Date: Sat, 23 Sep 2000 22:58:31 EDT
From: DrJJC19@aol.com
Subject: Leo and Jase, Chapter 7 (Category: Gay/High School)

Wassup everyone. I know this chapter is WAAAAAAYYYYY late, but my life
has gotten pretty hectic with school and other things. I've finally got
it out, so I hope I haven't lost any regular readers.

Thanks for all your emails and support. It makes me feel good to hear
from people who like my writing. Thanks again...  Here it is....


Leo and Jase
Chapter 7

Leo drove the golf cart up to the front door and looked around for a car
pulling in. He saw Ben's car parked in front of the garage and he stepped out
of the golf cart.
"Ben? What's he doing back?" Leo asked softly to himself. Jase followed Leo
inside and closed the door behind them.
A voice greeted them.
"Hey you two!" Ben said from across the foyer.
"Ben, what are you doing home so early?" Leo asked in surprise.
"Well, hey to you too!" Ben said laughing.
"Well..I just didn't expect you home for a couple more days." Leo explained,
trying to cover up his disappointment that Ben had come home so soon.
"Well, turns out that my family's gone to the Bahamas and they said I could
stay at the house in a note they wrote me, but I figured I'd come back here
and check up on you."
"Check up on me? Benji, how old am I now?" Leo asked, laughing, punching Ben
in the shoulder.
"Hey Jase," Ben greeted Jase, putting a hand on his shoulder. "How's things?
Did the police figure out who robbed your house?"
"No not yet, but they've got a few good leads. Finger prints and hair I
think." Jase explained. He really liked Ben. He was a good guy.
"Well, I'm sure they'll turn up with something." Ben gave Jase a warm smile
and then turned back to Leo.
"Heard from your parents?" he asked.
"Yea right. Sometimes I think they get away just so they can take a break
from me or something." Leo said, glancing in Jase's direction.
"Leo," Ben scolded. Leo gave an apologetic look and then smiled.
"Why don't you take advantage of the time off and get outta here, Benji?" Leo
suggested, "Go to the beach or something. Get some new scenery. I know you
get sick of taking care of me all the time."
Ben looked up at him suspicously, "Are you trying to get rid of me? You two
got something going on?"
Jase and Leo looked at each other with wide-eyed expressions. Leo's heart
jumped into his throat and Jase's face turned bright red.
"You two planning on having a party or something?" Ben finished. Leo and Jase
breathed a sigh of relief that was painfully obvious. Ben shot them confused
stares and searched them for an answer.
"No, Ben, we're not having a party." Leo smiled, rolling his eyes. Ben
laughed heartily and then began walking into the kitchen. Leo and Jase
followed, taking a seat at the table.
"So what have you two been up to?" Ben asked, glancing at the clock. "Wait a
minute, aren't you two suppose to be in school?" Leo and Jase looked at each
other again guiltily.
Leo tried to come up with an excuse, but couldn't. Finally he just came up
with, "I needed a break and I figured I could show Jase around the grounds.
We aren't doing anything today in school, no tests or anything." Leo looked
down at the floor. Ben shrugged.
"Alright." Jase looked up at Ben surprised and then looked at Leo who was
breathing out. Jase smiled at Leo lovingly, laughing at his adorable way of
showing embarassment.
"You know what? Maybe I will take a little trip. It'll do me good to get away
by myself for a while." Ben suddenly decided. Leo perked up.
"Really?"
"Yea, I think I'll go up north to the mountains or to a beach somewhere. Get
some "me" time." Ben thought aloud. Jase noticed a little perk in Leo's
posture as he thought Ben might leave them alone again. 'He's so adorable,'
Jase thought to himself. He smiled and Leo looked at him questioningly. Jase
shook his head and Leo shrugged.
    Ben noticed their little looks towards each other and began to get a
little suspicious. 'What's up with the looks they keep stealing? Are they
planning something? No, Ben, stop it. There they go again..something's going
on,' Ben thought to himself while looking at the two boys.
"Anyway, I'll leave tomorrow morning, after you two go to school because you
ARE going!" Ben glared at Leo sternly. Leo nodded his head and his face
reddened a little. Jase smiled once again, but turned his head away.
"Yea yea," Leo rolled his eyes and stood up. "Well, we're gonna go up to my
room and chill, then we might go out for a bite. You can come if you want,"
Leo offered.
"I might just take you up on that," Ben nodded, waving as Jase and Leo left
the kitchen.
    As they entered Leo's room, Leo shut the door behind him. He snuck up
behind Jase and wrapped his arms around Jase's waist. Jase smiled and placed
his hands on Leo's as he embraced him from behind. Leo softly laid kisses on
the back of Jase's neck causing Jase to giggle slightly.
"That tickles, man," Jase laughed, pulling away. Leo pulled him back, facing
him and held him tight. Jase put his arms around Leo and kissed his forehead.
Leo smiled up into Jase's eyes and then pulled back slightly. Jase smiled
back at him warmly. Jase frowned.
"What's the matter, J?" Leo asked worriedly. Jase pulled away and plopped
down on the bed. He fiddled with his fingers nervously and stared down at his
feet.
"What's up, Jase? What's wrong?" Leo persisted. He pulled Jase's chin up so
he was looking up at Leo in the face. A small tear ran down Jase's cheek.
"I'm scared as hell, Leo. I know I've been such a baby about this shit and
I'm always crying about it all, but I'm scared shitless." Jase explained,
choking on his tears. Leo smiled at Jase comfortingly.
"It's okay, J, whatever you want to do is fine with me," Leo assured him.
"That's just the thing, I don't have a clue what I want! I don't want to
be....gay...everything I've ever known tells me its wrong and everyone I've
ever known has treated it as a horrible thing and I don't even feel like I'm
gay because gay people are all prissy and stuff and they're just not normal.
But then I'm slapped in the face with the fact that I'm falling for a GUY and
that means I am gay which scares the hell outta me. Which brings up another
question, am I going to hell because of it?" Jase rambled on and on, tears
streaming down his face. Leo rubbed Jase's back and embraced him comfortingly.
"What makes you think you're going to hell, Jase?"
"Everything I've been taught in my religion and my beliefs have told me that
being gay is wrong and stuff. I don't want to be shunned for this, ya know? I
just don't know!" Jase continued sobbing.
"You can't help how you feel, Jase. Being gay isn't something you choose to
be, we were born this way. You're not going to hell and its not wrong to be
this way. I'm scared too, believe me, but you should accept it." Leo tried to
comfort Jase, but he kept crying.
"I just....its hard Leo." Jase looked into Leo's eyes and saw the concern in
them. 'He really cares about me, doesn't he?' Jase thought to himself. He
pulled Leo into a hug and then pulled away.
"I'm sorry. Let's go get something to eat, I'm starved." He had to change the
subject so he'd stop thinking about it. What good does thinking about your
problems all the time get anybody? None. He had to stop thinking about it.
Leo nodded and stood up and helped Jase up.
"It'll all work out, J, I promise." Leo reassured him. Jase smiled at him and
kissed his cheek.
"Thank you, Leo." Jase walked out of the room with Leo following him.

