Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2004 20:09:06 -0800 (PST)
From: Toxic Guy <toxic_guy_04@yahoo.com>
Subject: It's My Life chapter 2.

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contains descriptions of sexual activity between teenage boys. However the
acts are consensual and are a result of their love for one another. This
story is completely fiction, all descriptions, and names are also
fictitious; any similarities are truly just that, purely a coincidence.

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This is my first story also... so kinda just go with the flow... now on to
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It's My Life. Chp,2

BEEP... BEEP.... BEEP!!!

Psh... some nap that was, I got to sleep for a whole hour since I couldn't
stop thinking about Joe. I was going to kill Ally the next time I see
her. Why did she just have open her mouth today? Of all days why did she
choose to point out the obvious to me?!  I looked at my clock and it was
now 5 PM. I had a half hour before I had to be at school, god what a day. I
feel so beat up and tired. Coach Eaden had been running us extra hard for
this week's game. So I rolled out of my bed and it was off to the school
again for me.

As I walked into our field house I heard "Rhythm Nation" and then "Toxic"
begin in mid song. I looked over to the court and saw the dancers doing
their thing to the songs. Since today was the big game they were going to
pull out all stops. We had the cheerleaders doing their performance, and
the dance team doing their performances. I liked watching the dancers get
down. I wish I could dance like that sometimes, I mean I don't have two
left feet but I can be a little rhythmic challenged at times. They finished
and I waved to the girls and walked into the locker room.

The time between I got there and before the game was about to start flew
by. I put my uniform on and talked it up with my friend Andy and the other
guys before the game. I threw my knee brace on and before I knew it, Coach
Eaden was telling us to get read to go out for warm ups. I always feel dumb
doing warm ups because everyone is pretty much just staring at you, but
whatever I go with the flow. I hear the "#1" playing and I know it's time
to go out to the crowd. Running out of the locker room I looked over at
Scott and we both pretty much thought the same thing. Quiet the crowd here
tonight.

"This is kinda funny, it is almost never this packed besides sectionals and
this game." Scott joked with me.

"Yea, but for sectionals it really counts, today should be easy as hell,
we're hella lot higher ranked in state the Capone could ever wish." I said
looking around to seeing if Joe and Matt had got there.  I spotted B and
waved to her and then looked some more only to find Connie and Giana
standing around with their dance team. Connie blew me kisses and I felt
myself blushing and went back to warm ups.

"Yea I know Jake. How's the knee feeling? That's the last thing we need is
that thing to go out on us tonight."

"Pretty damn good. It isn't even bothering me, and it's finally to get used
to going a full game again so I should be set. Why, is someone worried?" I
batted my eyes at him messing around. I had torn my ACL during the summer
playing baseball with my our team after practice one day and had surgery
and today's' game would only be the second game I had played since I came
back.

Coach called us in and we all huddled in. Eaden pulled me aside to give me
a quick talk. "Jake I want you to be careful, tonight. If you need to come
out signal me and I'll pull you out. I don't wanna take any chances with
you tonight." I nodded my head and we huddled in. Coach and me had gotten
close this year. He was the one who was at every rehab session I had and
kept my spirits up. He was more then just a coach; we were friends outside
of the team and school. I was one of the select few who got ot call him by
his first name. I looked up in the bleachers and finally saw Joe. We
connected eye to eye and I got chills, he just smiled at me and I went back
to paying attention to what coach was saying.

The first half went by really fast, almost to fast. It was becoming a
really physical game really fast tonight. I already got an elbow shot by
this dick Johnson on the other team. Eaden was going ballistic on the refs
and it was getting rowdy crazy in the stands. At the end of the first half
we were in the lead and went back into the locker room at half time for
some well-deserved rest. I had to head out right away though for my sister,
she wanted me to record their performance because Bianca was as about as
reliable as a Barbie doll. The dance team kicked some major ass and I
handed the camera and went back into he locker room before I got chewed out
anymore then I already was going to be for leaving.

The second half went by even faster our defense was kicking ass we were in
the lead and only 3 minuets were left in the game. I went for a lay up and
as I planted my foot, #70 on the other team came running up to block and he
clipped my knee. I hadn't felt that kind of pain in a long time as I fell
to the ground like a rag doll. It all happened in slow motion and the next
thing I knew I was on the ground. I looked around and saw the refs call
time out as I grabbed my knee. Jeff and Bryan came running over and pulled
that ass #70 off me and came to ask if I was alright. It hurt but I didn't
think it was broken or hurt again. Eaden came to check on me and I told him
I could finish the game. I got up and while it hurt to put weight on it,
there was no way I wasn't gonna finish the game. I looked over to Joe while
I was on the ground and the look of horror went across his face before
Bryan blocked my view. I shot my free throws and we were kicking their ass
75-25. With a minuet left I saw #70 and who was going for a lay-up
himself. I guess Steve and me had the same idea and we both blocked him and
he fell to the ground without either of us getting a foul. My knee was
killing me but the clock finally ran down and we had won the big game
tonight. I was happy, the crowd went crazy and I was happy. The final score
was 80-25. We huddled up and then went to walk back to the locker room. I
told Joe I would prob. be about a 20 minutes if he wanted to head out he
could. He said he would go with Matt and I'd see them up there. I said I'd
call him and limped back into the locker room.

I finally left the school like 30 minutes later with Scott and we headed
over to B's house for her party. I called Joe on his cell and it sounded
pretty good in the background. Giana called me to check up on me and said
she would probably go up to B's after her and Connie went home to change.

