The contents of this story is purely fictional although based on real life happenings in my life. All names have been fictionalize to protect the innocent and not so innocent. The content matter of this story concerns love and sex between males teenagers. If this is not what you like reading or it is illegal for you to read this material because of age or laws go somewhere else. This story is copyrighted by it's owner and may not be copied or published elsewhere without the owners permission.

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Thanks for your e-mails and kind comments. Sorry to have taken so long to write this but sometimes life just says 'No, no writing today.'

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Chapter 4

I woke about 2:30 to see Bastian smiling at me.

"Hi, how are you feeling?" I asked.

"Starved, just waiting for you to wake up."

"You should have woke me," I smiled, as I got out of bed forgetting that I was naked. I stretched and yawned. I noticed Bastian looking at me and then he said, "So you ready?" with a most wicked smile.

I couldn't help but say, "Sure, let's go!" and started walking out of the room naked.

I didn't really know why, but we both started laughing until I took three steps out into the hall. Then I knew why he was laughing.

"Masta Leo! What is you walkin' arounds here in youse birthday suit?" asked a very surprised Ida.

I immediately covered my privates and ran back into the bedroom. Meanwhile, Ida began to chuckle and Bastian was killing himself laughing so hard. I of course went ten shades of red, which only increase his laughter.

"Oh my, my, my I thinks I's seen everything now!" said Ida.

Bastian started another bout of laughter from Bastian as he manage to say, "Yes, Ida I think you truly have."

"Masta , Bastian you is a mean boy! I bets youse tricked him into walking out her naked as a jaybird!"

"Ida Mae Jackson! How could you ever think that of me," he chortled feigning innocence.

I finally got my clothes on and joined Bastian in the living room.

"Ida Mae, we're going to go get something to eat now that Leo is dressed!" he shouted.

I punched him in the arm.

As we walked to his car he said, "Poor, poor girls of Ft. Worth - they all just missed…"

I punched him in the arm hard interrupting him "fuck you, Bastian!"

"A cocktail wiener!" he giggled and dodged out of the way and ran around the car and got in.

I got in the car trying hard to think of something and then sort of blurted out, "Well, you seemed to enjoy my wiener!"

"Hey! I'm no queer! I was just helping you get your rocks off!"

I don't know if my face changed expression or what but his did. He looked away for a moment. I thought of what I'd said the other day in trying to make myself not look like I was queer. My heart skipped a beat as I wondered if he knew.

"I'm sorry for saying that like that. I don't think you're like that or me." He stared at the steering wheel, "Maybe we should just refrain…"

My stomach did a flip as I thought he was gonna say no more fooling around.

He continued, "refrain from using that word, uh, queer."

"Yes, I agree!" I said a little to bit enthusiastically, "I mean we aren't right?"


I knew it was a lie, at least as far as myself, but I loved Bastian…is that wrong? Is it wrong to love another boy? Everyone said yes, but something inside me was screaming no…I just had to suppress those feelings I just had to make myself normal.

"Hey! Leo are you listening to me or am I talking to myself?"

"Huh? Oh, sorry Bastian. I sort of got lost in my thoughts. What did you say?"

"Do you want to go to the my photography club on Saturday?"

"Yeah sure."


Mom and Tina arrived about a week later and finally school was out. Bastian and I were always together except for when he was doing CAPC stuff. I just couldn't get into to all the military stuff and as it was summer he only went there one day a week for a few hours. With each day that past I found I was falling more and more in love with him. We messed around nearly every night. So many times I want to do more to actually have sex not just mutually masturbate each other by pretending to have sex with a woman. I wanted to take his cock in my mouth, but I didn't for that would be too queer. I never said I love you or kissed him nor did he. I so wanted to hear him say those words to me.

In August he went away to CAPC camp for two weeks. I thought I die of boredom and loneliness. Sam noticed it.

"You miss him, huh?" he asked one night when just he and I went out to get some ice cream.

I looked at him and then dropped my gaze to my lap. Finally after several moments I said, "Yeah."

Sam smiled. But it was not just a smile there was a glint in his eyes. "Hmmm, well, I guess we'd better get home by nine-thirty."


"Well, a little birdy told me someone might be calling you this evening."

"Me?" He nodded yes. "Bastian! Bastian's calling me!" I must have lit up light a Christmas tree.

"No one else!" laughed Sam. "I talked to him today cuz you've been moping around the place for a week and apparently so has he. When I called he was all cheerie until he heard it was me on the other end…he misses you a lot Leo, but don't tell him I told you."

The waitress brought my banana split and Sam's hot fudge sundae. I knew I must have had a smile plastered across my face thinking about what Sam had just said "he misses you a lot"
I looked up at Sam, "Dad, did he really say he missed me."

Sam had a slightly puzzled look on his face, "You just called me Dad."

"You don't mind do you? It's just that that is how I think of you…" I said. I looked down at my ice cream and scooped up a bit with a piece of banana hoping that I hadn't over steeped the line.

