Date: Tue, 14 Dec 2010 18:13:53 -0800 (PST) From: K Davids Subject: Some sense of security/In search of solid ground ch.5 In Search of Solid Ground ch 5 This story is pure fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of the reader. This story contains sexual contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where you live then please hit the back button now!! Everything in this story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not real; I did not base them off people I know! Please do not copy or paste this anywhere else, but please feel free to email me k.davids@ymail.com ----------------------------------------------------------- This chapter is going to be good that's all I can say! It's Chasen's Birthday and well he has many surprises! THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER OF THE YEAR PLEASE HAVE A SAFE AND MERRY CHRISTMAS ----------------------------------------------------------- I'm not waiting forever for this to get better. For today I'm finding a way. A way to keep reaching onward, I've got to be stronger for today I'm finding a way ~Finding a Way~ Before Their Eyes ----------------------------------------------------------- Characters Chasen: Age 16 - Main Character Braiden: Age 16 - Chasen's Friend Ian: nearly a year old - Braiden's son Kevin: Chasen's Father Caroline: Chasen's Step Mother Ryan: Age 16 - Chasen's Brother Kyle: Age 15 - Chasen's Brother Lexie: Age 14 - Chasen's Sister ----------------------------------------------------------- I feel someone's eyes staring at me again, I lay there, I don't open my eyes. "Ryan I swear to GOD if this is you again waking me up for the third time this week to make sure I really am gay I am going to hit you in the throat!" I tell him. "But why would you do that after the AAAAAMAAAIIIZINNGG sex we had last night?" said a voice that wasn't Ryan's at all. I pop up right in bed and I am tackled and kissed on the lips, by Aaron! "Oh my god Aaron what the hell are you doing here?" "Well jeez that's not the reaction I wanted after our special night last night jeez." He says laughing pushing me. "I can't believe you're here!" I say still in shock. He looks at me and smiles, "Well believe it! We are all here for your birthday!" I let my smile slip, "wait who is we?" "Margaret, David, Troy, and Tanner..." he says looking away from me. "Tanner is here....In my house? Now this is going to get awkward." I say to no one in particular. Aaron leans over to my wall where I put the picture of Braiden, Ian, and I up. "Awe who's baby, and who is the fucking gorgeous boy you are with?" I get red from embarrassment, "That's Braiden." "Is that his little brother?" he asks. "No that's his son..." I say looking him. "WHAT! you're doing a daddy?" he asks in shock. "Oh my god, AARON! We talked about the privacy before! Just because he and I hang out does not mean we are fucking!" I chastise him. He rolls in fits of giggles on my bed. "Chasen! I'm too nosey not to ask jeez! So are yall dating?" I look at him, he is never going to learn, "No we are not dating, yes he is gay, and yes we like each other...but given that the recent drama I was involved with just happens to be in my house at this moment him and I are not dating yet. 'Can I meet him?" he asks. "NO! Ok well you will meet him today but Aaron you have to be on your best behaviour you pervert!" I tell him. He mocks a "who me look" and bursts out in giggles, I join in laughing with him and then I hear a knock on my door. "Come in" I yell. Ryan comes in and followed by Tanner...I really don't know what to do so I reach for my shirt and put it on, I am so glad that I fell asleep with shorts on because this would be too awkward for me. "Dad wants you to get up already, cause he is making breakfast and Margaret and David want to see you." Ryan says, "Oh happy birthday little brother." He says smiling as he leaves. There was just an awkward silence in my room, I just kind of avoided Tanner's eyes, "You look good, nice haircut." I tell him because his hair is really short and has it spiked up now. "Thanks, you look really good. Probably the best I have ever seen you." He says looking down with his hands in his pockets. "Aaron, can you give Tanner and I some privacy?" I ask him. He just nods and slinks his way out of my room. I gesture towards a chair for Tanner to sit, and he does. "Look, Chasen I know I probably shouldn't have come here, but you were a huge part of my life. I know I was an asshole the last time we were together, but I have been working on everything, I am not the same person as I was. I just wanted to be here for you to be able to see that." He tells me before I speak. "I don't mind that you're here. I am surprised you are here at all honestly. I think it will help both of us to get over whatever we had, I want to be your friend Tanner. I don't want to hate you anymore." I tell him getting up and standing before him and I reach out my hand. We both shake hands, and that's when it dawned on me that I wasn't attracted to him like