Date: Fri, 14 Jun 2013 15:37:39 -0400 From: Al Subject: Secret Rebel Romance 20 Secret Rebel Romance By Alexander McCannon This story is copyrighted to the author Alexander McCannon and cannot be published anywhere else without my permission. This story is based on true events that occurred in my life. There are sexual explicit scenes which maybe in inappropriate for minors under the age of 18. Enjoy the story :) To all of my fellow readers out there, id love to give you special gratuity for taking the time out of your day to read my story. i really value your opinions. Thanks guys:) Enjoy Feed back is always accepted . Please send them to Mccannonal@yahoo.com Special thanks to Nifty Stories for Publishing my story. I've been reading these stories for at least 5 years now. This will actually be my first time submitting. **************** Secret rebel romance. Ch.20 Truth be told After a night of an emotional roller coaster, the next day I felt a little more at ease. I really valued the time I would spend by myself. I felt as if I grew as a person and also learned a little more about myself. This Halloween weekend definitely felt longer than it actually had been. I spent that rainy Sunday morning watching cartoons while mom brought me breakfast in bed. I tried not to dwell on the situation as much as possible. It would only accumulate stress and that was the last emotion I wanted to feel. I also decided to neglect my phone for the entire weekend as I regain my composure. I know my actions will stir up a lot of confusion, but I need this time to myself. After a few hours of relaxing in bed, I decided to go downstairs to the game room and check my myspace profile. I haven't been paying much attention to it, since I've been so occupied with my lover and secret lover. However, I was very curious to see what Mike had been up to since the last time we spoken. I logged on to my profile, flooding with notifications. There's was no way I was going to be able to get back to everyone in one day. I had several messages and friend requests from everyone around town. Some I've never seen before. I started to feel overwhelm. I began to check my messages and I couldn't help but take notice to Mikes messages. He wrote me several times since the last we've communicated. All of the messages asked me how I was doing and stated that he misses me. Mike left his cell phone number in one of the messages and told me to keep in contact with him as much as possible. I started to think if I haven't logged back on to this social network, I would've never spoken to Mike again and he would eventually be forgotten in the abyss. I began to feel a bit of relief. I didn't care to attend to anyone else who decided to contact me. I was so excited to have another, yet more convenient way to communicate with Mike nothing else mattered. I logged off and made my way back upstairs to my cell phone. My cell phone has been off since the night of the Halloween party and I was hesitant to turn my phone on to reveal what has been waiting for me. But I really wanted to talk to Mike. I had over 5 text messages from Adrian and Tom. I didn't bother reading them. The guilt would only grow heavier. I immediately called Mike. "Hello?" Mike answered. "I couldn't tell you how good it feels to hear your voice again" I said. "Al? Is that you?" Mike asked anxiously. "Yeah man. I'm sorry for getting back to you so late. Life's been kinda crazy" I laughed. "Don't stress it. I'm just happy you cared enough to reach out to me... I miss you" Mike said. "I miss you so much Mike. I feel like this place is changing me. Everything was so simple with you and I" I confessed. "Talk to me. What's wrong?" Mike asked in concern. I began filling Mike in about mine and Adrian's relationship and the circumstances. Which rubbed him the wrong way and he grew a little apprehensive about. Then I told him how Tom got in the picture and how everything just happened in a blink of an eye. "I couldn't began to explain how weird this whole situation is" Mike said. I was confused as to what Mike was implying and asked him to elaborate. Mike then started to explain his current situation that's been going on in his life and he's basically going through the same exact thing I'm going through, except he's in Adrian's shoes and he had to find out the hard way. From everyone else talking about it. I was completely caught by surprise by how much Mike has moved on in his life as well. It almost made me sort of sad that he grew stronger feelings for someone else rather than me. But I knew there was nothing I could do about it because I was in the same shoes. "Don't be foolish Al. I know you way better than that. Trust me coming from Adrian's point of view. Tell him everything. It'll benefit both Adrian and you. You don't want to live with a guilty conscious for the rest of your life do you? What you're doing to Adrian is exactly what my guy did to me and you can feel how depressed I am. You don't wanna make anyone feel like this right?" Mike explained. Mike made perfect sense and convinced me to tell Adrian what happened between Tom and I. This was by far going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. "You're totally right. To be entirely honest, all I wanna do is move back to Pennsylvania and be happy with you. That's all I ever wanted" I confessed. "I'm pretty sure the feelings are mutual. I know you wouldn't have done that to me in a million years. I miss you so much." Mike replied. "Promise me you'll never forget about me and I'll always have a special place in your heart" I said. "Al.. You should know by now that goes without saying. I said it once before and I'll say it five million times more.. I love you" Mike said. Even when Adrian said those three little words, they never felt as