Date: Sat, 21 Nov 2009 18:09:22 -0800 (PST) From: john son Subject: My Love Adventure Chapter 4 Chapter 4 From Shawn's POV I heard Bren yelled at Paul while Paul was begging Bren to forgive him. He sounded desperate. Well I am too, but yeah I don't think they know that they acted like a couple breaking up. They looked like one too. Well, in this case, I have to become that one who comforts the broken heart one. He came over and sat across from me. I was upset that Bren was upset. I had tears in my eyes, but I wasn't crying though. He looked like hell. "Are you ok?" "Yeah I am, I should've just listened to my sister. She always knew the right thing. She told me that this is not a good idea, but I didn't believe her cuz I'm so happy that I'll have someone from school that will listen to me for the first time in my life." "I'm sorry" "I'm sure you are. Remembered the deal we had, I answered your questions and now answer mine" he asked looking straight at my eyes "yeah sure. Umm... ok I followed you around for a couple of months now" "stalker" he said under his breath, by this time his tears are gone which make me ease up on the protective side of me. "I am not a stalker. I just wanna see you" I said the last part in a really low voice "you wanna what?" he asked "I wanna see you. Do you think I go through all the trouble to switch all my classes so I can be with you, I keep touching you, and I keep staring at you for no reason? Jeez you should have figured it out by now" "... err..." he was speechless. I'm glad he is. I think he's stunt. Suddenly he started to breathe hard and fast. "I... I... medicine in my backpack. Where's my backpack?" "I don't know. What's wrong?" "Medicine by the counter please? Go get it please" "oh no, your panic attack" "yeah" he continued to breathe hard and faster. He started to sweat. "I'll get it right now" I ran to the counter brought it back and dump everything on the table and I found the medicine. I took two pills out like he did last time and give them to him. At that point I was panicking big time. He's suffering and I can't do anything for him. He took the medicine and said "water please water" "I ran to the vending machine and get a bottle of water with a ten dollars bill. I didn't even bother with the changes. I ran back to him and give him the water. He closed his eyes after he drank the water and just slummed in the chair. "Are you ok?" "Yeah I think so, you gotta stop making me too happy or I'll die one day with the attack you gave me. This is the second time in one week. I haven't one in years. Lucky me I brought the pills everywhere I go" "I'm sorry, I didn't know. I'll stop talking to you if you want me to" Seriously I meant that. "Just let me see you every day, I don't have to talk to you" "why would I do that?" "Cuz I love you" "You don't even know me" "I don't have to; your eyes speak for you. I know you like me too" "that's creepy" "I know I just want you to like me. I'll do anything. Humiliate myself in the café, or beg you in public" he giggled. Oh god this boy is so cute. I love him. I know what you're thinking, like I said before his eyes spoke for him. I don't have to know him, I can just love him. "Umm... why? Why me? I'm just a school rat. I'm not cooling, popular, or good looking. You can have anyone in school, why would you want me?" "Cuz you're unique" "huh?" "You don't act flirty around me. You're smart and different. Everyone else is the same, but you're special." "I am?" "Yes you are, love" "what did you just called me?" "Oh... umm... I got caught up with the moment. Ok stand up" "why?" "Just do it, please for me" "no" I gave the puppy dog face, I know nobody can resist that even Brendon, the great loner who doesn't seem to care about anybody. "Fine" he said and gave me a big sigh. I walked over to him and kneeled one of my knees down. I took his hand and said "Will you be my lover?" his mouth dropped open. I took out the ring I bought at the jewels store as I planned to give him and asked to be my bf. He was speechless again. "Oh my god" "I bought it for you planned to give it to you today, but I didn't expect you to be unhappy with Paul. I think me asking you to be my lover will be a cure for your broken heart. Please except it and I'll love you forever." He cried again and wiped his tears away. He smiled at me and nodded. I put the ring on his middle finger and kiss it gently." I stood up in front of him. I look into his perfect eyes and said "I love Brendon Bowne" "I, I don't know what to say" "just say you love me too" "sorry I can't do that. I don't know you at all beside you're the Mr. Famous Perfect guy, and I don't know if I love you yet. I know I like you a lot. I know you're not gonna break my heart, but I don't know if I can say I love you yet. I'll be your love though" "I'll