By Tyrel "Rock" Wolf
CHAPTER 7 - Damage Control
Lucas and I sat there contemplating what had just happened, both still a bit dazed and confused. Mike hadnt taken Lucas and I being together too well, Sarah had gone after him in a rage. Marcel had been pushed aside and ran away without saying anything. I knew Marcel wasnt looking the best though. I knew he wouldnt be too thrilled that I chose Lucas over him and part of me felt really responsible and sorry for him. He had also been pushed aside by Mike after being called a faggot. I think he is feeling very alone right now.
"What was Marcel talking about?" Lucas asked.
"Well, hes in love with me. I thought he was over it, but I guess he isnt. I think he thought I was straight so he wasnt too concerned before. But the fact I chose you over him probably made him feel really low considering how long Ive known him. But I just dont see him as more than a friend. I feel really bad for him though, he must feel so alone." I sighed.
Lucas thought about what I had just said for a second "I cant blame him for being in love with you, its not hard is it. I knew there was a reason he didnt like me that much, I guess that was it. Is there any way we can help him?" Lucas asked concerned.
"I better go and talk to him. Im not sure what Im going to say but Ill think of something." I said standing up.
"Do you want me to come?" Lucas asked.
"No. no, I better handle this one." I replied.
I kissed him and headed outside, I knew where I could find Marcel. The only other place he went to think apart from the Tree house was down by the park. I had to make sure he was ok, he is such the unsung hero. I wished there was some way I could give him what he wanted but it just wasnt possible. I only had one heart to give and I had already given it away. However, making Marcel ok had just become my top priority.
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"What the fuck is your problem Mike?" Sarah yelled after Mike.
Mike hadnt stopped walking away, they were still on Storms street. Sarah was furious with him, she grabbed his shoulder and spun him around. Mikes face wasnt angry, it was a disoriented, confused, hurt look. He didnt know what was going on, everything had happened so quickly.
"All my best friends are faggots, they have all been lying to me. Why cant they just be normal like us. I cant believe they did this." Mike said.
"You cant believe they did this?" Sarah asked sarcastically. "I cant believe you are so close minded, I thought you were better than that."
"Theyre the ones with the fucking problem Sarah. Why are you siding with them, youre supposed to be my girlfriend."
"Oh dont you dare even think of going there, I make up my own mind Mister. They didnt choose to be this way, they just are. Do you know how much Storm has been through? Ive seen him agonizing over this for the past three months, its taken him a long time to come to terms with himself. Do you realize how hard it was for him to just do what he did?. NO! All youre thinking about is your damn red neck self. Well Im not with that buzz mister. So you better readjust that attitude of yours, or youre gonna be flying solo." Sarah said fuming.
"I dont care, its sick. I mean its one thing to joke about but a totally different thing to actually do it."
"Fine, have it your way Mike. You make sure to find yourself a good bitch who cant think for herself next time huh. One with no brains might be a good idea. Youd make a great couple." Sarah yelled walking away.
"Sarah! Sarah wait!" Mike yelled.
Sarah didnt stop walking, she just waved Mike away with her hand. She walked back down the street towards Storms house, her face still red with anger. She saw Storm heading out the front of his house and she started yelling out to him "STORM!! STORM!!"
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"huh?" I mumbled to myself turning around. "Sarah, what are you doing here?"
She ran up to me, her face was red and she looked angry. I could tell though she was more hurt than anything and as soon as this anger phase was said and done there would be a lot of tears.
"Are you guys ok?" she asked.
"Look Im fine, I can handle it. What about you?" I asked concerned.
"I broke up with Mike." She said softly, her eyes watering.
I pulled her in close to me and hugged her "Im sorry buddy. I didnt want you to have to pay because of Lucas and I."
"I cant believe what a jerk he is, I really thought he was better than that." She cried. "Im so angry at him."
"Look, you two are a great couple. I know, Ive seen it. You two will sort it out." I said holding her.
She pulled back and started rubbing her eyes and laughing a little bit. I didnt know what the hell she was laughing about but I wasnt going to stop it.
"Look at me, Im crying for fucks sake. I dont cry, I am the great immortal Sarah. And Im not going to cry over that jerk. Now hows Marcel?" She asked bluntly.
I stared at her with awe, she was just too unbelievable. She had just broken up with her boyfriend and given herself a tiny little cry and she was back out saving the world. Whoever said women were the weaker species obviously hasnt met Sarah Leo yet.
"Actually, Im going after him now. He didnt take me and Lucas going out too well. And he took Mike calling him a faggot and pushing him around even worse." I sighed.
"Fuck. Ok, well both go. You talk first, Ill talk second. Come on." She said sternly pulling me along after her.
