Date: Thu, 18 Oct 2012 04:09:32 -0700 (PDT) From: Aaron Hull Subject: Shawn's Turn - 26 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - This is the first story I've ever written, I wrote it over the summer of last year and my writing skills have grown immensely. Although this is my first story I've wrote, I have published other stories on here and am currently working on one. Under the high school section, I have the One or the Other, which is a current project; Hayden's Story; and GAvin's Got Game. Under the college section, I have The After Party. The latter three stories all contain sexual content. If you enjoyed reading this story, you can email me at wah.stories@yahoo.com. I love getting fan mail and can't wait to here from you all! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "Shawn!" Jen shouted after I told her about this McAlister kid. "What about Avery?!" "I'm not doing anything with this kid! He just thought I was cute and I think he's cute too." "You're dating Avery though! You can't be looking at eye candy!" "You did it all the time with Drew!" "Yeah but I'm a girl." "And I'm gay. We both like penis so there! I can get all the eye candy I want." I stuck my tongue out at her. Which meant I won. She took my pillow and hit me with it. I hit her back with my other one. "You can't hit me! I'm a girl!" "Are we sure about that?" I started to laugh and she beat me with my pillow. After about 10 minutes of pure laughter I reached up and pulled her down onto the bed with me. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close. This wasn't romantic in anyway. This is how we normally laid when we talked. "So how are things with you?" I asked her as we calmed down. "Better. My therapist said I've made real progress in the last few weeks. Do you think I have, Shawn?" I hugged her tighter. "I know you have Jen." We sat there in pure silence for a few minutes. It wasn't an awkward silence. It was a good one. "Do you think I'll ever be able to date again?" "In all honestly Jen I think you will be able to soon." "Really?" "Yeah. Even though he did what he did to you," we never call Cole by his name. The therapist says it's best not until she says it first, "I believe you'll be able to get past it soon at this rate." "It's just...every time a guy touches me, except for you, I tense up and fear it'll happen again. Hell I even tense up when my dad, Avery, Tommy, or Tyler touch me and they're close to me. I think he ruined my life, Shawn." I then started to hear her cry. I pulled her more into me. "Don't ever say that, Jen. Who gives a rat's ass if you end up single for the rest of your life? You can live with me and bum off me and all that. I don't care. As long as you're okay I'm okay." She turned to look at me. "Will I get to stay there for free?" We both smiled and I pulled her in for a hug. We laid like that until Amy said it was time for Jen to leave. I kissed her on the forehead and watched her walk out the door. Right now I'm glad I'm gay, or I would have thought I was in love with the girl. Soon after Jen was gone I felt like it was time for me to go to bed. I called Avery and we talked on the phone for about 30 minutes. We ended out conversation with us both saying we really liked the other one. We hung up and I just laid there. Like. It's been four months and we're still in the like phase. I realized I was in love with Tommy about 3 weeks after I started dating him. I groaned and shoved my face into my pillow. I was tired of guys. Jay. Tommy. Avery. McAlister. Why can't they all just disappear and leave me alone to die alone. It would be a lot less painful. I soon fell asleep. I was dreaming that I was sitting on my bed and McAlister came in. "Hey, Shawn!" "Hey dude!" "What's up?" "Thinking about you. You know I want you, right?" McAlister came over to my bed and crawled on top of me. He kissed my neck and sucked on it a little. He then slowly moved up my neck and across my face until he was at my lips. My lips and his lips were only a few centimeters away and I wanted them. "I'll kiss you and be all yours if you tell me my name." McAlister said seductively. I could feel his breath on my lips. "McAlister." He smiled. "My first name. What's my first name?" "I don't know. You never told me." "Well. Reach up and kiss me. I still need you." I tried lifting my head, but it wouldn't move. I was stuck in place. He kept asking me why I wouldn't kiss him in his seductive whisper. But then I couldn't answer. I tried so hard but I couldn't move and I couldn't talk. All I could do was look at him. He soon grew tired of waiting and started to fade away. I tried everything to keep him on top of me but nothing worked. He was vanishing right before my eyes. I jolted up from my dream. "I love you!" I yelled out to no one. I looked around and my room was empty. It was also dark. I looked over to my clock and saw it was around four in the morning. I tried to go back to sleep but nothing I did would let me. All I was able to do was lay there and think about McAlister. Soon it was time for me to wake up and get ready. That's when I became tired. I tried to shower and make myself look presentable, but no matter what I did, I still looked like a mess. I walked downstairs and was greeted by Amy and Mom. Dad had already left for work. I sat down and ate my breakfast. Ignoring every word that was said between my mom and sis. When Amy and I were done eating, we headed out to her car. "Okay spill it. Is Jay dating Tommy hurting you that bad? Jay called me yesterday and told me the news. While we were talking he remembered that you and him were a thing. He said if it was too awkward for you he would cancel it." "It's not that. Well it kinda is but there's this new kid. He's sooo cute and he's gay. Or bi. I'm not really sure. I don't know his name but he was in my dream. All I know is that his last name is McAlister." "I guess it is true that gay guys like every guy. Just look at you. You had the Alex phase, the Leo phase, the Jay phase, the Tommy phase, the Avery phase, and now on the Noah phase." "Noah?" "Yeah. His name is Noah." "How do you know that?" "His older brother is a friend of mine. Their parents are divorced and Noah is just came here to live with his mom. Their dad is getting remarried and Noah doesn't like the woman. Noah sat at my lunch table yesterday. He asked questions about you." "I hate you." "What?!" "Why didn't you tell me!" She shrugged her shoulders. "Because you never asked." I flipped her off and she laughed. We continued to talk about random things until we reached school. She said she would talk to Jay and tell him it did bother me some but I would get over it. I thanked her and we went our separate ways. While I was walking down the hallway I caught site of DJ. She saw me too and ran up to me. "Did Amy get my letter?" I nodded. "And?" "She cried." "What kind of tears?" "Not sure. She did say she hated you for doing this to her." DJ smiled. "Sounds like I may be back in the game!" She hugged me and caught up to Evelyn. It's sad that DJ "loves" Amy but she still hangs onto that slut like her life depends on it. I rolled my eyes and headed to homeroom. When I got in there I saw Noah sitting by himself. He wasn't looking in my direction so he sorta jumped when I pulled out the chair beside him. "Oh, hey Shawn. Didn't know you were there." He smiled that smile of his and I swear my heart melted. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - ~ IMPORTANT ~ There are two chapters that were written by a friend of mine and I will tell you if when the chapter is written by her. Please DO NOT contact me and tell me how different those chapters are from the rest of the story and they are written completely differently. If you do I will most likely insult you. :D - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -