Sad song of a gay teen 42!!!!!!!!!!!
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From the previous chapter!!!!
We where almost at the exit when a teacher, who we all knew was a fairly recent addition to the staff, stopped us and said, "Well, if that's how you all feel about school, I think you are all wasting your time being here."
"We were only having a little bit of fun, sir," I said, "And besides, we happen to be the most famous students at this school, so I don't think it would look to good for you if you put us on detention or something, now, would it?"
I think that this teacher knew he was defeated and so we just walked away but not before he said that he would be discussing this with Mr.Noels. I just didn't understand his problem. It was just a song and we didn't really mean anything by it.
As we left the building Liam said, "What the hell was his problem? If we had been singing ANOTHER BRICK IN THE WALL PART 2, I think he would have been really offended."
"Some people just have no sense of humour," Chris added.
We all said our farewells and headed off to our various
modes of transport home. As I walked towards
From station to station
Back to Düsseldorf city
Meet Iggy Pop and David Bowie
(From the song
After I had got in the car,
Sad Song of a Gay Teen 42!!!!!!!!
As soon as we started to move away from the school,
"Yeah, I only had a yogurt and some fruit for lunch," I responded.
"All due to the fact that I didn't really feel that hungry," I said.
I have to admit that I felt a little uncomfortable as I
was still wearing my school uniform. School uniform consisted of a blue blazer
with the school badge on the breast pocket, white shirt, black tie with the
school crest on it, black trousers, black socks and black dress shoes. I really
hated wearing it and always looked forward to getting home and changing into
some far more comfortable casual clothes. Jewellery was also against school
rules but no one ever said anything to me about my earring and the eternity ring
As we sat waiting for our food to arrive, I said to
"Luckily for you, I think of everything and put some stuff for you to change into in the car," he said.
Something else that we talked about over our meal was my
favourite subject, ME, hehehehehe!! I knew why I had gone through all that shit
at school almost two years ago but something about it had been bugging me a
little of lot, (Ok, a lot, if you want me to be truthful). Did I make it really
obvious that I'm gay? I mean did I act camp and effeminate? If I did, I was
certainly unaware of it and didn't do it deliberately. I finally asked
I think that this particular question took everyone somewhat by surprise and I didn't get any response for a while, until Gary said, "Well, if by that, you are asking if you act all camp and effeminate, then yes, you do at home sometimes but not when you are in public."
Kyle added, "And definitely not at school. Why do you ask?"
"It's just something that has been bugging me a bit of late. I know that everyone at school knows that I'm gay, after all, I told Steve and Chris just after my 12th birthday and I was overheard. Needless to say that that information spread round school like wildfire but I just wondered if there was any sort of sign or way in which act that makes it obvious. I'm not ashamed of who I am but I just don't want to be obvious, if you understand what I'm saying?"
Anyway, I got the message that this conversation was getting very confusing when Kyle said, "Jason, shut up."
We finally left the restaurant at around 5.30pm and headed of to the studio. When we got there we found that David Bowie had gone out to get a bite to eat but we were told that he should be back soon. Sure enough we didn't have long to wait and his first words to me were, "So at last, I get to meet the legendary Jason Lewis."
"I think you got that a little bit wrong," I said, "you are the one who is a legend around here."
While we had been waiting for
I had a fantastic evening in the studio watching such a legend at work. Tony Visconti, his producer was also a great guy and was constantly asking for my thoughts and ideas on the way that they were recording the music. I would occasionally be bold enough to put forward a suggestion or two, which, I am happy to say, were actually taken notice of. Gary and I finally decided to head for home at around 9.30. It had been a long day as I had been up since seven this morning and wanted to get home to see Keith, who had been let out of the hospital today. I didn't want him feeling alone or left out of things, not after what had happened on Monday and considering that Liam was spending the night at Nicks' house.
When we got home, we went into the lounge to say hi to everyone. I noticed that there was no sign of Keith and so I asked, "Where's Keith?"
"Upstairs in his room," dad said.