wait as long as you need me to. I'll give you time to think, to get to know better and everything you need I'll get it for you. At least I'll try my best to try to get it." "Ok, I'll trust you. I give you my broken heart so you can put it back together." He smiled and I smiled. I love it when he's happy. "Ok what's your last name? What's your full name?" he asked after we sat down across from each other. I took his hand and caress it with my thumps. "This is not how to start an introduction conversation" "how then?" "since I'm the one to ask you to be my partner then I must introduce myself" "Ok then" "Ok, hi my name's Shawn Medici, Shawn Mario Medici" he giggled a little "what?" I asked him "Mario? Really?" "Can you shut up? I swear I like you better when you're quiet" I said and turned my heard around to pretend to be mad "Oh, I'm sorry. Here if you one your ring back?" "Oh god, I'm just kidding." "Oh ok" "Anyways, I'm sixteen. I'm a horny roll student, I mean honor roll student. I have my own car, so we can go on a date at Chow Chow fancy restaurant tomorrow night at China Town." His eyes opened wide "You're gonna take me on a date to a fancy restaurant?" "Yeah, you're my love, aren't you?" "Oh my god, you're so sweet" "aren't I?" "I don't like cocky people" "sorry, didn't mean to" "ok your turn" "ok, my name is Brendon Bowne. My sis calls me Bren. I'm fifteen. I don't have any parents or relatives, at least not that I know off. I don't have anything beside my belongings." He said without any sadness in his voice which is extremely rare for a kid without parents "I'm sorry" "why?" "Nothing let's just continue, so you work?" "Yeah I do on the weekends and holidays" "oh that sucks how can we stay together if you work on the weekends and holidays?" "I don't know, I'll think of something. I have to work or I won't any money to buy what I need" "No worry, I can feed you and buy you what you want for you" "you can't do that. I depend on myself and not others, so if you please stop buy me expensive stuff for me?" "Oh come on I was gonna buy you an I Phone so we can keep in touch." "Don't you dare or we'll break up right now? We have gone over some rules" "there will be rules?" "Yeah, back away now if you don't like it" "ok go" "First of all, there will be no hand holding in school. No trying to touch me for no reason. No calling me babe or love, my name only. No kissing without my permission. No yelling without any reason. I want a clean, calm relationship" "do you like the ring?" "Focus" "I am, do you like it?" I said while wiggling my eyebrow "yes I do, I love it ok. Now do you agree?" "Yes I do babe" "Consequence of breaking the rule will result in silent treatment for 5 minutes." "Ok babe" ok I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't even know I said it, so it's not my fault. "Let's get out of here" "..." "Oh no, come on talk to me. I didn't mean to do it" he walked out o the library and start for home. I got into my brand new BMW that I got from my birthday and went after him. I saw him walking on the way to the beach, so I to drive slowly behind him, then I honked. He literally jumped. I laughed so loud and he stopped. Uh oh, I'm in trouble. I wave my hand and signal him to get in. he got in and he looked at me with anger. "Are you out of your mind?" "I was kidding" "I don't think you got that last question lemme try again. What are you thinking in that little pretty head of yours?" he yelled at me. Like legit yelling, so I made an attempt to lighten everything up little. "So you think my head is pretty?" "Mario" "I know he's really serious because he use my middle name" "yes sir. I'm sorry I didn't mean to do it" "you could've gave me a heart attack" "what did you say about yelling?" "Shawn, this is the matter of life and death" "No it's not chill out" "Chill out I could've been dead. I just got a boyfriend and I don't wanna die so soon. I didn't even get to enjoy yet." "OK I'm sorry" "sorry doesn't cut it" "close your eyes" "why?" "Just do it for me please" "Ok fine" he closed his eyes and I leaned in to give him a peck on his lips. They tasted so good, so I didn't bother to take my lips off. I kissed him for about 3 seconds. I pulled away and he still puckered so I cleared my throat. He blushed like a strawberry. It's really cute, so I giggled a bit. "Now can you chill?" "Yes I can. That's my first kiss." "Really? I feel special." "Sorry for yelling" "it's ok BB" "BB?" "Yeah Brendon Bowne, BB" "Ok, if you like it then ok" "K, imam call you that every single time I see you" "don't push it" "sorry" wow! I can't believe this, the cutest guy in the world accept my ring to be my boyfriend. Aren't I just a bloody lucky guy or what? I'm gonna love him forever. "Are you serious?" "Serious about what?" "Serious about this, this