Date: Thu, 1 Jan 2004 21:00:49 -0500 (EST) From: Dave A Subject: Secret Love - Part 9 The following story may contain sexual situations between teen-age boys. If this offends you, what are you doing here? If reading this means you're breaking some narrow-minded rule, then don't get caught. I hope you enjoy. A SECRET LOVE Chapter 9 - A New Beginning Matt and Jesse sat silently just enjoying each other's presence. They looked at the water running under their feet with their pinkies hooked together. Occasionally one or the other would look up to steal a glance at his lover's face. When they finally chose the same moment to look up, their eyes met and they both smiled contentedly. After a quick glance around them they leaned in for a passionate kiss. Tongues met before lips and slowly wound around each other trying to catch every possible taste from each other. Matt moaned into his lover's mouth as he slid a hand up Jesse's thigh to find the already rock hard bulge in his shorts. Jesse immediately followed suit, rubbing at his sexy boyfriend's groin in earnest. Suddenly, there was the sound of feet moving through the nearby brush. They broke their embrace and began to look around wildly for the intruder. Finally, Matt spotted the source of their fear and immediately broke into laughter. Jesse turned his gaze in the direction of Matt's and saw the deer that had been approaching the stream for a drink. At the sound of Matt's laughter, it looked up at the two boys it hadn't noticed before and quickly darted back into the trees, its white tail bouncing along behind it. "Geez, it was a deer," Jesse said with a sigh. Matt finally quit laughing. "What were we just talking about?" "Tell me about it. We sure got short memories," Jesse answered. Matt took a deep breath and let it out slowly as he gazed toward the sky. "We gotta get this under control." Jesse didn't know what to say. He just looked at the beautiful face in front of him. He stared into those bright green eyes and tried to fight it off, but he couldn't. His bottom lip quivered uncontrollably and the tears began to flow freely. "Oh Jess....baby....please don't. We can do it. I know we can." Matt swung one leg over the log and straddled it so he could get both arms around his love. He held Jesse's head against his chest and rubbed his soft hair. Rocking back and forth gently he said, "We'll find a way, baby. We really will." Jesse pulled in a ragged breath and let it out, followed by a calming breath through his nose. "I know we will. It's not that." Matt remained silent, waiting for the rest. "It's not fair," Jesse continued. "Why should we have to hide? Why can't people just accept the fact that we love each other?" "I don't know," was all Matt could offer. They continued to sit there like that, Matt glancing around every once in a while, trying to follow the new rules. Reluctantly, Jesse pulled away. "I better get home before Mom comes looking for me." "Me too," Matt replied. "I think we ought to hang at home tonight, take some time for ourselves. No practice tomorrow, so maybe we can find some time alone then." "OK, maybe I'll give you a call later." "No maybes. If you don't call me, I'm calling you." "Deal." The boys stood up and walked back in the direction of the Jesse's house. When they arrived at the crossing where they would go their separate ways, they took the time to check their surroundings and then kissed each other quickly. They had had enough of a scare today. "I love you Matty." "I love you too. Talk to ya later." Matt started down the path towards home. Halfway there, he looked back over his shoulder to find his angel still standing there watching him walk away. Matt turned around and blew a kiss through the corridor of trees. Jesse reached out to grab it and gave Matt that sweet smile that melted him every time. `As long as I have him, maybe I don't need anyone else,' Matt thought. * * * * * * * * * * * Matt got back to his house to find Sharon just finishing up dinner. "Just in time, young man," she half scolded, half teased him. "Have a seat." They ate and talked about nothing in particular. Even Michael was being civil. After he finished eating Matt put his dishes in the sink and headed for the basement. He really did want some time alone. Matt turned on the TV for some background noise, but he didn't really pay attention to it. His thoughts were concentrated on his current problem, well their current problem. There was no question that he wasn't in this alone, but two against the world was pretty daunting. But it wasn't quite that bad. Even Matt, as new as he was to this world, knew one other person who would understand. But how would he get hold of Uncle Dave without Aunt Allison finding out what was going on. That would cause problems for his uncle as well as Jesse and himself. He racked his brain