Date: Mon, 27 May 2002 12:04:47 -0700 (PDT) From: kiran trivedi Subject: Making the Right Choice Disclaimer: The following story depicts sexual acts between teenaged boys. The story is completely fictional. If you are offended by this type of material PLEASE DO NOT READ. Introduction: We all have a dream boy in our minds and indeed we dream about this person. We create his face, his character and leave no speck of imperfection in doing so. Some of us even get to meet someone like him. Some of us know this dream person, but don't know it is -- him. And he is waiting for you, patiently, hoping to fall in love with you. MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE "Good morning Mrs. Parkinson. How do you do today?" Alan asked cheerfully. "Good morning Alan. I'm fine." "Is Jos.." "He is upstairs still sleeping. And its 9 in the morning...he is sleeping. I will be glad if you can wake that lazy son of mine!" "Sure, Mrs. Parkinson. It's my pleasure!" Alan entered the Parkinson's house and removed his jacket. He hurriedly threw it on top of the shelf by his side and ran up the stairs. He reached Josh's room, the door was closed and it had a sign on it "If I'm sleeping please consider giving me more time to do that. I will be very thankful". Alan grinned and slowly opened the door. The room was pleasant and warmer...cozy to be accurate. Cozy enough to give Josh a good night's and perhaps an extended sleep in the morning. Alan entered and found Josh had curled himself within a thick bed cover. The cover did cover his entire body from neck to toe, leaving his face. Alan closed the door behind him and was now standing beside a sleeping beauty. "He is the most handsome guy in the world. He looks even handsome when he sleeps", Alan thought and a dumb expression of a boy madly in love covered his face. He then sat there by his side on the bed, simply starring at Josh's face. Josh had the most beautiful body according to Alan. His face was curved in right proportions, his cute little nose, his black eyes, his clear complexion and brownish black hair, made him just perfect. Suddenly Josh stretched, grabbed his bed cover and twisted his body, showing his back to Alan. Alan was now in shock, because he could see Josh's bear back now. A little below he could infer that Josh was naked below the bed cover! He couldn't see Josh's butt, but he did know he was naked. Something crept into Alan's mind then. An urge. An urge which he couldn't control. All these years knowing Josh but still maintaining a line between friendship and love, maintaining it with great difficulty. It was too hard for Alan. It was too hard for any seventeen year old teen whose hormones were now driving him crazy. Alan slowly moved his right hand, as slowly as possible. He took a quick look at the door, to make sure he had closed it and then noticed he had goose bumps on his hand. He was now five inches away from the bed cover, which covered something so wonderful. Something which Alan wanted to see, cherish and remember! His hands stopped for a moment, as if he came back to reality, as if he just woke up from a dream. Then he continued. Seconds later he stopped. He had to stop, because Josh moved. Quickly he drew back his hand. Josh twisted and turned again, facing Alan now. Not only was Josh facing Alan now, his eyes were open, well at least half open. Josh, after a few seconds, figured out the person in front of him was not his mother nagging him to wake up, but Alan! "What the heck are you doing here?" asked Josh simultaneously getting up quickly. Alan looked down as the bed cover gave away, exposing Josh's wonderful chest. Josh made sure he covered his stuff. Although Alan had a huge crush on Josh, he knew he had to be carefully. He put on a normal face and then started to speak. "Excuse me, but someone told me yesterday to come by this morning so that we could buy tickets to the rock concert!" Josh was now grinning. And Alan loved that grin. Alan loved Josh's smile, but when Josh grinned he showed his right part of his teeth, something like smiling half way, and that made Alan go nuts over him. "Err...Alan. But why did you have to scare me like that?" "How else will I wake the sleeping beauty? By kissing him?" said Alan, immediately regretting for having said what he did. But Josh just ignored his comment and got up from his bed, using the bed cover to cover his body. Alan's prayers were answered, Josh wasn't very careful. While Josh got up, Alan got a peek of his butt for a fraction of a second. But like a high technology camera Alan quickly drew what