Date: Sun, 19 Dec 2010 15:45:55 -0500 (EST)
From: just4kicks4213@aol.com
Subject: Scent of Angst- Chapter 1

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Chapter 1: Stay Cool Fool

"Kyle, do you want to go hunting with me and my family?" Jason asked.

I looked over at him as if he was crazy. "Why would I want to do that?" I
replied bluntly.

"Because I wanted my family to meet you. My dad suggested that you go
hunting with us this weekend. If they knew that you didn't want to go
they'd think you didn't want to meet them."

"Who's all going to be there?"

"My dad and two brothers."

I looked at Jason's expression and he looked like he really want me to
agree. "Well, I can't go hunting any ways, I support P.E.T.A. I mean I'm a
vegetarian for fuck's sake." I guess I was getting a bit defensive, but I
have morals.

"We're not planning on making winter coats out of them. We're just hunting
them." Could he be anymore daft?

"Do you even know what P.E.T.A. is about?" I asked with a smirk.

"Yeah, they throw red paint on people's fur coats and they don't like when
animals get made into clothing."

I shook my head, how misinformed can he be? "That's not all. They want
people to treat animals humanely."

"So they want people to treat animals like humans?" He's so cute when he's
confused.

"No, they just don't want people to torture or kill animals. Do you know
what P.E.T.A. stands for?"

"I know you're going to tell me." Jason said with a sigh of defeat.

"It stands for People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals." I said
proudly.

"Then shouldn't it be P.F.T.E.T.O.A?" Jason inquired whilst looking
baffled.

I growled frustrated, "Well it's not."

Jason looked at me and asked, "So are you going to go hunting with us?"

I looked over at him and he was giving me puppy dog eyes, he was
practically begging me with his eyes. He walked over to me, held my face in
his hands and said "Please babe."  I took one look into his deep blue eyes
and I just melted. I think he say that my guard was down and he took that
opportunity to kiss me softly on the lips.

Oh, maybe you're a bit confused. I failed to mention that Jason is my
boyfriend. He's my secret boyfriend, so in public we're just friends. Right
now we're in my room with the door closed and locked. We would never be
this affectionate in public. But I digress. So about the whole
situation. I'm still anti- hunting but at this point Jason could persuade
just about anything. And after all I won't be hunting the animals I'll just
be accompanying Jason and his family on the trip. There's nothing wrong
with that.

"Fine I'll go , but I have some conditions." I said sternly as I took his
hands from off my face.

"Of course, fire away." He said enthusiastically.

"I'm not killing anything and I don't want to see the animal that you
kill. Got it?" I said whilst wagging my finger in his face.

"Well, my dad might try to show you the animal. After all he's always proud
of what he hunts."

"Well then I will kindly decline from seeing the dead animal thank you very
much." I replied haughtily.

"Fine but please don't be snobby to my family, they're a bit more...simple
than you." Jason said sincerely.

"Uh, I'm not a snob!" I exclaimed then swatted his arm.

He laughed and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. "Of course you
aren't."


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Now it's early on Saturday morning and I'm siiting in the back of Jason's
dad's SUV next to Jason. I still can't believe that I agreed to go on this
"trip". I'm sitting here in my pseudo hunting attire while Jason, his
brothers and his dad all have these sort of camoflauge outfits that will
help them blend in with trees and sticks and things. Then it just dawned on
me that I didn't even know what they were going to be hunting.

I leaned over to Jason and whispered, "Hey Jase, I forgot to ask what are
you guys going to hunt?"

He looked down at me and said simply, "Deer."

I tensed a bit when I heard this. I knew they'd be hunting something but I
didn't think it would be that big. Also it's a deer, all I could think of
was the seen in Bambi when his mother gets killed by the hunter. I think
that was the saddest moment in movie history. Okay maybe I'm exaggerrating
but still I started to panic all the less. I don't think I can endure
seeing Bambi mom strapped to the roof of the car.

I looker over at Jason with fear written all over my face and he could see
that."Kyle what's wrong?"

"I don't think I can do this. I can't handle seeing a dead deer." I
screeched out.

"What's that now son?" Jason's dad interjected, "Have you never gone
hunting before Kyle?"

"No sir, I didn't really want to say anything, but I'm not a fan of
hunting."

"How do you know if you've never tried?" Mr.Perth asked jovially.

"I don't like the whole concept of animals being killed for any reason be
it food or recreation." I said snappily.

Jason elbowed me in the side. I looked over at him and he was glaring at
me. I gave him a "what" look. " He asked." I whispered harshly to Jason.

Then I looked up caught the stares of Jason two brothers. Tim was sitting
in the front seat looking back at me and Matt was sitting to my left and
they were both looking at me strangely. I felt very uncomfortable to say
the least.

I think Jason saw the looks they were giving me. "What are you guys looking
at?" Jason asked sharply.

That seemed to shock them out of their staring. "Well Kyle I didn't know
you had such strong feelings towards hunting. Why did you agree to come?"
Mr.Perth inquired.

"Well I got to say I was heavily persuaded by Jason. I don't want to be
rude but I rather not be a part of the killing on this hunting trip." I
replied politely.

