Date: Mon, 19 Oct 2009 14:09:40 -0700 (PDT) From: john son Subject: my love adventure chapter 3 This is my first story, so it can be a little bit boring. The good things happen at the end of the first chapter. There will be a lot of beating and abusing on a teenage boy. I don't guarantee that it's the best but if you like it, then that would be really cool. Please write to kurosaki0892@yahoo.com or c10wifi@yahoo.com either one is fine. I hope you enjoy it. Chapter 3 The next day I woke up at 4:30. I slept right away when I got home from the library. I am still kinda scare somehow. I went down stair to the living room. It's big enough to fit a 46' flat screen TV, two sofas, and a coffee table, with some space big enough for all of us. We didn't buy that stuff though, they were donated and electricity and water are on the house because we have no parents. The government paid pretty much for everything we have except for food. Since food stamps, plus me and my sis work on Saturday and Sunday and holidays, food is not a problem for us. I went into the kitchen which is the size of the living room and try to find myself some food. I found some Chinese food from yesterday or I think. Anyways, I don't really care cuz I am freakin starving. I ate as much as I can to make sure I can go all day without lunch. I watched TV, shower, get dress, and pretty much that. I went to school and I was there really early. The school door is not opens so I decided to go wait in the back of the school where nobody ever know except me, probably the teacher too but I don't know so I sat under one of the tree. The weather is great, not too hot, and windy. I love it. I heard some noise from the parking lot next to the school. I poked my head out to the football players and a bunch of others people include Shawn, the guy from yesterday at the library. He plays golf, swim, and I think he plays rug bee too. He's smart unlike Paul and Chris. He's not a jock though. That's really surprising coming from a sport player like Shawn. He started to turn his head, so I withdrew my head and hide at the unknown place. I went over to my stuff under the tree and sit down. I closed my eyes and enjoy the weather. A couple minutes went by and I heard the backdoor opened. I open my yes and Shawn was walking up to me with a grip in his sweater's pocket. I started to gather my stuff really quickly and planned to run away as quickly as I can. When I picked my last book, Shawn was right in front of me. I stood up and back away until my back is against the tree. I was scared. Fear invade my eyes and filled my eyes with forming tears. "Hey..." he said calmly and smile. I was scare. I know that that smile mean something bad. Nothing good will ever come from this. "Please, I beg you. Don't hurt me. I'm sorry I didn't mean to look at you. I'll try to not, let you see me in school. Just don't hurt me, please Shawn" "ok?" I ran immediately into the parking lot. Shawn yelled not to run, but I did. When I couldn't see him anymore. I slowed down to catch my breath and ran back to the main door, to go into the school. The only place where he couldn't find me, I think. From Paul's POV So today I came to school early, so did my friends. We were hanging out when I gazed my eyes and see Brendon poked his head out of the school backyard where nobody bother to go to. He was looking at us. "Dudes, I'm gonna go in ok? I want to talk to some teachers before going to 1st period" he said. I don't know what's up? I don't know why Shawn was looking at Brendon's direction and when I turned, Brendon was gone. "Aright, see ya later dude" "bye" he ran into the school. I know something is up with Shawn and Brendon. I said bye to my friend giving the old I gotta do homework. They bought it. They always are. I ran after Shawn and found Brendon ran away from Shawn and Shawn just stand there, didn't know what's going? He might did something to Brendon to scare him off like that. I walked really fast out and stand behind him, swung him around "what did you do to him?" I said with a tinge of angry voice in my voice "nothing, I just said hi and he ran off" "oh, that's weird" "yeah I know" I know it's gay, but I do care about Brendon. I like Brendon. He understands me. I know I beat him up. I just do it because my friends called a pussy. I am really broken hearted that I did that. I'm not lying. I think Brendon's gay. I don't know why but I feel it. It's probably my gaydar. I'm gay, but I don't like being called that. I like to be called no label meaning I don't want to be called anything. Shawn is fairly new to the school, no I made mistake. He is totally new, but he's really popular like me. Like me, he's also a six footer, grey eyes, red lips, not red, red, but you know, kissable, cute face, sexy body. He's also build and strong, plays many sports, smart unlike me, relatively dump. He's a million bucks. He can get any girls or guys including me. Everybody knows Shawn and me very well. "Were you at the library last night?" I asked, I don't know why "yeah I was why?" he