he was seeing in his mind for future use. But Alan's mind was not exactly keeping that picture in mind for future use; it was coming back in his mind again and again -- Josh's cute little chubby butt. It was more than enough to give Alan a hard on and it did. And Alan was worried and sweating. Josh turned to him and again exposed his chest to Alan, holding a hand on the bed cover, making sure he didn't have to bear the embarrassment of the bed covering falling down. "I will be right back after I take a short bath and then change" said Josh and walked towards the bath. Alan relaxed a little and looked down at his crotch. He could see a hard on. He relaxed and tried to stop the image of Josh's butt coming back to his mind. But now he was thinking of something else. He was thinking of the dozen or so opportunities he had to see Josh naked, but had missed them because of bad luck. Although Josh and Alan were good friends it didn't mean they hanged out together naked like in stories Alan read on the net. Josh was conservative, shy and respected his body. He didn't believe is showing it off whenever he had a chance to do so! Seven minutes later the bathroom door opened and Josh came out wearing a boxer! Alan prepared his mind for yet another delight! Yum! As Josh walked Alan could see his penis in the boxer move, at least he thought he saw. But it was a short delight; Josh quickly grabbed a towel and covered his body. He then quickly slipped into a pair of jeans and then into blue tee shirt. He then turned back to Alan. "Ready!" Josh said with a broad smile on his face. "Good, let's hurry before we run out of tickets. At least then you would learn to get up early!" "Come on, you know that I have a lot of work in the night" Josh was the editor of the college magazine and he sat up late every day crafting wonderful short storied for the weekly magazine. Josh would sit up late on Saturday nights and burn the midnight oil. On Sunday he would be ready with a story for the magazine. And the rest of the day, as usual he would hangout with Alan and Keith. "Is Keith coming today, that bum!" asked Josh. "I don't know Josh, he told me he is not doing so well, so he may not come" Alan responded. Josh kissed his mom good bye. Josh then took his keys of his motor bike and hurried outside, protecting himself against the cold with a deep blue jacket. * * * "Three tickets, for Tuesday please" asked Josh to the fat man sitting at the counter. "That will be $10 each" Josh paid up and collected the tickets and then smiled at Alan. Alan smiled back wondering how wonderful it would be to kiss him right there on those luscious lips, smooch him...hmmmm... "We are going to rock man, rock!" said Josh excited. "You bet!" "Shall we go and check out on Keith. I want to make sure he comes" "Sure" * * * "Hi guys" said Keith who was now on bed looking pale. Keith was a tall and not that handsome. He had a round face and it radiated his incredibly good and kind nature. Although Keith was not so handsome, his personality attracted you towards him. Alan knew Keith since eight grade and they were pals who couldn't be separated. Keith was now studying in a different college. Josh and Alan were graduating in the same college. "Keith! How are you?" asked Alan, concerned. "I'm getting better. The fever has gone down today. Don't worry guys I will be okay by Tuesday for sure! So did you get the tickets? Did you get them? You know I just can't wait for the concert. It's a change from a long time" said Keith who was more excited than Josh or Alan. "Boy, you sure talk a lot for a sick person Keith" said Josh smiling. Keith smiled back, looking at Alan. "We got the tickets! We are going. But we can cancel if you are still unwell" said Alan. "No! I'm feeling better, seriously" "Okay! Well Josh, let's go!" "Bye guys" * * * Josh and Alan then decided to catch up on a movie which was running in a theatre near by. They watched the movie, had lunch and then decided to return home for a nap! As Josh was feeling sleepy, he had slept at 6 AM that morning. "Your body is getting a lot of stress lately" said Alan. "You know my job. It is tough. It gets tougher. I had to write a story and five reports. Dirk and Jimmy have left the editorial and it's my headache till we find someone else now." "Yah. I get it. You are the boss now" said Alan grinning at Josh. "Hop on, lets go to my home sweet home" said Josh. Josh and Alan were now fifteen minutes away from their destination. Just then a car lost control for no apparent reason and was now coming towards Josh and Alan in the opposite