By the time I got to the party lots of people were already drunk. I said hi
to a few friends from the team before I went to go look for Matt, Joe, and
Pat. Bianca came up to me in her drunken mess trying to hit on me. I gave
her a kiss on the forehead and teased her by saying maybe later.

I finally found Joe and the rest of them. When I looked at Joe I got this
weird feeling. Almost like when you're younger getting downstairs to open
your presents on Christmas. I smiled and he waved and raised his beer
signaling me to come over by him.

"Hey Jake, Nice game tonight man. You had me scared though with your little
spill and all." Pat said to me looking back from me to Joe and back to me
again smirking.

"Yea, but hey you gotta do what you gotta do." I told him nonchalantly
wondering if he had any clue that I might have had feelings for Joe. Even
if he did, he was just as close as a friend to me as Joe so I'm more then
sure he wouldn't care.

"So Joe, looking to hook up with anyone tonight?" Matt asked him being as
clueless as ever.

"Nah man, I'm just looking to have some fun and everything tonight. I have
my eyes set on someone else if you really wanna know." I looked over to Pat
and he looked at me with his eyebrows raised, I laughed.

"So Pat wanna come here for a second I wanna talk to you." I pulled him
outside on Bianca's deck and asked him what was going on. He told me that
he knows I'm gay, and he was really cool with it. I don't know what gave me
away but he just told me he had a feeling. A feeling?! Yea we were friends
since preschool, but this is big and I was thinking more and more if I was
that obvious.

"I really am that obvious Pat?"

"No it's just, I see the way you look at Joe and I see the way he looks at
you and I can tell you both have feelings for each other. But just know
that your secret is safe with me and I won't say a word to anyone. Joe
doesn't seem to get it yet but I'm sure he will. You just take care of him
when and if you two get together. I don't wanna see him getting hurt or
anything." I breathed a sigh of relief and knew that Pats word was good. He
was Joe's best friend after all so I suppose he might have some idea. I
choose not to press the issue anymore and go back inside with him. But one
thing stuck out the most in my head. IS JOE EVEN GAY?! Pat seemed to hint
at it but I wasn't sure.

I walked around and saw Joe talking with Bianca and walked over
there. Smiling at both of them obviously both of them were a little tipsy
and I was too but not as much as some of the other people around here.

"Hey guys, you know it's getting late so I was thinking I'm gonna head
home, my knee still hurts a little and I'm tired as hell." It wasn't a lie
it was 2:30 in the morning and the party kind of died down by now.

"Alright, I hope you had a good time sweetie. Give me a call tomorrow and
we can go out to lunch or something like that. I'll be home cleaning this
mess all day." Bianca gave me a big hug and went back to her drink. I kind
of felt bad because she usually gets stuck cleaning up after everyone. But
then again her parents hired housekeepers so I am more then sure she has
some people helping her. I gave her a little nod, which meant that I would
remember when I get up tomorrow.

"So I'll talk to you tomorrow Joe."

"Yea if you want after you hang out with Bianca you could stop by or
something. We can play some pool or something." He looked almost hopeful
that I would say yes.

"Sure big guy. Just give me a call on my cell or something. I should be
around somewhere. " I gave him one of them handshake/hug things and walked
out of the kitchen to go make a quick stop by Giana.

I finished my good byes and told Giana I was going to head home for the
night. She told me she would be there in an hour or so. I told her I would
try to stay up and wait for her and she gave me a hug and I left.

When I stepped out I realized it was raining, not just that, it was raining
hard. I ran from her house to my car. Drove the 5 minuets home and rand
back out to the house. I had just changed into a pair of basketball short
and a wife beater and had put on the stereo in the house. I walked into our
study with my journal and began to write. Within 25 minuets I heard the
doorbell and the dog barking. I wondered why Giana was ringing the
doorbell. She usually uses comes in through the garage since that door is
always unlocked. I got up and walked to the door.

I opened it and saw a soaking wet Joe standing at the door. He looked like
he was crying or something. I let him in and took his jacket as he threw
his flip-flops on the doormat. I looked at him with water dripping down his
face, he looked so cute but scared at the same time.

We walked up to my room so I could give him something to change to since he
looked soaked. I was guessing that he had walked here from Bianca's house,
which was all the way on the other side of the sub division. I don't get it
though; he could have called me if he needed a ride. I threw him the exact
same thing I was wearing, a pair of Addidas basketball shorts and a wife
beater. I watched him changing as he didn't seem to have a clue I was
there. Taking off his shirt to reveal his nicely ripped 6 pack. He wasn't
that defined but you could definitely see that he worked out too. And his
muscular legs change out of his nicely fitted boot cut jeans. He looked so
incredibly hot in my clothes. I have seen Joe change before but I have
never looked at him like this. I didn't get why I kept thinking about all
of this though. From one day I was perfectly fine living my life without
realizing I had feelings for Joe, to me fully realizing that I had a huge
crush on him.

"So you wanna talk about it or anything?"

"Actually Jake, there are a few things I need to talk about but I don't
know how to say it." He dried off his hair with a towel and we walked back
into our study.

"You know you can talk to me about anything Joe. You're the closest thing
that I have to a brother besides Matt and Pat. Don't be so worried." I
looked back at Joe and his eyes were all puffy. I was more then positive he
had been crying while walking here.

"Alright I know that and I feel the same about you Jake. But there is
something else I need to talk to you about also Jake...." I felt a lump in
my throat and Joe began to speak up again.

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TBC

*****Sorry about the delay in writing the next chapter. I had got boggled
down with other things so my time was really cut in half. Thanks to all of
those who sent in emails also! Those really made me try and write as good
of a second chapter as I could. *****

Tell me what you guys think.. good or bad! You can email your comments, and
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It's My Life