that anymore, yea he was cute and I cared for him. But that's where it all stopped. He wasn't the one I was yearning to see, his voice didnt drive me crazy like it used to or wanted his arms around me to make me feel safe, that would be Braiden, speaking of which I don't know how these two will be when they are in the same room. "We need to get downstairs, I have other guests coming." I tell him. He just simply nods and I pass Kyle's room and peak in. He wasn't there so I guess he feels good enough to be downstairs. I make my way down stairs and Tanner follows. I hear everyone's voices talking down stairs, I can't help but smile so I start to skip a few steps and I round the corner to the living room and there is Margaret and David with Troy. I run up to them and give them each a huge hug. "I am so happy to see all of you! I still can't believe you are here!" "Hunny you look so good, and you finally got a haircut." Margaret says kissing me on the cheek. "You look good son, I am proud of you." David says. "Come here lil bro." I tell Troy hugging him. "I'm not little so much!" Troy says laughing. We all laugh and make the introductions, I see Lexie is finally home, and I see Troy's face light up. I grab him by the collar real quick. "That's my sister dude." I tell him laughing. "Ha Ha Ha, I am just going to introduce myself to her jeez." He says smiling. I see Caroline and Margaret hitting it off well they are laughing as both dad and David are talking. I see Kyle being interrogated by Aaron, I figure I need to go save him. "Kyle lil bro, you feeling better?" I ask. "Yeah I didn't want to be stuck in bed all day on your birthday, which by the way happy birthday." He says hugging me. Aaron, just has this goofy ass grin on, I stick my tongue out at him. I hear the doorbell ring. "I will get it." Caroline offers. "Nah that's ok Caroline, I got this I know who it is!" I say excitedly. I practically skip over to the door, I can tell through the distorted glass its Bray, I open it and I see him with Ian, who is in full mode blabbering. Kasey is behind them smiling. "Happy Birthday babe." Braiden says leaning in to hug me. I hug him back and take Ian from him, he gives me a weird look and laughs at me, "oh you thought I wanted just you psh! This is my little man!" I tease him. "Happy Birthday Chasen!" Kasey says hugging me. I show them in and I walk into the living room, I notice Margaret give me a strange look, "Well who is this cute boy?" she says motioning to Ian. "Well this is the new man in my life, careful he will steal your heart quick!" I tell her and Ian just smiles at me putting his hand on my face. I introduce Kasey and Braiden, to everyone. They say hi, I see Tanner checking out Braiden, and I can't help it but feel a flash of jealousy course through me. "Awe, your son is so cute!" Margaret says to Kasey and Bray. "Oh he isn't mine, I have a boyfriend." Kasey says quickly smiling. "Ian is mine, I am a single father." Braiden pipes up. "Oh, well he is very adorable." Margaret says in shock. I see Tanner register a shocked look on his face, I lead Braiden over to Aaron, "Braiden meet Aaron....be careful this boy likes to get very personal!" I tell him laughing. "I do not......ok well I do! I can't help it at all!" he says smiling at Braiden. "Let me have my boy, you too go mingle, besides this is what I have been most looking forward to, and Chasen I know you're not wearing that all day GO CHANGE!" Lexie tells me taking Ian. "Dude your sister is feisty, she is so cool!" Aaron says. Before I can reply Tanner walks over, "I'm Tanner, Chase..." Braiden cuts him off, "I know who you are, I'm Braiden." He says and shakes his hand, I watch the exchange I don't like it at all. I've never seen Braiden with that look in his eye, but I kind of like it because he's being protective of me. "Chasen dear, Margaret, Lexie, Kasey and I are going to the store to buy the food, Braiden may I take Ian with us, give you a chance to relax." Caroline asks. I see him hesitate but he says yes, "yes ma'am..." Caroline comes up to him, "Hun, I will be careful after all I raised three myself, I know he is your heart and soul they have that affect on us all." She tells him and hugs him. He smiles and tells them the car seat is in the car which is unlocked, and they head out the door. Dad and David head out the back door, going to prepare the grill. I didn't notice Ryan make his way down, he was talking to Tanner, I didn't like that at all, but I figured Ryan was a dick so Tanner would be the one suffering. I lead Braiden up to my room, "You ok?" I ask. He hugs me firmly, I love the feeling of being in his arms, it's just secure I know this for sure. "Yeah, just I wanted Tanner to know not to pull shit today, this is your day!" I laugh and start to change I am pulling up my pants when I feel Braiden's body behind me, he kisses my bare shoulder, "I'm sorry I couldn't help it." He says apologizing. "It's ok, I liked it." I tell him leaning into him. Aaron, comes bursting in my room, "UGH! Oh my god I