Date: Tue, 20 Nov 2012 15:45:38 +0000
From: whiteryan65@gmail.com
Subject: Please...Remember me ch 1

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Please...Remember me

"How DARE you do things like this? It goes against everything we have EVER
tried to teach you! Why, Werner? Tell us why!!"

"Dad, I cannot help it? You really think I would be into dudes if I
actually had a CHOICE?? Hell no!! Dad, I wanna be like every other boy my
age, chasing girls and fucking my virginity away, BUT I CAN'T!!"

"Werner, this might only be some sort of phase, God help us, please let
that be it..."

"Mom, I've tried so hard to stop this!! I really have!! I just does not
wanna stop! This is who I am, guys! This is my life, I didn't choose it!"

"Its not the fact that you have...homosexual tendancies and thoughts, my
son. Its that you chose to act on it. That's what we condemn. Even if you
cannot help getting them, you're heart and head must have told you that it
was WRONG."

"Dad, are you for real? I must get a girl, fuck her, marry her, get kids
with her and be as unhappy and emotionally drained of any love?
Mom...Dad...please understand, or at least TRY and do so..."

"Im sorry, Werner. I cannot and will never understand why a boy needs to
feel sexual stuff for another boy and nothing for any beautiful girl that
comes across his path. That's not the way nature and God intended it to
be."

"Please Mom, God is LOVE!! Im sure He wouldn't want me to be WITHOUT it,
now would he?"

"Werner, we can talk about this until the cows come home. Fact is, we
cannot tell you what to do, my son. We cannot make your choices in life and
those regarding your feelings towards boys for you. You are nearly finished
with school, and so you will be out of the house and going to Uni soon. All
that I will tell you, is that the Bible clearly states: "A man shall not
lie with another". Marie, I think we're done here."

"What??? Are you actually defending him, Jacob?"

"Marie, what can we do? If we forbid him to see Ryan again, he'll just go
out of his way to do just that!"

"So the next time I find those to boys naked in eachother's arms in
Werner's bed, I should IGNORE them?? Im sorry, Jacob, but that goes against
everything I stand for! Im a God fearing woman, and I WILL NOT live with
THAT sort of ways in one house!"

"Marie, wait...!"

Jacob Cleverley turned around to face his 18 year old son, who in turn was
still staring at him defiantly.

"Im sorry, son. I also cannot except what you chose your lifestyle to be,
but at least I can tolerate it. I will never understand it though...Is it
because of me? That as a father, I perhaps didn't spend enough time with
you, or didn't play enough sports with you, or what?"

"Come on, Dad. You are a wonderful father to me and Cameron. He didn't turn
out gay. Dad, just...just understand please, I didn't go looking for this
to happen! I didn't one day see a hot guy walking in school and suddenly
"turn" gay! This has been coming for years now. Ever since I was 14."

"That's about when you started into puberty?" Jacob asked.

"Yes, that's right. The other dudes started talking about and checking out
girls like no man's business. I so badly wanted to talk along with them! I
yearned for that! But then...then I would spot a random boy and think
exactly the same of him, what the other dudes thought about the girls! Oh
Dad, I just wish you could fucking believe me..."

Werner Cleverley turned around and sunk into the nearest couch in the
living room. He was shaking. Earlier the afternoon, he and his best friend
since Kindergarten, Ryan Black made love up in his room. They had literally
been friends for several years and even before they confessed their
feelings for eachother, they always had a incredibely strong bond. Neither
of them made friends that wouldn't take them as a joint package. Through
the years their friendship blossomed into something beautiful. They were
always seen together with the one's arm around the other, or giving
eachother lifts on one's bike. Their mutual friendship turned to something
much more whn Ryan was diagnosed with Leucemia (Bloodcancer) a couple of
years back when they were 15 years old.

The mere thought that he might be losing his best friend for ever and ever
was the breakthrough. One afternoon when Werner visited Ryan in hospital,
and the latter was in desperate need of a bonemarrow donor, Werner's eyes
immediately teared up when he saw the state his sick friend was in. It was
then that Ryan reached out and lightly took hold of Werner's hand, which
the latter immediately covered with his own.

"Dude...I don't wanna die without..."

"Fuck you, Ryan! Don't say that shit!"

"I have to...it might hap...happen. God, I love you..."

And as fate would have it, it was then that Ryan's body chose to fall
asleep due to sheer tiredness. Things turned out fine ofcouse because 48
hours later a suitable donor was found. The operation was a rousing success
and while Ryan was still frail, he was getting better by the day. They did
a lot more tests over the year's passing and from then on, every four
months to check if the cancer was back. So far, so good, and within three
months, Ryan was back to his old self.

It was also only then, that Werner felt the need to ask Ryan exactly what
he had meant that day. You might think Ryan tried to talk it away, or try
the excuse that it was said while being extremely ill, but no. He didn't
even blink twice before answering.

"Werner, what I said that day... I mean it. I love you, dude. Not just as a
brother, or best friend. Im IN LOVE with you. Now I can understand, I know
you're straight, so you really don't have to..."

"Says who?"

"Says what?

"Who says I'm straight?"

"Come on, pal, we've known eachother forever, you can't..."

And with that, Ryan was silenced as Werner leaned in and softly kissed
him. Ryan reached up and caressed the side of Werner's face while they made
out. The kiss broke up...and Ryan pulled his best friend towards him in a
fierce embrace. Both boys could feel the other's shaking, but also excited
bodies tremble beneath their touch.

"I love you...don't ever leave me, okay?" Werner whispered.

"I won't, dude. I can't stop thinking about you. Its wrong, I know."

"How the hell can this, something that feels so motherfucking right, be
bad?" Werner asked, kissing Ryan's shoulder.

"You're asking me...let's just see where this takes us, okay?

Unfortunately three years later, on the afternoon where this story started,
Werner's mom came home early after her client cancelled their meeting that
the last minute. Since Werner's brother Cameron was out of the house and
already at University, she was extra attentive to her youngest son and made
him his favourite peanut butter and jam sandwhich, complete with a glass of
Coke.

She entered Werner's room without knocking...and what she saw made her drop
everyting...literally.

"WERNER!!!"

That scream was enough to wake the whole neighbourhood, not just her
teenage son and his boyfriend who had been sleeping peacefully in Werner's
bed, with the latter laying on Ryan's chest. The rest they say...is
history.

Later that night Werner jogged over to Ryan's house, which was about 10
minutes or so away. Ryan told his parents that he was gay and in love with
Werner when he was still in hospital years ago, and they both fully
accepted it. As Werner arrived and ran the front door bell, it was Ryan's
dad Jacques who opened.

"Hey buddy, how have you been?" he asked, pulling Werner into a bear hug.

"Not so good. My parents found out."

"Yeah...Ryan told us. You know that if there's ever any problems, you can
always come over, right?"

"Yeah thanks. Where's Ryan?"

"In his room, pal. You know the way."

Werner climbed the stairs one by one until he got to the top and then
turned the familliar right hand side, past the guest bathroom and the linen
closet before entering Ryan's room. The boy he loved with all of his heart
was laying on his bed, reading the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
book Werner gave him for Christmas that year.

"You just cannot put that down, can you?" Werner said, smiling as he did
so.

"Now that I've seen the Part 2 movie, I wanted to check where they are
different. I wish that they actually showed where Fred, Lupin and Tonks get
killed. I was really looking forward to that. They could have done better
with Bellatrix's death aswell."

"My boyfriend the wannabe director..."

"Yeah yeah. So...how's things at home?" Ryan quietly asked, finally putting
the book down.

"My mom cannot handle it. I'll be lucky if she sleeps at home tonight. By
dad cannot accept it either, but yeah, he's more willing to try than she
is."

"Damnit, Werner. If one of us was a girl, NOTHING would have been said."

Werner nodded and placed his arm around Ryan's slender body, which still,
after three years had not completely recovered from the cancer. Ryan leaned
his head on Werner's shoulder as he sighed audibly.

"What the hell are we gonna do, buddy?" Ryan whispered.

"I don't know, dude. I love you. Just like a boy would love a girl. I don't
care what who says. If this against God's will, then the reason for our
sins will be "love" and I cannot believe that God will judge against that.