"Is that wise? I mean, after I tried to commit suicide you didn't let me even go to the bathroom on my own," I said.
"It's OK, Alexei is with him, Boris and Sophia offered to get Keith from the hospital and we invited them for dinner. Boris picked Alexei up from school and his parents said it was alright for him to stay the night," mum said in response to my concerns.
Sophia was a gorgeous Italian woman in her late thirties
and Alexeis' mother, (I may be gay but I know a beautiful woman when I see one.
Yeah, Ok, I've said that before so sue me). Anyway, Boris and Sophia had met
while Boris was on business trip to
"If you two are feeling hungry, there are some sandwich steaks in the fridge," mum said.
When I walked in his room, Keith said, "Hi Jay, where's
"In the kitchen making steak sandwiches. Do you two want one?"
"Can't we have one each?" Alexei asked in his thick Russian accent which I found adorable.
"That's what I meant. Would like cheese, onions and
salad on them?" I asked, as I took out my mobile phone to call down to
We talked about all kinds of stuff and Keith wanted to hear from me about the cheek that I had given a certain teacher that afternoon. I also told him that I often got jealous of him and Liam. Keith was really surprised by this and wanted to know what I meant. It was quite simple really, I had always imagined having a boyfriend and, on the nights that we couldn't be together, we would have long, mushy, romantic conversations on the phone and tell each other how much we loved each other about a million times during the call. That is why I was jealous of Keith and Liam, they could do that but I had missed out on it because of what happened to me and the way in which I fell in love.
After we had finished eating our sandwiches, which were excellent, Keith said, "I don't know why you get jealous of the fact that I can phone Alexei and have long, mushy conversations. I'm the one that should be jealous of you. I mean, you are worth millions after all."
"That may be the case, but as I am always telling people, the basis of my fortune is the money that I inherited when my parents died. I would give it all away if I could have them back," I said.
The subject of my parents' death was one that always made me feel a little sad and I think that Keith picked up on this, because he said, "sorry Jason, maybe I shouldn't have mentioned that."
"It's Ok. I don't like to talk about it but I can't just ignore it. It happened and I have to live with it, deal with it, so, please, don't worry about it," I said to try and make him feel better.
"So did you get any news on your mum?"
"Yes, she was put into some kind of rehab. At least she
is getting some help with her problem. Jane asked me if I would like to go and
see her. I said that maybe I would when we get back from
It eventually got to a point where Alexei and Keith were
dropping not so subtle hints that they wanted to be left alone.
I woke up just as
"That'll be the new coconut shampoo and mango scented shower gel that I bought."
After that, I didn't waste too much time in going to take a shower myself. I was feeling really hungry and wanted to go and eat breakfast. OK, so I want to fool around with my exotic smelling boyfriend but at that moment, my need for food was far greater.
Thursday morning, when I went down for breakfast, Liam was already home and Sophia had joined us for breakfast. Alexei had to go home and get packed for the trip. Dean, Kim and Nick had dropped Liam off on their way to the airport. None of us, not even Liam, had any idea as to where they were going on their family holiday and I was surprised at how well he was taking this little separation form his boyfriend.
As I entered the dining room, mum said, "If you leave out all the stuff that you will be taking with you, Heather said that she will pack your case for you."
"OK mum and is there any chance that you could take me into Knutsford as I need to get a few things?" I asked.
"I can do that," mum said, "What time would you like to go?"
"If we leave at around eleven, I can what I need and then we'll go and have lunch at the Italian place, my treat," I said.
"You don't have to buy me lunch," mum said.
Dad jumped and said, "Well, if your mum won't accept the offer of lunch, then I'll take you."
Of course, mum made a quick come back with, "Lunch sounds like a great idea."
So that was part of the day organised and I made some comment about having the rest of the day free to do what ever I wanted. I thought that maybe I would go for a ride on my quad bike or maybe swimming in the pool. As soon as I mentioned all of this, dad said, "Jamie is coming to see you this afternoon so you can look over the new website that he has for the studio complex. Robert and Neil want to go over the advertising stuff that they have developed for the record label."
