Life can be a surprising thing. I would never believe that I would be
hanging out with the one guy I've had a crush on since middle school.
It's real and it's happening. I could barely eat my dinner.
I was contemplating on whether I should call him or text him, or if I should
wait to hear from him. The pressure and anxiety were unbearable. So I
decided to make the first move.
Hey bill. We still hangin out? (send)
The wait was killing me. I should be doing my dang homework. What am I
thinking? So I pull out my book bag and start to work on my pre-cal homework.
That was useless, I still couldn't concentrate anyways.
My phone buzzed, letting me know I received a text message. I flip open my
phone and read the response.
Hey Rog! Of course dude! I'll see you around 8? :)
How should I respond? I don't want to sound too excited or needy or anything.
Sounds good. I'll see you there. (send)
I looked at the clock on my phone and realized it was 6:30. This hour and a
half wait is going to kill me. I try, yet again, to focus on my homework. It was
easier this time. My mind easily wonders.
The next thing I knew it was 7:50 and I jump from my desk. My heart was beating
so fast. I was freaking out. I should have showered! Cleaned myself up. Something!
What if we..... do something tonight. What am I thinking? He's not even gay! Get your
mind out of the gutter. He just wants to hang out. That's all.
I decided to change my outfit really fast into something sexy but casual. I'm driving down
the road to his house, not realizing I've past it 5 times. Me and my wondering mind.
Focus Roger, focus! Get a grip. You don't want him thinking your a bumbling fool.
I park in front of his house and wearily get out of my truck. I feel like my legs have
a mind of their own because the next thing I knew I was outside his door. Just
staring at it. Come on roger, push the door bell. Why can't I do anything??
Before I could regain my bodily functions, the door opens. There's bill standing there
in all his hunky glory. The light from inside his house was giving him a glow. He's
"Ahh! Oh, hey man. It's you. You scared me! How long have you been standing
there like that?"
"Umm, I just got here. I was fixing to ring the doorbell."
"Oh ok. You're late! It's not nice to keep people waiting." He winks. "Come in.
This is my home."
"It's really nice." Come on feet, work! My feet begin to move. Success!
"Thanks. All the credit goes to my mom. She's quite the decorator."
We walk into this magnificent living room with tons of family pictures hanging
everywhere. This is a really nice home.
"Is she here? So I can compliment her on her wonderful taste and skills."
"Nah, my parents are out of town for a few days. Business stuff."
"Oh. So we're alone? That's cool. I love it when my parents go out of town. I
Just love being home alone. I can do whatever I want."
"My parents go out of town a lot. I used to like it, but now I get really lonely.
I'm really glad you could come over. You'll keep me from going crazy. haha."
"Oh that sucks. Well you're screwed buddy. I have a tendency to make people
go crazy. You're a lot better off being alone than being with me." I laugh at
my stupid joke.
"Haha. I'll take my chances with you."
We just stare at each other for a while. It was beginning to become awkward so
I decide to break the silence. I look away.
"So. What movie are we gonna watch?"
"I was thinking we could just talk. If that's ok with you."
"That's cool. What do you want to talk about?"
"Anything. I just want to get to know you better."
"Um, ok. What do you want to know? Ask me anything." Shoot. Maybe I shouldn't
have said that.
"Anything huh? Are you sure you want to open that much of a wide field? I'm
"Well let's just say I'll answer what I can."
Bill begins to scoot over just a little closer. My heart begins to race. What if
he asks me if I'm gay. What do I say?
"Do you like me Roger?" He asks.
"Of course dude, you're a cool guy!"
"How much do you like me?" He brings his head down and then looks up at
me with only his eyes. He's really serious about this. I can't tell him I'm
practically in love with him. It would ruin everything.
"A lot? You're a good friend to me. I don't have very many of those."
"Just as a friend though?"
I wanted to say no. Confess my true feelings, but what if this was a trick. I
would be humiliated.
"What else were you expecting?"
What was he expecting? I couldn't understand what his motives were.
"Nothing, I just -" He looks away.
"What's wrong? You can tell me." He looks back at me with tears in his eyes.
"It's just that, I really like you roger. I've had feelings for you for the longest
All I could do was stare at him. Who knows what my face must look like right now.
Before I could muster up any ounce of courage to say anything, he gets up
and walks to his room.
I follow him, hoping I didn't hurt his feelings by my silence.
"Hey wait" I reach for his shoulder to turn him around, but he shrugs it off and
keeps walking. "Look I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I'm just shocked!"
He stops walking but doesn't turn around "Well it's ok if you don't want to be
friends with me now. I understand."
"What are you talking about?! I like you too can't you see? I've been crushing
on you since middle school! I'm just - wow - surprised that you have feelings
for me as well."
Before I could say anything else he turns around in just a hurry and approaches
me with intensity. His eyes filled with love and happiness. He grabs my shoulders
and lightly shoves me to the way. All I could do was stare back. I wanted him
as much as he wanted me.
He leans in closer, only inches from my face. He lets out a cool breath. His
scent is such a turn on. His lips were searching mine, slowly at first, but it
intensified after a while.
Our lips were moving at such a fast pace but still in sequence with each other,
almost as if our lips were made for each other. I had to pull away to catch
"You know, this is my first kiss" I say.
"Well, you're doing a mighty fine job, you just need to remember to breathe so
we don't have to stop anymore."
Our intense kissing resumed. His lips moved down to my jaw line. Kissing along
its line. He moves down under my chin and then down to my throat, sending
chills down my spine. Oh how I've been waiting for this day!
My phone begins to vibrate, but I ignore it. I didn't want anything to interrupt this.
He begins to take my shirt off and throws it to the floor. He kisses down the middle
of my chest till he gets to my bellybutton then moves back up and nibbles on
my nipples, sending an intense pleasure all through my body.
My phone begins to vibrate again.
"Shoot! I think my mom's calling." I take the phone out of my pocket while bill is
still worshipping my body. I check the caller ID and sure enough it's my mom.
"Roger, do you realize what time it is? You need to get home NOW."
"Ok sorry. I'll be there soon."
I hang up the phone.
"You're not going anywhere, I'm not done with you yet." Bill says.
"I'm sorry, but if we want the option to do this again, I'm going to have to go
so my mom doesn't ground me."
I put my shirt back on and head towards the front door. As I open the door, Bill
grabs me, turns me around and gives me another kiss. This time, it was more
loving and compassionate.
"I'll be thinking about you" he says.
"As will I. Probably more than you though."
"I doubt that."
Another peck and I'm on my way.
"Bye babe" he says.
"Bye love. I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too."
As I drive home, I couldn't help but dream about what else would have happened
tonight. Probably nothing too far. I'm still not ready for that. I'm excited for what
this new school year has to bring!
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