"Tell me everything is gonna be okay, please?" Ryan said, looking up into
his boyfriend's eyes. Werner kissed Ryan's forehead and held him close.

"I can't do that, Ry...no matter how much I want to. We live in a world
that is too fucked up to realise that two boys can be in love. They don't
understand it, so they piss on us. I love you, Ry. I ain't letting you go."

"Same here, pal," Ryan said before leaning further into Werner to kiss
him. The two boyfriends held eachother as tightly as they could while they
kissed. It wasn't a tongue wrenching soppy demanding one like they usually
liked to give. They both needed reasurance. Werner held Ryan's body against
his own and held his lips against the latter's neck.

"I'll love you forever, man," he said, running his fingers through Ryan's
gelled, spiky hair.

"How did I get so lucky?" Ryan asked, pressing forehead against Werner's.

***

The following morning Werner strolled down from his room to the kitchen. He
was always early for school because he always couldn't wait to see
Ryan. But his good mood was immediately dampered when he saw his mom
sitting at the head of the table, nervously sipping her tea.

"Morning Mom," Werner said before grabbing a couple of pop tarts. His mom
totally ignored him and continued to stare out infront of her. Once Werner
had finished one pop tart, he couldn't bare this awkward silence any longer
and decided to head to school. It was then that Marie Cleverley opened her
mouth.

"When I come back from work tonight, I expect you to be gone."

"What did you say?" Werner stumbled out.

"You heared me, young man. I refuse to have a sinner to the God Almightly
in my house. The morgage is in MY name, so your father has no in this
matter. I want you and you evil ways out of this house!"

"Mom...Mom, its me, your son! Im still your son, Mom! I haven't changed or
turned evil or..."

"Are you willing to leave your homosexual devient ways behind you?"

Werner could just stare right back at her.

"Didn't think so. You are have been corrupted by dark forces and I will NOT
allow you to bring a curse on his family by staying here."

"Mom, where am I supposed to go?"

"As long as you choose this kind of lifestyle...anywhere but here."

For the first time in his life Werner was speechless. He always thought his
parents both loved him. Now he realised that they chose to love their idea
of him. He could feel a panic attack coming up, at least that was what he
thought it was. His chest was straining underneath his school shirt and he
couldn't breathe. He grabbed his back pack and stormed out of the house.

As he ran out of the front door, the fresh air did the world of good to
him. He had this sudden need to be with Ryan. Oh good Lord, he had been
THROWN out of the house!! Ryan's family will surely allow him to stay
there...but that didn't make up for what just happened. Werner started to
run towards Ryan's house as his chest was beginning to swell again. He
started to run faster. Checking for oncoming traffic as he crossed the road
was the last thing on his mind...

***

Franzette Volhanten and her mom were on their way to school that morning
aswell. Franzette was busy telling her mom about the upcoming exams when
the car infront of them came to a crashing halt, with burning tyres and a
screech which was deafening.

"Holy shit!" Franzette screamed.

"Did this car hit someone? Looked that way..." her mom said, clearly
worried.

"I'll go take a look quickly, be right back," Franzette said before getting
out of the car and running to where the car stopped. She screamed as she
saw the body lying infront of the Mercedes in a pool of blood. It was
Werner Cleverley...the guy which she has had a crush on for years...

***

The entire school was dismissed as almost no one could concentrate when the
news filtered through. Werner Cleverley had been run over by a car and was
in hospital. He was in a coma. For Ryan however, it felt as part of his
soul had been ripped out. The person he loved more than life itself was
being kept alive by machines and pypes and shit coming out of him. He was
taken to the hospital by the paramedics, but he could not be with Werner as
only family was allowed. The more Ryan tried to explain to them that
Werner's family was a bunch of twats who didn't care about him because he
was gay, the less they believed him. Finally, Ryan looked up and saw Jacob
Cleverley enter the nurses station from the elevator. He spotted Ryan and
ran over to him.

"How's Werner doing? I got here as quickly as I could."

"They don't wanna tell me anything, Uncle Jake. Please do in and take me
with you?" Ryan pleaded.