"Fuck youre a tough bitch. Thats a compliment by the way." I said as she dragged me along.
"Shut the fuck up and move your ass along boy." She grinned.
"Yes Sir Mam Sir!!"
We both nodded at each other and ran down towards the park. It only took us about 5 minutes to get there. We slowed down and I had a look to see if I could find Marcel. Sure enough, there he was, sitting all on his lonesome. I looked at Sarah and signaled her to wait here till I finished talking to him. She nodded back at me and I started walking up quietly behind Marcel. He wasnt crying, but his eyes were teary and it looked like he was in a bit of distress. "Marcel." I said softly.
I sat down next to him, and waited for him to say something. He didnt, he just kept looking into nowhere. I tried to think of something I could say to make him feel better. I couldnt think of anything.
"Storm." He said "I dont love you."
"What?" I replied in shock. Ego Bruise, warning warning.
"I mean, not like Lucas does. I dont love you like that. I love you as a friend. I just realized that today. I know I used to, but not anymore. I think I was just jealous that you werent my friend as much as you were before." He said.
I started smiling, trying to absorb everything that was sinking in. Thinking Marcel was in love with me had made things a bit uncomfortable between us and he was right that we hadnt been as buddy buddy. But all that would change now, I felt pretty awesome. Id have my bud back and wouldnt have that little bit of stress hanging over me.
"Wow. Thats awesome. Im so happy. Im sorry I havent been there for you much lately. I just felt a bit uncomfortable thinking you still liked me. But Ill make time, I promise." I smiled. "Wait a minute, why dont you love me? Whats not to love?" I said jokingly.
"You KNOW you rule Storm so dont even go there. Im jealous of Lucas though, I mean it used to be me and you. All I want is my bud back, thats all."
I couldnt help but grin wildly, "DUDE!! You never lost me! Now give your bud a hug!" I said pulling him in.
"Dude? Oh man, you have been hanging out with Lucas way too long. But at least I got my bud back." He said leaning his head onto my shoulder.
"Shit man, are you trying to kill me or something." I gasped.
"Oh. Sorry man." Marcel said letting me go.
"So, are you ok? With me and Lucas?" I asked nervously.
"Yeah, I guess. I mean its no secret I dont like the guy. But I just put that down to jealousy. As long as he shares you around, Im cool."
"And how about with Mike?" I asked.
"Oh thats just my luck. We were just getting on a lot better too. Id found your replacement." Marcel said tensing up "I just feel alone. I havent got anyone, youve got Lucas. Mikes got Sarah. Who have I got?"
"Youll find someone . That sounds so lame doesnt it. Well, do you know for sure what you want? I mean are you Straight, Gay or Bi?" I asked bluntly.
"Well, Im not sure I just... Oh fuck it, who am I kidding. Im a fag." Marcel sighed.
Sarah popped out from the bushes and walked up behind Marcel, whacking him on the back of the head. Marcel grabbed his head in surprise "Oowww, what was that for?" he asked confused.
"I dont want to ever hear you call yourself that again, do you understand me." Sarah said sitting down and putting her arm around Marcel.
"Well its true." He sulked. "Im not exactly straight am I."
"Neither am I." I said
"Well I am, but who cares. We are who we are. You just have to accept it and move on." Sarah said.
"Marcel, I had a hard time dealing with it. But Ive just stopped fighting with myself and gone with it." I said. Marcel started laughing a little, I had no idea why. I told you I hung out with demented people didnt I?
"Well it helps when you have a babe like Lucas making it that much easier doesnt it. Dont you think its strange though that were all you know .I mean apart from Mike." Marcel said.
Sarah and I both looked at each other, Marcel was right. Id never really thought about it much but now that I did think about it, it did seem rather strange. Maybe we were just drawn to each other because deep down we knew we had similarities? Maybe Lucas was just the catalyst for what was already there. But Id never felt for anyone like I have Lucas, I dont look at other guys. "That is fucking weird." I said dumbfounded.
"Whats so weird?" Lucas said sitting down next to me.
"Lucas? What are you doing here?" I asked surprised.
He just looked at me and smiled that little smile of his. You know, the one that sets those butterflies off, that smile. He didnt have to say anything, I knew why he was here. He missed me!! He missed me!! I smiled back at him and the next thing we knew both Marcel and Sarah were staring at us.
"Geez its bad enough with Mike and Sarah. Now I have to sit and watch you two oogle over each other." Marcel moaned. "Oh yeah and whats so weird is the fact that all three of us arent exactly straight and we all hang together."
