Date: Tue, 22 Mar 2005 21:16:06 +0000 From: Darren C Subject: Life Starts Again Chapter Six: Games Of The Mind "Yeah, noon is fine; at the restaurant on main street? Ok" Justin hung up the phone and turned around to look at Morgan who was sitting in a chair at the dining room table. She played with her hair and just looked at him, he may have gotten sleep but he still looked like he took a trip through hell and back, "I'll come too. I wont sit with you or anything, but I'll be there in case you need me, ok?" She said. "I don't know...shouldn't I do this on my own?" He asked her, his voice cracking for a moment. "You will be doing this on your own, But I'll be a few seats away if you need me" She gave him a wink and turned back to her breakfast. "Beth cooked too much, I can't eat all this" She gave it a perplexing look. "Never stopped you any other time," He said taking a seat at the table. "Besides, you love bacon and eggs with toast smothered in butter." He smiled and poked his fork at his eggs, as if to make sure it was dead and cooked. "Ha Ha, smart-ass." Morgan groaned as she picked away at her eggs with the fork. "What do I say to him?" Morgan shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know, whatever you want to" "I'm so angry at him, but at the same time I still love him" "Tell him that then" She mumbled. Justin swallowed hard and looked back down at his breakfast, though he was hungry, he also felt sick to his stomach and didn't feel like eating. "You want this to turn out like Terry, don't you?!" She huffed. "Excuse me? Terry and I `dated' in the eighth grade for two weeks" "Yeah, and you acted the same way now as when he dumped you for a girl" "I think your exaggerating..." He rolled his eyes. "You threw up on my shoulder after he did, you made yourself sick and that's what you are doing now, how is it different?" "Its very different...you see...he...I" "That's what I thought" Morgan said callously. Justin sighed heavily as he stood at the entrance to the restaurant; Morgan had entered about five minutes before him and took a seat adjacent to where Drew had been. Justin peered through the glass doors once more and gazed at Morgan, then at drew before gripping the handle and pulling the door open slowly. He stepped inside feeling the cool rush of the AC, gathering himself he walked over towards Drew's table. "Drew" he said, as he took a seat, not bothering to look Drew in the face. "Good afternoon, what can I get you two?" Asked a waitress who had popped out of nowhere. "I uh" Justin had been caught off guard, saying the first thing that came to mind, "I'll have a Pepsi and a chicken wrap, please" "And for you hunny?" She said addressing Drew. "I'll have a 7up and The Classic Combo" He replied, giving her a smile as she walked away. "I'm glad you're here Justin, you didn't make it sound like you would come on the phone" "I made a promise, besides, I had a helping hand." He took a quick look up from the table to see Drew staring right at him. "What?" "The table must be very entertaining if you would rather look at it then talk with me" Drew shifted in his seat and rested his elbows on the edge of the table. "I'm mad at you for leaving me like that the other day. I mean, what the hell is `I just had to be sure' before running off into the rain not telling me what you were trying to be sure of?" Justin took another deep breath and sat back in his seat, now glaring at Drew, waiting for an answer. "I know I shouldn't have done it" Drew said looking out the window. "That doesn't answer my question. Let me simplify it; what were you trying to be sure of, exactly?" "I wanted to know if I was gay, that if my feelings for you were romantic or just..." "Just love and respect for a friend?" "Yes, exactly" "That doesn't mean you have to run off. For that matter, you could have, oh I don't know, told me that you had feelings about me that you didn't understand" "Like you told me how you felt?" "At least I didn't run away when you found out" Justin gritted his teeth, and just as he was about to continue, the waitress returned with the drinks. "Thank you" Justin said politely. "Sure thing hun" the waitress smiled and walked away. "You didn't even thank her, that was rude" Justin scorned. "Yeah whatever. Listen Justin, I'm not gay" "Figured" "I do love you though" "Ok?" Justin was becoming very confused. Drew kissed him, ran off, didn't call, then after they met up, says he has feelings but isn't gay. "Why didn't you just come to that conclusion earlier, during the storm, after our kiss?" "I wasn't