Date: Thu, 16 Aug 2012 23:04:30 -0400
From: Charlie BoyNY <cboyny@gmail.com>
Subject: Sean's Story: Chapter 5

Sean's Story

Chapter 5: The Journey

"That. Was. Amazing." Josh said.

I couldn't help but agree. What seemed like it had lasted forever in my
head was the most amazing fifteen minutes of my entire life. I'd blown my
dream guy and had experienced the most powerful orgasm of my life up to
that point. There really no words that could adequately explain what I'd
just experienced.

I was out of breath and was just lying there basking in what had happened.
I was so unbelievably happy. Could it be? I'd found a gay guy in my town.
But not just any gay guy either. This was Josh, my dream guy and local
adonis. And he was attracted to me at least in a sexual way.

"Penny for your thoughts?" he chimed.

"I...wow. Yeah." I sputtered.

Real smooth.

"I mean, that was... Amazing."

I grinned. I couldn't think of another word to describe it. Josh grinned
back at me. Every time he flashed that smile it got sexier. I was in heaven.

And then the reality of the situation hit me. Josh was laying on my bed in
a t-shirt with his underwear around his ankles and his now-soft cock just
resting atop his still tight balls. I was laying there completely dressed
with my soft cock hanging out of my trunks and cum all over my shirt. I
looked a hot mess. Josh was reading my mind apparently.

"Looks like we need to get you cleaned up."

His eyes lit up. Guess he wanted to see me naked just as badly as I wanted
to see him. An idea flashed into my mind. I looked at the clock. There was
only about 10 minutes or so until dinner would be ready.

"Well, I do still need to take a shower... Does my mom know you're here?"

"I don't think so. I just walked in."

God bless places like this where people just leave their doors unlocked for
horny boys to wander in and get blown by their equally horny neighbors.
Small-town America really was heaven.

"I wish we had time for a shower together but dinner will be ready soon. I
wish I could take you with me..."

I got off the bed and Josh followed me with his eyes. I pulled off my
cum-soaked shirt and threw it into the corner.

"Sexy" he said.

I untied my drawstring. He could, of course, see my cock but he hadn't seen
the rest of me. I wanted him to see all of me. I wanted him to know what he
could have if he wanted it. I pulled my dick through and let my trunks
drop. I was as exposed to Josh as I'd ever been up to this point. I was
almost completely exposed in front of him.

I took a breath and hooked my thumbs inside my boxer briefs. It was now or
never. I pulled them away from my body and down so that they fell when I
let go. I was now standing there completely naked in front of Josh. I
blushed as he slowly looked me up and down. I'd never thought of myself as
attractive really. I was skinny and pale. Wet I probably weighed 115
pounds. I was mostly hairless but kept what I did have neatly groomed with
a razor.

He got up off the bed, his boxers now around one ankle, and walked to me.

"You're beautiful"

He caressed my cock then swatted it lightly.

"I wish I'd been able to suck you."

"Sorry, I needed to cum badly"

"I noticed. It was hot."

I blushed again. How was it possible that he was into me of all people? It
didn't seem real. My thoughts were interrupted by Josh moving in closer and
holding himself to me, pulling me tight. He was a little taller so I looked
up at him. Our bodies were pressed together and our cocks were rubbing.
Despite my recent orgasm I started to get hard again.

Josh bent his head down and kissed me. We didn't make out like last time.
It was a much sweeter kiss and didn't last as long before he pulled away.
Butterflies filled my stomach.

"I wish we had the time right now." He said.

"You could come back tomorrow. We could always say I'm helping you with
some math or something if anyone asks."

He bit his lip as he thought about it.

"I can't wait."

Josh kissed me again and then let me go. My cock was sticking straight up
and he looked down at it since he hadn't gotten a good view before.

"Nice dick."

"I guess. Yours is bigger."

"Yours is beautiful and I bet it will taste amazing when I try some
tomorrow. Now go and take a shower. I should be going anyway."

He moved further from me and smacked my ass lightly.

"I'll see you tomorrow. And maybe, if you're lucky, I'll leave my curtains
open for you from now on."