relationship, I want out now if you're not. I don't want to get my hopes up and watch them fall and hit rock bottom. If that happened I'm gonna be down forever. I take things seriously when it comes to love. You probably know that no one has ever loved me before except my foster family. No one had ever taken the time to get to know me cuz I'm not like other people. Every time I found someone that willing to talk to me I would feel like a new person. I sometimes need help, need someone to express my emotion, but no one will listen to me, so I would end up supporting myself again. After a couple of months, that person would leave me, and everything will convert back to normal. He or she would find new friend and treat me like trash." He has tears rolled down his cheeks. I didn't see that coming at all, but I love him and I'm gonna show him and make him say he loves me too. "I love you. That won't change no matter what happen. I don't wanna leave you ever. You are my life now. You have my heart now. I would never wanna see you hurt in my life ever again. I would do anything to make you realize that you love me, not just like me. I promise, I'll make your life better than ever. I'll wait for eternity if I have to. I'll wait for you. I don't wanna be with anybody else, so take your time. We have a life time to do it, so don't rush. I love you and that's that. You can't stop me from expressing it." "Thank you that means a lot to Me." he jumped over and hugged me in the driver's seat. I hugged him back and he cried for a moment. I bet they're tears of happiness. We hugged and I stopped in front of his house. No cars, no bikes, no transportations, and guess I have to pick him up every day. He readied himself to get out and I said "Oh I see how it is" "What?" "I can't go into your house. No invitation for the guy that loves you to death" he gave me a big sigh and said "Would you like to come in?" he gave me a big smile "Wait hold that poses. I took out my phone and took a picture of him smiling and set it as the background. "Why?" "Cuz I may not see that smile again. That was the first time I see you smile for real." "Oh, I'm glad I can help you" "He he, smile more often. I wanna see it every day." "Why? It's nothing special. It's just a simple smile." "No it is not. It looks good on you" "Well, yours ain't bad either" "Oh, I don't know you can talk gangster" "I don't" "Oh, never mind then," "Ok, so you're gonna stay out here or you're gonna come in" "I'll go in, don't get out I'll park" "but we're in front of my house" "I don't care, just stay. I gotta open the door for you to show that I'm a perfect gentleman" "Sure Mr. Perfecto" Damn this boy got all huh? He talk gangster, he can be shy, and he can roll his R, he can talk like a Latino. I giggled a little. We got out of the car and headed for the door. He knocked on the door, and I dragged him to hide him behind me, Angie came out, and looked at me up and down. If I'm straight I would take her out. She's pretty. No make ups, no lip stick, wow she's a natural. Guess why they're sister and brother. "Hi?" "Hi, umm... I'm Shawn Medici. I'm looking for your brother Bren." "Why? Look if you're here to hurt him, dream of it. He's not here though. If you're here for me, I'm not interested." She's about to close the door and I stopped her "No, I'm here to talk to Bren" "Nobody call my brother Bren except me ok?" "Oh yeah?" "Yeah, you have a problem?" damn this girl's sassy. "No, no I don't." I backed away a little cuz she looked like she's about to slap me across the face. "Then leave" "No, I need to talk to Bren" "I said..." Bren cut in and said "Move Angie, he's ok. He's my personal puppet." Angie looked surprise, and I'm kinda hurt. Personal puppet? But then he smiled at me so I know that it's a joke. "Personal puppet? Since when honey?" "Since now" "Sassy, I like it" "Good cuz you're not gonna see so often" "Oh man!" "Honey?" Angie asked, and Bren looked at her "Yeah honey" I answered "Ok, this must be dream. Ok I'm gonna go in and sit on the sofa and you two will come in, sit in front of me, and when I open my eyes again, you (pointing at me) will disappear ok?" and of course I said "Ok?" "Yeah" she went in and sat on the couch, we followed with me behind Bren. His house is alright I guess. It's not small; it's medium, and clean. Oh well, I'm here for him not his house. We sat down and Angie closed her eyes and opened it again. "Yeah I'm still here" "Yeah I can see that. Bren why is he here? You hate them" Angie said with hatred look in her eyes when she turned to look at me. "Well... I'm not them, so he doesn't hate me" I said "Yes, you are, Mr. Sport playing, popular, cocky ass" "Angie, that is not anyway to treat my baby. He's my boyfriend and I love him ok?" he said then he took my hand and holds it really