Date: Sat, 14 May 2005 13:02:36 EDT
From: RexKwonDoe1280@aol.com
Subject: Reality Check Part 1

~*~Howdy pplz!! Ok....this is kinda the first time i've ever
written....and totally the first time i've ever written a "romance"
story. Anyway, all comments are excepted. Give me something constructive,
and i'll build from that! Anyway, this story is totally fiction, and the
usual disclaimers apply!! EnJoY!!~*~

Chapter 1

The feeling doesn't ever go away....it gets better, but it never leaves.
Sure, i've got a bunch of awesome friends....and don't get me wrong, I
love em all to death......but it's not enough! Is that selfish? Is there
something wrong with me? They all say, "No hon...there just aren't that
many gay guys your age out there.......just be patient...it'll come."
Well I can't be patient!! I can't wait! I've BEEN waiting!! But
somehow.....my friends always pull me through! And I love them soo much
for it! Me and my friend JoJo(well....her real name is Joanna, but she
doesnt like it, and neither do I, so I just call her JoJo) were looking
through pictures of us and our friends on the skiing trip we went on last
year.

The best one is of all of us in the lodge. We're pretty much just stacked
on each other. LOL. It's Kyle, Tim, Maddy, Travis, Casey, me, JoJo, Anne,
Aaron, and Todd. Good memories! Of course......I want memories of a
boyfriend. I've asked countless people if i'm hott. The answers were
mostly yes, or I guess, or kinda.....so then why can't I get a
boyfriend?! Man.....I look so different in the picture at the ski lodge.
Before: Dark hair, blue eyes, 5' 5", average body.....Now: Light hair,
bluish-green eyes, 5' 7", nicer body......but I guess that's not
enough....*sigh* "Jess...let's go...Jess?" JoJo said. Yea, that's me,
Jessie(Jess for short) Gellar. "Jessie!" JoJo yelled. "What?
Dammmit....you're so loud!" I yelled back. "Well....apparently it's the
only way to get ur slow ass out of the Twilight Zone!" she screamed. "I'm
not slow.....that much." I said. We laughed a little, and went downstairs
to get food.

"Hey Jess.....do you guys have any ice cream?!" JoJo hollered from the
kitchen. "Um.....I think, check the freezer!" Jessie hollered back. JoJo
opened the freezer, dug around, and found some Rocky Road ice cream.
"Oooh, yummy!" she said to herself, "Jess! Want some Rocky Road ice
cream?!" she hollered. "Yea!! What movie do you wanna watch?" he asked.
"I don't know.....what's On Demand?" she said, sitting down on the couch
next to him. "Oooh, Texas Chainsaw Massacre?" Jessie asked. "Pum pum
pum....yea, sure, sounds good....wanna get some blankets?" JoJo said.
"Yea....the blankets are in...that closet." Jessie said, smiling.
"Ugh.....you suck!" JoJo said, walking over to the blankets. "Not yet I
don't." Jessie said, breaking out into laughter. I ordered Texas Chainsaw
Massacre, cuddled under the blanket with JoJo, and enjoyed my life....as
much as I could.

I woke up to the phone ringing. Damn phone. I heaved myself towards the
phone to look at the caller ID. "Oh for the love of...!" I said.
"What....what's wrong?" JoJo asked sleepily. "Did we fall asleep again?"
"Yea, we did, and what's wrong is those damn telemarketers keep calling!"
I said. The phone stopped ringing, followed by the doorbell ringing. I
looked at JoJo, "Next thing you know, the fire alarm is gonna go off, and
then the house will blow up!" "Just...answer the door Jess!" she said,
still groggy. I got up, brushing some blonde hair from my eyes, and
opened the door. A cute boy stood there(what luck!). "Ummmm....hey
there!" I said. "Hi, would you happen to know where Todd Kooper lives?"
he asked. "Todd? Yea, he's my best friend.....I can walk you there if you
want....i'm not exactly the best at giving directions." I said, blushing
a little. "Ummmm, yea, sure, that'd be great!" he said, smiling. UGH!
Killer smile, gotta love it! "Lemme just grab my jacket, say bye to Jo,
and i'll be right out!" I said, getting excited. "Ok, i'll be right
here." he said. I walked back into the house, and opened the closet, all
the while saying, "Jo, i'm gonna go out, i'll be right back...there's
Ramen in the fridge....you can eat it if you want...bye!" I said, and ran
out the door, almost running into the guy.

"So....I never got your name." I said. "That's cuz I never gave it." he
said, skipping a little, making his light brown hair bounce. "Well....you
could give it now!" I said. "Ok.....it's Ian....now yours." he said. Ugh,
his name is Ian.....that's hott! "My name's Jessie...nice ta meetcha
Ian!" I said, grabbing his hand and shaking it. I looked up at him, still
holding his hand. "What?" I asked. "You're....real cute." he said,
blushing. I looked way, wide eyed, taking my hand away at the same
moment. He looked horrified, "Oh crap, i'm sorry, i didn't mean to say
anyth.." I stopped him. "You didn't say anything wrong....it
just....caught me off guard, that's all." I said, "I've never had someone
tell me that before....well JoJo, but that's JoJo.....heh." "JoJo?" he
asked. "Yes, JoJo, my other half, without her, I die." I said, smiling.
"You guys are pretty close huh?" he asked. "Yup.....like twins!" I
answered. Then.....the dreaded akward silence. "So.....are you close to
Todd too?" he asked. "Yea....we were born next to each other.....I think
I just got closer to him.." I said. "Oh....how come?" he asked. "Cuz this
is his house!" I said. He smiled his sexy smile, and went up and rang the
doorbell.