I laughed and he gave me another kiss before getting dressed and left.
Because I only had a little longer until my mom called me down to dinner I
jumped in the shower. I did need to get clean after all.

Once I was under the warm water and began to wash myself on autopilot I
finally let my mind wander to what had happened in the last half hour. I
had found out that Josh, my beautiful next door neighbor was gay, or at
least bi, and he found me attractive. And I'd blown him. I'd sucked his
beautiful cock and drank his warm cum. It was delicious.

But where was this going? It didn't sound like this was a one-time thing.
Josh said he wanted to suck me. But was this all that our relationship
would be. A friends-with-benefits situation? Did he just want to get off
and get me off? I resigned myself to the fact that worrying about it was
not going to cause me to have an epiphany. I would only find out what he
wanted by asking him or waiting to see where it went.

I turned off the shower, dried off, and headed into my room. I put on some
clothes and headed over to the window. I peeked through the curtains, not
wanting to be too obvious, to see if he'd left them open. Closed. Maybe he
just wanted to get his dick sucked and didn't really have an interest in me
at all. I'd die. Such a drama queen.

My mom called me down and we had a nice dinner of linguine with clam sauce.
My dad talked about his day hunting and I talked about my day at the beach.
My dad was really impressed that I was learning how to surf.

"Sounds like this Josh is gonna be good for you." He said.

If only he knew.

"Well at least he's getting him in the sun." My mom said before lifting up
my arm, "Look at him. He's almost see through."

"Shut up."

"Well, a little sun wouldn't hurt you." My mom chided.

We joked around through dinner and then I cleared the table when we were
done. I really did like my parents. My dad still had some issues with me
being gay but it never came up and I was ok with that. My mom and I talked
about it now and then but the conversation never got too serious. Sometimes
it just consisted of her asking if I thought a guy was cute. I was just
glad she felt comfortable enough to ask me questions like that considering
how long it took me to come out.

I went back up to my room and did some reading. I was still a big fan of
the Ender's Game series having read all of the ones in the main saga. I was
now onto the Shadow series and had just recently started reading "Shadow of
the Giant". It was good so far and I was enjoying it even though Orson
Scott Card's political views bothered me. I wondered if the fact that gay
people bought his books bothered Card. Probably not as long as he got our
money.

I read a couple chapters than realized that it was getting late and I had
school in the morning so I decided to head to bed. I looked out my window
again. Closed. What the fuck? He said that he'd leave them open for me.
Didn't he? Was I crazy?

I brushed my teeth, stripped down, and got into bed. My last memory before
drifting off was of Josh's smile after I blew him.

I slept heavenly though I couldn't recall any dreams. The next morning was
my usual routine. Got up, showered, ate breakfast, and then walked to
school with Casey and Josh. It was awkward. More awkward than it should
have been. Casey was his normal self and I tried to act normal and converse
but Josh seemed to have shut down. Fuck... Did he regret what we did? Was he
ashamed? Would he never talk to me again?

When we got to school we were about to all head our separate ways when Josh
made me a little signal to wait with him. I signaled to Casey that I'd see
him in a bit. Josh looked kinda sheepish and I waited for him to talk.

"Sorry about being so quiet. I didn't mean to ignore you."

"Ah, so I do exist."

"I said sorry." He said slightly pathetically, "Just... I know you're close
with Casey and I don't want people to know that we... did stuff. I mean, I
want to continue but I'm not ready for people to know yet."

Ok. So it wasn't me. He was worried I was gonna say something to Casey?

"I won't say anything to anyone. I promise."

"Thanks."

He really looked relieved by that. Did he really think I'd tell Casey about
my sucking his cock? I guess boys will be boys but I doubted he'd want to
hear about my sexcapades anyway. Weren't straight guys notoriously
squeamish about gay stuff?

"I can't wait for tonight." I said in my best flirty voice.

He looked mortified.

"Ssssh. Have a nice day."

Closeted guys are so cute.

"Bye cutie."

He cast me the most adorable glare as I walked away.