"Whats so weird about that? I mean, youve known deep down inside that youre gay. Thats why you hang with Storm because he attracts you. I mean you wouldnt exactly hang out with guys that repulsed you now would you? And I was attracted to Storm at first when I saw his smile. But then we became friends and everything changed. But really, when you think about it. Its not weird at all dude" Lucas said very matter of factly. Marcel, Sarah and I all stared at Lucas with surprise. He always surprised me with that brain of his. Hed just explained away something wed found extremely puzzling. And he did it all without breaking a sweat. I smiled at him proudly, I dont think he had any idea why we were all staring at him. "What? What did I say?" Lucas asked with a bewildered look on his face.
"Hes right. Youre damn clever Lucas. You just explained away Marcels little mind boggle. And dont worry Marcel youll only have to worry about those two sucking face because Mike and I are through." Sarah said.
"Not if I can help it." Mike said from behind us. "Can I sit down?" he asked.
"Knock yourself out." Sarah said bluntly.
And there we were. All five of us again. Youd wonder why we bothered leaving the Tree House. Although we five did have this funny knack of following each other around. I suppose thats why we call ourselves the Pack. Mike sat down next to Sarah, who moved away ever so subtly. We sat on the grass slope overlooking the park, Mike next to Sarah, Marcel in the middle, then me, and finally Lucas. All sitting in a line, not really doing anything. Marcel, Lucas and I were all trying to look at Mike without being obvious. Attempting to figure out the look on his face, it looked like he was trying to say something. We all sat there, no one saying anything. It must have been a good five minutes before Mike finally spoke up. And when he did, everyones attention was on him.
"I cant believe youre all fa..." He began to say as Sarah shot him a you better not say it look. "gay, I cant believe youre all gay."
"I hate labels. Im Marcel Lewis. If you dont like that Mike, then Im sorry. I am who I am, I cant change. Take it or leave it." Marcel said, his words laced with a new found strength.
"Yeah, what he said." Lucas and I both said at the same time, giving each other strange looks.
Sarah smiled at Marcel, she winked at him. I could tell she was proud of him, he had always been such the pushover. It was so rare to see him stand up to any of us, Im glad he was starting to though.
"Marcel, Im sorry for pushing you before. Look, I was just in shock ok. You guys totally caught me off guard. I mean, geez, I still cant believe it." He said flabbergasted. "It just freaked me out. I know I reacted badly, and I shouldnt have."
"Just take a few deep breaths dude. I think I speak for all three of us when I say that all we want is for you to accept us. We just want everything to be cool, were not going to treat you any differently." Lucas said.
"Mike, what theyre all trying to say is; DEAL WITH IT!!" Sarah yelled.
I could have tried to be a bit more subtle, but subtle wasnt usually a word Sarah liked to use. She liked to have everything out in the open, with no bullshit. Mike looked at Sarah a bit taken aback, he frowned at her feeling a bit hurt I suppose. "Shit youre a bossy bitch." He scowled.
"What the hell is up with everyone calling me a bitch today?" She said throwing her hands in the air.
"OK OK!! You guys do whatever the hell you like. Whatever makes you happy. IM JUST GONNA DEAL WITH IT OK!!" He yelled.
"Umm you wanna yell a bit louder? I dont think they heard you in China." I said.
Lucas, Marcel and I all shrugged at each other. I think the Mikester and Sarah were both going a bit looney. Theyd only been separated a little while and already they were loosing it. "Umm I have a suggestion. Can you two hurry with the kiss and make up already. Youre both going completely mental." I said.
"The guy has a point honey, will you take me back. Pleeeaaaaaasssseeee." He begged. Mike threw himself down on the ground in front of Sarahs feet, putting his hands together. "Please oh beautiful Queen Sarah, I will not piss you off again. Come on Im making an idiot of myself here, thats got to count for something."
Sarah stood up, looking down at Mike "You dont get to call me Honey yet. Are you going to be nice to Marcel and the two new love birds. And are you going to call me Queen all the time?" She grinned.
"I will, I will, I promise. And as for the Queen bit, Ill call you whatever the hell you want baby." He grinned back.
Aaahh once more true love had been restored in the great kingdom of Merlow. I knew they wouldnt stay apart for long. Sarah threw herself down on top of Mike and they started up with their goo goo noises again, followed by the mandatory kisses required in a make up situation.
"You know Mike you stupid prick. You could have saved us all a walk down here if you had of just dealt with it back at the Tree house." I moaned.
"Oh shut up you, cant you see Im making out with most beautiful girl in Merlow." He mumbled between kisses.
"Flattery will get you everywhere Mister." Sarah said going in for the kill.
Mike and Sarah continued to ravage each other without a care in the world. Lucas, Marcel and I watching on dumbfounded. "Oh please. Do we have to watch this?" Marcel whined.
