Date: Mon, 31 Jan 2005 17:31:40 -0500
From: obando <obando@rogers.com>
Subject: Roses are Red chapter 5.

<DISCLAIMER> this story contains activities and relations between males.
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Roses Are Red
By: Monchito

Chapter 5.

            I couldn't believe what I went through at that party. My heart
completely torn apart. What happened to Alex? He was a completely different
person that night. The weekend I spent it with misery. I stayed home the
whole time. I was very confused, hurt, and angry. I was feeling something
strange the day after the party. I was sitting in my room crying and
thinking about Alex when all of sudden, I felt a pain in my back. I touched
my back with my hand to find where it was. I had a bruise on my lower back
near my spine. It felt very painful when I touched it. It felt like I was
shot or something. Maybe it was from fighting with Alex.

At least, I had Lucia who was there for me. I told her everything that
happened and she couldn't believe it. She told me that probably Brenda had
done something to make him act that way. I was thinking the same thing
too. Whatever she did, I still couldn't believe Alex. I guess it's true
when they say love is blind and it will take over your mind. When Alex told
me he loved me, I believed him but now I don't. As matter a fact, the time
when he told me those four words I didn't return them. I guess I was not in
love with him.

         Monday came around fast and I was certainly not looking forward to
it. I did not want to see Alex. I was not ready to face him or confront him
or see that sorry ass bitch Brenda who took him away. I had to keep it cool
and have my head up high.

I was sitting in my first period class English when my friend Carlos came
up to me.

"Yo Ben....um...I heard what happen at Brenda's party." he said.

I rolled my eyes, "who told you?"

"Well...no one. But there are people who went to that party and go to our
school that are talking about it."

"Oh great! Well....listen.. I don't really want to talk about it." I said
as I sighed.

Carlos was a good friend of mine but I really didn't want to talk about
it. I just wanted to forget about it but I had a feeling that, what
happened, is gonna be major gossip. He sat in a desk next to mine and
looked at me.

"Well you know you can talk to me about it and I don't mean to rub it in
your face or anything but...I never thought that you and Alex would
fight. Aren't you two best friends?"

"Heh...shit happens." I said. "He was acting all fucked up and he did
something to piss me off so...we fought."

"Oh! Must of been serious. Did he take your girl or something?" he said. I
looked at him with a weird look. I was laughing inside my head when he
asked me that.

"No buddy actually ...it was the other way around."

"What?"

"Never mind. Can we change the subject?" I said as I was opening my books
and taking out a pen.

I sat through the whole class not paying attention to the teacher. I was
only thinking about Alex while I was doodling on my paper. I know that it's
just been recent that me and Alex hooked up but I felt that I was with him
my whole life because we've been friends for so long. I was thinking that
maybe I should go talk with him and see what his reasons are. I certainly
did not want to ended this and not talk to him ever again. He means a lot
to me and I was not just gonna hand him over to Brenda. Not without a
fight.

        As soon as my second class was over I was determined to find what
his problem was. When it hit lunch time I immediately threw my books in my
locker and began to look for Alex. I saw Lucia down the hallway and started
to go towards her. Before I got close enough some one grabbed me by the arm
and stopped me in my tracks. I turned around and it was Hector.

"Hey Ben! Where you going in such a rush?" he said as my heart started to
beat faster. Right there I was having little memory flashes of what we did
at the party. At least those were good memories.

"Oh hey! Sorry .I ...I gotta look for Alex."

"Oh! Are you okay? Do you need me to come with you?" he said.

"Oh..no that's alright I just need to talk to him you know...get things
straight."

"Well...be careful."

I started to laugh, " no he's the one that needs to be careful." I said and
then we both laughed.

"By the way...thanks for helping me."

"Oh no problem! And um....I think me and you were left with unfinished
business if you know what I mean." he said as he smiled at me and I smiled
back.

"Uh yeah. Well we definitely gotta talk about that but right now I got a
mission to do." I said and with that I turned around and headed to Lucia. I
finally reached her.

"Hey...where's Alex?"


"I don't know. Why you gonna to talk to him."

"Ya I need to. Come on help me find him." I said and with that we started
to look for him.

We searched through the hallways on every floor. We couldn't find him
anywhere because there were to many people in the hallways. So we decided
to look for him near the gym. He had gym class so maybe he was there. We
looked in the gym and no one was there. So our last spot was the
cafeteria. We went in and as we got in the area we looked around. Of course
it was crowded as usually. I looked at Lucia.

"Do you see him?"

"Hold on." she said as she point a finger up. My heart was beating fast as
I was breathing faster.

"There he is."

"Where!?" I said as she pointed. I saw him sitting alone at a table all the
way at the back. He looked like he had his head down.

