Tales from another broken home.
Chapter 18: The truths a bitch.
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Don't stray Don't ever go away,
I should be much too smart for this,
You know it get's the better of me,

Say you'll stay,
Don't come and go,
like you do.

From "Sway" By Bic Runga

I didn't sleep that night. I couldn't stop thinking about what I had done. I felt a guilt deep inside of me and I wasn't sure what to do about it. If I confessed everything to Ryan he might leave me and I couldn't cope with that. As I listened to my thoughts I realised how selfish I was being. I was still thinking only of myself and how this would effect me not about how much it could hurt Ryan. I couldn't stand myself. I loved Ryan so much and I can't even explain why I did that with Jake.

I had the usual morning: wake up, breakfast, Carries house, school. When Carrie's Mam pulled up at the school I saw Ryan and Jake talking. When he saw me Ryan came running over.

"Riley dude, Jake said we could go get another piercing tomorrow" he beamed.

"I dont know man I'm not in the mood." I said with guilt surging through my body.

How could I face Ryan after betraying him the way I had.

"Come on we haven't done anything together in ages." Ryan pleaded.

"Ok, ok I'll go" I laughed.

"I love you so much man" Ryan whispered in my ear.

It was then and there I decided that I wasn't going to tell him what happened. I knew it was selfish but I didn't want to hurt him. I still really loved him and I was going to tell Jake that what had happened was a mistake. I knew our friendship would never be the same but if I had to make a choice I knew I'd choose Ryan everytime.

The next 3 classes flew by and at break I asked Jake if we could talk in private.

"Em Jake, about last night man....."I stuttered.

"What about it man?" Jake asked.

"It was a mistake dude, I'm with Ryan and I love him and we can't do that ever again." I blurted.

"Ok I suppose." Jake smiled seeming totally unphased.

"You won't tell Ryan will you" I asked

"No man it's our secret" Jake smiled.

The day flew after that and I was packing up to go home when I realised I had a guitar lesson. I made my way to the music room and Kirk was already there.

"Ok man ready to get started." Kirk smiled.

"Em I kinda forgot my guitar." I stuttered feeling stupid.

"Thats ok dude I've got 2." Kirk said handing me a guitar.

I spent the next hour learning the basic guitar chords. By the end of the lesson I could play some stupid little songs but Kirk said I was picking it up really quick. I walked home and when I got there Ryan was waiting for me.

"Hey Ri." He beamed.

"Hey Man whats up?" I asked nervously.

"I haven't had any of your loving in so long its driving me crazy." Ryan laughed.

"Is this a booty call?" I smiled raising my eyebrow.

"Yeah man this is definitely a booty call." Ryan laughed.

I opened the door and Ryan followed me in.

"Man you excited about the piercing?" Ryan beamed.

"Yeah it should be cool man" I replied quickly as we ran up the stairs.

Tonight was going to be the night of Ryan's life. I would use everything I knew to pleasure him like he had never been pleasured before.

When we got into the bedroom I pushed Ryan onto the bed and climbed on top of him. Arching forwards and kissing him softly on the lips. I began to bite gently on his lower lip slowly moving my tongue into Ryan's eager mouth. I moved my body against his as I swirled my tongue around his.

"Ohhhh, ohhh God keep going" Ryan moaned.

I unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off. I began to kiss my way down his neck and chest. I felt his chest tighten and I could feel it rise and fall as he took short gasping breaths. I gently started to guide my tongue down his warm smooth chest. I could taste his sweat as it dripped downwards. I loved Ryan's taste and I licked it up off him. I moved my tongue down to his pierced nipple and began to lick gently at the soft tender pink lumps. His nipples instantly grew hard and the cool steel of the piercing pushed against my tongue. I slowly ran my tongue along the piercing licking and gently sucking on it.

Ryan moaned gently squirming with pleasure as I moved down licking his smooth abs. I came down to his outy bellybutton and began to lick at it running my tongue over the smooth surface. I ran my hands along Ryans abs feeling and stroking every inch of them. Ryan was now moaning constantly the pleasure building. I moved my hands onto his crotch and began to trace the outline of his hard cock with my finger watching it become harder as I stroked. I pulled Ryans jeans off and took his boxers down to his ankles. I grabbed his cock and began to jerk him off in a slow fluid motion. Ryan gasped as I touched him. I stroked up and down then sat on top of his hard member grinding my pelvis against it untill Ryan came hard on the front of my pants.

Ryan lay back panting and motioned for me to come closer to him. When I got there he pulled me close and hugged me as he panted.

"Oh man that was so good Riley. What did I do to deserve that?" Ryan questioned.