strong and sincere as Mikes words. At that very moment, Mike reassured his love for me and I did as well. I felt a lot more comfortable addressing the situation to Adrian. Mike and I talked on the phone for several more hours before Tom started calling me. I really wanted to just talk to Mike until we fell asleep together. But I knew I had to handle the situation at hand. I told Mike I was going to let him know how everything goes. He wished me luck before hanging up. Finally I picked up one of the most anticipated phone calls of me life. I have no idea how Tom would respond to my decisions, but he has no choice but respect it. "Hey what's up?" I answered the phone. "Hey.. Remember me?" Tom asked jokingly. "Of course I do." I laughed. "Are you okay? You have you're boy freaking out over you" Tom said. "I really needed sometime to myself. You out of everyone should know that." I said. "Well yeah of course I do. So what are you gonna do?" "I'm just going to tell him the truth Tom. I can't live with this guilt and its not fair to him" I explained. "Dude, I get it. I actually have a lot of respect for you taking the initiative to do something so bold. Just know that things are going to be completely different from here." Tom replied. I wasn't too surprised to see how reasonable Tom was being about the whole situation. He was always realistic in any situation at hand. The fact that he supported me, made me less apprehensive towards him. Maybe Tom really does care about me as a true friend. Shortly after mine and toms discussion, Adrian started to call me. I've never been so nervous to answer a phone call in my entire life. It was now or never. "Hello?" I answered. "Hey! where have you been? I've been trying to call you since Friday." Adrian explained. "I haven't gone anywhere. I just needed some time to myself" I said. "What's wrong baby? Please, talk to me." Adrian begged. Adrian insisted on being there for me, caring for me, and the worst of all, loving me. I knew I was seconds away from losing the perfect guy. I had mentally prepared myself for it, but I had to numb my feelings if I wanted to avoid going into deep depression. Nonetheless, what I was about to do felt right, for once. "Listen babe, I have something to tell you." I began. "You're leaving me aren't you? You're sick of waiting for me to feel comfortable enough to expose our relationship. I'm sorry babe. I'm actually trying. It's just taking some time. Please don't leave me. " Adrian begged. "No Adrian, that's not it. It's Just me." I sighed. "What do you mean?" Adrian asked lost in a quandary. "You're a perfect boyfriend, hands down. But just not for me. You deserve so much better." I said. "Why are you saying this?" Adrian asked anxiously. "Because I fucked up. I cheated on you with Tom on Halloween when I was trashed" I explained. A huge weight has been lifted from my soulless, hallow body. I finally admitted to Adrian what happened between Tom and I. I couldn't resist crying and having an anxiety attack, but it all felt right. Adrian hasn't spoken a word for over 2 minutes now, but I could still hear his shallow breathing. I assumed Adrian was trying to put the pieces together as he came to the realization. "Why? Why would you do that to someone you love?" Adrian cried. "Babe, if I knew the answer to those questions, I'd be more than happy to answer them." I said. "I'm an emotional wreck right now and I think I should just talk you later before I say or do something I might regret." Adrian explained. "That's totally fine. If you gathered your thoughts by tomorrow, maybe you can come over and actually talk about it. Face to face." I said. "I'll let you know." Adrian said before hanging up the phone. I could tell by the tone of his voice that his world was just shattered by the person who held his heart in the palm of his hands. I knew I wasn't going to fall asleep easily tonight. Many thoughts were without a doubt, was going to running through my mind. I needed some type of comfort and support. The only person I wanted to talk was Mike. I knew he genuinely cared about what happened, since he's basically going through the same thing. So, I decided to give him a call. "Hey are you awake?" I said. "Yeah, can't really sleep. What's up?" Mike said. "Neither can I after I just told Adrian everything." I said. "Yeah? How'd he take it?" Mike asked. "I'm not sure, but I invited him over tomorrow to talk about it." I explained. "Damn. Do you really love this guy?" Mike asked. "I've grown to love him. He's an amazing person. Why?" I asked. "Just curious. I don't think anyone can love you the way I do. But that's my opinion." Mike confessed. Although Mike knows everything that happened between Tom, Adrian, and I, he hadn't lost any type of love for me. I started to question if he was just being a little cocky or genuine. At the end of day, Mike and I both knew that we couldn't love anybody as strong as we loved each other. It was a bittersweet feeling. "You're actually right" I laughed. Mike and I talked to each other till almost 3 in the morning. He made me forget about all of my worries, which was one of the major reasons I fell in love with this kid. He just wanted us to be happy together, which was impossible at this point. I knew if I were to ever see Mike again, it'd probably be after my twenties. "Alright bro, I'm heading to bed. I'll talk to you tomorrow. I love you bud" Mike said. "Love you too.. Ol pal" I said jokingly. "Funny. Sweet dreams" mike said before hanging up. I dreaded going to sleep and having to wake up the next day and deal with this drama I caused between Adrian and I. It was going to be a long stressful day, but I had to get it over with and see where Adrian and I stand. For the time being, I figured I'd just let it go for the night.