"*sigh*..okay.. Here I go. Don't wait up for me."

"K....good luck."

I started to walk slowly. Man it felt like forever to get to him. It felt
like I was walking in slow motion as I heard a loud heart beat. That heart
beat started to go faster as I got closer to him. The heart beat went
faster and faster and then stop. I stopped walking as what I saw got me
pissed. I saw Brenda walk towards where he was sitting at and sat down in
front of him. Man she ruins everything. I turned around to see Lucia still
standing near the doors. She moved her hand signaling me to keep going. I
had finally found him and Brenda was not gonna get in my way. I decided to
walk around so that I would reach his table behind him. As I was just near
his table I stopped again. I was looking at him as he had his back towards
me. I saw him just talking with Brenda like good pals not knowing that I
was behind him. Then something just me made stop. I just stood there while
I saw Brenda enjoying her time with Alex. Then...she saw me. The expression
on Brenda's Face completely changed as she saw me. I was just standing
there doing nothing as she kept looking at me. Then ..Alex turned
around. He got up. He looked at me as now I was looking at him. I got mad
as I frowned while looking at him. All the anger that I was feeling before
came back to me. I couldn't say anything as my chest started to hurt. I
couldn't do it. I decided to forget about it and started to walk past them.

"Ben wait!" he said as he started to follow me. As I was walking he grabbed
my arm.

"Let me go!" I said as I tried to shove my arm off.

"Wait Ben please...I need to talk to you."


"There's nothing to fucking say!" I said as I was still walking. He
followed me out the cafeteria.  Lucia saw us but she was far away. He
grabbed me again.

"Ben..WAIT!! Please!!"

I turned around, " what the fuck do you want?!" I looked at him as I tear
started to fall from my eye.

"Ben...I'm so sorry. Please...can we take outside."

"Why?!" I said as I yelled at him.

"Come on please I gotta tell you something!"

"*sigh*...ugh...fine. Let's go where we talked before." I said as I rolled
my eyes.

We walked outside. We went near the gym walls and as we got near some steps
I sat down. This area was the same place where he told me he loved me but
that didn't matter now.  He sat down right next to me but I moved away from
him.

"Well....what you gotta say?"

"Ben....I ..." he said as he put a hand on my shoulder but I shoved it off.

"DON'T touch me!.............Alex I can't believe." I said as tears began
to fall.

"Ben... I'm so sorry for what happened? I don't know what happened .. I
guess I was drunk."

"You GUESS!! Alex....you really fucking hurt me! What the fuck happened to
you?"

"I don't know! I don't remember."

"Oh my god! You don't fucking remember!!" I said as I got up. Now I was
standing in front of him. I started to cry.

"Alex....I fucking saw you....I saw you!"

"What?!"

"Don't fucking tell me you don't remember. I saw you on the bed with
Brenda! You...you....you looked like you were about to have sex with her!"
I said while crying but he didn't say anything.

"Not only that....*sigh*...you told me that she was your fucking girl and
then you punched me and then you spat at me like I was some piece of shit!"
I started to cry even more. He then got up and hugged me. I couldn't hug
him back because I felt so cold in his arms. He still held me in his arms.

"I fucking hate you...I hate you." I said as I cried in his embrace. After
a few seconds I pushed him away.

"You got a lot of fucking explaining to do now start explaining!"

"I'm sorry I don't remember....Ben I'm so sorry!"

"Don't fucking lie. I don't believe you!" I said as I was getting
mad. There was silence.

"Ben please forgive me...I don't have any good reason ...I was drunk."

"Well that's not good enough! And you what?..... I think your hiding
something."

"Ben please don't be mad at me. I hate myself for what I did and for what
me and Brenda.... I ...um....*sigh* ...Ben please don't hate me." he said
as I looked at him. He looked like he was about to tell me something.

"I don't know what to say. What you did really confused me and.."

"Ben!! ....I had sex with her!"

"What!!!" I said as I was total shock. My heart just stopped my mouth
completely dropped at what he said.

"You...you WHAT?!!"

"Ben ...I'm so sorry. Please don't hate me!"

"Oh hell no! HELL NO!!" I was yelling at him with total anger. I completely
snapped.

"That is it! That is IT!" I said as I started to walk away. I was now going
to look for Brenda and kill her. Well not literally but yell at her at the
top of my lungs.

"Yo where you going!" he said but I didn't answer him.

I was now speed walking along the school to get the entrance and look for
her. Alex was following me. When I got in the school I went into the
cafeteria. I immediately look for her around. I was filled anger as I saw
her sitting where I saw Alex but now Lucia was there. I ran up to them.

"You fucking BITCH! You fucking slept with him!" I said. I didn't care who
was around. Brenda looked at me and then got up.

