Tales from another broken home.

Trouble, Oh Trouble set me free.
I've seen your face and it's too much, too much for me.
Trouble, Oh Trouble can't you see.
I've given my heart away and there's nothing much left of me.
I drunk your wine, you made your world mine, So won't you be fair, so wont you be fair.
I don't want no more of you, so you wont you be kind to me, Just let me go where, I have to go there.
Trouble, Oh Trouble move away.
I've seen your face and it's too much for me today.
Trouble, Oh Trouble can't you see.
You have made me a wreck, now won't you leave me in my misery.

From "Trouble" By Elliot Smith.

I walked to Carrie's with Matt's hand in mine. Most people knew I was gay now. Ever since someone had spotted me with Aaron, it had seemed to be the biggest scandal to have hit the school in years. Most people were cool with it, some had even come up and told me how brave I was to be open like this. It was kinda funny cuz I really would never have come out publicly, but being caught did away with all the hard work of telling people. I loved the sense of freedom people knowing gave me. I was a lot more content with myself, at least happier then I had been for the last few weeks. Matt had been my reason for getting up for the last few days. His love and support was keeping me going. As we walked together I stared at him. He was gorgeous in every way from his cute button nose, to his piercing green eyes.

It was now well into winter and things were getting cold, well as cold as it got in California. You could still notice the change though, there was more rain, the days were getting shorter. All these songs you hear about moving away from the winter don't realise that it comes to get you no matter where you are. I was wearing a fake army jacket and a warm beanie and as we stepped along the cracked pavement little drips of rain darkened its dusty grey colour. The walk to Carrie's took longer then it should have, we both got a little bit distracted by each other which slowed down the pace of our walk. When we finally got there Carrie was talking to Ryan in her doorway.

"Shit. Come on dude let's call back some other time."

"Why? What's wrong?"

I was about to explain when Ryan's head turned and smiled at me.

"Hey Ri, long time no see huh?"

"Em I guess so dude." I smiled as Ryan pulled me into a tight hug.

"You doin ok?" Ryan whispered into my ear.

I nodded a response.

"Who's this?"

"Em Ryan, this is Matt. Em...We're kinda goin out."

Ryan shook Matt's hand warmly "Take good care of him Matt. He's a keeper."

I walked towards Carrie and she gripped me in a warm hug. "He's not doing to well." She smiled weakly.

"What's wrong with him?"

"I think that's pretty obvious." Carrie said in a mildly angry tone. "He's known about Matt for a while but he didn't hear it from you."

"I was gonna tell him. I just wasn't sure how."

"I guess I'll accept that for the moment. Now bring Matt in and introduce him before he dies of the cold."

"Matt...Carrie, Carrie.....Matt."

"Hi." Matt half-smiled.

"I'm not angry with you Matt. I just amn't to keen on Riley's way of treating his ex."

"Look I was gonna tell him ok!"

"When?"

"When the time was right ok?"

"When would that be?"

"Come on guys don't argue." Matt pleaded.

"I'm sorry dude. I didn't want you to get dragged into this."

I hugged Matt tightly and kissed him softly on his increasingly red lips.

"Yeah I'm sorry too Matt." Carrie smiled putting a hand on his shoulder. "Look come in and let's start over."

We spent the afternoon in Carrie's talking about music, movies and the fast approaching Christmas holidays. I sat next to Matt and left my hand draped gently over his shoulder. Carrie could see how happy we were together and layed off me pretty quickly. When Matt went to the bathroom she hopped over next to me.

"He's really cute Riley."

"Yeah he's a keeper alright."

"Ryan's not doing so good. He misses you a lot."

"I think we both need a break from each other Carrie. We both have stuff to think about and I'm enjoying my time with Matt."

We spent awhile longer watching t.v. before leaving. On the way home I put my arm around Matt's waist but he pulled away.

"Hey." I smiled trying again.

"Am I just filling your time till you get back with Ryan?"

"What man? Why would you think that?"

"I overheard you talking with Carrie. Am I just here to occupy you during your time apart from Ryan or is this a real relationship."

"This is......" I pulled Matt close to me and kissed him. "Is as real as a relationship can be." As much as I wanted to I wasn't sure if I believed my own words.

"I'm sorry, I was just freaking out cuz I like you so much."

"Your so cute Matt. How could I not want to be with you?"

Matt blushed. He didn't have very much confidence but this made him all the more attractive to me.

"My house is free. Why don't you call over later tonight?"

"Ok." I smiled. "I have to go home and get some dinner so I'll be an hour or two."

When I got home, my Mam and Mike were both sitting in the sittingroom staring at the screen of his laptop.

"What you guys doing?"

"Booking flights baby."

"For what?"

"Well Mike was hoping we'd spend Christmas with his family in Boston."

"Oh I guess that's cool."

I had planned on spending the Christmas holidays between Matt and Carrie's houses and was hoping to have figured things out with Ryan by that stage.

"Yeah it'll be cool Riley. I have a bunch of nephews around your age and there'll be snow and stuff."

"Yeah it'll be a blast."

I threw a pizza in the microwave and we sliced it up in the sittingroom. It was a relaxed dinner and I almost forgot I had promised to call in on Matt. When I checked my watch I hopped up and ran down the street to his house. I went in the usual way through his always unlocked back door.

"Matt.." As I walked into his room I saw him lying there asleep on his bed which he had surrounded with candles.

I lay down next to him. "Hey there sleepy."

"Oh Riley. I guess I must've dozed off."

"What's all this." I smiled nodding at the candles.

"I kinda wanted it to be romantic." Matt blushed. "I even got the good pillows from my Mam's room."

"Well I guess we need to make it a special night."

"Really.."

"Yeah definitely."

I hopped onto the bed and pulled Matt's shirt over his head. His taught abs and hard nipples had me hard in a matter of seconds. I plunged my tongue deeply into his throat and began to swirl it around his as we lay together on the bed. Matt began to unbutton my pants and before I knew it my boxers were sliding down my legs. I felt Matt's moist lips slip over my cock and then my entire body tensed as he began to lick at its head and down the shaft. I began to surge my body forward fucking his mouth. Matt lifted his head as I shot a thick load some of which landed on his face. I pulled my shirt off and undid Matt's belt. I unbuttoned his shorts and slid them down. He was wearing the cutest pair of plaid boxers and I stared at him for a moment before I went any further. His skinny yet muscular frame with his pale skin and crazy emo hair which from the pubes I could see jutting out from under his boxers was not naturally black.

Matt smiled at me as I stared.

"What you thinkin bout?"

"How cute you are." I smiled.

I pulled down his boxers and his cock sprung outwards as I grabbed onto it. I began to pump it with my fist before I licked my way down his abdomen licking at the base of his shaft and making my way downwards to its very tip. I felt Matt shudder in my arms as I licked away at him. I took his whole cock in my mouth and began to suck on it. Matt's body arched upwards and his eyes flickered as I continued and I felt him jolt hard from his hips as he shot a small load into my mouth. Matt put an arm over my chest as he panted.

"Man that was so good."

"Thanks." I smiled.

"Can we try...you know...anal?"

"I guess we can do a little but it could hurt at first."

"I don't care I want to do it with you."

I put Matt on his knees and hands like a dog and wrapped an arm around his waist.

"You ready?"

"Yeah."

I lubed up a finger and gently entered Matt with it.

I felt him tense around it and after a little while his muscles loosened up and I could move around a little. I could hear him moaning untill he had a dry but intense orgasm.