tight. "He's different?" she asked still talking to Bren. I'm like invisible to her or something, she doesn't even care that I was there listen. "Yes, he is. Look at this (he put up his middle finger to show her the ring I gave him). See he gave me this today and asked me to be his love. He loves me. He said that and he said I don't have to tell him that I love him until I'm ready. He's willing to wait for me for eternity if he has to. He literally got down on his knee in the library to ask me to be his boyfriend." Angie's mouth dropped "Yeah, he's my baby now. I love him too" I was crying. "Why are you crying?" he asked me with concern in his voice "cuz you just broke the entire rule you made for us. You said no calling babe and no holding hand, and you just said you love me" "Aww... don't cry. I do love you. Forget about that stupid rules, I just wanna make sure you're gonna do whatever it take to get me like you said you would. Well, look at me, you got me." "Thanks BB" "You're welcome love" "Umm... yeah I'm still here" "Yeah I know" Bren shot back at Angie. "Do you really love him?" she asked me this time "Yeah I do, since a couple months ago. I just don't have the guts to tell him until today. I switch all my classes so I can be with him." "Aww... you're so sweet. Bren, you lucky bastard. Shawn you're lucky too, Bren's a sweet heart. I've known him all my life. I'm happy to see him finally have someone to be with him." She gave me a loving hug. The sassy side was gone and the loving side came over her. She smiled at me which remind of Bren's smile. "Pinky swears you'll love him and not just saying it" "Ok, for the hundredth times today, I pinky swear to love Brendon Bowne all my life" "You're so cute." She said "Duh, that's why I love him" Brendon said with a tinge of white boy in him. "Good, now I'm gonna call Chris to confirm our date tonight. He's been bugging me for awhile now, I've been rejecting him cuz I was mad at him for hurting you, but he said he was sorry and he'll leave you alone and try his best to protect you. Now that you have a boy strong enough to protect you, I can have my man. I like him, you know. Under those jockey attitude, he's a loving guy." "Whatever Angie" Bren said "Chris, from our school's football team?" I asked "Yeah" Bren answered "Oh, you should. He's hot" Bren punched me in the abs. I pretended to hurt, so he'll hug me again, and he didn't "Oh grow up, I know you're faking. I felt those abs you know? They're hard" "you like?" "Maybe" "admit it" "Why don't you make me?" "Oh I will" "get a room" Angie yelled at us "sorry I got a bit carried away" "a bit?" "Ok we'll go to my room" "good go fuck each other till you die" Angie said with a fake smirk "Angie!!" Bren said in disbelief. I just laughed my ass off. They're hilarious. Why can't my baby be hilarious like that at school? Everybody would love him. We started up the stair to his room. I felt nervous. I used to go to my friends' rooms before, but I've never been to a special friend's room. His room isn't that big. His room is simple, tidy, and very clean. He's a clean freak. Oops sorry, I didn't mean that. I love being clean, but I can't be that clean. I went over to his desk chair and sat down. "Wow, I like your room. It's so clean and simple." "Well, I don't like being dirty and have everything all over the place." "Hey!! I'm offended" "I'm sorry Shawn. I didn't mean it that way. I love you" "Ok, I'm better. Say that more often and I'll keep you in my room everyday and make you say it every second." "Gee, my boyfriend's really nice." "I'm sorry. He he, you're so cute though." "Stop saying that." "But you are" "Ok, let's stop call me all the good stuff. You're pretty cute yourself." "Me? Cute? Ha! I'm hot, sexy, smart, but not cute" "Ok fine, Mr. Lovable." "Yes, yes I am lovable." "I don't want you messing my room ok?" "Ok, I won't touch anything mom!" "I don't wanna sound like a mom. I want you to get use to me being all clean. I want you to be clean yourself, not that you're not clean. I need to see your room." "No, no, no you are not going to see my room. Not until I clean it." "Ok, whatever then. If you don't like me to see your room, then I don't want to see It." he said. He took out a pair of sweat pants and a blue T and went out to the bathroom which is in his room. He came back all changed. We didn't do anything, but I really want to. Eh! Next time, I'll make the move. We talked all evening until I have to go home around 7 or so. We walked down to the door. I kissed him on the cheek and said goodnight. On my way home I listened to the radio and Sweet Dream by Beyonce was on. I reached home without noticing it. I went to my room and flopped on my bed without changing or eating dinner. Oh well, I'll just eat tomorrow. I felt asleep and I was thinking