I sighed to myself, it wasnt exactly the resolution I had hoped for. But Im sure it could have been a lot worse I suppose. I guess I really wanted acceptance from Mike and Marcel, but it was more like an ok Ill deal with it, I dont have a choice acceptance. Maybe I had too much wishful thinking for my own good. At least he didnt go and tell all his jock buddies, I dont fancy having to kick their ass every day.
"Hey. Storm." Lucas said.
I turned to look at him, oh boy. "Dont start throwing that look at me man. You cant be serious." I said starting to grin. Lucas was giving me that oh so seductive smile that meant I want some. You try fighting that look, by the time you realized you were getting the look you would have already melted. But I mean it was one thing telling them we were a couple. It was a total new thing to start making out in front of them. This didnt seem to phase Lucas however as he started moving towards me slowly, "Oh boy" I gulped.
"Oh well, why the fuck not. Go on you two." Marcel whined.
That was all the encouragement Lucas needed, there wasnt any teasing this time. He just wanted me right then and there. Lucas pushed me back and threw himself on top of me. His lips met mine, taking away any inhibitions I had. Any desire to be subtle disappeared once Id gotten a taste of those strawberry lips. I couldnt help myself now and I didnt care who was watching. I slid my arms under his shirt, feeling the smooth skin. My lips hadnt let go of his as I slid my hands along his back pulling him closer to me. Our tongues danced wildly in each others mouths trying their best to outdo the other. Intense as a description would not do justice to the situation.
"Holy Shit" Mike gasped.
"Shut up Mike, Im watching here." Marcel moaned.
I pulled my lips away from Lucas and looked at Mike and Marcel. Both had their eyes fixed on Lucas and I. Mikes eyes were fixed intently and he had a curious look on his face laced with a bit of shock. Marcels was more of a oh that looks like fun face. Sarah of course, lay there smiling and rolling her eyes at the two awestruck males. I think Lucas was loving it, this was the first time he could be with me out in the open. He made sure they knew I was his, not that I minded. All while the two looked on curiously, Lucas kept at me. Sliding his hand under my shirt, gently nibbling on the nape of my neck.
"Its not that weird I suppose." Mike decided. "But still, nothing compared to Sarah."
"Well, speaking from experience. I beg to differ." I grinned.
Sarah threw her bag at me "Whats that supposed to mean." She screamed
"Ow ow. Nothing nothing. Forgive me your highness." I mock begged.
Mike lay back down resting his head on Sarah. "Well at least theres one good thing about you guys. No competition." Mike sighed satisfied.
That scored a round of laughter from everyone. Lucas pulled himself closer, squeezing me in a content embrace. Resting his head on me, he whispered "Finally."
I lay there looking at the sky, Lucas lying contentedly on top of me. I brushed my fingers through Lucas hair, wanting to feel each and every soft, beautiful strand. I sighed to myself, finally we didnt have to hide ourselves from them anymore. Lucas pulled my hand down and kissed it gently, holding it to his face. We lay there, just feeling the closeness of being together. Mike lay resting on top of Sarah, doing exactly the same thing as Lucas and I. I was starting to feel bad for Marcel though, he sat there looking like the complete odd one out. I really hope he gets someone worthy of him soon, hes a really great guy. I dont suppose any of you out there want him do you?
"Marcel, come here." Sarah beckoned softly.
Marcel wasnt sure what she wanted, but he knew better than to say no. He crawled over softly next to her, and she pulled his head down for him to rest. Mike poked tongues at him playfully. Marcel lay down on the ground, resting his head on Sarah next to Mike. I shuffled over slightly and leaned my head slightly against her shoulder. We all lay there now, together. Dusk was setting in, and the cold was beginning to nip at us. We didnt care though, nobody moved. We all just lay there, staring at the first glimpses of stars coming out in the night. Night began slowly creeping in, and still no one moved. No one said anything. I think in those moments, we were all thinking different things. But one thing Im sure was going through all our heads, were a family. Wed been through so many ups and downs together, things I thought would shatter us. And still, here we were.
I didnt think there was anything that could come between us. Tonight was a reaffirmation, it was more than just coming out. If anything it solidified our friendship and bonds. I felt really lucky to be a part of such a special, tight knit group. We all had our roles to play, and we all played them well. Sarah was definitely the mother of the group, she was the gel that kept us together a lot of the time. Shed go into battle for any of us, never once giving it a second thought. Marcel, hes the baby. As in, he is the one the rest of us watch out for. We all look out for him, hes the most fragile I think. But he is extremely loyal, and always there. Now Mike and Lucas, both of them were the ones Sarah and I depended on. And as for me, well Im not so sure about that one anymore. I used to be the center of attention, the leader of the pack even. But lately, that role seemed to go to Sarah. Sure everyone still used my house. They just didnt seem to revolve around me anymore. I mean when I had Sarah, I was the man. Now Im like, the guy whose house everyone hangs at. It didnt bother me much though, Im pretty sweet to just cruise along in the background.