"It's just for being the best boyfriend in the world." I beamed.

Ryan lay back and smiled flashing his perfect gleaming smile.

"Riley would you get naked I love looking at your body" Ryan asked innocently.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Just take off all your clothes and lie here with me" Ryan said with his cute puppy dog eyes.

He pulled out his secret weapon how could I say no when he used those eyes on me.

"Ok man" I said and I began to get undressed.

I took off all my clothes and lay next to Ryan completely exposed.

"Riley your so beautiful" Ryan said smiling.

On the outside I was smiling but on the inside I couldn't stop thinking of how I had betrayed the hottest, sweetest, most loving boyfriend ever. Ryan loved every inch of me and I betrayed him for what? A quick lay with Jake. As I lay there I felt terrible.

"Riley you think we'll be together forever" Ryan asked with the cutest look on his face.

"I know we will man" I smiled and I held him tight.

I spent the next hour just holding Ryan but then it hit 8pm and Ryan had to go and I had homework to do. I spent the night writing another English report and then I had an art project to start and some maths to do aswell as guitar practice. I didn't get to bed till 12 and I was exhausted after the previous sleepless night. I still felt guilty but I was so tired I fell asleep the moment my head hit the pillow.

I woke up the next morning and turned to see my alarm clock said 11am.

"Oh your awake." My Mam smiled.

"Whats going on." I asked feeling hot and dizzy.

"Don't worry Baby. When I tried to wake you up this morning you wouldn't budge and you seem to have a temperature. I'm pretty sure your sick baby." she said sitting down next to me and hugging me tightly.

"But don't worry I'm here to take care of you." My Mam beamed.

I felt really terrible and spent the day lying in bed watching DVD's at 6 Ryan and Carrie came over with Jake.

"You guys can only stay a little while he's not doing too well." I heard my Mam saying to Ryan.

"Hey Riley" Jake and Carrie smiled.

"Hey hot stuff" Ryan laughed kissing me.

"Huh Man Jake's here" I said not knowing what was going on.

Had Jake told Ryan. No that couldn't be it Ryan was happy to see me.

"I hope you don't mind Riley but I told Jake about us. He's totally cool with it man." Ryan beamed.

"Yeah I'm cool with it" Jake said winking at me.

"Oh and I've postponed the piercing we can get it done on Saturday instead."

"Oh cool" I smiled weakly.

"Ok you guys he needs to rest" My Mam smiled ushering everyone from the room.

Ten minutes later she sat in my bed with me and we had lunch together. I didn't eat anything but it was nice sitting there talking.

"Guess what honey Mike's coming home tonight." My Mam beamed.

"He's worried about you honey and he says he'll see you tonight."

"Thats nic....." I began but before I could finish the sentence I drifted off to sleep.

When I woke up it was dark outside and I felt really hot. I could feel the sweat dripping off my face. I started calling for my Mam when Mike ran into the room.

"Hey there Riley. How ya doing Buddy." Mike smiled.

"Mike I'm really hot. I'm way too hot." I panted feeling weak.

Mike put his palm on my forehead.

"Jesus christ" he muttered and he ran from the room.

Seconds later my Mam was in with me putting wet washcloths on my head. The cold water felt great against my roasting hot skin. I felt like I was going to explode.

Mike walked into the room "The Doctors on her way." he said nervously.

Mike walked over and put his palm on my forehead again.

"Jesus Christ he's burning up." Mike said quietly to my Mam.

I felt my self drift back to sleep and when I awoke there was a short woman with blond hair.

"Hello Riley I'm Dr.Grayson. Can you tell me how your feeling" she said calmly.

"I feel hot" I gasped.

"Could you get me some towels Ms.James." the Doctor called to my Mam.

"Ok young man were just going to remove your shirt." she said as she started pulling my tshirt over my head.

I struggled trying to keep it on my Mam couldn't see the piercing. The Doctor pulled my shirt off and Mike stared at my pierced nipple.

"Jesus fucking Christ." Mike said in surprise.

"What's wrong" I heard my Mam calling.

"Oh nothing em she wants to be alone with Riley isn't that right Doctor" Mike said winking at the doctor.

"Em Yes it would be better if I was left alone to figure out whats wrong with him." The Doctor said thinking well on the spot.

The Doctor pulled out a needle and rolled me over injecting me right in my butt. I groaned for a second and then felt my temperature go down a little. It was still unbearably hot but it was a little better then it had been.

"Ok your temp will lower to a normal level by tomorrow morning." The Doctor smiled.

"Oh and take this" She said handing me a tablet.

I took the tablet and before I knew it I was out like a light.