Date: Sun, 09 May 2004 11:20:14 -0700
From: Bryan Asuncion <thekeensingingfoolforyou@hotmail.com>
Subject: Track Star part 6

Track Star part 6

DISCLAIMER: All characters and events are totally fictional, any resemblence
to anything and anyone is purely coincidental.

Enjoy!


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Gavin and I were sitting at the tables in the cafeteria, I told him all the
details about the night of the party. He almost choked on his hamburger.

"Dude that's pretty fucked up, if he says he loves you then goes off and
screws a girl...what was he thinking?"

"I don't know, I don't know what to think. The both of them were pretty
drunk...I dunno."

He reached over and grabbed my hand and told me that it'll all blow over and
that Tyler and I can work it out. Him touching me sent chills down my spine,
the only other guy that gave me the same feeling was Tyler. I quickly pulled
my hand back.

"I don't want to lose him Gavin..."

"It's ok Bryan, I think that you should go back down this weekend to talk to
the both of them."

"I can't face them, not now. I still feel hurt, I don't know what I did to
cause this." He again reached for my hand, this time I didn't pull back. He
started rubbing my hand.

"Why do you think it's your fault?" He looked into my eyes, his green
eyes...so majestic, I just lost my train of thought right there.

"I...I don't think that Im showing enough love towards him. He's always been
there for me and maybe I wasn't there enough for him and so he had to find
it elsewhere." My comment stung, like I added salt to an already open wound,
suddenly I finally broke down and cried.

"Hey, Bryan don't cry." He put his hand to my face and wiped off my tears,
feeling his warm hand upon my cheek was a God send, I really needed comfort
and Gavin was there. "Everything is going to be ok, trust me. Since you are
not having a good morning how bout you skip your classes today and hang out
with me, I have the day off from school and Im usally alone when I do. So
how 'bout it?" He said smiling.

"I dunno...I don't think I can skip another day of class..." I looked at him
and he had this puppy dog look, how can I say no to that? "Ok you got me
Gavin, I'll skip and hang with you today." He flashed another beautiful
smile and told me that the puppy dog look always worked.

"I don't get how you of all people, Gavin Richardson, alone on day off of
school? I mean I have to admit you are pretty damn hot. You should be
practically beating all the girls down with a stick to get them away from
you. Hahaha."

"You think Im hot? Too bad that you're still with Tyler cos otherwise I
would have made a move on you right now." I stopped and looked at him very
confused? Is this guy for real? Or was I just hallucinating? Gavin...gay?
Hm...who knew?

"Well...technically we are seperated..." I gazed at his beautiful tanned
face, dark brown hair, nice red lips but not too red, his baseball cap on
back wards and his piercing on his left eye brow made him a lot sexier than
he already is. I leaned in, inches away from his face, ready to kiss him...I
stopped. WHAT WAS I THINKING?! "No...No...Gavin I can't do this. Im still
holding hope for Tyler and I, I shouldn't have let my emotions come over me
like that. Im sorry." I looked at him, his most beautiful eyes still looking
back, I could tell that he was a little hurt that I didn't seal the deal.

"You know Bryan, I know that I don't know you very well, but it feels like I
do. There's this something about you that I really like, and if Tyler can't
see how beautiful a person you are inside and out, then there is something
seriously wrong about him."

"Heh...wow you really know what to say to a guy huh? Thank you Gav." I gave
flashed him my smile and he smiled back. We started walking back to my dorm
room and as we were walking he started talking about how his parents don't
even know that he's gay. He said that he first knew when he was about 16
when he and his best friend at the time, Matt Bradford were at Gavin's house
just messing around. They were wrestling on the floor then all of a sudden
Matt kissed Gavin and he pushed Matt off of him. They just stood there for a
minute and Gavin walked closer to Matt and returned the kiss. He told me
that they secretly went out for a year, but broke up because it felt awkward
and that they didn't belong together that way, that they were better off
being friends. I thought to myself maybe that's how Tyler felt, I've
occasionally wanted more but I never went in search of it. We arrived at my
dorm, I gave Gavin a hug and he gave me a kiss on the cheek, a total
gentleman. He brushed my cheek again, my hand reached for his hand that was
on my cheek and I didn't want to let go. We stood there like it was forever,
it felt right, but I was torn. Tyler and I have known each other for years
and I just met Gavin a few days ago, both gave me sparks in the way they
touched me and the way they look at me. I told him goodnight, and I went in
to my room. My phone rings, and it was Tyler again,

"Bryan, please don't hang up. I know what I did was wrong, I was hurt. What
you did that night at the party made me go nuts, I ran into Shelby and told
her what had happend..."

