Date: Sat, 7 Sep 2013 01:48:50 -0400
From: Matthew Bennet <m.bennet35@gmail.com>
Subject: Lies within Ourselves - Chapter 5

Lies within Ourselves – Chapter 5

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Last night did not go as planned and after what Matt saw was written on his
car his mood was horrible. He wanted to be alone after that so after he
dropped me off at my house I went to my room to study a bit for a test that
I had coming up in Statistics. I hate to admit it but with Matt and I
dating I have cut way down on studying and I was glad to be able to get
some done but I also felt for Matt he was so upset. Once I was done
studying I sent him a text `Hope you are feeling better. Love you always.'
I didn't get a reply back but that was normal sometimes he didn't check his
phone for hours at a time.

It was about midnight when my mom poked her head into my room "Everything
ok Sweetie? You have been in here all night and haven't said much."

"Everything is fine." I Sighed. "I was just studying thanks for checking on
me. Love you."

She smiled and said she loved me back and left to go to her room for the
night. I was lucky to have such great parents who supported me. All my
wounds were healed up from the attack and I had a small scar near my
eyebrow but it was not to noticeable. I went to the bathroom and looked
into the mirror examining my body. I was skinny and did not have much
muscle on me. My hair was getting longer after a close examination I
decided I wanted to start and work out at least 3 times a week to start and
build more muscle and I wanted to learn how to defend myself. After my
attack that is something I need so that I will never be a victim again.

It was late but like normal I was having a hard time sleeping it had become
even worse after my attack so I decided I would sneak out and take a
drive. It was a great drive but while riding I past Trevor's house and saw
him sitting in his lawn. I pulled to the side and got out and asked,
"Everything ok Trevor?"

It looked like he had been crying and he replied "I don't want to talk
about it."

"Ok man, you don't have to but you know something I am here for you if you
do. I know we could all use someone to talk to." I said with real
concern. I hate to admit it but I was growing fond of Trevor he seemed to
really change after my attack.

He looked at me for a few seconds and then broke down "Life just sucks
dude. My dad drinks all the time and after I got expelled he has been
hitting me a lot more than usual. I don't want to go back there." He was
shaking after he got done talking.

"Do you have anywhere you could stay for a while?" I asked him.

"Nah... not really, I don't have many true friends and all my other family
lives far on the West Coast." He said with tears still in his eyes. It was
actually breaking my heart seeing him like this.

I thought for a few minutes then said, "Come on. Get some clothes together
you are coming to stay with me for a while."

"Dude I can't do that. That is asking way too much. Plus you hate my guts
and I don't blame you. I treated you like shit and deserve to be hated." He
broke of saying.

"Nonsense, you know after all that has happened I now consider you a friend
and I hope you feel the same way. When one of my friends needs help I am
there for them. Now get your ass up and get ready to go." I said with a
smile and he laughed and got up to get some clothes.

Arriving at my house he turned toward me and asked "What about your parents
won't they be mad that you didn't ask?"

"No, because we are helping a friend. They won't mind." I said, "but I warn
you my mom might take a while to warm up to. She is very protective."

We had an extra room for guest next to mine so I got it all ready for
him. When he walked in to the room he surprised be and gave me a big
hug. "You know you are my first real friend. No one else would put up with
me. I cannot say how thankful I am and how sorry I am that I was such a
shit you."

"Hey now it is all in the past now. I look forward to our new
friendship. Now come to my room in the morning if you wake before me and I
will explain everything to my parents in the morning." I said to him. "I
will see you in the morning. Have a good sleep."

I went back to my room and got in my bed and it was now after 4 in the
morning and I knew that I was going to be tired as hell in the morning but
I felt good that I could help a friend in need. It wasn't long after I got
in bed that I was fast asleep. I woke early which was usual for me even
though I did not go to bed till late.

I walked to the kitchen to find my mom making some coffee before heading to
work. "How's it going this morning mom?"

"Sean it is going great. Today looks like it's going to be a good day." She
said with all smiles.

"I need to ask you something." I said with a serious tone.

She looked concerned and asked "Is everything ok?"

"Everything is great but you know how we are supposed to help those in
need. Well I kind of did last night." I said to her.

"Yes of course. Helping people is a great thing. What happened and who did
you help?" She questioned me.

"Trevor, his dad beat him pretty bad last night and I went and got him and
he is in the guest room." I said explaining.

My mom's face got a strange look and said "Isn't he the one that made your
life miserable at school? All I can is that I am very proud of you for
overcoming something like that and helping him. He can of course stay with
us for as long as he need. We have the room."

"Thanks mom! I knew you would understand." I said with excitement in my
voice, I guess I was excited because I had friends but making a new one was
always awesome for me.

I went to see if Trevor was up but as I entered the room I saw he was still
asleep and I gently tried to wake him up. He opened his eyes and said "Good
morning."

"I talked with my mom and you can stay here for as long as you need." I
said to him.