looking for some way to make contact secretly, but it just wasn't there. Eventually, there would be a family gathering and he could eventually get Dave alone, but those were pretty rare. He and his brother and/or sister used to spend the night with Allison and Dave almost once a month, but that hadn't happened in a long time. In fact, now that he thought about it, the last time had been that night that Uncle Dave caught him surfing gay porn. That had been absolutely terrifying at first, but it had led to something wonderful. That had been late February, almost four months. That was strange - he hoped there was nothing wrong. Lost in thought, Matt had drifted off, not quite to sleep, but into a light nap. He was roused by the sound of the phone ringing, but couldn't jump up fast enough to be the first one to it. He was hoping someone would be calling down the steps that Jesse was on the phone, but the only sound in the room was the television so he went back and sat down. A few minutes later his sister did call down to him. "Jess is on the phone." "OK," Matt called back a little confused. He got up and grabbed the downstairs extension. "I got it." "OK," he heard Angie say back through the receiver followed by the click of the other phone being hung up. "Hey Matt," Jesse said. "Hi Jess. Were you talking to Angie?" Matt asked. "Yeah, for a couple minutes," Jesse replied. "Why? You jealous?" "No, just surprised. Are you alone?" "Not really." When they moved in there was only the one phone jack in the house and Jim had yet to install others so while his parents were in the next room they were within earshot. "Guess I better not say anything to get you horny then," Matt teased. "Too late," Jesse replied. "You already said `Hi.'" This led them both into a round of giggles. After they had talked for nearly half an hour, Matt could hear Anne telling Jesse not to tie up the line too long. Reluctantly, they brought their conversation to a close with a promise that the first one up would call the other in the morning. Matt lay back on the couch absently rubbing his crotch as his mind wandered. It was filled with thoughts of Jesse - his angel, his lover. He remembered the first time he laid eyes on that beautiful face. He smiled as he thought about that first day in the woods. He still couldn't believe Jesse had figured him out so easily. He rolled onto his side and closed his eyes as he replayed the time when they first said "I love you" to each other. They had come so far, so fast. But Matt somehow knew they had so much further to go. With that thought, he drifted off to sleep. * * * * * * * * * * Jesse awoke with a raging morning wood and a desperate need to empty his bladder. He thanked God that he had his own bathroom right there as he moved quickly across the room on morning stiff legs. He bent his rock-hard cock down as far as he could and let loose a torrent of liquid into the toilet. By the time the stream was down to a trickle so was his penis. Relieved, Jesse walked back into his room and looked at his alarm clock. He was amazed to see that it was already 10:30. He rarely slept this late, but it was the best night's sleep he had gotten in a while. He threw on some boxers and a bath robe to go downstairs and call Matt. When Jesse entered the kitchen he found his father sitting at the kitchen table talking on the phone. His dad was taking notes so figuring it must be important Jesse started to turn around and wait in the other room. Before he could though, Jim motioned with his hand for Jesse to come sit down. As Jesse picked a chair opposite Jim, he caught the end of the conversation. "It's not ideal, but I'm not about to complain. Thanks for pushing this through so quickly." Jim was silent as he listened. "Alright, I'll see you then. Good-bye." Jim got up to replace the receiver then focused his attention on his son. "I got the job," he said. "I start next week." "That's great Dad!" `Great for me and Matt too,' he thought to himself. "Yeah, unfortunately I'm gonna be stuck with afternoons and even some midnights at first. I won't see any day shifts until probably October." A dejected look crossed his face as Jesse realized that this meant one of his parents would be home most of the time. "That kinda sucks," he replied. "Don't talk like that," Jim scolded him. "Anyway, at least this way I should get to see all your home games. Probably have to miss most of the road games though." "That's cool," Jesse said followed by "sorry." "It's OK. Oh, by the way Matt called about a half hour ago. I told him I'd have you call when you woke up. I got some work to do in the yard, just let me know what you're doing." "OK Dad. Thanks." As Jim went out the back door, Jesse picked up the phone and dialed Matt. When the other end was answered he heard Matt's voice and replied, "Hi." It's a good thing