cannot stand another word from Tanner and Ryan, all they talk about sports!" Me and Braiden quickly separate, "Oh please continue its fine by me I just want to watch." Aaron says flopping on my bed laughing. Braiden laughs, "I have been told about you, little perv." "Hey I can't help it, I am a teen, with raging hormones!" he says laughing, "SO HAVE YOU KISSED HIM?" I give him a stern look and Braiden just busts out laughing, "I didn't believe Chase when he said you were so blunt." "Hey I just want to know jeez." He says getting up, laughing as he leaves. We both follow him out after I grab a shirt and throw it on. We get down stairs, Tanner and Ryan are playing a game on the play station 3, Kyle and Troy are talking about random things and laughing. Aaron comes up to me with a small package, "here I want you to open it already!" I take it and open it, it's a necklace with a black shark tooth on it and on each side of the tooth is a rainbow colored bead. "I LOVE IT!" I tell him hugging him. "I'm glad I got that down at Sarasota." He tells me. "Yeah it used to be underneath water at one point." I say explaining it to Braiden. "YEAH! My moms took me there a few weeks ago, I found it on the beach! It was the only black one I found." He says getting excited. I have him help me put it on, "Thanks I really like it, Aaron, I will always wear it." I tell him and watch him blush. We walk out back and Aaron freaks, "Dude! Its huge back here!" "Yeah I know, I honestly really haven't been back here." I tell him. "I have when Ryan and I used to hang out, the pool house was cool, he used to have like a game room set up in there." Braiden says. We go stick are feet in the pool and just relax, we place Aaron in the middle cause he is the smallest. "So do you like being here?" Aaron asks. "Yeah I do, it's really different than Florida and I don't know just more exciting." I tell him. Braiden just smiles, "yeah well it got a lot better when you moved here, did I ever tell you that?" "No you didn't." I say smiling. "Oh my god would yall just kiss already!" Aaron exclaims. Before I know it Braiden grabs Aaron and acts like he is going to throw him into the pool Aaron screams! "Oh my god dude, you had me scared!" he says grabbing his chest smiling. I laugh so hard I'm holding my stomach, "Aaron your face was priceless!" He shoves me sticking his tongue out at me, David and my dad pop out and tell us the women are back and that we need to go help them with the food to bring in. By the time we got there Ryan and Tanner had lugged it all in, Braiden went to check on Ian. "He is really protective over his son huh?" Aaron asks. "Well he gave up a lot to have him, I guess when you're a parent everything changes." I tell him. We walk outside to the end of the driveway and sit, "So do you like him?" Aaron asks. "Yeah, I really do like him a lot. It's not the same as it was with Tanner. This time I know I really like him, he has this effect on me that I can't explain, I feel like a little kid on Christmas morning. And when he talks to me, he has the way of making me feel like I am the only one he is focused on." I explain. Aaron leans into me, "I wish I could find that!" "You will you just can't look for it, I didn't look for it and well it found me." I tell him. "Are yall dating yet?" he asks looking up at me. "Not yet, but I hope soon we are feeling it out, letting things come together on their own. I was scared that I didn't want to use him as a rebound for Tanner, but I don't even think of Tanner when I am with him." I tell him and put my arm around him. "Tanner is still with Kristy all the time, Margaret hates her. She tries to be nice, but Kristy is so self centered! I hate her, she is so rude to me." He says looking sad. "How's your eating problem?" I ask. "It's getting better...I think I don't know, I haven't gained any weight at all. I lost ten more pounds after you left but I gained it back now." He tells me. "Not good lil man...How is Maxx?" I ask. "We don't talk much anymore, we decided that we really didn't feel anything for each other, he is a cool dude just not for me." "Heard from your moms?" I ask really wanting to know cause I know this was a bad subject before I left. "Yeah they are back." He says not too happily. "Why don't you sound to happy?" I ask. "They aren't back because they missed me, well I guess a little, but they have another reason." He says slowly. I look down at him, "what do you mean." "I haven't told anyone I planned on telling them tonight when we were all together." He explains. "Boys come on, Chasen its time to open your gifts out back so the men can see while they cook." Caroline yells from the door. We walk out back and there is a nice pile of gifts on the picnic table, I sit down and Braiden sits beside me with Ian and Aaron on the other side. Margaret places the first gift in front of me, it's a small card. "Well honey we didn't know what to get you, so well we decided to let you get what you wanted." I open it and three beautiful one hundred dollar bills fall