"I still don't get the reason why you came." Matt said snarkily.

I turned to look at Matt, "I came because your brother thought that if I
declined the offer to go hunting then you guys would be insulted. I'm sorry
I'm such an inconvience." I replied defiantly.

"No Kyle you're not an inconvience. Matt didn't mean it like that. Matt
apologize to Jason's friend." Mr.Perth commanded.

"I'm...sorry, I didn't mean to be rude." Matt said hesitantly.

"It's fine I tend to over dramatize any ways."

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We'd been sitting there for a while out in the wilderness in the brisk fall
weather, just waiting. I bet I looked so out of place for a couple of
reasons. First beacause of my non camoflauge clothes. Then also my overall
appearance, I'm a small Korean boy who doesn't really fit in with Jason and
his brothers whom are all big strapping guys looking every bit the "All
American" type. I bet you didn't picture that, me as a thin Korean
boy. Maybe it threw you off by the fact that my name is Kyle but that's my
english name. My real first name is Bae. Most Korean Americans have an
english name which they go by. Don't get me wrong my family's not a very
traditional Korean family. Like we're not constantly speaking Korean, but
do keep some tradition with the name. However let's get back on topic.

I was still feeling a bit uneasy about this whole thing and I think Jason
could sense that. Sometimes we're so in sync.

"Hey dad I think I need to go to the bathroom." Jason stated and then he
gave me that look that says 'follow my lead'.

"Well, Jason just find a spot and go." Mr.Perth said.

Jason started heading in a direction away from his family. "I have to go
too." I chirped in and then followed him.

Jason went far enough away so that they couldn't hear or see us. "Are you
still not sure if you should do this?"

"Well now I don't know if I should tell them that I don't want to watch
them kill the deer. I already made a fool out of my self in the car when I
said I didn't like hunting.I don't want to seem so rude. However I still
really don't want to see you guys kill an innocent animal." I rambled on
until finally Jason cut in.

"If you really don't want to see it I won't force you. I rather you just
tell them. I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do."
Jason said sweetly.

"Ah, thanks Jason." I said cutely then I put my hands on his chest and
pressed my body into his."You know you spoil me." with a 1950's 'damsel in
distress' type of voice.

Then Jason bent down his head and we kissed on the lips and that's when it
happened. "What the fuck is going on?" someone said angrily.

We quickly broke apart and I turned around and saw Tim standing there
looking pissed. My stomach dropped.

"Hey Tim." Jason said shakily.

Tim just looked from me to Jason and then back at me, he turned around and
started stalking back to where Mr.Perth and Matt were. We hastily followed
behind him. When we got back Tim was already telling Mr.Perth and Matt what
he saw. "...and I caught those two kissing." Tim finished with a scowl on
his face.

I looked over at Jason and he looked scared like he was bracing himself for
what he was about to say. "Dad, he's right Kyle and I were kissing and
that's because he's my...boyfriend."

Mr.Perth's eyebrows shot up and he looked stunned. Before he had time to
reply Tim butt in."I should have known that he would feel up Jason. Just
like his people. They're trained to be hookers, whores, Geishas and stuff
like that." Tim bellowed in disgust.

I screamed back, "Geisha, I'm Korean not Japanese you racist bastard!"

"All the same, they're just trying to get a piece of a real man."

"Fuck you!" I shouted then I gave him 'the bird'.

"I'm gonna bash your little Korean face in, for touching my brother."  Then
Tim started coming towards me with his fists up.

Then there was the sound click-click. I turned my head and saw Jason
pointing the shot gun at Tim.

"If you touch him I wil kill you." Jason said callously.

"Jason put the god damned gun down, you are not going to shoot you're
brother. Tim you cool down over there somewhere because you are just out of
line. Jason come with me cause we have some things to talk about now. And
Matt you stay with Kyle just in case Tim tries to come back." Mr.Perth
directed.

Then Mr.Perth and Jason walked off,Tim seemed to be long gone and out of
nowhere Matt pops up beside me.

"Sorry about Tim he is very...protective of Jason." Matt said sincerely.

"No kidding." I said with a chuckle."I never thought I'd be in this
situation.

"I should've known you were more than a friend to Jason, just by the way
that he talked about you.He always had great admiration in his voice and
longing in his eyes whenever he talked about you. Which I couldn't figure
out at the time but now I understand. He would say things like 'I wish I
could be a vegetarian like Kyle. I wish I could have that kind of self
control' or 'I wish I was half as smart as Kyle.' One time he slipped up
and said 'Kyle is so cute.' then he backed it up by saying 'I mean in the
way that you would call a puppy dog cute, you know.' He likes you a lot."
Matt laughed and added, "He likes you so much that he would kill his own
brother for you."

"Thanks for that Matt."


We ened up leaving the hunting grounds with actually doing any hunting
(thank goodness). The drive home could be described in three words; long,
silent, and tense. I think we all knew that things would not stay the same
anymore. Now Jason's family knows that I'm his boyfriend. Yes, things will
change drastically.


To Be Continued...