about the song. Sweet dream, I wish I'll have one, now that I have the person I love most. From Bren's POV When he took out an emerald gold ring and asked me to be his lover, I was in heaven. I was speechless. I didn't say anything because I can't. Oh god, it was so pretty, yet so simple. He put it on my middle finger and It was the right size. I don't know how he did that. It was gorgeous. He is really, really, extra sweet. He said he'll wait for me until I'm ready to love him no matter how long it'll take. He just made my week. He brought me back to my house. Shawn was being a total gentleman the whole time except for when he honked his care's horn and almost gave me a heart attack. I got mad at him for awhile, but then he surprised me. He gave me a kiss that melts away the anger inside of me. When he pulled away, I was still puckered, and it was embarrassing. It said so much even if we didn't talk. When we were in front of my house, I rang the door and Shawn pulled me to stand behind him. He's huge. I didn't mean it that way. I meant he looked big from behind. Angie and Shawn had a little argument before I came to Shawn's rescue and stop it. Angie was so happy for me, though I was kind of surprise when she told me that Chris had asked her out many times, but she rejected him. Now she would have a boyfriend like I do. We're gonna be happy. We went to my room after Angie yelled at us to get a room. I don't know why. He went to touch my stuff, so I told him hands off. I felt kinda bad cuz he's my boyfriend. He supposed to have the rights to touch my stuff, but I told him not too. From Paul's POV When Shawn kneeled down to the ground, pulled out that ring and gave it to my Bren who doesn't belong to me anymore cuz I was being an asshole and made fun of him, I was speechless, but in a really bad way. I was mad and all, but then asked myself, what can I do about it? I let him slip by me and loose him to that Shawn guy. Don't get me wrong, Shawn is a perfect guy. People who doesn't know him might think he's a jock, but isn't. Seriously what jock get perfect grade. I was really mad at Bren when he accepted the ring, and mad at myself at the same time. I just wanna punch Shawn square on his pinkish cheek. A drop of tear escaped my eyes before I could stop it. I feel naked and open to being hurt. I walked out of the library to my car, unlocked it, and got in. I turned on the radio and second chance by Shinedown was on. I listened to the last part of the lyrics: Tell my mother; tell my father, I've done the best I can To make them realize, this is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying Sometimes goodbye is the second chance, sometimes goodbye is the second chance Sometimes goodbye is the second chance Maybe they're right; maybe goodbye is the second chance. I need to take a break and give my baby some room. I tried my best to bring back the armored Paul to protect me again. It took awhile but I did it. I keep telling myself, I'm gonna get him and no one else. I'm Paul Hues, the only one that Bren'll need. He's gonna come back. I'm gonna make him believe that I'm the right one for him. I'm gonna do what it takes. Doesn't matter how long it`ll take, but I need a break first before I do that. I drove to Mickey D to get myself something to eat. From Bren's POV I am fucking happy. Finally, a boyfriend, sigh... he is so dreamy, his grey eyes. They are so shiny, like a pair of little mirrors. Oh I'm sorry; I didn't describe my stud man. He's as tall as Paul, 6' 2". He's also muscular, not too muscular though. Let's think lean, swimmer body, hard abs and chest, big biceps, and long strong legs. He has light brown hair that brush over his forehead to the right a little. They are so freakin soft. I love to touch his hair. It's like a drug. It's addictive. He's strong, which you might know by now. I'm writing and dreaming so don't mind me repeating words. He he... he's delicate at the same time. He's gentle. He loves me. I love him. He's my world. He made me smile all the time. His teeth can light up a whole town in the dark. Did I mention his eyes are like a pair of grey mirrors? Sigh... my man, all mine. I don't give a shit to who's doing what anymore. I love him so much. He has dimples, cute ones. His cheeks are pinkish when it's really hot outside. He's not too pale, but he is white, not like Michael Jackson white. Like umm...like Jesse McCartney white. He's perfect. He's smart, so no need for me to tutor him. He's self reliance. He loves to cuddle like me. Listen to me I'm turning to a Shawn Medici's fan. Sigh... From Shawn's POV Ok, everything has been fucking great now. Oh god, I can still taste his lips 2 days ago. We've been together for two days now; it's really special to the both of us. Every time I saw Bren in the hall way, I would smile to him, and he would blush the cute blush. He really is special to me; I would never want to hurt him on purpose. We've never been to our house though. Oh wow... ok we'll go to my house sometimes. So we're in chemistry right now with Ms. Porter. She's alright I guess. She doesn't bother you unless you're failing her class. There's rarely any C in her class. The lunch bell ring and off I go forgot about Bren. Bren just takes his time to pack up his thing. I went back in and said "Hurry up slowpoke; I want my lunch you know?" "It's ok you don't have to wait for me" "not waiting for you? We're gonna walk to lunch together remember?" "Yeah, but if you're hungry go ahead" he said still talking his sweet time. "No I wanna walk with you" "babe why are you so working up on this?" "Cuz I don't know. I love you. I wanna spend as much time with you as possible. I know it's been only two days since I `proposed' to you, but I can't keep staying away from you. Please hurry up don't torture me" "Ok fine I'll hurry. I need to organize some paper first though" "Boys, you are a bit too loud. Bren, you're gonna be late for lunch if you're not hurrying. Oh, congratulation by the way. I bet the proposal was awesome." I totally forgot that Ms. Porter was still there. We both suddenly stopped what we were doing and turn slowly toward Ms. Porter with wide eyes. "Err..." "It's ok. It's our secret." "Thanks Ms. Porter and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be loud." "Yeah me too, I'll hurry." Bren said and continued "Not because of you, it's because of Ms.Porter wants some quiet in her room" "Yeah ok, let's stick with that." "Yeah of course we're gonna stick with that" So he's finally done packing up his stuff and he turned around to leave. I, obviously followed him out of the class, nobody was there cuz they're all at lunch. I sighed a big sigh and Bren suddenly stopped for whatever reason. My guess is the late lunch thing. "I'm sorry" he looked down at the floor and his soft brown hairs were all over his face. My guess he's biting his lower kips and it's probably bleeding as we speak. "For what?" I asked pretending not knowing why. "Because of me you're late for lunch" ha! For those of you who didn't believe, in ya face na na na na na naa. I am terribly sorry. I went too far. "Stop apologize, it ticks me off. It makes me feel like I'm the bad guy" "I'm sorry, oh sorry, no I didn't mean that, sorry, I... I... oh god why am I so stupid?" he was panicking at this point. He was freaking. I felt bad. I put both my hands on his waist and pull him into me slowly. He let me pulled him like a puppet. I felt so in control. I pulled him slow and dramatically. My arm around his waist, our bodies pressed against each other. Nobody was around, lucky us. I brought my right hand up and lift his chin up and look him in the eyes "Stop, you're not stupid ok? I'm not mad. Like I said you're too cute for me to stay mad for long even if I was mad" he started to cry. Oh my god, he is so delicate. "I'm sorry. Stop crying ok? I love you. I can never be mad at my baby boy. Stop hurting yourself every time you're mad at yourself or me or anybody. It breaks my heart to see you hurt even a little. See your lip's bleeding maybe I should make you go to the dentist and have the fangs remove." I leant in before he could say anything and kissed him tenderly on the cut and suck the blood off. He is cute. He looked at me with the deep green puppy dog eyes. His lips are so addicting. He tasted like the most delicious chocolate in the world, so I got some more. I attacked it. Luckily I was holding him, he would've fall. I love him so much. "Thank you. I love you too" he said with his girlish silent, sweet voice. I smiled at him I took the rest of his book and dragged him to the lunch room. Before we reached it, he pulled me back "Are you gonna go in with me?" "Yeah why?" "There're people in there. You don't wanna be seen with me" "Ok" I said with a little frowned. I don't wanna hide our love but I have to, to protect me and Bren from getting hurt. "I'm sorry" he said as he took my hand in his. "What did I say about sorry?" "(sigh) ... you should go in and I'll go the other way" "no I'll go the other way" "no I'm not gonna eat anyways. You're hungry you should go in now." "No I'm not I'm not hungry at all." Stupid fucking stomach growled when I don't need it too. "I think you are. Now go in I'll be fine" "fine, I'll go, but I don't want you to get in trouble ok?" "Me? In trouble? I think that's impossible" "oh so you think that if you're smart that you won't get in trouble? Well you think wrong. I am in your AP classes and other honors classes, I still get in trouble." I said with the bobble head like Hannah Montana did, but seriously I don't like it at all. He giggled which I