Tim White
Chapter 17?


Cody Called and talked to Josh for a while. Good thing to. I was really starting to get annoyed with Josh asking when he was going to call. After a while, Josh was got tired. He went to bed and I took the phone. I asked him how everything went. He told me what all happened. I told him that I was sorry. I told him that our door will always be open to him.

Cody took me up on that offer. More than once in fact. They were not short stays either. Weeks or maybe even months at a time. I wish I could tell you that Cody’s family came to their senses. But they didn’t, have still have not. After graduation, his parents kicked him out of the house, and he was forced to find a place to live. I offered a place, but he didn’t want to take it. So he found an apartment.

Cody now lives with me and Zach. His boy friend does as well. He came out as a bisexual, in the summer of 09. He is dating a very good friend of ours. We couldn’t be happier that they are in love. This friend I will name Tyler. We met him at a party and he hasn’t been able to get rid of us since. It’s good that he now has a steady partner. He didn’t before. Now he has someone that cares for him deeply.

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Josh is growing up to be a very handsome young man. Dad still treats him like a baby but I treat him his age. Weather he likes it or not. I know that his growing up. I help him as much as I can. I help him understand the things that he is too embarrassed to talk to dad about.

I love my brother. I love him more than words can tell. As much as I love my life and where I am, I hope and yes even pray that he is not gay. I don’t want him to have a chance to go through the same hell that I went through. But if he is, then I will protect him. So will my family and my friends.

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Dad is getting married in August. We are flying to Jamaica for a destination wedding. He is getting married to an angel. She is great. She doesn’t have any kids of her own so she will adopt my brother and me.

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Zach. What can I say? He is the love of my life. The person I can’t be without. To me he is the sun in the day and the moon at night. He is my everything. He is everything that I’m not. He’s confident where I’m not so sure. He’s strong where I am weak. He is brave where I cower. Me and him are night and day. But yet we are the same.

I can’t tell you how many time’s I have been told that people wish to find someone like me or like Zach. To tell you the truth, no you don’t. To live with someone like me or like Zach, and you would lose all your hair. To anyone else, we are crazy. The couples we know have told us there is no way they could handle us. Don’t wish for the love we share. Find you own and make it your own.

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Me. I wish I could tell you that the rest of school was great. I can tell you that, but then I would be lying. The people who we considered friend turned on us when someone had the balls to fight us. But whatever.

Zach and I are still planning the wedding. We don’t know when and we don’t know where. But Cody is my best man, and Tyler is Zach’s. There has just been so much that we haven’t spent that much time on it. But we will soon.

We have a baby on the way. A baby boy. He is due in January.  We can not wait. We have been talking about moving. Moving  somewhere where people are more excepting. If there is such a place. I don’t want my son to grow up in a place where me stepping outside my own house is crime again humanity. I know what people are going to say. So that is another thing on the plate.

The Break that took was in part caused by my dad’s bride to be. She asked me to call her mom. I wanted to. But before I could, I had to put mine to rest in my heart. I have lived some of the toughest years of my life without the guidance of a mother. Now I can have that again. Now Josh can have that. She can never take my mom’s place, but she fills the void I had.

With that I Bid you farewell. I have thought about this long and hard. I have brought to light many things that I never thought to reveal to anyone. I cried while writing each of the 17 chapters. Not every detail was 100% accurate. The sexual encounters mostly. I wrote those because I thought that’s what would get more people to read.

Here I end this book of my life. I close with if the fears of my past. With it lay to rest my mother and the heart ache I had over her. I lay to rest my best friend, once lost then found again. I lock away a cruel and hateful side that none of you knew.

With this close I open a new book. With it comes new and rekindled love. With this comes a new life, born to a loving home. With this, a family is whole again. With this book, new and great people have entered my life.

I want to thank you all. The ones that Just read and never commented. The ones that have kept me late at night. The ones that have made me laugh and the ones that have made me cry. I love each and everyone one of you. More then you know.

To one individual, I take you name and give it to my son. Because you have touch my heart, my mind, and my soul. You did this without even know it. But you have left a great mark on each of those things. You I call brother, and you in return call me the same. I love you……………

Good Bye.

I will continue to write The Tide Began to Rise. But this story has come to an end. I know one day it would come, but what I didn’t know was how much I would cry about it. TimWhitestory@yahoo.com. http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?t=267140 …….. /nifty/gay/highschool/the-tide-began-to-rise/