out of the card, I look up in shock, "Oh my god, yall didn't have to give me this much I feel wow!" Margaret comes over and hugs me, and so does David. Tanner hands me his gift next, I am kind of scared to open it, I don't know what he could have gotten me. I open it and it's a new wallet, "Thought you could use something to keep the money in." he says smiling. "Thanks I like it, it's awesome bro." I tell him admiring the wallet, it's a handmade duct tape wallet, I always wanted one because they are just awesome and its lime green. Kasey gives me her gift next, it's a small box, and I open it, it's a gift card to Olive Garden, and a note that says "It has enough for two people, and I will baby sit Ian!" I look over, smile and tell her thanks. "My pleasure, I love olive garden, I am sure you will!" she tells me and winks. Ryan looks nervous as he gives me his, I am a little nervous opening, its an American Eagle collared shirt, it's a dark green one, "Thanks, bro." I tell him actually liking it. "Well you know for when you go out on a date, you can look good." He smiles at me. "Well here is the first part of my gift, I have to get the other part in a second." Braiden says handing me a box. I open it and at first I don't understand what it is, "Dude what is this." Everyone starts laughing, "Dude it's a wet suit." Troy pipes in. I look at Braiden, "Why do I need one I can't surf." "Well that's the beauty of it, you are going to learn." He tells me handing Ian over to Lexie. He comes back with a nice white surf board in his hand. "This is the second half of the present. The rest is you get private lessons from me!" he says winking. "Dude wow awesome, I can't believe you got me all this stuff, you shouldn't have it probably cost a ton!" I tell him and hug him. "Nah, I work part time at a surf shop in the summer, and probably a little more during the school year now, the owner said he wanted me throughout the school year to teach lessons." He tells me smiling. "Well I guess that leaves us." My dad says coming over, handing me a small box no bigger than my hand, I open it and it's a set of keys. "No way! Really you got me a car?" I say getting excited. "Why don't we go to the garage and check?" Caroline says with a smile. We walk to the garage it's a pretty big garage, we open the last door and there is a new white Dodge Challenger. I just about fall over. "Oh my god, yall didn't have to get me a car!" I say looking back at my dad who is smiling. "Son, it's ok. This is what we wanted to get you so we got it for you." He says and comes up and hugs me so does Caroline. The guys and I check out the car, I still can't believe it but I should have I mean Ryan has a nice mustang. Braiden is smiling with me. After a few minutes of inspecting it most of them rejoin everyone else in the back yard, I lock up the car and Kyle is standing beside me. "Sorry I couldn't get you anything." He tells me sadly. I bend on one knee so I am almost eyes level with him, "Little bro I don't care if you got me anything I am just happy your feeling good enough to be out of your room and sharing it with me on my birthday!" I tell him and hug him. We make our way to the back yard I am still so excited I can't contain it! I love everything I have gotten from people. I give a smile to Braiden, who is on the grass with Ian. Ian walks over to me and I pick him up and he giggles. I see Tanner looking over at me, I just smile at him and he walks over. "So the kid is Braiden's?" "Yeah isn't he adorable?" I say holding Ian. He shifts uncomfortably, "What possessed him to have a kid?" "He slept with a girl, well was pressured into it, didn't really do it willingly, not like he was in a relationship or anything." I tell him. I know it was a cheap shot but I was still kind of agitated about the whole party thing. "Chasen when will you let that go? I made a mistake ok?" he says getting upset. "Yeah I know but it doesn't change things." I tell him. "Can we please go talk?" he asks. "Yeah." I reluctantly say. We walk to the front of the house, "Well what did you want t talk about?" I say. "Look I know you don't want me here I can tell, I am sorry but I had to see you." He says. "No I am not happy you are here in fact I wished you wouldn't have come, I wasn't ready to see you Tanner. I am just now able to flirt with someone and possibly have a relationship with him, and all of a sudden you pop up? Tan, you know I said maybe we can be friends." I tell him. He looks at me, "You can't stand here and tell me you still don't feel what we had." I look at him and shake my head, "what we had was crushed the night of the party when I watched you walk down from Kristy's room and throw in my face that you slept with Kristy and not to mention that you hit me." "Is it because of Braiden your acting like this? Is he the boy you're talking to?" he asks. I look at him, "Not that it's any of your concern but he is the one, yes he is gay and we do like each other." "He has a damn kid!" he says frustrated. "Yeah so what, he has Ian. That