Date: Thu, 16 May 2002 14:22:48 -0700 (PDT) From: Jay Subject: on the flip side part 5 Chapter 5 "Alright, Jake. Then you WALK to school today. I don't care how tired you are!" I look up to see the face of my mother in a less than happy demeanor, staring down at me. What the hell's going on. I bolt upright from my sleep just in time to see my mom slam the door, hear her start the car and finally zoom out of the drive way. I looked around. I was on the couch in my living room. What happened? Was the night before...all... a dream? I looked over at the VCR clock. SHIT! 7:49! I'm so screwed. I ran up the stairs into my room and got changed. It was the quick- est change I've ever been through. I felt like a ton of bricks had hit me. I grabbed my soccer bag, my keys and my wallet and ran out the door. I ran. For, it seemed like,...an HOUR. It was hell. Run, run, run. Wow, my town highschool was looking pretty good now. It was ok, though, I had a lot of time to try and determine whether the night before was either just a dream or a dream come true. It couldn't have been. I mean, that would be way too lucky for me, way too... wow... I finally came to the front doors of my school and ran in. I kept running down the main hall trying to get to homeroom. Through a sea of teens, a single hand reached out and grabbed my arm. I almost fell backwards but maintained my balance as I turned around to see who it was. "Dude, where the hell were you last night?" It was Brian and Lily. Lily just caught SIGHT of me and gave me the most evil, cold and dirty look I had EVER seen in my entire life. Just a look of total disgust. My heart froze. Had Alex told? It was possible. I knew it. I was gonna get the screams of "fag" or "queer" any second now from the people I once thought of as friends! She turned to Brian and totally ignored me. "I have to go. Are you sure you won't come to the semi-formal with me? It'll be fun!" I sort of laughed as Lily pleaded. "Uhh... nah Lily, let's just stay dancin' buds." He playfully punched her on the shoulder. I quietly snickered. Lily seemed saddened but walked away. I sort of just chuckled to myself. If she only knew. Wow, I was saying that alot lately. Then the fear hit me again. I stood there forgetting what I was doing. "Jake...Jake.... JAKE!" "Huh?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing... Nothing I just... Brian I told." "Told wha-- oh. OH! JAKE! Who!?" "Calm down, calm down. I-I told Lex." "AND?! What happened." I just stared down. "Oh... I-I'm sorry, man. But I don't think he told anyway." "Why's that?" "Lily would have told me. She's got a huge mouth." "I hope you're right man. What time is it, anyway?" "It's 8:01" "Gotta get to homeroom, later!" "HEY! Jake!" "Yeah?" "Nice hickey. We're talking later." He walked away as he grinned. Hickey? Oh shit. It WAS real! My heart felt light. I ran to homeroom happier than ever in my life. No one knew supposedly about mine and Lex's conversation and I was head over heels for someone who felt the same about me! I walked into the math room and sat down towards the back, my normal seat. "Mr. Howard! Welcome. I hope you didn't forget where homeroom was." The homeroom teacher, Ms. Lopez, was known for her sarcasm. You really had to stay sharp. "Gotta remember my ginseng, Ms. Lopez." "That forgetful, huh, Howie?" "Gotta remember my ginseng, Ms. Lopez." The rest of the class laughed as I turned to my left. Next to me sat Rachel. Again, I got such a cold look I thought I would be tackled down and have my eyes gouged out for some reason. What the hell was going on if no one knew my confession? I tapped her shoulder. She flipped her hair in my face and turned around. "WHAT?!" Ouch. She might as well have just spit in my face. She had long brown hair that she either wore in a bun or let hang loose and curly. Her eyes were an intense blue. She had a really beautiful face and, truth be told, if I wasn't gay I think I'd be really into her. I decided I better not keep going on this one considering the fact that I don't want to start a fight so early. The bell rang and she just walked out with her friend. Rude. But I expected stuff like that from her. She was little Ms. Perfect and when she didn't like you, she REALLY didn't like you. I walked out of the room and into the hallway. That's where I saw him. "Jake!" MATT! I was so giddy when I saw him my heart was jumping up and down. I walked over calmly. "Hey, sexy." he whispered lightly. I just smiled as wide as possible. "Hey." "Get any sleep?" "I couldn't. All I thought about was you." "Me too." He smiled back. OH GOD I loved that smile so much. "Will I see you after soccer