He smiled and replied, "That is awesome. Thank you so much!" After we were
both fully awake and ready we both headed to school. When I got to the
parking lot I saw that Matt had a confused look on his face.

"Trevor will be staying with me for a while." I whispered to Matt. "I will
explain everything at lunch." He nodded and gave me a small hug. I was
still worried about him because I knew that people were starting to talk
about us.

I headed to my first class which was of course the worst and I couldn't
wait to get this day over with. I wanted to get the chance to really talk
to Matt one on one. I could see that he was really confused to why Trevor
was staying with me.

Once all my morning classes were finished I headed to the lunch room to
find Matt. Once I spotted him I got my food and sat next to him. I leaned
in and said "Last night I went for a drive and found Trevor sitting out in
front of his out. His home life is not the best and he was afraid to go
back inside so I told him he could stay with me for a while."

Matt gave a small smile "That was nice of you. What did your parents say?"

"They didn't care. They thought it was nice that I was helping someone in
need. I don't know how long he is staying but I want you to come over after
school and we can all talk." I whispered to him. He nodded in agreement and
then we sat and ate the rest of our food.

I met Travis in the parking lot after school and we waited for Matt so he
could follow us to my house. It was a nice drive home with Travis telling
some jokes and being humorous which I never saw this side to him before.

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When we arrived at Sean's house I was really ready to talk with him to find
out all the details about why Travis was staying with him. It shocked me
because I know Sean is a forgiving person but it would be hard for anyone
to let their one time bully live with them. I would find it to be extremely
awkward and not sure I could do it myself but I know that is why I love
Sean he has one of the biggest hearts I have ever seen.

When we got to his room Travis left us to be alone for a few minutes to
talk, "What exactly is going on?" I asked Sean.

"Like I said before I went for a drive and saw Travis sitting
outside. Apparently he is afraid of his dad so I told him he could stay
with me for a while." Sean explained to me.

I smiled and replied, "You are so sweet!" I leaned over and have him a
kiss. This in the guy I fell in love with the one with the big heart and
who cared so much for people, after kissing for a few minutes we called
Travis back in to the room so we could all talk. He seemed really different
after all of this and maybe with all that has happened he really changed
for the better.  "Do you guys want to do anything tonight?" Trevor asked.

I could see Sean thinking and then he replied "I don't know what exactly
did you have in mind?"

"I was thinking that we could go see a movie together. Really I just want
to get to know you guys better. None of my other so called friends would
have put up with me like this." Trevor sighed.

"Sounds like they are not that good of friends then." Sean said with a
matter of fact attitude. Trevor just sighed and looked away with sadness in
his eyes. I could honestly say that Trevor must have gone through a lot on
in his life and even though I still had a sort of bitterness for what he
did to Sean I still felt bad for him and hope that maybe we could all
become good friends someday.

Sean spoke up "A movie sounds great but are you sure you want to be seen
with us?"

"After all you two have done for me there are no other people I would
rather be seen with." Trevor said with a smile.

The rest of the night until it was time for us to get ready and go to the
movie was spent just lounging around. When it came time to leave we decided
to take my car and headed out around 8pm because the movie started at 8:30
and we wanted some time to get snacks and drinks before it started. After
entering the theater my heart sunk seeing most of the football team there.

"Dude, don't even worry about it." Trevor whispered to me. "If they give
you shit I will deal with them."

As we past them we got some odd looks but nothing was said which I was
grateful for I just wanted to have a good time and see this movie without
any trouble. Trevor was hilarious throughout the movie. He laughed so loud
that some people told him to shut up.

After it was over we headed out to the parking lot and then once again my
heart sunk seeing that there were two guys from the football team waiting
by my car. I thought great now we are going to have some trouble and all I
wanted was a fun and peaceful night out with my friends.

As we got closer to the car the bigger one who was about 6 feet tall and
very muscular with brown hair stepped forward `Great I thought'.

"Guys don't freak out or anything." The guy said. "Kevin and me would like
to apologize for how we acted toward you."

Kevin who was a bit shorter than the other guy and had blonde hair stepped
in and said, "Yeah we were dicks to you. We heard what you did the night of
the crash and we want to thank you. We hope that you can forgive us."

After a few moments of silence Kevin stuck out his hand for a handshake
toward Sean and for a moment I didn't know what he would do but Sean being
Sean accepted the apology and shook their hands. We stood there chatting
for a few minutes before the two excused themselves and left.

"Do you think they were being sincere?" I asked Sean.

Sean replied "I think they were and I am giving them a chance let's just
hope they don't blow it."

"Sean and Matt, Kevin and Jesse are two good guys. I know they acted rude
toward you both but they were not the ones who would start it they just
kind of went with the flow. Which I know is no excuse but I honestly think
they felt bad and maybe even be friends with you two." Trevor said with all
honesty. "I mean after getting to know you two I can honestly say there is
no other friends I would rather have. You two are the best."

"Maybe the rest of the school year won't be so bad after all." I said to
them. Sean smiled and told me that things would get better in time and I
was starting to believe him.