I joined Casey in class and gave him some excuse about Josh wanting my
advice on a girl since I was gay and all. Casey laughed and said that I was
the worst gay and that I couldn't possibly have helped him. He was probably
right. Except for my, apparently, talented tongue I was a bad gay. Class
started and we went through a delightful world of Algebra II. Holy hell
some of these kids were stupid. My teacher actually got frustrated and
asked me to try and explain factoring. I don't understand how people
couldn't understand that.

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful and just went as normal. All I
wanted was to fast forward until Josh would come over that night and I
could do wonderful things to his body. I was almost in a daze the entire
time school was in session. Luckily these classes were easy and I could
afford to just coast for a day. The teachers rarely called on me unless I
raised my hand anyway. They knew I understood the material.

Casey and I walked home and shot the shit. Nothing exciting had really
happened today so we just talked about random stuff. I was on autopilot. I
just wanted to get home and into my room. I knew Josh had swim practice but
somehow I figured that if I was in my room the time until he got there
would be faster.

Unfortunately that wasn't true. I found myself just sitting in my room
trying desperately for something to do. I read for a while but got bored so
I switched to watching TV. But that, too, only lasted so long and I started
to clean. I couldn't sit and do one thing for very long because of my
impatience. I got on my computer and fucked around for a while. I checked
my MySpace but didn't have anything exciting on there so I signed off.
Normally I probably would have jacked off already with this level of
boredom but I wanted to save it for Josh.

Time inched along at a snail's pace as I fucked around in my room.
Eventually it was dinner and I couldn't believe he hadn't come over yet.
His swim practices weren't this long. Maybe he wasn't coming. I barely
talked during dinner which caused my parents to ask if anything was wrong.
Nothing was but I couldn't convince them otherwise. I just said that I
hadn't slept well the night before and they left me alone.

After dinner I decided to take a shower to try and take my mind off of
things. Of course that didn't work either. `Cause in the shower you're
naked and when you're naked and a teenager in puberty being naked makes you
think of sex. Before long I was fondling my balls and stroking my cock. My
balls were so smooth and my cock was so hard; I just loved touching them. I
brought myself to the edge of orgasm several times but stopped myself each
time. I wanted to cum so bad but I was still holding out hope. If he didn't
show up I was going to kill him by beating him with my blue balls. Well,
there was a couple hours before bed. If I was lucky he'd show up.

I dried off in the cold of the house. My balls pulled up tight against my
body but my cock was still semi-hard from all my stroking. I was getting
frustrated. He had to be fucking with me.

I wiped the fog off my mirror and looked at myself. I looked good. I had a
young face but I thought I looked handsome. I certainly wasn't ugly. I was
really pale though. I dunno. Maybe he was just really nervous about being
with a guy? My first time with a guy and it had to be with a guy who didn't
know what he wants?

Whatever.

I cleaned my ears and flossed before opening the door to my room. And
there, on my bed, was Josh. He was waiting for me, watching the door.
Instinctively I covered up my junk with my hand.

"Awww... Not like I haven't seen it before anyway."

I blushed. Why did I always blush? I let my hands fall to my sides.

"You surprised me... I... I thought you weren't coming."

Josh got up of the bed and walked to me. He was wearing gym shorts and a
t-shirt like the day before. He walked up close to me and put his hands on
my hips. His face was inches from mine like the night before.

"I told you I'd be here. I'm here."

"I... I just... I dunno. I thought you'd be here sooner."

"I'm. Here. Now." He pushed down on my hips with each word for emphasis.

"I guess."

He leaned in to make up the rest of the distance between us and kissed me.
Despite how frustrated I was by him I couldn't help myself and found myself
kissing back. Our tongues were in each other's mouths and there was so much
urgency in what we were doing. It was obvious that he wanted this just as
much as I did. I could feel the hardness of his cock through his shorts
rubbing against me and it made me feel weak in my knees. I wanted him. He
wanted me. I wanted to feel him, to taste him, to have all of him. And he
wanted to have all of me.

I whimpered involuntarily as I felt his warm hand wrap around my cock. I
needed to cum so badly. My cock had to be throbbing in his fist. He slowly
jacked me up and down while staring straight into his eyes. He had
beautiful eyes.

