma until she tells you it's OK if
you
do. Second thing is, don't look at your shoes, look at her.
That's
really about it, I think."
Norm sighed as he followed me up the steps to the front
porch.
opened the front door and announced his arrival.
"Grandma! Normans here!" She
entered the living room from her kitchen as we stepped in.
"Well, hello Norman" She
smiled. "Andy says you have something to say to me." Before
he
could answer she turned to me. "Andy, go get the two of you
something to drink."
"OK." I answered and headed
for the kitchen. As I was
crossing the living room, I heard him begin.
"Mrs. van Ryan, I'm really sorry for
having bothered you and for waking you up." he said, really sounding
sincere. I nearly laughed out loud when she answered.
"Well of course you are, Norman." her
voice droned.
I fixed two glasses of her sun tea and as I returned I heard her
saying
"Alright then, those are my rules. Think you can live with
that?"
"Yes, Mrs. van Ryan." Norm
replied.
"Oh, just call me grandma, like
everyone
else does, my dear boy." She turned towards me as I crossed the
carpet
holding the tea. "Well, I have to be going. You two have
fun
and I'll see you about 6:30 this evening."
"What if we leave?" I asked, just
in case
things weren't to my liking.
"Oh, then just lock up and I'll see you
in
the morning." She answered, picking up her purse. "Have fun
now! Goodbye, Norman!"
"Goodbye!" he called out as she
exited. After the door closed, I suggested we go to the
basement. I
felt more comfortable there and since I had planned to question
him about
a lot of things, thought it the best place for doing so. Norm
followed me
into the stairwell and down to the door, where I had him open it for
me.
As we stepped inside, Norms face lit up.
"Wow! This is really cool!" he
remarked, following me to the center of the room where I sat on the
carpeted
floor. He sat too and I handed him his drink.
"So what did she say?" I asked.
"She thanked me for saying I was sorry,
telling me she knew I was nervous and then she told me her rules."
"Which are?" I quizzed.
"Don't ever drink alcohol before or when I
come
here and don't do anything to hurt you or your feelings, otherwise she
said
she'd kick my butt right up over my head!"
"Sounds like my Grandma!" I
laughed.
"So, dude. She's gone for the
afternoon?"
"Yep. Told me she's gotta work, because
the woman who worked
for her on Sundays is getting married and she quit. Grandma says
she's
just going to open later and work until 7:00 each day, except
Sundays.
That day's only til 6:00."
Norm looked a little nervous like he wasn't too sure about what
he asked
next.
"Does she know you're queer?" he
asked in a near whisper.
"Uh, huh!" I mouthed, nodding my
head. Norm's eyes bugged out.
"Did you tell her about me?" he
questioned in a bit louder voice.
"Didn't have to." I said
calmly. "She figured it out long time ago. She's' a smart
lady, you know."
Norm truly looked amazed at this and didn't speak for a
moment.
When he did, it was to say how cool it was for me to have someone like
her as
family. He was really shocked when I told him she knew what Jim
and I did
when he'd stayed overnight. Eventually, I decided it was time to
start
asking the questions I'd planned out.
"Norm, why did you follow me
everywhere? And why did you suddenly start saying all that freaky
stuff?" I asked.
"Simple. I wanted you to notice me." he
replied, beginning to
look at the floor. "But I didn't know what to say. I was
hoping
you'd say something first and after a while, I just started saying
those weird
things to get your attention."
"But you know, it kinda scared me
having someone following me
and it scared Matt really bad. He was kidnapped once, you know."
"Oh, I didn't know that!" he
startled. "Guess that's
why I don't see him hangin' around here much anymore. I'm real sorry I scared you and him,
Andy."
"Yeah, OK. But tell Matt
you're sorry, too." I paused,
and then asked a big one.
"So, where did you come up with
all
that stuff, like the goat thing, and saying how your butt was full of
cum and
stuff. Where'd you come up with that?"
Norm sighed and kinda looked at me. The light was coming
from the
fixture directly above us, lighting the room brightly. I gazed at
his
face and for the first time really noticed how pretty he was. Not
cute,
not handsome but pretty. His shiny black hair parted naturally in
the
middle and hung down over his ears almost to his collar. It
framed his
thin delicate facial features and made for a dramatic contrast with his
crystal
blue eyes which appeared to sparkle in the light cast from above.
As he
spoke, his highly arched eyebrows rode up and down while his slightly
puffy
lips shown a perfect shade of pink to compliment his skin tone. I
thought
how girls must be jealous of his striking looks wishing they were as
pretty as
he was.
"I said all that stuff because Tom had
said it to me." he sighed.
"Who's Tom?" I asked, seeing as
I'd
been called back to reality when he spoke.
"The first guy I had sex with."
Norm
stated as he began to fidget. I noticed his sudden nervousness,
so I
continued down that road of questions.
"Where'd ya meet him?"
"He lived across the street from me, up
until about a year
ago."
"I don't remember any kid named Tom
living on your street."
What Norman said next took me by surprise.
"Who said he was a kid?"
"You mean he was an adult?" I
asked
after a long moment. "How old was he?"
"Thirty." Norm said sounding
quite sad.
"Dude! That's too creepy!
Why'd
you like him?"
"I didn't!" Norm protested.
"He got me drunk and I
didn't know what to do, or how to make him stop!"
A chord had been struck within him and it seemed he wanted to
spill it
all out, so I just listened and let him unload.
"He was my friend, just a friendly
neighbor who started inviting me over and taking me places I hadn't
been since
my dad left us. I didn't know anything about sex until he told me
I was
old enough to learn how to be an adult and since I didn't have a dad,
he'd
teach me." Norm rambled. "He started telling me stuff and
then
he brought out some movies, nasty stuff and showed um to me. A
few days
later he showed me some more and then said he would show me his dick
and I
should show him mine. That weekend he asked me to stay over and
he got me
drunk for the first time. That's when we had sex."
Norm suddenly paused and looked at me, his eyes now staring
wildly. I just kept my concerned expression while resting my chin
on my
hand.
"Go on." I said softly.
After
a slight pause, he licked his lips and continued, in a much calmer
manner.
"Andy, the guy did everything to
me.
He made me do it to him too. It wasn't my fault."
When he said this, it was time to jump in.
"Norm, it wasn't your fault at all. The
guy used you, and
that's on him. You didn't know what he was gonna do, how could
you
know? But just remember this, OK? It happens to a lot of
guys,
they're just never brave enough to tell anyone about it."
After saying that, I leaned forward and put my arms around
him. He
fell forward and leaned against me. His arms reached out and tightened
around
me as he slightly rocked back and forth. I think he might have
been
crying, but he didn't want to let me see. So, I just held him
until I
felt his body relax. Sitting up, I looked at his face, his pretty
young
face with the damp, sparkling blue eyes and I couldn't help myself, so
I leaned
forward and I kissed him.
Norm flinched with surprise before he let out a
slight sound and melted his lips to mine. His reaction was infectious,
and I felt
myself relax, too. I continued kissing him for a long time,
instinctively knowing to
keep it tender and sweet, rather than hard and sexual. When we finally
did
break our embrace, he looked deep into my eyes, then broke out in tears.
"I've never told anybody about
that." He sniffled. "No one else knows."
I looked at him and asked
something
personal.
"Is it because of him that you
think
you're gay?" His answer would tell me a lot.
"No, I knew I was long before I
ever
met him." He sighed. "I didn't know about the word gay, but I knew I
was different from other boys by the time I turned ten." Norm
exhaled deeply then continued. "I didn't like girls then and I still
don't
now."
"Did Tom know that?" I asked.
"Yeah, I told him the first time
he
showed me his movies. He said I was like him and the next time he
showed me
movies, they were of guys doing it."
"And you've never told anyone
else
about what he did?" I quizzed.
"No, but my mom looked at me real
funny when I came home after spending the weekend at his house. She
waited until
I went to my room, then walked across the street. I saw her from my
bedroom
window going into his house, then like about a minute later I heard her
screaming something at the top of her lungs as she came outta his front
door.
She didn't say anything to me, but Tom moved out that same week and his
house
went up for sale. I never saw him again, thank god."
"Dude, I'm sorry. I didn't
know." I muttered, feeling bad that I hadn't been nicer to Norm in the
past. "You said he moved a year ago, so that must have been about the
same
time you first saw me."
"Yeah, I caught you and Matt
within
a week or so after he moved. Andy, I said all that strange stuff
because I
believed what he'd told me, that gay guys liked hearin' really nasty
stuff. I said all that trying to impress you."
He gazed up into my eyes and his lips formed a weak
smile.
"Guess you weren't very
impressed,
huh?" he mumbled softly.
I was silent at first, but then broke out in
laughter,
leaning back and clutching my belly while my head tipped backwards.
Rocking
forward, I grinned at him.
"Oh, I was impressed, all right!
Just not in a good way!" I chuckled at him.
Norm smiled and began to giggle, a small sound at
first, but
it grew and so did my laughter, until both of us were nearly crying
from
laughing so hard, sitting there face to face on the basement floor.