still looking at the direction Brendon ran to "I was supposed to be there for my tutor, but the tutor didn't know that it's just a prank from the guy to get me to make him tutor me and leave him waiting for me and then tell him later" "How is that funny?" "I don't know" "Why you do it then? Poor guy" "I have too or they'll call me a pussy. You know how the guys are?" "Yeah I do and I think it is just sick to treat anybody like that." "Oh, I guess. I think that the tutor will like the joke too. He'll laugh about it too. I really do need help though. I'll tell him the next, next time I see him" "why not the next time?" "Because of the guys" "oh, ok whatever then, do as you please" "I will" with that said he walked back to the school and disappeared behind the closed doors. I walked off too after a while. From Shawn's POV Ok I like that boy. Not the one that thinks prank others is funny, no, the cute, funny, scare to look at me, and afraid of me one. He's really cute. I like him a lot even though I don't really know him. The only think I know about him is that he had a panic attack when I talked to him and he can run really fast. Paul is just an asshole. He wanted a tutor and he got one and decided to prank him for fun and to suit the guys. That's cruel. Ok lemme me explain why I like that boy at the library. His deep green eyes spoke for him. They are so loving and caring and delicate and sweet. Wow! His face looks almost like Lucas Till but with green eyes and brown hair. His teeth are straight and pearly white. He's an angel. His voice is so soothing and lovely. I t sounded like he hasn't gone through puberty yet because he sounded like a kid. He's really cute, really, really cute, not hot, but cute like an innocent little angel. I enjoy looking at him at the library every second. I'm really disappointed to not know his name. One thing I didn't understand was the thing he said yesterday. He begged, legit beg for me not to hurt him like the others I hang out with. I think those guys did something to him to make him scare of someone who was around them. I know everybody said I'm smart but I'm not as quick. I'm smart in school, not so much the outside world, but I'm not a total disaster. How can I hurt someone so delicate and care looking like him. I saw him around school over the months I've been in Town High. He always looks clean. He wears expensive brand clothes, expensive shoes. He always looks like a million buck. He never lifts his head up while walking in the hall. He's really shy from what I can tell, but I think many of you already figure that out. He always walks near the wall afraid that he'll bump into somebody. Wow! That boy is fantastic except the fact that he's scare of me, I mean really, really terrified by me. Ok, I need to find a way to get to know him. I need him to be my boyfriend. I don't care how long and how much time I have to put in it. I feel totally connected with him. Ps, one day I walked by him, he smelled so fucking good. I was intoxicating, and if you haven't figured it out yet, the library stare was not the first time I did it. I stared at him in the cafeteria, the hallway, the class, the only class we have together. I've never made it obvious though. It's always a secret. I feel sad sometimes because nobody sit with him at lunch 4 days out of 5 days at school. He sits in the corner, isolated. On day five he sits with a girl. She's really pretty. They're never laugh or kiss, or touch so I take it that she's his sister. I gotta know more about him, SOON!!!!!!!!! And I think I have the perfect plan. J From Bren's POV So today I have a class with Paul in math first period. Since I'm the only one so early in school, I went directly to class with Ms. Goodwin. She's bi by the way. She's really sweet, but I don't talk to her very often since I don't speak so often to outsiders. I sat in my chair all the way left at the corner and stared at the white board that is always clean. I think she cleaned it every single day. That's one of the things I love about her. She's tidy and neat like me. Paul walked in a few moments later. I was surprised to see him in class at 7:05. Our school's teachers have to be in school by 6:30 in the morning for meetings. Ms. Goodwin just left and Paul walked up to me. "Sorry I wasn't there again. Practice really late and really tired" "Wow! You must go to sleep really early to wake up at this hour" I meant that in compliment "Oh, yeah I did. How long did you wait?" "Not long at all I have to run home early yesterday" "Oh, that's nice for the both of us" "yeah it is" "ok what about today at four or so I won't be late I have a surprise for you to make you laugh your butt off" "ooook? I'll see you at four something then. Somebody's coming in" I said in alert voice "so?" "so you don't to be seen talking to me. I'm weird remember? Nobody wants to have anything to do with me cuz I'm different" I looked at the floor after what I said "No you're not, you're unique, and you're you. Don't be shame of yourself" "Thanks, but really I'm just a school