"I don't mind in the slightest, Leo. In fact I'm honored…Leo, do you mind if I refer to you as my son, not stepson, but son?"

"I would like that. I would like that very much."

"Good! Well, son, we'd better finish up here and get home for that phone call from your brother."

I don't think I have ever eaten a banana split that fast in my entire life…in less than five minutes I was ready to go.

"Well, I'm ready!"

Sam chuckled, "My God! How did you do that so quickly? I'm only half finished. I like savoring the tasted." He then proceeded to take itty-bitty bites really slow.

"Dad!" I whined.

He laughed and then took a couple of big bites and said, "I'm done! Let's go!"

Bastian and I talked for ten minutes. Right before we hung up, I told him I was dying of boredom without him being around and what surprised me he said he wished I was there cuz he felt the same. Even with all the activities it just seemed boring and he missed me too and promised to call the next night.

We talked every night until he came home. On Friday night after we'd said our goodbyes for some reason I didn't hang up. I guess I was just hoping to hear him speak again and I did. He said, "I love you so much, bye." And the line went dead.

I couldn't believe it! He had said he loved me!

Saturday night I was in his bed for the first time in two weeks. All day I had been daydreaming how I was going to tell him how much I loved him too. Maybe I should just make real love to him - I mean actually go down on him.

"Bastian, last night on the phone. You said 'I love you'. Did you mean it?"

He didn't answer. He looked a bit scared. "Uh, there was a guy behind me and I, uh, didn't want him to think I was queer."

"Oh…" I was devastated. I slowly got out of bed and walked to the bathroom closed the door and cried for an hour. I knew that he was not like me. He didn't love me like I loved him. I felt so alone so. I open the medicine cabinet. It was empty except for a bottle with three aspirins and another a third full of some pink pills. I quickly downed them and stood there waiting so some affect…none. I looked at the label it said cascara. What the heck was cascara? Maybe it was some kind of sleeping pill. Still depressed I decided if I was going to die I wanted to die with Bastian in my arms.

He was asleep when I climbed back into bed with him. I cuddled up behind him, knowing any sec I was going to fall asleep for the last time. But even knowing this, I found it hard to say what I had longed to say…that I loved him and knowing he wasn't like me and couldn't ever love me I'd rather just die…

Suddenly, I had a sharp pain in my gut! I gasped! "It's now or never, Leo! SAYYYY ITTT!" I thought to myself as another wave of pain hit my lower abdomen. I lay there for a few minutes gathering my courage and waiting for the pain to subside.

"Bastian, I…." The pain in my lower guts was excruciating! "OH! SHIT!" I exclaimed as I made a mad dash for the toilet!

I barely made it in time before I made a real mess! Another painful cramp began. "OOOOOOHHH!" I moaned.

Mom knocked on the door. "Leo, are you alright?"

"OOOOOOHHH!" I moaned again as my bowel emptied themselves.

Mom came in she saw the empty cascara bottle. "You didn't take these did you?"

I nodded my head as another cramp began in my bowels.

"OOOOOOHHH! I dying Mom…"

She started laughing. SHE STARTED LAUGHING! I was dying and my mother was laughing!

"How many did you take?" she asked as she continued to laugh.

Her laughter, my wailing was enough to wake Bastian and Sam who were now standing there with concerned faces. Bastian took the bottle of poison out of Mom's hand.

He looked at the label and immediately burst into laughter!

"You took cascara? All of it?" Sam asked while Mom and Bastian were busting their guts laughing! How heartless can to people be?

Another wave of pain hit me. "OOOOHHH! Bastian, I am dying here!! Why are you laughing?" I cried.

Which only caused him to laugh harder along with Mother and Dad. "Dad, why are you guys laughing!"

"Leo, you're not dying…<laughter> unless<laughter> you shit yourself to death<laughter>. Cascara is a laxative!"

I swear I sat on the toilet for at least four hours. Bastian volunteered to stay up with me. I told everyone I had a splitting headache and I thought they were aspirins and I kept taking them cuz they didn't seem to help my headache.

Bastian had to help me to the bedroom because I was so weak after shitting for three hours straight. He laid me down in my bed then lay down beside me on his side. I turned my head towards him and we simply looked at each other.

"Leo, I'm gonna get in my bed now."


He didn't move. He continued to look into my eyes with a slight smile on his face like he wanted to say something else. "Leo, I really love you so much - like a brother, of course. I, uh, I did say that on the phone last night. There wasn't anybody around…I'm sorry I lied I just didn't want you to think I was queer and hate me or something. I'm so happy you're my brother."

"Can I have a hug?" I asked. He complied.

"Bastian, I love you too so much," I whispered as I dozed off to sleep in his arms.

So I completed this chapter. I hope you liked it. I'd sure like to hear more from you people - even just a simple 'I like it' helps to encourage me to write more and sooner - Sebastian