"How do you know Todd?" I asked him, waiting for Todd to answer the door.
"History project....hey man." he said, greeting Todd. "Heyy Todd....I
just wanted to show Ian the way....i'll leave now....see ya!" I said,
turning to walk away. "Hey, Jess, stay man...." he said. "Ummmm, k, but I
can't stay long, JoJo's at the house." I said. We went in, and me and Ian
went to Todd's room, while he went to take a shower. We were sitting on
Todd's bed in silence, till I broke the silence. "Hey Ian.....what did
you mean when you said I was real cute....what way did you mean it in?" I
asked. "Well.....physically, I think you're really cute....and I kinda
like you." he said. He started leaning in, closer and closer...slowly.
Dammit, hurry up.....I wanted him to kiss me so bad. Finally, after a
really long time, our lips touched. For a while, it was just innocent
kissing.........then came the tounge. I guess I didn't mind. But I did
mind when he went for my jeans. He took the button and unclasped it,
unzipped the zipper, and tried to take off my jeans. "Ian...what are you
doing?" I asked, starting to panic. "Come on, I know this is what you
want!" he said. "No....no it isn't...just let me go." I said, breathing
heavily. "The more you struggle the harder I push!" he said, starting to
get forceful.

"Ian.....stop.....let me go!!" I screamed, "Help...TODD!" Of course, with
Todd being in the shower and downstairs, he couldn't hear me. After
struggling for a little while, I finally got a leg free, and kicked Ian
in the crotch. He inhaled sharply, rolled off, and grabbed his nuts in
pain. I jumped up, pulled up my jeans, zipped and buttoned them up, and
turned around. I grabbed the doorhandle, opened the door as fast as I
could, and flew out of Todd's room. "You little shit! Get your ass back
here!" Ian yelled after me, and started to chase me. I ran down the
stairs, tears stinging my eyes. I got to the door before he did. I threw
it open, ran out, and didn't stop till I was on my street. I stopped, sat
down, leaned on a fence, and broke down. Why, when I finally find a guy
who likes me, he tries to rape me. I guess he didn't really like me huh?
Ugh, I feel so pathetic.

"Hey....what's wrong....you ok?" someone asked. Ugh, god, I hate when
people see me cry. I looked up.....a really really hott guy stood
there.....dammit, I can't even be excited about THAT right now.
"Ye...yea, i'm.....i'm fine." I said. "No....you really don't seem like
you are....here, come inside, and you can tell me what happened." he
said. Who is this guy, I mean, I don't even know him....and he's being so
nice to me....but hey, i'm not one to reject hospitality. We got inside
his house, which was really nice by the way, and sat down on a really
comfortable couch. "So....what happened, tell me what's wrong." he said.
"Um....no offense, but I don't really know you..." I said, sniffling a
little. "Oh....yea, sorry, my name's Blake...what's yours?" he asked. I
sniffled again, "My name's Jessie....how come i've never seen you....how
old are you?" "I'm 16.....and you've prolly never seen me because I just
moved here about a month ago.....i'm still adjusting." he said. He's 16,
my age, and he's really cute!! "Now, what's up....why are you crying?" he
asked.

"Um.....well, this guy......he...tri...tried to...ummm, rape me." I said,
bursting into tears again. "Holy fuck..." he said, moving over towards
me, wrapping his arms around me. I kept on going, "I liked him
too.....and I thought he liked me....he even kissed me......I don't know
why I believed him..." "Hey, it isn't your fault, you couldn't have
thought that about him....you had no idea....you deserve better!" he
said. I think he was getting a little angry. I looked up at his deep blue
eyes, a little bit of dark blonde hair getting in them. He jerked his
head to the side quickly making the hair get out of his eyes. I smiled at
him, he was so cute. he smiled back, "What?" "Nothing....just...the way
you jerked your head.." I said, jerking my head to get the brownish
blonde hair out of my eyes. "You just did it to....yea, it's pretty
cute!" he said. I blushed, "Are you.....do you...." I said. "Yea, yea i'm
gay." he said. "Wow, you're pretty open about it.....it took me like a
year to get enough courage to tell my best friends....and it only took
you like 10 minutes to tell a complete stranger.." I said. "You're gay
too?" he asked. "Yea....I kinda thought it was obvious..." I said,
blushing.

"Um....I have to get home, my friend is waiting for me." I said, standing
up. He stood up with me, and I just now realized he was really tall...at
least 6 foot. I started for the door, him walking close behind,
"Hey...Jessie." he said. I turned around, "Yea?" He walked up to me,
kissed me, and smiled. I smiled through my tears, which is REALLY hard to
do, and walked out. When I got home, I told JoJo the whole story,
including the kiss with Blake. "Oh....wow, hon....you had a long
day....how are you doing...you know, after the whole attempted rape
thing?" she asked. "I'm.....fine, I guess, I just need to go to sleep." I
said. "Well, i'm not leaving you....so i'm spending the night!" she said,
laughing. "I wasn't gonna let you go home." I said, laughing with her. We
went up the stairs, crashed on my bed, and drifted off to sleep.

~*~Ok.......so how was it? Tell me tell me tell me!!! O....shout-out to
Haggis7412...thanks! Ummm, there's more parts, so fans, no worries!! I'll
be back!~*~