"Someone's happy to see me." He joked.

All I could do but moan in pleasure and bite my lip. Maybe I'd worked
myself up too much in the shower. It wouldn't take me too long to cum.

"I... uh... I played with myself in the shower a bit."

He looked down at my cock. I knew how I felt and knew how my cock must
look. Hard, rock hard with the head approaching purple due to the pleasure
he was giving me. He used his finger to spread some of my precum around the
glans. I whimpered again.

"So what you're telling me is you need to cum?"

I nodded, my mouth slightly open.

"And what do you want me to do about it?"

I looked down at my cock. He was just holding his hand still. God I wanted
his mouth on it. I wanted him to suck me until I came and I wanted him to
swallow it all. I wanted it but couldn't bring myself to say it. I'd been
so aggressive yesterday but couldn't bring myself to ask him to suck my
cock now. What the fuck? I looked back up at him.

"Well?"

Now or never.

"S-suck it?"

"Is that a question?"

Why was he teasing me like this? God!?

"Suck my cock."

"Is that really what you want?"

He stroked my cock up again causing me to gasp.

"Yessssss"

Josh leaned down and kissed my neck before lowering himself down in front
of me. I could feel a lingering heat as he went down. Soon he was level
with my crotch. It was obvious that he'd never kissed someone before
yesterday but I didn't know if he'd ever sucked a cock before. I hoped it
would be as good as when Tori sucked me. One of his hands held onto the
base of my cock while the left was wrapped around my waist. He looked
amazing down there. So small.

"Your dick is beautiful." He whispered, his face just barely not touching
my cock, "I've never done this before..."

He looked up at me.

"Neither had I..."

Josh took the head of my cock into his mouth. His mouth was warm and his
tongue was soft as he ran it underneath the head causing me to shudder. He
didn't waste any time and started bobbing up and down. It was not going to
take me long to cum at all. This looked like it was going to be a series of
unfortunately short sexual encounters.

Josh pulled me in tightly and sucked as much of my cock into his mouth as
possible. Due to the size difference he was able to take a lot more of me
than I could of him. The warmth of his mouth almost overwhelmed me as he
sucked on my stiff cock. He was really getting into it now.

"Jesus!" I groaned. That guy that beat the shit out of me was wrong. I was
close to God.

I looked down at the handsome guy sucking my cock and he looked up in the
same instant. Our eyes met with my cock in his mouth and I knew, in that
instant, that I could die happy. Still staring into my eyes he backed off
my cock and proceeded to lick up the length of my shaft and up to the head
which he eagerly took back inside his hot mouth.

He kept bobbing and sucking on my cock for what felt like an eternity and
did a half-decent job of it too. As I got closer to cumming I felt his hand
start to explore my ass and eventually felt his finger on my hole. He
rubbed around my opening gently. I had never done any anal play before and
I certainly wasn't ready to start with him sticking his finger in me. I
wasn't ready for him to stick it in but what he was doing felt ok. Luckily
he didn't try to push in. Maybe he understand my facial expression and knew
not to go further.

I could feel my balls pulling up tighter against my body and could feel
that all-too familiar feeling deep down inside me. My cock was practically
aching with the need to shoot my pent up cum down Josh's throat. And he
knew it too. His sucking was harder and he was going faster.

"I'm gonna cum!" I practically shouted.

He bobbed even faster. He wanted my cum just as much as I wanted to give it
to him.

The feeling as I started to cum was amazing. Nobody had ever made me cum
before. All I'd gotten was a couple minutes of Tori sucking my cock but
this was world's better. I could almost feel my cum forcing its way up, out
of my balls, and through my shaft.

"Oh God!"

The first blast of my cum felt like it should have shot through the back of
his head with the power it had. While my orgasm left me almost dead to the
world, pleasure rushing through my entire body, I continued to coat Josh's
throat with a nice coat of my sperm. I gasped and thrust forward a bit with
each spurt of cum from my dick. And with each spurt my knees felt a little
weaker as though he were sucking out not only my cum but my strength too.