rat, and you guys are like the gods of the school. I'm nothing compare to you. You're all the way on the top of the ecosystem and I'm just a mere producer. I have nothing against you, I'm just afraid that I'll ruin your reputation" I wanted to cry so badly, but I can't since I'm at school. "Yeah, I think that too" after I heard that confirmation my heart finally break into little pieces. Yay! I don't have to try so hard to keep it together any longer. Now I can just go home every day after school to cry my eyeballs out. I just became upset at that moment. I thought that he's going to say something nice back, but he didn't. He agreed that I'm a school rat, a school producer, a bottom, an unknown of the school. From Paul's POV "You should go away now" he said with depression in his soft soothing voice. He just slummed into his seat and bit his lower lip with his point pearly white fang. I thought he was gonna cry but he didn't. I know it's my fault for calling him a school rat. I regretted that. I didn't even think. The last thing that I wanna do is to make him unhappy. I feel so terrible. "Ok, I'll just see you at the library" "k bye" he said still biting his lower lip. It started to bleed slowly. My heart ached a little. I just want to yelled out to the world, Brendon Bowne I love you with all my life and I am really sorry to hurt you like that. I'll kill myself if I have to, to make you forgive for what I've done to you. Too bad I can't do that. I just walked to the bathroom and started regret what I said. I hate myself. Why do I have to be so dull and insensitive? Why can't I be like Shawn, loving, and caring? Perfect Shawn tch, he make me wanna puke. I stayed in the bathroom looking at myself. Why did I do that? Come on Paul, you can do it, you can apologize and get him to know the real Paul. I looked at my watch and see that it is almost time to go to class. When I walked I see Shawn next to Brendon, but Bren seems really uncomfortable. I took my seat next to the window at the back row like Bren. Oh gosh I love that name so much. I like him as Brendon, but I love Bren. Sigh... listen to myself, I sound so desperate. I am desperate, please god help me. From Bren's POV Ok this is really uncomfortable. Shawn is sitting right next to me smiling to himself and stealing glances at me. What does he want with me? Paul seemed to be in his own little world by the window. That boy is hopeless when it comes to math and beautiful day by the window. He tend to drift off when it's outside. Thank god, the bell finally rang and I sped off to my next class. I have chemistry with Ms. Porter. In that class we sit in groups of fours. I'm an extra so I get my own table which was supposed to be for two, but I'm alone so yeah, I sit alone. While walking to class Shawn was walking behind me. I could feel his eyes on the back of my neck. I took my seat at the back corner. Ok here's the deal in every one of my classes I sit in the dark, corner, where nobody wants to sit ok? so the bell rang and Shawn came in the door and sat next to me. I scrooge over to my right to make more space between us. I was expecting him to give me a punch on my side any minutes. The whole time I sat at that table with him, I feel scared. I ran out of the room when the bell rang. From 3rd to 6th period, Shawn was in my classes. Every single one of them. The teacher put him right next to me in every class. I am scared. I wanna run away if I can. I need help to get out of that place. The place next to him. I tried to scrooge over to keep the distant I promised him in the library, but he kept moving next to me until some part of our body touched. I tried so hard that I was against the wall. When he touched me with his elbow, or knee, or any part, he seemed to stop and focus on the teacher without moving an inch away from me. I don't get it. I've never had him in any of my classes. Why now? From Shawn's POV I think my plan's working. I switched all my classes to be with Bren. My dad's the principle so I can do whatever I please. I tried to touch him as much as possible. The whole time I was sitting with him I had a smile on my face. I love it, but he seemed so uncomfortable. He wanted to get away from me somehow. I don't care as long as I get to be next to him. I told my dad that I was gay about 2 years ago. I still remember the conversation, ok this is it "Dad?" I yelled from my room "what do you want?" my dad shouted back from his office "I decided to go gay ok?" "Ok whatever just don't bother me when you have a problem with it" "k I'll call mom when I have trouble" Interesting huh? My mom doesn't live with us anymore since my parents are divorced, but they are such good friends. They play together like two kids. They're the absolute best. sigh... so yeah. The last bell rang and me off to the library to see Brendon again. I know that he's gonna go there again cuz I always followed him in my car and see him in the library on Friday last week, and Monday, so I figured he must be there today too. I got to the library when I saw Bren sit