I obviously didn't look that happy about having to do this but dad just said, "They are you business' and I think that you take some interest, some responsibility for them."
There was no way that I could argue with that. The rest of the morning was spent sorting out what clothes I would be taking with me. Gary, Liam and Keith also did the same thing, (well, they decided which of their clothes and stuff they would be taking, hehehehehe).
Mum and I got into Knutsford at about 11.30 and my first
stop was Superdrug, so that I could get stoked up on shower, gel, shampoo,
deodorant and hair styling products. I also saw some stuff called hair paint. It was hair dye that you
sprayed into your hair and the colour would wash out the next time that you
washed it. I didn't just buy on e colour, oh noooooo...I bought a selection,
including green, blue, purple, yellow, gold and pink. I was going to use to make
hair look really wacky for some of the shows in
After this mum and I went to the restaurant. Once we had been seated, given menus and placed our drinks orders, mum asked me, "So what's with you buying me lunch?"
"So there has to be a reason for me buying you lunch now?" I asked.
"It's almost two years since you came to live with us and I think that has given me plenty of time to get you figured out by now," mum responded.
"It's just my way of saying thank you," I said.
Mum gave me a somewhat puzzled look before saying, "You don't have to thank me or your dad for anything."
"But I want to. I mean, you agreed to take me in after
everything that happened and I reacted really badly that first day that I
arrived at your house. Then I met Liam and you helped
After this we were silent for a few moments, while we looked at the menu. I decided to have the seafood fettuccine to start and for main course I chose the Saltimbocca, a dish made with thinly battened veal pieces that where wrapped in Parma ham and sage, served with a whit wine and black pepper sauce. I also ordered a mixed salad and some chips to accompany my main course. We never had chips with our meals at home and so they were always something of a treat when I had them at home. Anyway, lunch was a really pleasant affair and mum and I talked about all kinds of different topics. Mum asked how everything was going at school, how my plans for the big concert in August were coming along, etc, etc, etc. I ask mum if any of the scans that she had been for had showed the sex of the baby. She told me that her a dad knew that but they wanted it to be a surprise for the rest of us. At least I tried to find out but no matter how many times I asked, how much pestering that I did, mum just wasn't saying anything. We finished our lunch and I paid the bill and then we headed back to the car. As we where walking along, we passed a florist shop and I saw a huge bouquet of flowers. Mum notice me looking at them and said, "You don't have to gat me some flowers too."
I looked at my watch and then said to mum, "Jamie isn't due until around four thirty, it's only one forty-five now, so I think we would have time to go and visit my parents grave. I haven't been for a while and that is why I was looking at the flowers."
I went into the shop and bought the flowers and then we went to the cemetery. We spent about half an hour there and mum helped me to arrange the flowers on the grave. I just sat there, lost in my own thoughts. I often wondered if there was some kind of an afterlife and if there was, were mum and dad looking out for me in someway and watching my growing success with the sort of pride that they would have if they ha still been alive? Mum and I finally headed for home.
I was kind of quiet on the drive home but then again I always was after I had been to visit the grave. Just as I opened the door at home, the phone was ringing. I put my bags down and rushed over to answer the phone. I was felling in a sort of mischievous mood and when I picked it up, I said, "The Russell home for gay boys and an abandoned dog. How may I help?" Of course, as I said it, I turned around and mum was standing right behind me, giving me a look that said, `just what the hell did you say that for?'