little boy made him a better person, he is amazing I wish you would just be happy for me. You're still sleeping with Kristy and doing what you want. For once I am going to be happy, and he doesn't like me because he loves the thought of being a hero, he likes me because of me. Margaret comes out front, "Boys are you both ok?" "Yeah mom we are." Tanner says. "Well dinner is ready! So come on." She says with a big smile on. We follow her out back, and sit down. Of course Caroline made sure Braiden was sitting next to me and Aaron on the other side of me, Braiden had Ian in a high chair. Feeding him a some baby food. Dad and David cooked beautiful juicy bbq ribs, while Margaret had made her creamy melt in your mouth mash potatoes, because she knows those are my favorite. Caroline made a salad, and macaroni and cheese. I made sure to keep an eye on Aaron as he ate, I had to kick him a few times when he wouldn't put much on his plate, when I did he would stick his tongue out at me. "Why do you keep kicking him?" Braiden whispers to me. "I will tell you later babe." I whisper back. After we finish eating, Caroline comes out with my birthday cake! It's half chocolate and the other half is vanilla with cream cheese frosting. They all gathered around the cake and I and sang happy birthday to me, of course me being me I blushed. While we were in the middle of eating cake when dad spoke up, "Well son I am so happy to have you here. Honestly I can't put into words how I lucky I am to have a second chance to be there for you now." He said almost tearing up. "Thanks, dad I am so happy to be here with you and everyone." I tell him almost tearing up as well. "Well I have something I need to share with all of yall." Aaron speaks up. Everyone stops eating to look over at him, I see he is nervous I put my hand on his arm to let him know it's ok to speak up. "Well as most know my moms are back...It's not for long though. I...well I mean they asked me to be in their next movie that they are directing and producing..." he says. "Dude that's awesome!" Braiden says. We all tell him how great of an opportunity that is, "Dude so is it going to be filmed the rest of the summer?" Troy asks. "No, We are moving...We have too, I will be getting home schooled so I can work on the movie." He says. "Where are you moving to honey?" Margaret asks with a concerned look. "Here in California." He says looking at me. Margaret gets up and hugs him, "Honey we are going to miss you so much!" "DUDE! You're my best friend though!." Troy says hurt. "I know but I just can't help it, I just I don't know what to do!" he says all defeated. I lean over and give him a hug, "It will work out." Dad tries to lighten the mood, and we all finish eating our cake, and I follow Aaron to the other side of the yard. "Is this what you want?" I ask "NO......Yes, I just I don't know, I want them to accept me. I know they will if I do go through and be in their movie, it's supposed to be really big. That and I would actually spend time with them, and I would be close to you." He says to me with tears in his eyes. I hug him, "Dude I would love for you to be around me all the time, I mean come on, you're going be in a movie! That's awesome you should look at it this way, not a lot of kids get this opportunity, plus your parents are working on it so you get to spend time with them. I am sure you will meet plenty of hot boys here! Plus you could get famous dude, I know you'd like that." I say trying to cheer me up. "Yeah that's all true I guess I just never looked at the upside of things, and I didn't tell you what the movie is about." He says smiling at me. "Well what is it about?" I ask. He smiles, "Well it's about a teenager who comes out during summer break to his parents and he eventually gets a boyfriend, and I don't know the rest it's a about but the movie is supposed to show acceptance and equality. I get a kissing screen with my co-star though, I know that. They are really excited to work on the movie, they said there is a big time producer and the movie budget is big! They said that they have some pull with the casting people and they said the lead role could pretty much mine if I want it; I already did the audition last week, they helped taped it and we sent it in. They said I am the perfect boy to be the main character." "Dude it sounds like you already know what you want." I tell him. "Yeah I guess you are right, I just needed to know I have some support." He says. Braiden walks up to me and puts his arms around my waist. "Hey I don't mean to interrupt but I am about to head out, little Ian is getting sleepy." "I think yall should date already, just saying. Yall would be cute!" Aaron says walking away. "I am going to miss you!" I tell Braiden. He puts his chin on my shoulder, "I am really going to miss you too." I turn around in his arms and look at him; I tilt my head and slowly make my way towards his delicious lips. My lips meet his, and I feel this jolt of warmth go through my body, it's like fireworks are exploding in