"Do you think were still going to be together in five years?" Marcel asked shattering the silence.
I thought about what hed just asked. It was about five years ago actually that Marcel moved here. Or maybe its nearly six years, I cant remember exactly. I knew wed all been together for a long time though, and unless any of us moved suddenly I couldnt see it changing. Sure, Lucas may have only been here a few months but I wasnt letting him get away anytime fast.
"I think we will Marcel. I hope so." Sarah said softly.
"Well if Sarahs still here, Ill still be here. What about you Storm?" Mike asked.
"Im not sure, who knows. But Im born and bred here, I cant see myself ever leaving for good." I replied.
"Well Im going wherever hes going." Lucas said holding me tighter.
"I guess its settled then. Were a pack for life." Marcel said cuddling up close to Sarah.
"We sure are baby. I love you guys." Sarah said smiling.
"I love you all too." I replied.
"Yeah me too." Lucas said.
"Well I love you all more." Marcel said.
"Well I love you all the most, even if I am a fuck up sometimes. You guys are my family." Mike said.
"I know where Mikes coming from. I think of you guys as my family too. My parents are never there. I can always count on you guys though." Marcel said.
"I dont know why I bother going home. I wish I could just live at your house all the time Storm." Mike sighed.
"Yeah me too." Marcel piped in.
"Whats stopping you?" I asked.
"You are!" They both said in unison.
"You know you guys are always welcome. Mom loves you guys." I said.
"Im hungry." Lucas moaned.
"Youre always hungry." Everybody said at the same time.
"Is everyone coming back to my place for dinner?" I asked.
"For Sure Dude!"
"Ok then, lets go. Bags not doing the dishes." I said getting up.
"Ill do them, I dont mind." Mike said pulling Sarah up.
"Youll make a good housewife one day Mike." Marcel grinned.
"Nah, he just likes getting in my Moms good books." I said.
We all stood there stretching, Lucas still hadnt let go of me. The whole time we spent getting up and stretching he made sure he was still touching me somewhere, either his hands were on me or he was leaning on me. But he liked being able to show how much we meant to each other. He stood behind me sliding his arms around me pulling me close and resting his chin on my shoulder. Mike would just look at us a bit funny, as if he was still trying to get used to the idea. Marcel didnt look like he gave a shit, which pleased me to no end.
The five of us made our way back to my place, not in any particular hurry. We would wander along, shuffling backwards and forwards between walking partners to talk to. Most of my time was spent with Lucas and Sarah. We talked about how things had changed, yet they hadnt really. Sure Lucas and I were together, Mike and Sarah were together. Marcel was still single, well well have to work on that wont we. But the pack overall was still together, and that mattered a lot. Mike spent most of his time hanging back with Marcel, which was really good to see. I think Mike was doing his best to make sure Marcel was ok, he even put his arm around him as we walked home. Marcel definitely enjoyed the attention he was getting. What a weird day its been, definitely one to remember.
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"Thanks Mom! That was deee lish." Mike said taking his dishes up.
"Yeah Mom, thanks!" Marcel piped in.
"Would you two shut up, shes MY MOM. Thanks MOM, that was the best." I said kissing her on the cheek and poking tongues at Mike and Marcel.
"Thanks Mrs M. Awesome as always." Lucas joined in.
"Dont listen to them Mrs M, theyre all suck ups." Sarah said giving her dish to Mike. "It was very yummy though."
"Thanks kids, I should know what to feed you by now. Its been what, 100 years since you guys started coming over for dinner?" Mom said laughing.
Mike started filling up the sink with warm water and dish wash "And well be here same time tomorrow too." Mike grinned.
Mom ushered me into the hallway, leaving everyone in the kitchen talking and cleaning up. She put her hands on my shoulders, usually a sign I was in trouble. Or she had something big to say, who could tell. "I want you to talk to your brother. Hes doing his homework right now but I want you to talk to him ok." She said.
"OooOH MOM, do I have to. He wont notice us." I whined.
"Notice? The boy already knows. Dont you think it was just a bit weird that Lucas always showed up right on time for breakfast. That and the noises coming out of your room so early in the morning. I could go on, but do I really need to. Come on were not thick here Daniel." She said, very sternly I might add.
Uh oh, she only called me Daniel when she was cross with me. Time to suck up "Oh, sorry Mom. Ill talk to him right now."