Jim was outside, even he would have picked up on the sing-songy tone of his son's voice. "'Bout time sleepy head," Matt replied. "I just got out of the shower and I'm alone. Hustle it up cutie." "Cool! I'll get a quick shower and be right over." "That shower better be real quick. Save it for me." Jesse giggled and hung up the phone. He bounded up the steps two at a time undoing his robe as he went. He got into the shower so quickly that the water hadn't even warmed up yet. Jesse barely dried off before throwing on the first clothes he could find. He bolted out the back door shouting to his dad where he was going, barely hearing his father's agreement. He ran down the path through the woods, barely touching the ground. They were finally going to get some time alone. Matt was looking out the kitchen window when Jesse broke from the woods and came running across the back yard. He was momentarily mesmerized as he watched his angel's long, dark hair trail behind his beautiful face. As Jesse reached the steps, Matt regained his composure and went to open the back door. He greeted Jesse in only a towel -- or at least tried to greet him. Before Matt could say a word, Jesse's tongue filled his mouth. They backed across the kitchen in each others arms, tongues and lips moving wildly against each other. Matt's cock immediately began to make a tent out of his towel and Jesse's hand deftly found the spot where it was tucked and pulled it off. Almost as quickly as the towel fell to the floor, Jesse fell to his knees. He looked briefly at the perfectly straight, six plus inches in front of him before he grabbed Matt's shaft and took it into his mouth. Jesse tasted Matt's precum on his tongue, felt the tip of his cock touch the back of his throat and heard..........the front door open!!! "Shit!" Matt exclaimed in a loud whisper as he bent down to grab his towel. Jesse stood back against the counter as Matt wrapped the towel around his waist. Matt was still hard and it was painfully obvious in just the towel. He quickly sat down in a chair and clamped his rock-hard cock between his thighs. "Do you want something to drink?" They heard Michael's voice as he stepped into the kitchen. "Oh great, you two," he half-whined when he saw them, followed by, "Why the hell are you naked? Now I know you're a couple of fags." "I'm not naked," Matt retorted. "I'm wearing a towel `cause Jesse knocked on the door just as I got out of the shower." At this point Jennifer came in behind Michael. "Hi Jennifer," Matt said as he gave Michael his best you're so busted looked. "You ain't gonna tell Mom shit Matty. Go get dressed and find somewhere to go. I don't want you two hanging around here." Luckily Matt's manhood had relaxed by now. He got up and motioned Jesse to follow him. As he walked by the intruders, Matt got in one last shot. "Hopin' to get laid dud?" A shocked look crossed Jennifer's face. Michael tried to break the tension his little brother had just created. "How bout that drink?" Somehow he knew his plans were ruined now. Matt and Jesse went to the bedroom where Matt found something old to wear. On the way out the found Michael and Jennifer watching TV and sitting in separate chairs. Once outside, Matt nudged Jesse as he started laughing. "I fucked up his day with that last comment." "Yeah, you did," Jesse replied. The first words he had spoken since he got there. Once they had reached the cover of the woods he immediately grabbed Matt's hand. "So, where we going lover?" Matt squeezed gently as he lifted Jesse's hand up to kiss it. "Back to where we started. But, as much as I hate to say it, we better watch this until we get deeper into the woods." Matt looked down at their interlocked hands to signify what he meant. Jesse let go of Matt's hand and replied, "OK, but if you wanna hold my hand again, you're gonna have to catch me first." With that said, he gave Matt a little shove and then took off running down the path. Matt took off after him without a word. Despite the head start, he knew he an advantage over Jess with his longer stride. He, however, hadn't considered all the twists and turns that came with a run in the woods. He kept gaining, but at every turn he lost ground to Jesse. His shorter stature gave him much better maneuverability. When he reached the stream, Jesse didn't even hesitate. He jumped right into the stream. The water was fairly shallow right here so it didn't really slow him down. Matt chose to stick to the bank, which meant dodging trees and losing more ground, but he knew something that Jesse didn't. As they got closer to the pond, the bed of the creek became less rocky. Jesse's feet began to get stuck in the soft mud under his feet and he knew he was in trouble. Matt had crossed over and now as he reached the same point as Jesse he stood on the bank and started to laugh. "Now