at the corner table on the other end, so I walked over, grabbed a book, sit down in front of him, and stare at him while he's doing homework instead of reading the book that I picked out without looking at the title. He looked up and all I see is fear. What did I do? "Hey!" I said with enthusiasm. "Please tell me what you want with me?" "ok, but first tell me why are you so afraid of me?" "Are you gonna hurt me?" "No, I promised. Why would I hurt you?" "I don't know. They did it for fun" "who's `they'?" "The popular, the in crowd, the sport players, the god of the school" "what?" "You, Paul, Chris, Wayne, and the others" "They hurt you?" I asked in disbelief "They did" "why though?" I was boiling "I don't know. didn't I tell you, I think they did for fun" "That is just cruel" "Yeah, but they didn't seem to think so. Paul is different though he said that he's really sorry and that he only did it because his friends told him to and he won't do it again or make fun of me" "he said that?" so Bren is the tutor that Paul's next prank target "yeah he did." Right then Paul walked in the library and scanned the area. I'm guessing he's looking for Brendon. He then walked to our table. He said hey to me and look at Bren with Google eyes. I said hey back and he cleared his throat. Bren snapped and looked up at Paul. "Hey you" Paul said "who me or him?"Bren asked while pointing at me. "you" Paul said "yeah you" "oh ok" Bren said and smile to himself. I don't get it what's so funny about Paul. "Let's go over there so we can start" Bren said getting his things together to move to other side of the library. "Where you goin?" I asked "I'm going over there so I can get start to tutor Paul" "Ok, I'll see you in class tomorrow" "K bye stalker" my mouth dropped open. He just called me a stalker. From Paul's POV Ok so I found Brendon sitting with Shawn in the library. Nobody sit and talk alone with my boy. So I go over and interrupt them on purpose. I said hi and Shawn said hi and Bren seemed to ignore me but he was so engrossed in doing homework. I cleared my throat and he looked up with those deep green sea eyes. I was paralyze for a while. I've never notice that until the day I hurt him, which I regret, for the first time. He looked at me with fear in those eyes, but now I just wanna grab it and pull it out of their sockets and keep them forever. I guess that sounded cruel, so I'll take it back. We were about to move to the other side of the library when Shawn asked Bren where he was going. Shawn seemed upset somehow because I took Bren away from him. So we sat down in the corner. He started right away with geometry stuff that I don't bother to listen. All I could hear is his childish voice going through my ears and they are so soothing. Then I said something that totally ruined every single fucking things that I can have with Bren. "Hey you wanna hear something funny?" "what?" "You remembered Friday and yesterday I didn't come?" "yeah why?" "well the guys were planning a prank on you" "You what?" "well, it's really funny if you look into it. I was outside with the guys the whole time on Friday and Monday. It was hilarious to watch you wait." "you think that's funny" he looked so serious "It is, laugh it up. Come on let up once in a while." "laugh it up? I waited for you for hours hoping every single seconds for you to show up and you think it's funny?" at this point he is yelling. Luckily nobody's in the library except the librarian which is listening to her IPod. "I thought you're gonna make fun of me anymore. I trusted you with all my heart when you apologized. I thought I finally found a friend to hang out with even though it's not really hanging out. I am glad that I finally found someone who think I'm a human and not a fucking weirdo. You know how happy I was when you fucking ask me to tutor you, huh? You know how happy I was? I went home with a freakin smile on my face even though you stood me up." Oh on I hurt him again. He had tears in his eyes. No I'm wrong. They're like water fall. Streams and streams of tears coming out of his eyes. He's gonna hate me forever now. "I should've trust Angie. She told me that this is just another sick prank and it is. I was just too fucking happy to believe her. You know what I don't wanna see you ever again. No I'll make you not see me again." "Bren, I, I don't mean to do it. Please stop crying" "Why? Cuz I might embarrass you?" "No, please don't go. I'll fix it please, don't leave. I didn't mean it" "you've never meant anything" "I'm sorry. Please forgive" I admit it I was desperate. "I don't think I can" He gathered his things and walked back to Shawn's table. Great I ruined everything. Now that Shawn gonna take him away from me. From Bren's POV My heart broke when he said that everything was just a big part of the prank that the guys put together. I cried and cried. I didn't wanna see him anymore, so I walked over to sit across from Shawn. Shawn seemed to be really upset and I don't know what`s going on with him. He had tears in his eyes also, but not crying.