As we smiled at each other, I
began to
think that I'd been wrong about him, and how he somehow seemed changed.
Yes,
Norm seemed friendly and relaxed, almost a different person. But then I
thought
of one more question.
"So, why were you drunk when you
came over here that night?"
Norm sagged a bit and stared at
me. He
looked suddenly sad, like he was recalling something which had remained
hidden
inside when he'd told me about Tom. He looked directly into my eyes and
spoke.
"I thought I needed to get drunk
the
night I came over, because I wanted to tell you I was in love with you
and
getting drunk was the only way I could bring myself to say it.
When Tom
got me drunk, I had told him I loved him, even though I didn't. I just
wanted
to feel loved and being drunk made it easy for me to say it to him. The
night I came
here, I thought if I was drunk and said I loved you, the rest would be
easy.
I'd just take all my clothes off, lie down and let you do whatever you
wanted
to me." he tipped his head off to one side and continued. "Do you see?
Do you see what he did to me, feeding me all that sick bullshit,
screwing up my
head so I'd think that's how to make love?" I could see hurt in
his
eyes, but rather than let him continue on towards another flood of
tears, I
interrupted.
"OK. So now you've told me you
love
me and you're not drunk." I smiled, and reached for his hand. "Wanna
know what I
think?"
He looked too stunned to reply, so I didn't wait for an answer. "I like hearing you say you love me, and I think I just might fall in love with you, too. At least I'd like to try."
Now he really began to cry, but this time it
wasn't
caused by his inner pain. It was caused by overwhelming joy! Norm and I
held
each other for a long time, me comforting him between the times he'd
look up
and kiss me. A smile returned to his face and I felt shivers. Wow,
maybe
falling in love with Norman was going to be easy! I began to stare at
his
beautiful face.
"God, Norman, how did you get to be so
pretty?"
"I dunno, didn't know you thought I
was."
"I do. Very much so."
He looked at me and began to giggle.
"Andy, you're really cute, the cutest
guy
I've ever seen, in fact." he said. "But right now, you look like the
cutest raccoon in the whole world."
"Huh?" I said with a huff.
"I'm sorry. It's your eyes, they've got
rings around them from when you fell." he giggled on. "Go look in the
mirror."
I jumped up from the floor and went to where the
mirror hung
by the bed. Inspecting my face, I did indeed look something like a
raccoon!
"Oh, god!" I moaned, looking at my two
black eyes.
"Don't worry, It'll go away. Besides, I
like raccoons!" Norm said cheerfully.
"Just be glad I like you, Norm.
Otherwise
I'd make you pay for that comment!" I said with a laugh as I turned to
look at him. "No, not like." I revised, gazing into his blue eyes.
"Love.... I love you."
We locked eyes and stared, smiling at each other. He
looked
about to speak when upstairs the doorbell rang, followed by a loud
knocking.
"Who could that be?" I wondered
aloud. "Sit
tight, I'll be right back." I told him and hurried to the stairs.
I rushed up to the landing and ran to the entryway. I opened the door
and was
greeted by the sight of Matt and his friend, Paul.
"Hey, Andy!" they said in unison,
before Matt took over.
"Oh, man! You did get two black eyes!
Are
you OK?"
"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied.
"What are you guys doing here?"
"Oh, we were riding our bikes and came
over to see you. Your mom said you were here, so , here we are!"
"Cool, Come on in." I said while wondering how to explain
Norms presence. I noticed the way the two of them
walked close together crossing the living room, and I had to ask.
"Are you two together?"
They looked to one another, then to me.
"Kinda" they replied at the same
time.
"Are you two boyfriends?" I asked
pointedly. Again they looked to each other, before looking at me and
answering
in unison.
"Kinda."
"Oh, my god!" I groaned "You're
turning into the bobsie twins."
"Who?" Paul asked as I headed down the
stairs. Matt began rambling on about my black eyes as we descended into
the
basement. Stepping through the door, I looked over as Matt entered and
stopped dead in his tracks. Staring open mouthed at Norm for a moment,
he
suddenly glanced to me and asked.
"What's he doin' here?"
I looked directly in Matts' eyes, then spoke
in a
soft voice.
"Matt, Norman has something he
wants
to say to you." I turned to look at Norm, still seated in the middle of
the floor. He looked nervous again, but without hesitating he spoke.
Yeah, Matt. I do."
Matt gave me a doubtful look before slowly crossing
to where
Norm sat. He folded his arms over his chest and stared down at him.
"I think we all better sit
down." I instructed. "This might take a while......"
Continued................
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