"What are you talking about? What did I do at the party that made you sleep
with Shelby?" I was getting angrier, everytime he spoke I felt my body tense
up.

"I saw you kissing another guy..." We both went silent, finally Tyler broke
the silence, "Hello? Bryan, you still there?"

"I kissed another guy? No...that's impossible! I didn't kiss anybody!"

"Not possible? But it's true! I didn't want to believe it at first, but I
walked up and to my suprise it was you. I asked you what you were doing but
you pushed me away and told me to fuck off." I was shocked, was I that
intoxicated for me not to remember? I mean yeah...I had a couple of beers
but not enough to make me drunk...was my fault, was it my fault that Tyler
cheated on me?

"You sure that it was me? You were pretty drunk too I saw you stumbling
across your house, each time I would try to find you there you were with a
beer in one hand and taking a shot of vodka, are you sure that it wasn't
someone who looked like me? Or dressed like me? What was he wearing?"

"I don't remember! I think he was wearing a blue shirt, black pants."

"Tyler...that wasn't me. That night I wore a white shirt and jeans. You
should of known...you gave that shirt to me. When I got to your place you
were already drunk off your ass. I can't believe that you would jump to the
conclusion that I would deliberatly do that to you. I care so much about
you, the last thing that I wanted to do to you was hurt you. You came to my
rescue when I needed you, you spent almost everyday with me. You think that
I would throw all of that away? You were the first person who made me happy,
I felt like there was nothing left for me in this world, then you came into
my life. I would never EVER do that to you. I loved you Tyler, but you had
to go and throw it out of the window. Look I got to go, anything else you
want to say before I slam the phone down?" Another awkward silence between
us.

"Yeah" Tyler said. "I fucked up royally, and I'm about to lose you. I need
you right now." He started crying over the phone, I could hear the hurt in
his voice. My heart started aching, I don't want to lose him. This is
something that's testing our relationship.

"How do I know that you won't do this to me again Tyler? You have to earn
your trust back, and..." Suddenly my door to my room opened and there was
Tyler, I hung up the phone and ran to him. He looked very different, bags
under his eyes like he hadn't had any sleep. He didn't look healthy at all.
I wiped the tears off his face, even though I'm still mad at him, it was
very good to see him again. "Tyler..." I said trying not to cry, "You're
here, I've missed you so much."

"I never want to hurt you again, what I did was wrong and irrational, I
wasn't thinking right. Will you take me back?"

"I don't know Tyler, I still need time to think. Don't get me wrong, seeing
you right now, standing before me makes me happy. But I just don't know if
im ready yet. I hope you can understand that."

"I do, take all the time you need. I'll always be here waiting for you." He
kissed me, his soft warm lips hitting pressed against mine. I closed my
eyes, taking in the moment. And as I opened them, I could see Gavin face in
place of Tyler's. I jumped back, and Tyler had this look on his face.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing Tyler, it was nothing. I guess I miss kissing you." I hesitated and
I went to sit on my bed. After sitting there for what felt like an eternity,
I decided to tell him about Gavin, "There is something wrong...for the past
few days I met a guy and..." Tyler interrupted me.

"Let me guess, you hated me so much that you slept with him." I got off my
bed and got right in Tyler's face.

"NO! This is what I mean, you always jump to conclusions without waiting for
me to tell you anything. How are we going to have a relationship if you
can't trust me? I was going to say that I met a guy, and he's been with me
since this whole thing started. No, we haven't slept with each other, he was
there as a friend."

"Oh..." Tyler looked at me, "Im sorry, it's just that so much is going on.
You are the first person I've ever loved and maybe the thought of losing you
to another guy irks me out."

"Maybe we should take a break, so we both can sort things out. I...I just
can't deal with this right now. I'm sorry Tyler, it's best for the both of
us." I looked away from Tyler and stared out the window.

"If that's what you want Bryan." Tyler said in a weak voice. He walked to
the door and as he was about to leave he said that he was sorry. He left and
I was alone in my room, I went back to my bed and started crying. It's been
an emotional day and I was exhausted, I heard a knock on my door and it was
Gavin.

"Gavin...Tyler was just here 10 minutes ago, and we tried to talk but it
didn't work. He accused me of cheating on him, that's why he did all those
things to me. Then I told him about you and he thought that I was cheating
on him with you and it was too much. Now we're on a break, so much has
happend...I don't know what to do." Gavin walked to my bed without saying
anything and he put his arms around me. His embrace was what I needed.

"Shh...Im here, you need some rest Bryan. Tomorrow will be a new day and
you'll feel a lot better, I promise." He looked at me, I looked at him. He
wiped away the tears on my cheek, and he leaned in and kissed me...


Thank you guys for being patient with me! You all can reach me at
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