"Yeah I did! So what! You fucking jealous?!" she said.

"Oh fuck you! You was just a piece of ass that's it. Nothing else!"

"Yo yo don't start to fight." said Lucia. I didn't care where we were I
just wanted to kill her.

"Listen gay boy. Alex likes me and if you don't like that you can like my
pussy. Oh yeah...sorry you don't do that!" said Brenda.

"Suck my dick you fucking slut! You don't know him like I do." I said. Then
came Alex.

"Yo please stop this! Ben don't start anything." he said. I looked at him
with anger. Then a thought came to my head.

"Here's something you don't know bitch! Alex tell her." we all looked at
Alex while I was looking at him and trying to tell him to tell her what she
don't know.

"Ben Please Stop!" he said.

"Alex! You fucking tell her right now or I will!" I yelled at him.

"Tell me what?" said Brenda.

"Ben please! Stop this!" he said as he started to get mad.

"Fine!...you know what BRENDA? Alex here is gay too and he's with me not
with you!" I said.  Brenda started to laugh.

"Oh please. Not after the good time we had. Right Alex?" she said.

"Okay Brenda shut up! Alex tell her!" said Lucia. Thank god she stuck up
for me I thought I was on my own.

"Ugh...BEN! ....I'm not gay!!" he said. I just stopped. It was silent.

"See...told you." said Brenda with a smirk on her face.

"What the FUCK! Alex....you know it's...it's OVER! Good bye we're not
friends anymore.  ....You can fucking have him bitch!" I said. I walked
away and then ran out the cafeteria.

"BEN!!" yelled out Alex but I was already out. Lucia walked up to Alex.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!" said Lucia as she pushed Alex and then
ran after me.


           I ran up to my locker. When I got there I started to kick the
door.  Why was this happening? Why is Alex treating me this way? Right
there I knew it was over between us. I guess was wrong...Brenda had him
hooked and I had lost. I knew things wouldn't be the same again. I opened
up my locker to get my books. I had a picture on my locker that was of me
and Alex.  We're sitting on a couch and he has his arm around me. I took it
and ripped it up into pieces and tossed them into a near by bin. Before I
closed my locker Lucia came up to me.

"Ben."

I looked at her and she looked at me. She looked sad as she was feeling my
pain.

"*sigh*..don't worry about me. I'll be okay. He doesn't know what he's
talking about."

"I guess it wasn't meant to be. But...are you sure you're willing to give
up seventeen years of friendship." she asked. I wasn't sure if I was.

"I don't know. Well..I don't really mean it just...*sigh*...I can't take
this anymore." I said as Lucia hugged me and padded my back.

"Okay well I gotta go but don't kill yourself and be strong." she said as
she giggled.


          When she left the bell rang and I started to go to my class. When
I went down stairs I met up with Hector as we had art class first. When we
were walking down the hallway side by side I felt very comfortable with
him. I was overwhelmed with frustration and my eyes all out of cries but I
felt a little relief when I was with him. Luckily I didn't see at all as we
got to our class room. When we got inside at sat at our usual table but
this time hector sat with me. I sighed as I put my hands again my forward
resting on the table. It was silent for a while but then Hector spoke.

"Ben."

"....."

"Ben!" he said as he shook me to pay attention to him.

"What?" I said in a low tone. I still had my head down.

"Cheer up Benito! I know this is hard but it's not worth it." he said as he
had his hand on my shoulder.

"*sigh* Hector let me ask you somethin'?"

"Sure. What?"

"Have you ever been hurt by someone so bad and I mean really bad that you
could almost kill someone?" I said in a soft tone. He thought for a moment.

"Well if you mean getting hit or being in a fight well...yeah."

"No not that way. I mean emotionally?" I said. I was gonna continue but
then the teacher started speaking.

The teacher began to talk about our next assignment.

"Okay well it looks like everyone is here so lets begin. Your next
assignment is that you'll be doing a portrait. No it doesn't have to be a
face figure. It could be anything that represents you."

One student put their hand up and asked a question.

"Uh..do you mean it could like an expression or and object that means
something to you?"

"Yes! I want you to show me something about you in an artistic way. Show me
what your feeling inside." said the teacher. I looked at Hector and started
to giggle.

"You know what? I could draw myself and I'm taking a gun and shooting
Alex."

"Hehehe...that's a little extreme but hey express yourself." he said as he
started laughing.

The teacher wrote some suggestion on the black board. This assignment had
to be in painting and we needed to use posters. I got up to get some white
paper just to start making ideas of what I wanted to do. I sat back down
and Hector began to talk to me.

"So what were you saying?"

"Oh! Um....listen lets not talk about this okay."

