Date: Fri, 27 Dec 2002 07:48:37 -0800 (PST) From: lawrence Cane Subject: stay chapter 1 Stay Chapter 1 by afterglow Disclaimer: This is not wonderland. This is serious stuff. So if you feel that the tootsie fairy just whacked your butt in here, please read something else. This contains love/sexual desires between teenagers. Any similarities to certain persons are purely coincidental. And unless this kind of material offends you're crude mind, I suggest you sit back, relax and enjoy wonderland. *** Hey people! I'd like you to all to know that this is my first at Nifty. I'm really not that much of a writer so don't go judging me that harsh, k? So here it is. Stay. *** "So this is it," I said. "Yeah," Jarod breathed. "But you'll keep in touch right?" "Sure." The truth is, I don't know. We're worlds apart. I'm going to have to live in Seattle and he has to stay here. And we just looked at each other for a moment. God, this is so painful. I mean leaving my best friend like this. Jarod is so special to me but I have to go. And now seeing that hurt look on his face, I can't control my feelings anymore. "Look, Jarod. There is something I have to tell you." He has that hopeful face that I just really love. That I guess, I fell for. "You know how people spend so much time with the other person that he just can't say what he truly feels and like..." God! Why is this so hard? I'm just going to tell the love of my whole life that I love him and I can't. I can't do this. I can't. "Edo, what is it?" He said softly. That cool calm voice of his just lifts me up. "All my life I have been meaning to tell you this," I looked at him straight in the eyes, "I... love... y..." I can't. God! I can't! No. I'm not going to ruin this moment. With tearful eyes, I opened up my arms and hugged him. I know what you think. A guy is about to profess his undying love and he just hugs him. I feel like jumping off an airplane. And then he hugs me back tight. His body is so warm. So peaceful. And I knew at that moment, it will last forever. "Stay," Jarod whispered surprisingly. No Jarod. Please don't do this to me. I love you dammit. For ten years, for ten friggin years, I loved you. Jeez! Why is it so hard to let you go? And being the idiot that I am, I kissed him. Well, not on the lips but on the cheek. I guess that's all I could do for him. I didn't looked back to see his reaction cause I ran after that. Yes, I am a coward. Idiot and a coward. But I think it's for the best because if I stay there any longer, I would tell him about everything. And I'm too afraid to lose him like that. Well that's past. History they call it. Everything fine now. Perfect. Just the way I want it to be. Alone. So where do we start? Me? No, you don't want to know my life. My life sucks. I want to know all about you. You're hopes, you're dreams, you're super straight life. What? What do you mean you're not straight? Yeah right. Well, you don't look gay. I mean I don't care if you're gay or not. It's just that I'm kinda gay too. There. I blew it. Stupid. My name is Edo. Yeah I know what you're thinking. Edo? What kind of friggin name is that? Well, I'm Edo, so deal with it okay? And no I don't know where I got my name, I don't even know if it is a name. Jeez. Why is everybody superficial nowadays. So where were we? Ah, yes. You want to know what I look like. Would it matter if i looked like Brad Pitt? No? Well, hopefully I don't. I'm not tall, in fact I'm a dwarf standing at 5'5. And no, I'm not working with Sleeping Beauty. I have slant little blue eyes. I don't know about you but I hate my eyes. It's like I'm half asleep with those. My hair is crossed between gray and grown. I don't dye my hair so it's natural. I have a rounded face that my grandma used to tease me about. She says I'm so cute that my neighbor Lisa would come over everyday just to see me. Yeah right. Nice try grams but I think I'm not on the 'to die for list'. So let's just breeze that over and get to know each other. Well, my parents are divorced. My dad left me when I was a child so I never really met him. My mother is a different story. You know the moment I left to Seattle? Well, my mom got a job there, a really big one she said. So we went off, settled to a new house, everything was great until the accident happened. She died in a plane crash oneday. I don't know but I guess bad things happen and the sooner you accept reality, the more efficient you'll be. So I buried her one day and went back to my grams. It was tough going back to my home town but it was my only place to go to. But it seems that the place isn't for me. Because when I got back everything changed. He changed. So here I am in the library, hiding away from all the dangerous teenagers in this school. Okay, not really hiding but well, I want to be alone. See, ever since I got back, all my friends seem to have forgotten me. I'm cool with that. In fact I've never felt better in my life. I mean if I wasn't, then I wouldn't be sitting around here talking to you, would I? Oh wait, I forgot I have a meeting with Mr. Krauss. Err... and I'm fifteen minutes late. So I got up and rushed myself out of there. Urgh! I guess I was so infatuated telling my life to you, that I totally forgot about my schedule. Urgh! Huh? What's that? What happened to Jarod? I don't know, now quit baggering me. "What the..," At one single swipe, all my books kept flying through the air. Shit. "You're blocking my way." Oh. Double oh. So you want to know what happened with Jarod? You want to know where he is? Well, here he is. A big giant dickhead. The minute I got back here, I came running to his house. And I found a different Jarod from that day on. He was so distant. He tries everything to keep me away from him. And from that moment, I knew he wasn't my Jarod anymore. He's an overly self-centered prick. He thinks he's so popular and all that he belittles everyone. And did I mention he's new girlfreiend Pat Morkins which everyone knows, is a whore. Urgh! Everytime I think of him, the time we spent together, the years I loved him, it all turns into a burning rage of hate. I hate him. Well, at least I haven't changed. The idiot that I am, I picked up my stuff and just left. That's it Edo, don't show any emotion. Don't let him see that you're hurt. Don't let the world see. So, anyway let's just forget that ever happened. Where were we again? Oh yes. Well, did I have 0 friends. I mean not a zip. So having my poor social status, I have concentrated onto my studies. Which well, I get straight A's. Whooopie! Like somebody cares. "Oh, happy to see that you've actually care to drop by, Mr. Goth," Mr. Krauss said "Um, you see sir..." I begin to explain but he cut me off. "No excuses Mr. Goth. If you ever pull a stunt like this again, I'll convince the board to take you're scholarship." What? Can you believe this clown? I mean I'm only late for friggin' fifteen minutes. I took my chair and he began to talk to me about some stuff that I really don't care about. My mind is racing through a lot of things right now, that he'll just have to wait. And no, I'm not going to say to you what I'm thinking. I've already told you everything so can you leave me a little privacy please? Okay, so another day has passed by in the life of Mr. Edo Goth. Nothing happened much. Nothing ever happens much in my life. See, I've told you, my life isn't interesting. You should have listened to me so we could have talked about your life. Oh, so you're backing out now. After all I've said to you? Well, I guess everyone just wants to take a peak at my life and then when its their turn, they run. Yeah, I know you're not one of them but when you find out what happens next you'll think twice reading my story. *** So there you have it folks! The my first installment. Hope you all liked it. Keep in touch and stay cool! *afterglow*