When we got back to Sean's I told him and Trevor goodnight and headed home
to get a good night's rest.


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I climbed into Sean's guest room bed and was laying there thinking about
how much things have changed. First I was really rude to Sean and now we
were friends or at least I hope we are. I have never had friends like Matt
and Sean before and now I would do anything to protect them both. My
parents never made any contact with me since I left which showed how much
they cared about me.

Since I was back in school I had a lot to catch up on and I was still not
allowed on the football team which I could care less about that would be my
punishment for my treatment towards Sean. No one dared say anything to me
at school about hanging with them and if they did they would get my fist in
their face. It was getting late and I was having a hard time sleeping so I
quietly got and went over and peaked into Sean's bedroom and saw that he
was awake.

Sean saw me and said "Everything ok?"

"Yeah. I just can't sleep." I told him.

I was standing there for a few minutes when Sean patted the bed next to him
indicating to me that I was allowed to get on the bed with him.

"I have those nights also. Do you want to talk about it?" Sean said. I
began to explain to him about how my parents never tried to contact me and
that I felt so alone. He listened to everything without judgment. Soon I
found myself laying my head on his shoulder and crying. To my surprise he
put his arms around me and told me it was going to be all okay. It felt so
wonderful to have someone actually care about me.

I began to feel really guilty now because of how I treated him but he kept
telling me the past is the past. We talked until both of us fell asleep.

The next morning I woke to find my arms wrapped around Sean. I quietly and
gently got out of bed and went back to the guest room. Last night I felt so
wonderful after Sean talked to me and I slept the best I have in a long
time. It was amazing how much a friend could help you. I looked at my cell
phone to see it was 10am and also that I had a text from Kevin asking if
Sean, Matt and me wanted to come down to the park today to throw a football
around. This also reminded me that my cell phone would probably be shut off
soon because my dad would certainly not pay for it if I was no longer
living there.

I went back to Sean's room after a while and asked if I could borrow his
car to go to town and get a few things that I needed and he said it was
fine. Before heading to the store I decided to stop by Matt's to see if he
was awake and if he wanted to go with me.

When I got there what I saw shocked me. Matt was outside on the porch with
some guy and it looked like they were kissing. I thought to myself this
couldn't be Matt loved Sean so much and would never hurt him but I was very
furious with what I saw and was going to confront Matt about it before
saying anything to Sean.

I drove past without Matt noticing me and then headed to the store but was
in a really bad mood after that. When I got back to Sean's house I went
straight to the guest room and locked the door. After a few hours Sean
knocked on my door and asked me if I was okay. I was very short with him
because I didn't want to say anything to him before I found out what was
going on. This seem to hurt his feelings and I felt horrible because I
didn't want to hurt him anymore.

I got my cell phone out and called Matt.

"Hey man what's up?" Matt said as he answered.

I calmly said "This morning I went to the store and dropped by your house
to see if you wanted to go with me."

After that he became silent. Then said "I didn't see you, why didn't you
knock on my door?"

"Because I saw you on your porch with some guy." I said to him.

He was silent for a few moments then said "Listen dude it is not what it
looked like. You need to let me explain and please don't tell Sean. I will
tell him myself and explain everything."

I was beginning to get annoyed. I mean how can you explain what I saw. "I
am not going to tell Sean because I do not want to hurt him but you better
or else I will have to tell him. Listen we need to meet up a.s.a.p. and you
need to explain everything to me."

"Dude can you meet me at my house in like 15 minutes." Matt said.

I got ready and headed over to his house and after arriving I got out of my
car and walked over to him and said please explain.

"Trevor I have always been friends with Sean, ever since we met but I have
other friends to. Even before I admitted I was gay I had a friend who I
knew was gay. His name was Chris and he told me once that he liked me but I
just lied and told him I was straight." He was explaining to me. "I have
not talked to him in a few weeks but after he found out I was gay and with
someone he came over and then started to get angry with me. After a while
he pulled me in for a kiss and I pushed him after that and he was furious
and left. That is what you saw, I swear Trevor I would never hurt Sean."

After he explained all of this I said "Matt I hope that is the truth. I
think that you should tell Sean so he doesn't find out about it any other
way but from you."

Matt agreed and he actually gave me a big hug and thanking me for listening
to him. I told him it was the least I could do. We talked for a while
before Matt's phone went off and it was Sean.

"Matt someone is here that says they know you." Sean began and he sounded
furious from what I could hear. "We need to talk NOW." I heard Sean say
with both anger and tears in his eyes.

"FUCK!" Matt yelled and I began to put two and two together it looks like
Chris stopped by Sean's house and told him that they kissed. Great why
would someone who said they are friends hurt their friend like that. I hope
Sean will listen to Matt because I would hate to see them break up. They
have become two of my closest friends.


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A note to everyone I started a new job so it might take me a little longer
to get new chapters out. My grandpa is also in the hospital so I am so
sorry for this taking so long to be submitted.

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