"Yeah sure." he said. I began sketching on my paper and so did he. I
started to draw a heart. Yes, a heart. I drew a heart that was bleeding and
underneath the heart there was fire. On top was rain that was falling on
the heart. I looked at it and I couldn't believe I drew that.

So, Alex now said that he was not gay. So he fucking lied to me. I didn't
know what to think now or what to believe. That Brenda surely did something
to make Alex all fucked up. I've known him way longer than she has and Alex
was just gonna treat me this way. I guess Hector was right, he doesn't love
me. Alex does not love me. Well surely he doesn't after he told me that he
had sex with Brenda. That news drove me insane I wanted to kill both of
them. I don't know if this true but getting hurt emotionally is a lot more
painful then getting hurt physically. I had to do something.

"Hey um..Hector I wanted to ask you something."


"Yeah. What?"

"Um..I ..uh...about what happened..you know." I said as I stopped drawing
and was concentrating on Hector.

"Oh..you mean about...you and I."

"Yeah. What was that about?" I said. I was a little confused after my
encounter with him. I wanted to know more about him and why he had done
what he done.

"Okay. Well you were going through some shit so I thought maybe I should
comfort you."

"Well that was really comforting and you surprised me." I said. I found
Hector to be very attractive. As I was close to him he smelled very
good. His skin was a nice tan like caramel tone which made wanted to lick
him up. Then I thought to myself, if Alex did his thing with miss man
stealing then I was ready to do my thing.

"So tell me Hector. Do you like guys?" I said in a soft tone. He looked at
me and smiled.

"Heh...well didn't I show you."

"Heheheheh..yeah you definitely did." I said. Aaaaah this guy was hot. Then
my question came.

'Well since we know about each other. Would you like to finish what you
started." I said as it looked like he was getting excited. He was an
amazing kisser and that time at the party made want to experience more. My
body was yearning for this guy and I needed some of that good ecstasy if
you know what I mean. He came closer to me and looked right into my eyes. I
looked to see if anybody was looking and then I looked at him.

"Tell me what you want." he said in a sexy voice.

"I want you." I responded. He licked his full lips which turned me on. I
wanted to lean in and kiss him but I couldn't do that in class people would
notice.

"Can you...come over to my place after school? If you can." I said.

"Well I don't know if I'm doing anything but..."

"I'll give you what you want and what I need." I said interrupting him.

"I'll be there." he said. We continued talking through out the class.


          When school finished I headed up to my locker to get my
stuff. Before I left though I would talk to Lucia about what happened
today. I came up to her where she was. She was at her locker getting her
stuff.

"Hey Lucia." I said.

"Oh Ben ..listen I got news."

"If it's bad I don't want to hear it."

"Oh but you gotta hear this." she said as she came in closer.

"Listen *sigh* I talked with Brenda and ....I can't believe her!"

"What?!" I said as I started to get a little worried.

"Well I was bitching at her and I asked her what did she do to Alex." she
said as she sighed and nodding her head.

"Ben she fucking spiked him!"

My mouth dropped, "she did WHAT?!!"  Man this shit gets worse and worse.

"What the fuck why would she do that?!"

"Okay listen. Remember when they went into the kitchen. Well she had told
him that she liked him. But Alex said sorry I'm with someone and that he
thought that she was nice girl but he really like this person that he was
with."

"Oh my god! Ya right." I said as I was in totally shock.

"Ben I think he was talking about you and so I think she got mad and then
slipped something on his drink."

Holy shit. My heart just raced as I was shocked and couldn't believe what
she had done.

"But how come Alex is acting like nothing happened?" I asked.

"He probably doesn't remember."

"Oh fuck! ....*sigh*...Lucia I yelled at him! I told him it was over! Oh
FUCK!" I said as I broke down. Alex wasn't lying, he didn't remember. I
didn't know what to do. I was still upset and angry at him.

"Ben you need to talk to him." she said.

"I can't right now. I don't know what to do! ....ugh...I gotta go home." I
said as I said bye to Lucia. God I hated Brenda so much that if I had a
license to kill I would kill her in a heart beat. I was walking down the
hallway to leave but when I turned a corner I saw Alex. I stopped to look
at him. He looked at me as he looked sad. I wanted to say something but I
just couldn't. I just kept walking not looking back. Luckily I didn't see
Brenda on my way out. If I did...well...of course I wouldn't beat her up
but my rave would go out on her. I can't believe what she had done. I felt
so bad for not knowing and in result I broke up with Alex. This was the
hardest thing I had to go through and how much more could I take? I don't
know, but I still was gonna see hector tonight.

Okay that's number 5. Don't be upset 6 will be in this week. So what will
happen between Benito and Alex? Well you'll have to wait and see. Thanks
again for my readers who are enjoying this story. See you in chapt. 6.

E-mail= obando@rogers.com