Even after I'd stopped cumming he kept on sucking me. He used his hand to
jack me slowly as I got softer in order to get every last drop of my seed.
My dick was getting sensitive and I reached down to gently pull it out of
his mouth. He looked up at me like a sad puppy who had just had a favorite
toy taken away. I liked that. As he looked up at me and I could see his
throat move as he swallowed my load. So fucking hot.

I moved around him and flopped onto my back on the bed. I was spent and
felt physically drained. Josh sauntered over to the bed and crawled so that
he was lying on his stomach next to me. He put one arm over me and rested
his chin on my chest.

"Hey Mikey, I think he likes it." He joked.

I grinned at him.

"Almost as much as you liked sucking it by the look of it."

He almost looked sad when I said that. As though he'd done something wrong.
I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him to me and kissed his forehead.
I just wished I could have him stay here and sleep with me. I didn't even
really want to do anything sexual with him for the rest of the night. I
just wanted to sleep in the same bed and wake up with him the next morning,
to see his beautiful face on the pillow next to mine.

I was falling for him and hard. I mean, I'd had a crush on him for months
but now it was more. He was in my life in an intimate way. He'd swallowed
my essence and I'd swallowed his. What would become of this?

I let go of him and he looked at me again. I wanted to ask him so much but
I didn't want to ruin the moment. This beautiful moment that I wished I
could take a picture of and frame.

And then the glass cracked.

"Whatcha thinking about?"

*CRACK*

"Just thinking."

"About?"

*CRACK*

Persistent little fucker.

"You... me...Us?"

The look in his eyes should have told me everything I needed to know.

"Us?"

And the entire moment shattered into a million pieces. Fuck.

"I dunno. I was just wondering if this is anything or just fooling around?
I mean. You'll suck my dick in here but you're `straight' at school. You
were even scared that I'd tell Casey that I'd sucked your dick. I just... I
wish I knew where this was going."

He stared back at me for a second and then sat up on the bed. Fuck. I guess
I'd ruined things before they had a chance to go anywhere. Well, I'd gotten
a blowjob out of it at least. He was staring at his hands and picking at
his nails.

"I like you Sean. You're a nice guy. And I like...w-what we do together. But
I...I don't really know what I'm doing."

He fell silent and looked at his hands again. I didn't know what to say but
didn't have to as he continued only a second or two later.

"I don't know what I am. I like you but I'm not ready to be anything other
than what I am. I'm not ready for `us'. I don't know if I ever will be." He
said softly.

I sat up to be level with him. It was hard to be mad at him. He was
confused, lost, somewhere between gay and straight and didn't have a
compass to help him find the way. And, yet, it was painful to realize that
what I felt for him might not be what he felt for me. What was I doing? I
was putting myself out there even though I knew it might hurt.

"So am I just someone that you're experimenting with to figure things out?"

"No! You're more than that."

"You say that but how do I know that one day I won't walk downstairs to go
to school and find you too embarrassed to talk to me because what we've
done? That you won't avoid me?"

He hung his head and I instantly felt like the world's biggest dick. Why
was I always the dick? I scooted closer to him on the bed and put my arm
around him. I resolved to be better, stronger, what he needed me to be.

"I'm sorry. If you need time you can have the time." I said in my most
reassuring voice.

"Thanks."

He looked a little happier.

"Just promise me one thing?"

"What?"

"Promise me that even if us this turns out not to be what you want that you
won't ignore me."

He gave me his even more sexy smile and I felt like melting even though I'd
noticed him cringe when I said "us."

"Deal."

I loved when he smiled. I grabbed his shoulders and pulled him so that we
were laying on our sides on the bed facing each other. We looked into each
other's eyes for a second and then I hugged him close. He hugged me back
and kissed me. Outwardly I seemed like the happiest boy in the world.
Laying on my bed, naked, with my knight in shining armor.

But on the inside I just wasn't sure. Was I ok with this? I wanted a
boyfriend. I wanted someone I could spend my time with, talk to, hold hands
with, and eventually have sex with. I wanted a real relationship and it
wasn't clear how long, if ever, it would be until Josh was ready to be in
the position to give me what I wanted from him. But I could wait. I guess I
could wait. For now.

End chapter 5