direction. Josh avoided the car and prevented a head on collision but he drove beyond the road, hit a speed limit sign and they both fell. * * * Josh woke up. He was in a hospital. He remembered the car coming towards him, he remembered hitting the sign post and remembered falling down, falling down hard. Now he could feel pain in his right arm and his right leg. "Alan! What happened to him? What happened?" Josh shouted. "Shh! You are in a hospital. Your friend his fine. He just suffered bruises. Now listen to me. You have suffered a dislocation in your leg and a fracture in your arm. You are lucky to be alive after such a crash" "Okay" said Josh dreamily. "Good. Now don't try to move your left leg or your right arm, because you can't and you mustn't" The nurse gave Josh a sedative and he fell asleep. He woke up later to find Alan by his side looking at him. "Josh...how are you feeling now" said Alan. Alan sounded terrible, he looked worse. All energy had been drained from him as he was terribly worried about Josh. "I'm f....fine...I guess" said Josh who was now having no pain in his legs. Suddenly he realized something. "Alan I can't feel my leg. I can't feel my leg!" "Don't worry. They have numbed your leg so that you don't feel the pain." "Okay" Josh said as he closed his eyes again. * * * It was Monday morning and Alan went to college despite a bad headache. In the evening he accompanied Keith to the hospital. Josh was much better today. "Hi guys..." said Josh. "Hi Josh. How are you buddy?" said Keith. "I'm much better today. But I'm stuck here for some time I guess" "Don't worry time flies" said Alan who looked bitter. "Not in a hospital. Here each day is like a year for me. Anyway leave me. So you guys excited about the concert tomorrow?" "We decided not to go Josh" said Keith. "Guys...I know how badly you are looking forward for it. You shouldn't be canceling it for my sake" "No Josh. We cannot go without you" said Alan. "Alan. I'm going to be here for a month. Do you plan to cut all your activities for that much time? You are going, is that clear?" said Josh sternly. "Okay" said Keith " We will go for you!" * * * Before they knew it, it was Tuesday night and the Alan Keith due were on their way to the concert. The concert rocked as they expected and both of them enjoyed it and wanted to go again so badly. It was 12 Am when the concert ended. Since Alan's house was just a few blocks away from the grounds they decided to walk home. "I'm really sorry for Josh Keith" said Alan. "Yeah. I know how it must be. The fucking driver, he deserves to be in jail now for a DUI" "Forget him. What happened has happened. We should do everything we can to make this month pass quickly for Josh" "We will see him whenever we can and bring him some goodies every time" "Ouch!" "What happened?" "My leg... It hurts. Its stiff" said Alan. "You must have got a cramp from all that standing" said Keith as he helped Alan stand straight "Sit down Alan" Alan practically fell down on the pavement. Keith bent down on his knees and looked at Alan's leg. He pulled up Alan's lose jeans as much as he could. "Let me massage it. It will improve blood flow and you will feel better" "Ahhh....that feels good. It is getting better." "Good" "Okay. It feels all better now Keith." Keith wasn't listening. He was so engrossed is massaging Alan's leg. "KEITH!" said Alan. "Ah? Sorry." Keith said and was now dumbly starring at Alan. Keith looked deep into Alan's eyes. He suddenly drew himself close to Alan and kissed him on his lips. He drew back a second later. "I'm...I'm sorry" said Keith, trying not to make eye contact with Alan. Alan was dumb struck. What the fuck was happening to him? He was getting lucky, but lucky with the wrong guy! Or was he the right one? He stood up and turned away from Keith. Alan was confused. He turned around and Keith was standing right in front of him: he knew him for so many years and didn't know that this guy had a crush on him. He was impressed that he could impress someone! Keith didn't look so bad, in the moonlight. Besides being in love, Alan was desperate. He could kiss Keith back and have someone love him or he could take chances and wait for the person he loved. Was it love? Or was it lust? He didn't know. What he knew was he was now going to close to Keith. He was now kissing, kissing his best friend. Strangely this was Alan's first kiss with a boy. And he felt was in heaven. Keith was kissing someone he had a crush on for years and he was obviously delighted beyond imagination. The kiss was passionate but not