today?" I grinned. "Of course. We'll walk home together." "Great. I've got class now but..." He looked left, then right and pulled me into the corner underneath the stairs. He pressed his lips against mine softly and we shared the most sensual kiss EVER. I seperated his lips with my tongue and entered his warm mouth. I massaged his tongue with mine and pressed my body against his as tight as possible. For one minute we were one person. Every thought I had he had too. It was amazing. We got out from under the stairs and I offered to walk him to class. We started on our way, talking the whole way. Walking down the hall, we passed a section of lockers I really wasn't comfortable with at the moment: Lex's. I kept my head down and prayed I wouldn't see him. Of course, I did. I looked up and locked my gaze with his. I expected to see contempt, hate, disgust. Instead, I saw hurt. He actually looked hurt. Like he was so sad inside he was going to burst. I felt bad. I didn't know why. I should be pissed at him. He made me feel like crap the night before. But instead I kept walking. I dropped Matt off at class and walked back to my locker. When I walked pass Lex again, it looked as if he was about to get up, but I kept walking. I sat in front of my locker and listened to my Mini-Disc player. Of course, right when I was about to nod off to sleep, Brian walked over. And BOY did he look excited. "Don't make it hard on yourself and SPILL!" "What's there to spill?" "For starters... that huge smile on your face tells me ALOT!" "Well...yeah." I laughed and told Brian EVERYTHING. Every minute detail, every move we made. Brian was trapped in my tale. I was trapped in it myself. Reliving everything was great! If possible, my smile got wider by the moment. I finally got finished and noticed the look of amazement and pure jealousy all at once. "What's wrong?" "Nothing...it's just... wow. Do you...really like him?" "Yeah I think I do." "...Oh. What about--" "What about...what?" "What about me?" I froze. My heart was broken looking into his eyes. My weakness was killing me! "I told you Brian... I..." "I know. It's ok... I just thought for a minute...nevermind." He got up and grabbed his bookbag. "I uh... have to get to class." When he walked away, I felt so bad I thought I was going to throw up. I dropped my head into my hands. I couldn't look up for a solid half-hour. How did I feel about him? I didn't know. I was so unsure of EVERYTHING lately. Why couldn't I just make up my mind? "Jake..." I ignored the voice. "Jake..." This person was really getting on my nerves. "JACOB!" "WHAT?! WHAT IS IT?!" I looked up and saw... Alex. "I... here." He dropped a mini-disc and walked away. What was that about? I looked at it and popped it into my Mini-Disc player. A song by Michelle Branch came on. It was called "Here with Me". It's been a long, long time Since I looked into the mirror I guess that I was blind Now my reflection's Getting clearer Now that you're gone Things will never be The same again There's not a minute That goes by Every hour of every day You're such a part of me But I just pulled away Well, I'm not the same girl you used to know I wish I said the words I never showed I know you had to go away I died just a little And I feel it now You're the one I need I believe that I would cry just a little Just to have you back now Here with me Here with me You know that silence is loud When all you hear is your heart And I wanted so badly Just to be a part of Something strong and true But I was scared and Left it all behind I know you had to go away I died just a little And I feel it now You're the one I need I believe that I would cry just a little Just to have you back now Here with me Here with me And I'm asking And I'm wanting you To come back to me Please? I never will forget That look upon your face How you turned away And left without a trace But I understand that You did what You had to do And I thank you... I stopped right there. What did this mean? Did it mean anything? I saw him watching me from the corner at the other end of the hallway. We stared at each other for a while and then he looked down and walked away. I felt like a jerk just ignoring him like this but he was the reason I was locked up in my room all night. I got up and opened my locker. That's when I felt a tap at my shoulder and spun around to see Lily and Rachel. They looked extremely pissed. Rachel stepped foward. "We need to talk, Mr. Hot-shot." ~~~ TBC! Wow, sorry that one took such a long time. I've been crazy busy. I bet you all thought number 4 was the last installment, eh? Guess again! Be patient, guys, I've got a couple more coming!