found so cute. I am so happy that he's happy. "Well mister bad boy I am a gentleman so don't worry. Ease up with the protective side. I won't get in trouble" "so I'm a bad boy eh?" "Yes you are" "well bad boy will attack your lips if you're gonna keep talking" "go ahead somebody might walk by here" "so you think I'm scare?" "I don't think, I know" "oh yeah?" "Yeah" "oh yeah well... oh yeah well... oh yeah" "Run out of comeback?" "Yeah spare me?" "Sure why not?" he gave me an angel kiss on the cheek. He's never kissed me first ok? I am fucking happy. "no seriously Bren, If you see those people who look like they're wanna hurt you walk away and come find me immediately or go somewhere safe ok? I don't wanna see any bruises on any part of your body when I see you again" "Ok papi" "I like that" "good cuz that'll be the last time" "oh dang it! Anyways I'm starving. I wanna stay with you" "I'll be fine. Can you go already?" "Ok find. Bye love" "bye babe" I let go of his hand and walked into the cafeteria. I turned back and Bren was gone. From Bren's POV Ok today was good. I got kisses in school from Shawn and I kissed him for the first time without him pushing me to do it. I left Shawn and made my way to the other end of the cafeteria door. I walked in and passed Shawn's table with Paul, Chris, Wayne, Patrick, matt, Alexis, and a bunch of other girls on the long table. Shawn was eating his spaghetti. I think he's really hungry cuz he devoured that thing like nobody's business. My guy, that's my guy. I sat down three tables down from where Shawn sat. Shawn's back was toward me, it's fine though. I sat on my corner by the window. I looked to my left, (sigh) still nobody. Oh well, I took out my IPod and start playing send it on by Disney Friends for Change. I love that song. I mouthed the words while looking out the window. I felt something hit my head. I looked down at the table and it's a piece of chicken nugget. Ew... gross... I ignored it then bam another one. I looked at the in crowd table and Wayne was laughing with the others. I don't mind them, so I get closer to the wall. And suddenly, bam, bam, bam, more food for me. I wanna shrink. All the girls and guys were laughing at me. I felt like an animal at the zoo and people were throwing food at me for fu and amusement. I stared down at the table and put the hood on my head. They kept on throwing food at me. I wanna cry so badly. I need Shawn, so I looked up and what I saw was terrifying. He was laughing too. He doesn't even bother to look at me. Tears started rolling down my cheeks. I knew it. It's just too good to be true. I got up and walked down the way passed the table. My head was down staring down at the floor trying to avoiding eyes contact with shown. I still have my hood on so I felt less embarrass. Chris stood up and threw a piece of something and it hit my head. "Ha ha, you're enjoying your food Bowne? Ha ha just ask us next time if you don't have money to buy some." He yelled I was crying at that point. I was crying loudly as I walked out of the cafeteria. Everybody started laughing and pointing at me. I hate every moment of it including Shawn's blank face. I ran out of the cafeteria and off to the school backyard, the only place where I can be safe from all the trouble, quietly crying to myself. What did I do to deserve this? Tell, anybody just tell me. I sat down under the tree that helped me relax and get rid of my problems. All the picture of the last two days came rushing back to me, everything, the dinner, the day we spent in bed, the kisses we shared. At Chow Chow in China town, Boston "Oh god Shawn, you don't have to" "well I don't have to, but I want to. Who proposed and not go on a date?" "Proposed?" "Yes, proposed baby" "Since when I agreed to marry you?" "Since you took my ring, now shut up and sit down. I reserved a place for us" "you planned this all out even though you didn't know if I'm going to be your boyfriend" "Psh, you? Not wanna be my boyfriend. I don't think so my friend." "What do you think I am? A slut?" "No, but you told me that I'm cute and you really liked me." "I did not say that. You are lying" "Really?" "Really" "Ok then. Let's go home" "No! No o o o. I don't wanna go. I want some lobsters." "Ha ha, you're so cute, you know that." "No, I don't know that" "Oh then, you're cute. You're so special Bren. I love you baby" "? I love you too" "Ok, let's go eat" "Finally I'm starving. You're paying. You invited me, you're paying. I'm gonna order lobster." "Oh come on, I'm not rich you know?" "No, I don't know" "Fine, you're paying for the tips" "Done" "What I don't get a kiss?" "In public?" "Yah!!" "Ok" we kissed for the second time. I love him, but he doesn't love me. He played with my emotion and now I'm down. I knew it. It's too good to be true. It's too good...?