"Good. Im taking Marcel out for an Ice Cream and to talk. I think he needs it." She said.
"WHAT! I didnt get an Ice Cream. Your my Mom, not his Mom." I whined.
"Daniel. Stop it. Come on, you know I only treat them special because they need more help then you do." She said.
"I know, I know. Im just doing the mandatory bitch and moan. Thanks for helping him Mom." I sighed.
"Were going to go now. I want the house tidy. I want you to talk to Dade. And your homework done too Daniel Marcus." She said.
I nodded half heartedly, and you all thought my Mom was cool. Well she is, shes just not to be fucked with either. She kissed me on the forehead and yelled out to Marcel to go with her. Leaving me standing there sulking like the spoilt little shit that I tend to be sometimes. Lucas being the psychic dude that he is, must have sensed my little tantrum and wandered into the hallway. He put his arms on either side of me and held me trying to look me in the eye. "Whats wrong dude." He asked.
"Oh nothing, Im just being a selfish shit thats all." I said managing a little laugh.
"Wheres Marcel gone?" he asked.
"Moms taken him to have an Ice Cream and a chat. Shes doing the motherly thing with him. We didnt get an Ice Cream did we? its not fair." I laughed.
"Wow, lucky dude. Your Mom rules."
"Yeah, I know. Its her biggest flaw." I grinned. "Hey, I gotta go talk to Dade. He knows."
"What?" Lucas said surprised. "Is everyone in your family psychic or something."
"Perfect Breakfast timings? Loud noises in the morning? Probably from you climbing in and out of the window. And other things ..Ring a bell?" I asked sarcastically.
"Oooooh. Want me to come with you?" he asked.
"No, hes my brother. Ill talk to him." I said.
"You know you dont have to do everything yourself. I CAN help you know. I dont feel like Ive done anything." He said softly.
"Well, once Ive told Dade there wont be anyone else left. Apart from your Parents. I mean they still dont know were together, right?" I asked Lucas. He didnt say anything, he just did that little sheepish smile of his. "Oh, you didnt." I said whacking my head.
He started blushing a little "Dude, I couldnt help myself. I just wanted to shout it out and uhh they were there. Uuuhh So I shouted."
"When?" I asked in shock.
"Ummm you know, that day we had the picnic. I just couldnt hold it in man. I told them as soon as they got home." He said, flashing that smile again trying to make me melt.
"Ok ok. I wish you had of told me though. So, how did they take it? They havent had me killed yet, so it cant be that bad." I said.
"You really want to know what they said?" he said smiling.
"They said I was a bad influence on you. They said Id made you like guys and ruined you for life." He said smiling.
I started laughing "Oh damn, thats hilarious. YOU ruined ME? Oh boy, thats just thats a keeper." I laughed. "Ok Mr Bad Influence, get your ass back in the kitchen. Im going to talk to my brother, you know you ruined him too. Geez the horror of it all." I said sarcastically.
"Ok ok. Ill wait down here." He said. "But first, this is for luck."
He leaned in and kissed me softly and tenderly. A classic Lucas kiss that just sent me into orbit. Youd think I would have become immune to it by now. But no, those butterflies still flew around in my stomach. I wish I could make these kisses go slow motion, because they always seemed to end too quick. I wanted to be able to taste those strawberry lips, but alas my head was always too far in the clouds to think straight. He pulled away and I stood there blushing. "Uhh uuh thanks." I said nodding sheepishly.
I turned and headed up the stairs missing a step *doh* I said slapping myself on the head. I looked behind me and sure enough Lucas was still standing there smiling at my red face. "That was your fault, you should stop kissing me like that." I said rather embarrassed with a stupid smile on my face.
I ran up the stairs hiding my totally embarrassed face and not looking behind. I walked up to Dades door and took a few deep breaths. This was one of the people I was most nervous about. I mean, I knew Mom would support me no matter what. And I wasnt really too fussed about anyone else. But with Dade, hes my little brother. Well maybe not that little but still, I wasnt sure how hed handle it. He looks up to me so much, what will this do to him. Would he freak out and go crazy. Wait a minute, he already knows. He hasnt freaked out yet I suppose, so I might be in with a chance. This is when being a big brother totally sucks. I took in a few more deep breaths and plucked up the courage to knock on the door. Last person and then everyone who mattered would know.
"Dade. Can I come in please?" I asked
"Yeah." He replied.
I opened the door and walked in, wasnt doing his homework though. There he was, crunching himself an awesome pair of abs. I guess he wanted to take my spot as spunk of the school. I suppose I could handle that, now with me being taken and all.
"Dade, youre supposed to be doing your homework man." I said sitting down.