what ya gonna do?" Jesse took a couple more steps, then his right foot stuck so bad that his foot came right out of his shoe. As he tried to twist around to look for the lost shoe, his other foot stuck hard. He lost his balance and went down sideways. Matt couldn't help himself. He lost all control and started roaring with laughter. Jesse pushed his upper body out of the water. "How `bout a little help here asshole!" Matt quickly slipped out of his shoes and socks and headed into the muck. "I...I...I'm sorry b..b..b..babe," he stuttered out between giggles. "Are you OK?" "Yeah, `cept maybe my pride," Jess replied. He then started to giggle himself. "By some stroke of luck I landed on my shoe, so at least I know where it is. Could you help with the other foot?" Matt reached under the water and got hold of Jesse's other shoe. "I got it. Go ahead and pull your foot out." Jesse did as instructed and Matt pulled his shoe out. Jesse managed to get the other shoe and Matt helped him stand up. Jesse nearly fell again and wrapped his arms around Matt to balance himself. With Jesse's soaked body pressed against him, soaking the front of his clothes, Matt said, "this feels great, but if you pull me over I will have to kick your ass." Jesse looked up to see the smile on Matt's face and knew immediately that he was kidding. "Could we just get out of here. It feels gross." Matt bent over to give his angel a quick kiss. Despite their situation, Jesse made it more passionate than Matt expected. After a couple minutes, they broke reluctantly from each others' lips and Matt got an arm around Jesse from the side. They supported each other as they trudged through the mud and got back to the shore, each carrying a shoe full of riverbed. Once on the shore, Jesse realized that he had lost his socks somewhere along the way. "Oh well," he said, "I ain't going back in there for `em." Matt went back upstream and cleaned Jesse's shoes as best he could in the clearer water there. "Thanks, Matty." "No problem Jess." They looked into each others' eyes for a moment, then Matt lost it again. "I'm sorry, but that was just so hilarious. You shoulda seen your face!" Jesse started to laugh himself. "C'mon giggles. I know a good way to stop you from laughing." "I'll bet you do," Matt said as he involuntarily licked his lips. They both got back into their shoes and headed for their ultimate destination. Jesse led the way, not even bothering to remove his shoes when they had to walk in the water - they were already soaked anyway. Matt, however, still had dry shoes so he stopped to take them off. Realizing Matt was no longer behind him, Jesse looked back and said, "C'mon you little sissy. It's just water." "I got your sissy right here," Matt retorted grabbing his crotch. "If you got a sissy right there, I'm gonna dump your ass quicker than you can say `gelding.'" At that Matt started running at Jesse and by the time he realized that Matt had more on his mind than catching up it was too late. Jesse started to turn, but Matt was already on him. Matt wrapped his arms around Jesse's torso and they stumbled about in the water until Matt went down and Jesse landed on top of him. Jesse started to move up Matt's body ready to steal a kiss when he caught movement out of the corner of his eye. He looked up and saw four kids standing in the middle of the pond -- and they saw him. "Oh, shit!" Jesse pushed himself up off of Matt, who sat up and looked behind him. All four of them were standing there staring -- what must they be thinking. "Jesse? Is that you?" One of the boys shouted. "Who is that?" Jesse shouted back. "It's Billy," came the reply. "Oh, great," Jesse said to Matt, "the smart ass first baseman." "Hey! Other than that first comment, he's been nice to you." "Yeah, I guess. C'mon. We may have to do some damage control here." Matt knew exactly what Jesse meant. There hadn't really been anything to be seen, but who knows where their imaginations might have gone watching Matt and Jesse roll around in the stream. When they got close enough for normal talking voices, Billy said, "Boy, I'm glad it was just you guys. I was afraid we were caught." "Caught?" Matt questioned. By way of answer, Billy pushed off the ground and floated onto his back. As his midsection broke the surface, his manhood came into view and flopped about in the water. Jesse's eyes nearly popped out of his head. It was soft, but still looked huge. He couldn't believe a skinny little kid like Billy could be so hung. Matt had seen Billy in the showers before so he wasn't surprised. "See something you like Jess?" Billy had seen Jesse's reaction. "What? No! I just... I mean... Holy shit Billy, are you part horse?" Jesse stammered out trying to cover for his staring. Billy just laughed as he put his feet back on the ground. "Keeps the ladies happy." "I