my head. I kiss him harder, and he holds me tight, I feel myself get hard kissing him. His lips are sweet, unlike anything I have ever experienced, the taste is so addicting that I want more. "I really need to go." He mumbles but continues to kiss me. "Mhhmmm..." I mumble and keep kissing him, now he is holding my face softly. He ends the kiss and looks at me and smiles, "Wow..." I blush, "Yeah..." "I really enjoyed that a lot... Chasen. I want you to be my boyfriend so bad, but I know and respect that you need time." He tells me still holding me. "I know babe and soon, real soon. Your pretty much all I think of." I tell him smiling. I watch him leave, and I just can't help but smile, everyone notices how much I am smiling, I can't hide it! About twenty minutes after Braiden leaves, Margaret and David announce they are headed out, that they are going to Los Angeles in the morning, before their flight out the next day. We say our goodbyes and I promise to call them, I tell Aaron to call me soon to let me know when he is headed down here. Caroline, dad, Lexie, Kyle, Ryan walk them out. I am looking at the gifts on the picnic table when I feel someone tap me on the shoulder, I turn around its Tanner. "I guess this is goodbye?" he says. "Yeah I guess it is." I say nonchalant. He puts his arms around me, "Let me kiss you one last time." He says. "NO! Tanner I told you we are through, you can't keep doing this to me." Itell him firmly. He holds me tighter, "Just let me kiss you." "Dude, he said let him go!" Ryan says standing behind Tanner. Tanner sighs, "I'm sorry I don't know what the hell is wrong with me." "You need to leave." Ryan says firmly stepping up to him. Tanner just nods and leaves without looking back, I feel like crying, I just sit on the table and put my head in my hands. I feel Ryan sit next to me, and put his arm around me, "You ok little brother?" I laugh, "You like the fact I am younger than you don't you." "I sure do." He says smiling. "Thanks for sticking up for me with him, just I was feeling powerless and probably would have gave in and it would have ruined everything I worked for." I tell him. "Hey, we are family man. Plus he got on my nerves." He says smiling. I just laugh, "Thanks man, it means a lot." "So you and Bray huh?" he asks. "Can you tell that easily?" I asked. "I had my suspicions, I knew he was always gay, but yeah its obvious plus I know yall had kissed, you were literally glowing." He says laughing. "Yeah, we like each other just I don't know, we aren't goin out yet." I tell him. "Dude why are you waiting? Go for it, shit you have everything to gain, and nothing to lose plus he isn't a bad person, we just had our differences." He says. "I never thought I would have a conversation like this with you." I tell him. He gets up pulling me up with him and leans on me as we walk, "Well its fun having a gay brother plus chicks will dig it, and your actually cool." He says... "I am only joking dude, except for the part of you being cool, you are." We both laugh and head inside. I can't believe how this day has turned out it has had ups and downs. But the kiss was by far my highlight of the day. ------------------------------------------------------------------ Well that's ch.5! I hoped you all liked it. Now if this has taken forever to post its all TY's fault lol jkjk he's had a lot going on but has done awesome. Now what will chapter six hold? Will Chasen and Braiden start dating? What do you think of the Aaron problem? How about Ryan sticking up for Chasen? I am thinking of starting a Yahoo group so I can put pictures of what Chasen and Braiden look like that and so everyone will be kept informed what's going down so what do you think? Yes or no? Thanks, KD tY: lol ill hurt you later KD. As for the group idea, as long as it's not called KD's amazing american writing, better off with Crzy KD's American Writing :P I think that Chasen and Braiden will eventually date, we seen how close they have been getting, the question I think is when :) I think what Tanner pulled at the end of the party was a bit wrong but in a situation like his, I can see his whole world crashing soon. He won't admit it but he seems to really miss Chase. Now that he sees that Chase doesn't need him and that he's not coming back he's going to be doing a bit of changing, but only Crzy KD is the only one to actually know and he doesnt tell me anything. Theres always two sides to everything, for Aaron maybe it's not so much a problem as it is a change. Change can be scary but it works out for the best in the end. During my week i read a few novels I've been neglecting for a while. While I read them I came across an Inuit saying that's stuck in my head. It was in a book called Desert Sons, by Mark Kendrick. The saying was "Eat Life or Life Eats You" meaning you can either control life of let it control you. So remember if something is getting you down its probably because your letting life control you, remember that you control your life, no one else. always here :) itari@live.ca