Anyway, it was Carol, my old neighbour calling to wish
us good luck with the tour. At least Carol appreciated my strange way of
answering the phone. We spent around half an hour talking and catching up as I
hadn't seen her for sometime, this was due to the usual thing of my life being
so busy of late. Gary, Liam and Keith were out riding the quad bikes and were
being chased all over the property by Jack. At least I knew that he was getting
his exercise. After finishing my call with Carol, I took my shopping up to my
room and then went to get a drink from the Kitchen. I did want to go fro a swim
but there wasn't really time before Jamie arrived. Robert and Neil went over the
advertising that they had come up with for the record company while I waited for
Jamie to arrive. What they had come up with was really eye catching and I was
more than happy with it. They also went over the schedule of everything that we
would be doing in
Jamie and Greg arrived at around 4.30. They were running
a bit late due to the heavy traffic on the motorway. I made us some coffee and
then we went up to my room to use the computer there. The new website that they
had designed for the studio was really cool. It features a 360 degree tour of
the main recording room and the control room. It also featured a full listing of
the equipment available in both studios. Jamie had also made use of some video
footage that Kyle and Simon had made of us working in the studio. Then there was
the guest book and this featured comments from many of the people who had
recorded at the studio. All in all I was very impressed. Jamie and Greg finally
left at around six as him and Greg were taking Gregs' parents out to dinner. I
would get to see plenty of them over the next two weeks tho', as they were
Once we got the party, all the kids from school were in the pool. It didn't take long for Gary, Liam and I to change and get in the pool. I think that Keith felt a little down as he was unable to join us due to the stitches in his wrists. Alexei was the perfect gentleman about this and decided that he wasn't going to swim either. All the guys from the football team kept apologising, not only to Keith but also to Liam and me over the way that we had been treated by their former team mates. We kept telling them that they had nothing to apologise about and it kind of got a little boring in the end.
I had been in the pool for around fifteen minutes, when there was an almighty splash behind me. I was just about to say something along the lines of, `which little shit did that?' when Craig surfaced right in front of me and said, "Hi Jason!!!!!"
"Hi Craig and how are you doing?" I asked.
"Oh, I'm cool," he said. "So how long are you going to
"About two weeks," I told him.
We all continued to play around in the pool for another thirty minutes until Boris came and informed us that the food would be ready in about twenty minutes and that we should all think about getting showered and dressed.
When it came to getting some food, I was near the front of the queue. It wasn't intentional, it just happened somehow. Anyway, Boris and Sophia had organised a catering company to do the food and it was very impressive. The choice was fantastic. Form the barbeque there was a choice of fillet and sirloin steaks, char- grilled leg of lamb, marinated chicken breasts, huge prawns, lobsters, salmon, tuna and sea bass. There was also a big table with a huge selection of salads and breads and a final table with an array of deserts. All in all, it was one heel of a feast. After I had filled my plate with a selection of fish and shellfish, along with some salads and bread, I went to find a table where I could sit with the guys from the band as I need to discuss a little idea with them. I had only just sat down, ready to eat, when a boy with reddish-brown hair came over and asked if he could join me.
"You're more than welcome," I said.
"My name is Tron, by the way," he said.
"Strange name," I said.
"It is but I'm used to it. I just blame it on my strange parents," he said.
Anyway, it turned out that Tron was a striker on the
football team, not that really meant anything to me, although he did his explain
that hi main purpose was to score goals. That, I could understand. Tron was also
a big fan of the band and said that he loved the gig at the MEN Arena the
previous weekend. He had wanted to come and talk to me and the rest of the band
at school but had been afraid to approach us as he had always felt that he would
be intruding on our privacy. Anyway, tonight he got his wish as we were soon
joined by Steve, Chris, Liam,
Everyone was looking very curious and intrigued.
Basically, it was all to do with set list for the Japanese tour and the fact
that I wanted to add an additional song to the list which I would perform as a
solo after our usual intro. After the events of Monday night and my attempt at
taking my own life, I wanted to do the Elton John song SOMEONE SAVED MY LIFE TONIGHT. It was
from his album, CAPTAIN FANTASTIC AND THE
BROWN DIRT COWBOY and was about his own suicide attempt that failed. What he
had done was turn on the gas oven but left all the windows open, there by
allowing the gas to escape and not have the desired effect. I had discussed this
The party started to wind down just after ten as we all needed to get and get some sleep due to the fact that we to get some sleep. Although we had been provided with a private plane for the tour, we still had to be at the airport for about six in the morning to go through security procedures and make sure that we were all o board the aircraft for our 9am departure slot. We had been told that if we missed it then we could be waiting hours for another take off slot.
End of Chapter 42!!!!!
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