guess," Jesse replied. "Shit, Billy, you gotta kiss a girl before you can fuck one," Matt teased. "Fuck you," Billy retorted as he splashed Matt and laughed off the comment. "You guys gonna hang out for a while?" Billy was eager to change the subject. "Yeah, but I don't care how big it is, you ain't fuckin' me," Matt answered and laughed. "C'mon Jess, let's hang our clothes in the sun. See if we can get them dried out some." "OK," Jesse replied and followed Matt to the shore. Once out of earshot of the others, Matt asked Jess, "You OK with this?" "Yeah, I'm cool. It's just like showering after gym class." They found a bush that was getting plenty of sun and started undressing, wringing out the excess water and throwing their clothes over the bush. The whole time, they were both very deliberate at not looking at each other. The last thing either one wanted was to end up with a hard-on in front of everyone. Completely naked, they went back into the water to join the others. "Damn, Jesse, you got the whitest ass I've ever seen. I can't believe how dark your tan is," Billy said. "Well," Jesse replied, "you gotta remember I just moved here from Florida." Then, he realized that Billy had been watching him and decided to get a shot of his own in. "What are you doing checkin' out my ass anyway?" "Don't get excited. I just noticed is all." They all started to horse around and splash as the sexual tension faded. The other boys turned out to be Billy's cousins and their neighbor. They lived fairly close to Matt but he didn't know them as they were younger. After swimming and playing around until their skin became wrinkled, they all went up on the bank. The younger boys ran around while the older ones started getting dressed. Matt reflected on the difference in the way they acted despite the fact that there were only a few years between their ages. So much changed in such a short time as to what was acceptable social behavior. The older boys sat and talked about baseball for a while until Billy was ready to get the boys home. "Are you three still naked? Get dressed we gotta head back home." The younger boys complied and started getting dressed. Having no idea what time it was, Matt and Jesse thought it best to head back home too. It seemed like this might not be a safe haven anymore anyway. Once they got back to the path that ran between their streets, both boys thoroughly checked their surrounding. Satisfied that they were alone, they joined hands and headed towards Matt's house. They only had a minute or two, but it was something. "Man! I'm beginning to think we may never have sex again," Jesse sulked. Matt stopped in his tracks. Jesse didn't notice and kept walking until he was stopped by the union of their hands. He turned to face Matt. "Is that really so bad?" Matt asked. Jesse just looked at him puzzled. "I mean, I want to too. But, I had a really good time today just being around you. And this," Matt added as he squeezed Jesse hand, "is wonderful. It's no orgasm, but in some ways it's better." "I didn't mean it like that, baby. Today WAS nice and I love holding hands with you, but......." Matt stepped into Jesse's body and took hold of his other hand. "I know. It's frustrating. But, we've got to be patient. We'll find a way somehow." Matt leaned down and gave his lover a peck on the lips. Then went back for a second and third. They looked into each other's eyes and longed to go further, but they had to be careful. "I love you, Matty." "Ditto," Matt said and giggled as he got just the pouting reaction he was looking for from Jesse. "I love you, too," he said when the giggles stopped and he pulled Jesse in for a hug. "C'mon." They walked quietly down the path and reluctantly released their grip on each other as they left the safety of the woods. Back in the house they were surprised to find it was already after 4:00. Sharon would be home soon. In the living room they found Michael and Jennifer asleep on the couch. Apparently they had made up. Matt thought about leaving them there to get busted, but then he thought better of it. No point in getting Mom all worked up. "Michael, hey, wake up," he said as he shook his brother's shoulder. Michael looked up at him bleary-eyed. "You better get her out of here. Mom will be home in fifteen." Michael looked to the VCR and when his eyes adjusted he saw that Matt wasn't messing with him. "Oh shit! Wake up Jen. My mom will be home soon." "Shit," Jennifer exclaimed as she got up and found her shoes. Everything seemed to be in order so Matt was happy to see that his brother probably hadn't gotten any either. Michael walked her to the door as Matt and Jesse headed for the bedroom to find Matt some new clothes. "Thanks," Michael said as he closed the door. "No prob, bro," Matt replied. Jesse sat on Matt's bed while he picked out some new clothes. He