"Ofcourse I will. Oh...nurse? Nurse! Yeah hi, Im Jacob Cleverley, my son,
Werner Cleverley was brought in by the paramedics a little while ago,
motorvehicle accident..."

"Oh, we were wondering when his next of kin would show up. This boy here
wouldn't stop pestering us wanting to see him. The more we explained..."

"Okay, listen up, this BOY you're referring to, happens to be my son's
boyfriend. I give you my permission that he can see Werner anytime he wants
to. Would you please take us to him?"

The sight that awaited for Jacob and Ryan that afternoon when entering
Werner's room was something that neither of them would ever forget. They
were told that he had heavy head injuries aswell as a partically fractured
skull. He had various cuts and bruises on his body and his ankle was
broken. There was basically nothing that the doctors could do for him now,
he was critical, but stable. All that they could do was wait and hope
Werner woke from his coma soon, because, as the neurologist told them, the
longer he stayed in the coma, the more chances there was of brain
damage. Jacob placed a kiss on his son's forehead and very hastily left the
room. He seriously did not want Ryan to see the tears that he was trying
very hard to stop flowing from his eyes.

Ryan however slowly sat in the chair next to the bed and carefully took
hold of Werner's hand, which was heavily bandaged. He could only look up
into where Werner's face was supposed to be.

"Lord...please, please don't take him away from me..." he whispered softly.

***

Ryan was in tatters. He couldn't concentrate on his exams, his personal
life or anything else. He had started to buck school in order to be with
Werner. Each and every day of the 43 that had passed since the tradgedy
happened. The scars and shit on Werner's body had healed. But the surgery
that was done on Werner's brain a week ago was still showing their
passingby, with a massive bandage wrapped around Werner's now shaved
head. Each and every day he sat next to Werner's bed and PRAYED that he
would wake up. But at the end of the visiting hours he went home
dissapointed. Franzette was also a frequent visitor.

Now no one at school knew that Werner and Ryan was gay, let alone that they
were in a relationship. Over the years they had indeed managed to hide it
well. And Ryan defintely did NOT like the looks that Franzette was giving
Werner. He was in a fucking coma for heaven's sake!

One afternoon, Ryan entered Werner's hospital room, and Franzette was
sitting in HIS chair holding Werner's hand. The latter ofcourse didn't
notice anything and tried to make small talk with Ryan. When she left, Ryan
was vcery much wanted to punch something, so angry he was. He leaned over
Werner's body and whispered in his ear.

"You promised to love me forever! Please, please wake up! Werner, Im
begging you, please!"

The tears fell on Werner's arm as Ryan simply could not stop it coming. He
clutched at Werner's hand while he sobbed his heart out.

***

The call came just as Ryan wrote his final exam at the end of the
schoolyear. He very much doubted whether he would pass any of them. He
couldn't really care less. It was as he was walking to his car when his
mobile rang.

"Dad?"

"He's awake, Ryan! Werner's awake!"

"Oh my gosh, Dad...really?"

"Yeah, I just got a call from Jacob. Get your ass there right now!"

Ryan chased his car to the hospital as fast as he could. He had no idea
what would await him when he saw Werner again, alive and kicking. As the
elevator stopped on the ICU section, he stormed out and into the reception
area. He spotted Jacob speaking to a man in a white overcoat.

"Uncle Jake! Uncle Jake, how's Werner?"

None of the two men staring back at him said anything. It was then that
Ryan thought for the first time that something must be horribly wrong. But
Werner had woken up!! What could still be wrong with him?? Jacob nodded at
the man he was speaking to and pulled Ryan aside.

"Uncle Jake, please tell me what's wrong, I can sense something is..."

"Ryan, listen..."

"I wanna see him, I love him..."

"Ryan, you CANNOT!!"

Ryan looked back at Jacob with confusing spreading over his youthful face.

"I thought he was awake, my dad..."

"Ryan...yes he is awake but...Ryan, Werner has amnesia. He cannot remember
anything. Not who he is, where he is. Not even me, his dad. And I don't
want you going in there and getting hurt because he's not gonna know who
you are."

Ryan sunked to his knees. He didn't wanna believe this. This cannot be
happening. It CAN'T!!



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