*At dinner*

"So what did you guys do today while you played hookie?" Ben asked, taking a
sip of his beer. Leo and Jase looked at each other guiltily and then back at
Ben.
"Oh, nothin much, just went around the grounds and explored. I showed Jase
around the place." Leo replied. 'Yea, you showed me around alright,' Jase
thought, smiling to himself. Leo smiled over at Jase who seemed to be in his
own world. Jase noticed Leo looking at him and smiled back lovingly. Ben
watched the two steal glances from across the table and his brain began
ticking.

*After dinner*
They pulled up into the garage and hopped out of the car. Ben closed the
garage door and followed the boys inside.
"You know, I'm pretty beat. I think I'll go ahead and get to bed." Jase
rubbed his eyes sleepily. Leo and Ben nodded and said goodnight, Leo and Jase
sharing a special glance as Jase began heading upstairs. Leo and Ben then
proceeded to go into the den where they sprawled out on the big couches and
turned on the TV. Ben looked over at Leo who was staring at the TV intently.
"Hey Leo," Ben asked.
"Yea?" Leo replied, keeping his eyes on the television.
"What's up with you and Jase?"
Leo's attention immediately shifted to his guardien who was eyeing him
suspiciously.
"What do you mean?" Leo asked, not looking into Ben's eyes. He knew exactly
what Ben was talking about.
"I saw you two glancing at each other all googly eyed, Leo. Don't play stupid
with me."
"I don't know what you're talkin about," Leo tried to cover.
"Aw come on, Leo, I've raised you. I know when you're lying and you're lying
right now. Are you gay?"
Leo stared at Ben. Was he that easy to read? Ben had always been able to see
right through him.
"No.." Leo trailed off.." I don't know."
"Look, its ok Leo. There's nothing wrong with it. SO are you?" Ben persisted.
"I mean, I still like girls, but...its hard to explain." Leo searched Ben for
a reaction. He seemed to be completely cool with it. Ben nodded in
understanding.
"So, you and Jase are a thing now or something?" Ben asked, nudging Leo
slyly. He laughed. Leo smiled and shrugged.
"I guess you could say that. Its wierd to think about, ya know...two guys a
couple. It seems strange, but there's something there." Leo explained,
smiling to himself at the thought of Jase. Ben smiled. He was happy for Leo.
"Look, Ben, please don't tell anyone. Dont even tell Jase that you know!" Leo
demanded.
"I won't say a word." Ben assured. Leo relaxed and smiled at Ben.
"I love you Benji. You're the father I never had." Leo smiled wide.
Ben smiled back. "Hey, I'm not that old."
"You know what I mean, man!"
Ben nodded, "I love you too, Leo." The two sat and watched tv, and fell
asleep on the couch.


Jase lay awake in his bed thinking about what he was going to do about this
whole thing. He stared up at the cieling contemplating. A single tear
trickled down his face. 'God, Jase, you always cry about everything. Suck it
up.' Jase turned over on his side and stared out the window. He closed his
eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep.

To be continued...
There ya go. Hope you all liked it. I know it wasn't one of the more
interesting ones, but it'll do until I have enough time to write something
really good. Feel free to email me with comments and stuff at
'DrJJC19@aol.com' ....thanks