started to get hard as he thought about watching Matt change. "I gotta get a quick shower. That creek water is nasty. I'll make it quick." "OK," Jesse replied dejectedly. Matt immediately knew why Jesse was disappointed. "You're bad," he said with a smile as he left the room. Jesse smiled back, knowing he was caught. Matt came out of the bathroom as Sharon came in the front door. "I'm home," she called out. "I have to go to the mall if anyone wants to come." Matt heard Michael decline and called down the hallway, "Can Jesse come with us?" "Fine with me," Sharon answered. "We're leaving soon so check with his parents. Where's your sister?" "She went over to Nancy's after practice. She's gonna have dinner there," Michael answered. "OK. We'll probably eat at the mall, so you're on your own." Jesse got on the phone and called his dad. Once he had approval he took off quickly so he could get a quick shower. Matt said that they would drive over and pick him up. When they arrived at Jesse's, he was sitting on the front porch waiting. He was wearing baggy shorts and an oversized T-shirt. Matt had to bite his lower lip to keep from moaning his approval right there in front of his mother. Jesse jumped in the back seat and reaching over the front seat tousled Matt's hair, or he would have if Matt kept it long enough. "Hey! Watch the hair. Gotta look good for the girls at the mall." Jesse knew Matt was just putting on up his cover for his mom. "Oh yeah, right. I'd need a razor to mess up your hair," he replied giggling. Sharon smiled inwardly. Matt had always had lots of friends, but this was the first close one he'd had in years. She drove mostly in silence while they talked. Jesse had never been to the mall here before so Matt filled him in on what to expect. It sounded much smaller than what he was used to and many of the store names were unfamiliar to him, but it still sounded basically the same. Once there, they grabbed a quick bit to eat with Sharon before being sent off on their own with instructions to meet her back there in two hours. They started at the arcade. Jesse kept catching other kids giving him strange looks. Finally, he grabbed Matt by the elbow. "What is with people around here?" "What do you mean?" "They keep looking at me funny. What am I, an alien?" Matt let out a little laugh. "It's probably your hair. You don't see long hair around here much except on old guys who are stuck in the eighties." "Maybe I oughta get it cut. My dad would love that." "Don't you dare. It looks good on you. The guys on the team got used to it, didn't they?" "Yeah, and don't worry, I don't really wanna cut it." After taking each other on on most every game there (it wasn't a real big arcade), they decided to walk around and check out the stores. They were walking along the wide central hallway when suddenly some grabbed Matt around the chest from behind. Matt broke away from his attacker and spun around. "Uncle Dave! How are you doing? This is my friend, Jess." I reached out to shake Jesse's hand and we exchanged "Nice to meet you's." Jesse looked at Matt and asked in a semi-whisper, "Is this THE Uncle Dave?" Matt flushed red like I'd never seen before. He laid a playful punch on Jesse's chest as he said, "Yes it is big mouth. Jeez." Jesse reached out and tapped Matt along side the head. "Big mouth - I'll show you a big mouth." I stood there and smiled as they play-fought. "Does this mean you two are.....?" Matt flushed again. "Yes. Jeez. Should we broadcast it on the evening news next?" "OK. OK. I'm happy for you both. Just be careful and be good to each other." "Oh we will be," they replied in unison. "Actually," Matt said, "I've been trying to figure out how I could get hold of you without Aunt Allison knowing. Wouldn't want her to get suspicious." I pulled out my wallet and handed Matt my business card. "Call my cell phone. The best time to reach me would be just after five on my way home from work. If you're up early enough, I'm on my way in around eight." "Thanks Dave," he replied as he started to move toward me to give me a hug. Remembering where he was he thought differently of it and settled for shaking my hand. I extended my hand to Jesse again. "It is very nice to meet you, Jess." "You too, sir," he replied. I decided not to correct that right then. We went off our separate ways. Matt had a new sense of assurance. He just knew somehow that Uncle Dave would be a big help. I can't believe its been a year since I submitted a chapter. My apologies to all my long-time readers and a big welcome to those of you just finding this story. As you can see, the story is going to shift from outside observer perspective to a first person perspective from time to time. I hope this isn't too confusing. As always comment and criticism (as long as its constructive) are welcomed and even requested.