"Storm, I wanna be buff man. I got to live up to your reputation." He said carrying on.
"Ok thats it." I said pulling him up and sitting him down on the bed. "Whats up?"
"I dont know what youre talking about." He replied.
"Are you angry at me?" I asked softly. Dade looked at me grudgingly, he knew exactly what I was talking about.
"No. Im not angry." He replied quietly.
"Im sorry if it seems like I let you down."
"You didnt Storm. It doesnt matter to me. Youre still my bro." He said reassuringly. "But youre not making life any easier on yourself."
"Dont I know it. I just I just cant change it Dade." I confessed.
"Is he worth it?" Dade asked bluntly.
"And then some " I replied.
"You know Ive got your back. If anyone hassles you, they hassle me."
"Thanks bud. Its good to know Ive got your support." I said smiling. "Wait a minute. Im the big brother. Arent I supposed to give you these speeches?"
"Youre not that much older Storm. And you might want to get that speech ready because.. I have something to tell you too." He said nervously.
"You do? Well come on, spit it out." I said in curious trepidation.
"Well lets put it like this I think Marcel is a babe."
I looked at him wide eyed and gasping, it couldnt be. Id heard it was genetic, but I thought that was just a rumor. He couldnt be, It was just too out there. Mom is going to freak. "Holy Shit" I gasped.
"PSYCHE!!" He laughed.
"Oh you fucken punk." I yelled jumping at him.
We started wrestling around, hes a tough shit Ill give him that much. We threw each other around for a bit, slamming into the walls and everything else. In the end though, the mighty Storm Crippler was too much. "Dont ever do that again." I gasped.
"Ok ok. Lemme go, lemme go." He pleaded.
I let him up, and he sat back down on the bed. Well, I couldnt believe it. Everybody that mattered knew Lucas and I were together, and none of them had us killed. So I would say that was a pretty successful coming out. Perhaps now Lucas and I could really have some time together. I noticed Dade going back to do his crunches, time for the master to teach the student how its done.
"Ok, now let me show you how you REALLY do a crunch."
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"What a day" I yawned.
"Ill say. But, at least everyone knows now." Lucas said.
We both lay on my bed staring at the ceiling. Lucas being the guy that had to always be touching me somewhere, rested his hand on my own. I think he wanted to snuggle up but I really liked living, and I know if Mom walked in I wouldnt be much longer. "Do you think it was worth it?" I asked him.
"Whats that supposed to mean?" he asked turning toward me.
Oops, was that not the right thing to say? "I mean, what if we broke up tomorrow. Or even next week. All this strife would have been for nothing."
"Well fuck youre optimistic arent you." Lucas said angrily.
"Dont swear at me. Im just asking. I mean its going to be hard." I said calmly.
"Ok ok. Im sorry. But weve been through this Storm, Im in it for the long run." Lucas said trying to calm down.
"Look Lucas, dont be angry at me. Im just saying, its going to be really hard. I mean look how hard it is even for us to just be together."
Lucas wrapped his arms around me, leaning his face against the side of mine. Kissing my cheek softly, he whispered "Storm. The only way we will ever break up, is if you dump me. And if you ever plan on doing that, remember to kill me before you do. Itll be much less painful."
"Dont start. Youre gonna make me cry." I gulped.
"Its true." He whispered.
"Oh ya fucken prick. You had to say it, didnt you." I said wiping my eyes. I turned and punched him in the arm. Yeah I know what youre saying, violence never solves anything. Still I dont like crying unless absolutely necessary, and it was not absolutely necessary. Therefore he deserved a punch.
"Ow, what was that for." He said rubbing his arm.
"For making me cry." I said. I leant in towards him "Would you hold me please." I whispered.
"You dont even have to ask." He said pulling me into a warm embrace.
I just wanted to be held, to know that we had finally made it. Now we could just focus on us, instead of them. "You know I love you, right?" I asked, my eyes still teary.
"Lucas, I cant believe we finally made it. Sometimes I have to hit myself to realize you actually love me. I just cant believe how lucky I am to have you. I get this nagging feeling in my heart that tells me its too good to be true. That one day Ill wake up, and you wont be there." I said burying my face in his warmth. "I wish you could just hold me forever."
I held myself closer to him, making sure I was getting as much of his warmth as I could. I cried myself a stream, drenching Lucas jersey. He just held me closer, gently soothing me with his touch. Stroking my hair and face, whispering I love you. I think if I had of held on any tighter I would have choked him. I just couldnt believe how far wed come. Stress was such a big part of today, I had to let it out. And the final realization of Lucas and I being a couple. "Lucas, I love you." I cried. "So much, please dont ever doubt it."
