Chapter 1

He had said those words that I had least expected to hear and to which I had no reply. He tried to look into my eyes for some response but I just looked away. I stared dumbly over his shoulder at the rain falling down. He looked nervously down at his shoes. I realized that I was in no way ready to deal with this. I had to get away.

"I have to go" I replied breaking the long awkward silence.

He just looked at me and said nothing. I felt uneasy but I realized I had to at least say something. I also had to be careful.

"I don't know, I just don't know" I replied slowly.

"I understand," he said softly.

I couldn't take it any longer. I turned around and walked out into the rain towards my car. I got in my car and sat for a few minutes. He was still standing in front of his house staring off. I started the car and slowly backed out of the driveway. I left him there standing by himself all alone, lost and vulnerable.

We had been in the same circle of friends since ninth grade but we never used to really hang out together. All I knew about him was that he was cool guy and some of the girls found him attractive. When he had started to spend more time hanging out with just me, I didn't make much of it. He was a nice, funny guy and I can't say that I didn't have fun going to the movies or hanging out at his house. However, I had never expected something like tonight to happen.

I had never expected that Zac Anderson would have confessed to having feelings for me.

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