aggressive; they didn't swap tongues in their mouth. "Keith since when have you.." "been gay? I don't know Alan. I guess since I have known myself. I fell in love with you two years back. I had a hunch that you were gay but I didn't think I was good enough for you." "Keith...how can you think something like that?" said Alan simultaneously thinking whether people could so easily "have a hunch" that he was gay. "I don't know Alan. I guess I underestimated myself." There was a silence and both of them didn't know what to say next. Alan was thinking about all the nights he spent masturbating and desperately wanting to do it with Josh, or maybe someone. He was now thinking of going to bed with Keith! But how could he? Wasn't he crazy for Josh, for that smile, for that immensely handsome hunk! The next thing he knew, Keith was undressing himself in front of Alan. He had removed his shirt and Alan was surprised to find a neat muscular chest. Keith was now unzipping his pants. "Stop it Keith. Stop it now" "What is the matter Alan?" "I...I can't do this Keith. I just can't" said Alan and added "I can't do it with you" silently to himself. "But why? Are you afraid?" "I...I don't want to spoil our friendship" Alan said and was thankful that he had found something reasonable to Keith. But Keith didn't think it was reasonable. "I'm not good enough for you am I?" "Keith..." "Yes. What a fool I'm. You are my best friend and you didn't want to upset me." "Keith you know that is not true..." "Yes it is. You bet it is" Keith said as he took his shirt and slammed the door behind him. He was gone before Alan could react. * * * "Alan I get so god damn bored here" "I know Josh. I know how boring it can be in a hospital. I can't forget the time when I had my ankle surgery" Alan was now adjusting the pillows for Josh. He didn't dare to look at Josh fearing he might lose control and do something foolish -- kiss him maybe? "You are good friend Alan, you know that?" said Josh. Alan was visiting Josh everyday for the past two weeks. It had been two weeks since Keith-Alan kissing incident and they had not spoken to each other since. Friend? Alan wished Josh was much more than a friend to him. He didn't give any signals of being attracted to Alan. But Alan didn't lose hope, he never lost hope. "Stop appreciating me for no reason Josh! You ass!" "Why do I see you in the morning and Keith in the evening. Is there something going on between you both?" "Nothin...Nothing is going on. We were busy." "Okay. If you don't want me to know, it is okay" Alan grinned at Josh. * * * Alan was upset about Keith. He felt really bad for Keith. He knew now Keith would face the world less confidently after Alan refused him. Alan was suddenly thinking of allowing Keith to fall in love with him. He was thinking whether he himself was in love with Keith deep inside. And moreover Josh was not showing any signs of being gay. Or what if he was? But what if Keith was the one Alan dreamed of? What if he is the one? "When will he be back?" asked Alan. "In an hour Alan" said Keith's mother. "Can I wait for him in his room Mrs. Jones?" "Sure Josh. But I'm leaving for a party now with Mr. Jones" "Okay Mrs. Jones." It was perfect for Alan's plan. Keith returned early. He was tired from a tough day in his college. He opened his room door. "ALAN? What the fuck..." said Keith seeing Alan who was wearing a robe. Looking at Keith, Alan removed the straps of the robe and dropped it down. He was completely naked and was now using his hands to cover his penis. "Surprised Keith? I decided to surprise my - not so good for me - friend, whom I crazy of now, thanks to his gorgeous looks!" "But..." said Keith and stopped from saying another word because he was dumbstruck. Alan was now making circular motions with his hip. He was dancing! Still making sure he kept his hand on his precious penis! Keith was now smiling, more than surprised now. He was elated. Alan danced his way towards Keith, close to him. Alan pushed Keith towards the door with his chest. He removed the hands from his penis and made to and fro motions with his hip. He was pressing against Keith with his penis which was getting a hard on now. "Oh god...Alan" moaned Keith. Alan now started to remove Keith's blue shirt. Keith got a quick view of Alan's penis. Keith couldn't believe he was seeing Alan naked, completely naked! Alan had a six inch penis. He was uncut and Keith thought that it was the most beautiful human organ he had ever seen! Keith suddenly realized that he was himself naked now. Alan stood up and Keith immediately