"I wont, I know you love me. Now stop it before you make me start crying." He said
"I just dont think you know how much. I try not to expose myself. I try not to let people see what Im really feeling because Im scared they might hurt me. I mean, I try to act cool about it. But thats only because Im scared you wont love me as much as I love you. Im scared if I open up too much youll reject me. Thats why I keep distance from you emotionally and dont well dont do what Im doing right now. Pouring my heart out."
"Storm, you have to open up to me. Im not going to reject you because you love me so much. That just makes me even more happier. Do you know what it means to me that you actually love me? Ahh fuck, fuck it Im going to cry." He sobbed. "Storm, please dont think Im going to hurt you or reject you. I know thats why you put a little wall between us, just in case. And you know it hurts me to think that you dont feel you can trust me enough to open up. You think youre going to scare me off because you love me so much? Youll make me cry thats for sure, but you wont scare me off."
I pulled myself away from him and sat up Indian style on the bed. I pulled him up and he sat facing me. I tried to wipe some more tears from me and then gave up. I was crying a Storm, no pun intended. And I couldnt be bothered trying to stop it now. I held his hand in mine, feeling his skin as if it were the most valuable treasure in the world. His face drew itself to my hand as I touched his face, slowly feeling every tear covered cheek. I held his hand tightly in my own and looked him in the eye, trying to stop myself from breaking down any further. "Ok Lucas. I love you so much I cant stand being apart from you. I want to be with you every single minute Im alive. I love you so much that I cant picture my life without you. I think, no thats wrong. I KNOW that if I had to choose, Id want to be the first of us to die, because I cant imagine me being here without you next to me. I know that sounds extreme, but its how I feel. Its how much I love you. Lucas, Id Id die for you. Now do you know how much I love you?" I said crying.
Lucas didnt say anything, he just sat there sobbing and crying. He pulled his hand away using them to try and wipe the tears out and hide his face. He held his head in his hands and kept crying. Hed try and look me in the eyes and his face was racked with tears, and he just wouldnt stop. I started to think maybe there was something wrong. He was visibly sobbing, not just crying but sobbing. I put my hand on his shoulder and pulled him to me. He grabbed onto me and hugged me so tight, crying into my shoulder. I held him close, rubbing his back. When I tried to pull him away to look in his eyes he grabbed hold of me even tighter not wanting to let go. I couldnt believe how much he was crying. I rocked him gently trying to soothe him, holding him as tight as I could. "I cant believe you love me that much, how did I get so lucky. What did I do to deserve someone like you Storm? You are just the best thing I could ever have or want in life. I cant believe how lucky I am to have you. Youre everything to me. I cant believe I could ever have someone who loves me as much as you do. You just dont know what a big piece of me you are. I love you just doesnt seem to do justice to you. Its not big enough. You just you just totally rock me."
"Now youve seen me. Youve seen how much I need you. Youve seen how vulnerable I am. Do you still want to be with me?" I gulped.
"Dont. Dont do that to me Storm. You kill me a little inside every time you doubt how much I love you. Please dont do that to me. It hurts me so much when you think I dont love you or you doubt that I want to be with you..." He said shaking a little.
"Im sorry, I just doubt myself so much. And I just dont get that someone as awesome as you would want to be with me. I just dont get it. But I wont complain." I said.
"See, youre doing it again. I am NOT better than you ok. You are not some freak, youre special. Were the same. We need each other. We both think the other person is totally way awesomer, thats how much we love each other. Now today was a good day. We made a lot of progress. Were gonna make it Storm, were gonna make it." He said reassuringly.
I angel kissed him gently on the lips. "I love you. And youre right, today was a good day. It was the first day we had as a couple, a real couple. Everyone knows about us now. We dont have to hide from them. Now we get to spend a little time on ourselves. No more worrying about them. Its all about us from now on. You and I." I said kissing him again.
We lay back on the bed and I lay on top of him, resting my head on his heart. I pulled the blanket over us, I didnt care if Mom came in now. Besides, we werent doing anything. We were just holding each other. I just needed to be with him, I couldnt let him go now. I dont think I could have handled him going home and leaving me. I snuggled up to him, holding him close. I listened to the sound of his heart beating, and knew that he loved me. If peace and contentment had a moment, this was it. Tomorrow would be the first day of the rest of our lives together.
"Just you and I." He whispered.
"Just you and I" I whispered back.
"I love you."
"I love you."
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Well that was Chapter 7, a bit of a mellower chapter, I hope you liked it. It was actually a totally different variation on what I had originally planned. I had intended something a bit different but that will come a bit later on, I think there were too many loose ends to tie up. Chapter 8 will be here about the same time next week if not earlier.
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