sure then, but I am now" "I hope for your sake you are" Justin said sipping his pop. "What is that supposed to mean" Drew interrogated. "Just that if you happen to realize that what you think is true, isn't true, it may well be too late to try anything with me. That may leave you with feelings of guilt and regret." "I'm positive, ok?" Justin looked back down at the table and couldn't stop smiling, every few moments he would give a chuckle, his eyes closed and ignoring Drew. "What's so funny?" Drew finally asked "I'm remembering a time when we first met; a time when you didn't care about anything and were carefree. I'm thinking about the person who was the only one to talk to me on my first day at SDRHS" "Things change, that's what happens in high school" "You really were hot in that towel, and soaking wet standing on my doorstep" "Why do you put yourself through this?! I'm not gay, you shouldn't fantasize about me" Drew tried not to show that he was unnerved at the prospect of what Justin had thought, how deeply his feelings went, but he didn't hide that concern well. "I haven't thought that much into my fantasies, Drew" Justin rolled his eyes. "You are eye candy, but I have more respect for you then to undress you with my mind, or create mental images of us screwing" "He says so bluntly" Drew smiled. "I just can't believe you haven't undressed me with your mind, or pictured us `screwing'" "I haven't, but my friend Morgan has been since she came in here" "Excuse me?" Drew shook his head and stared into Justin's eyes before glancing around the room. "Where is she? There are too many women in here to know" Justin held up his hand and ushered her over, she stood up and walked over to the table taking long, quick strides as she went. "Trouble?" She asked as she stood in front of them. "No, Drew just wants to meet the girl thinking naughty things about him" Justin laughed and slid over, allowing her to take a seat. "Excuse me? I would never do any such thing!" She exclaimed unbelievably. "Right. Anyways, Morgan meet Drew. Drew, Morgan" "Nice to meet you, Morgan" Drew smiled. "Nice to meet you too, Drew," She breathed heavily before speaking, "So, what's the deal? Are you two boyfriends or friends? Or at worse-case scenario, are you two even going to talk to each other again?" "I believe we will just be friends," Justin groaned "I'm sorry Justin, I just don't love you like that. But I would still like to be your friend, you have to accept that" voiced Drew. "Fine, I accept that. I don't have to like it, but I accept it" "Oh yeah, feel the love" Morgan sarcastically expressed. In the next few hours Morgan, Drew and Justin had talked up and down the walls about everything that came to their minds. Drew was taken-in by Morgan, who was very intelligent, albeit sarcastic and blunt. Justin was trying to recover from his heartbreak while still managing to voice his opinions and keep the conversation going. Morgan was unsure how she felt about Drew; he was smart, funny, nice and honest, but confused at the same time, even if he didn't admit it to himself. The tides, the winds, they draw me here The tides, the winds, they draw me near Placing myself into your arms Protecting myself from the worlds harm Searching the place I was belonged Destabilized now, I'm not as strong Watch the world be shattered Hopeless souls the empty cities scattered Heal me now; take my love into your being Even now, in the twilight of destruction; The blind have seen Crescent moon, wish I were somewhere Anywhere but here Light turn to dark; good into evil Watch as you life ends See the sun loom in despair Earthen children no longer care Salvation is not yours to claim When all you do is set others up to blame By: Matt Carter Tonight Matt would get his revenge, he had it all planned out and was ready to go, all he needed to do now was find out where Justin would be, and when to get him good. The plastic bottle that once contained his `medication' was now empty, once again lying on its side. He had become totally paranoid and uncontrollable now, and tonight, those who crossed him would face the consequences. _________________________________________________ Hey gang! You wont like this news but I have to tell you. I may not eb able to get Chapter 7 to you for a while, im not sure how long a 'while' is, but it wont be a Chapter by thursday, I MIGHT have it ready by saturday, or late sunday, but right now Im having University application problems the need my attention. And I am very sorry for where I left this chapter hang. Please email me. Darren