started kissing him. He felt Alan's tongue inside his mouth and it was the most amazing experience he had ever had. He pushed Alan back and they fell on the bed. Keith kissed Alan all over. He then sucked Alan's nipples. He then moved down to Alan's penis which was fully hard. He closed his eyes, opened his mouth and slowly let his Alan's penis go into his mouth inch by inch. He could now feel Alan's cock inside his mouth. He started to suck it; he ran his tongue around it, wetting it completely. Alan was moaning loudly. He felt Keith's tongue go round and round his penis. He felt Keith's moth going up and down his penis and that made him feel so good. "Get on the bed and bend over.." said Alan once he realized that he was having all the fun. Keith did as he was told. Alan applied lotion on his penis (which he had brought along with the robe) and made his cock ready to venture into its first ever ass! Keith's ass gave away as Alan's cock went inside him. They moaned loudly. Alan's to and fro motion increased...he was moaning louder and louder. At last he gave a cry, of relief. A cry you give when you can no longer hold on...when you have to let go. Keith had never seen such a huge load. In the next second he let go too. They both cleaned themselves using their tongues. It was over. * * * "So you are sure nothing is wrong between you and Keith?" asked Josh who was just two days away from getting discharged from the hospital now. "Everything is right, Josh. Everything!" "Okay." "So how are you today? Did you read the college magazine? You better get back there soon, they are writing bull shit!" "Fucking bull shit Alan. I better hurry up and get better soon. Could you adjust my pillows Alan?" "Sure Josh" Josh raised his head when Alan came near him and instantly kissed him. They kissed for about six seconds and then Alan drew back. Alan immediately turned around and started to leave. He didn't know what made him do that, but he had to do it. It was as if someone told him to do so, it was as if someone was using a remote to control him. "Alan! Wait Alan. Don't put on a show here. I know you, you ass. You are crazy about me. You are madly in love with me aren't you? Do you think I don't read enough about such stuff Alan? A friend doesn't come to see a sick person everyday unless he is truly mad about him. You are obsessed with me." "Maybe I'm not" said Alan and left. Was in love with Josh? Or was it just lust? He was now with Keith and he had begun to love Keith. But now what was he going to do? He had to make a very tough choice. Or was it an easy one? Alan had only questions and no answers. * * * "So you have been in love with him all along?" said Keith looking depressed. "Yeah" said Alan thinking whether he had done the right think telling Keith. After a minutes silence Keith at last spoke up. "I will understand if you stop seeing me Alan. After all you have loved him even before I confessed to you. You and he are meant to be together I guess" "I don't know Keith. I just don't know" "Think about it Alan. Who comes first in your mind when you think about a person you love...me or him? Think." "I'm afraid it is Josh. I guess I...I don't..." "Then you know what you should do Alan. He is waiting for you" "Maybe you are right Keith. Maybe I should...I just don't know what to say." Alan stood up not looking at Keith. He didn't want to change his mind again. He began to leave. He left. And Keith stood there silently wondering again whether he wasn't good enough for Alan! Keith stopped by at the door, thinking why the word -- sorry -- was so difficult to say. Alan just sat there looking at the ceiling. He began to think that he is only seventeen and there will be many more boys in his life. But what if they don't like him? What if they are not good natured and lovable like Alan? He was bound to compare any guy with Alan. After all he spent half of his teenage life getting to know this person. He closed his eyes in despair. When he opened his eyes he saw Alan looking right into his eyes. He knew he was hallucinating and just lied there. But then Alan came closer to him and started to kiss him. Now he knew he wasn't hallucinating! Alan had come back! He had come back to him. "I wanted to make the right choice. And you are the right choice" said Alan. "I hope I never lose you Alan. I love you so much!" And they kissed...kissed...kissed. * * * * * Authors Note: If you did read this story, please drop in a comment to wonderme1999@yahoo.com. It does help me write more! And also read my other story at: /nifty/gay/highschool/clear-signals