Date: Sun, 6 May 2001 17:11:42 EDT
From: H456654@aol.com
Subject: Truly Blessed

Introduction: Hap was my best friend for almost four years of high school
and together, along with our friend Greg, we were known as the three
musketeers.  Wherever there was one of us, the other two were sure to be
close by.  We were inseperable and talked openly about all our inner
thoughts and we kept nothing secret.  Well, there was one secret I was
keeping to myself: the secret of being gay.

    The funny thing is, I wasn't the only one keeping that secret.  Little
did I know until October of 2000, that Hap was also gay.  We were both so
good at hiding it, that neither of us suspected the other.  I guess what
they say about having gaydar is a lot of bull.  One day last October, Hap
decided to come out of the closet to Greg and me.  I guess he felt our
friendship was strong enough to share.  Hap had also come out to his
parents that month and was relieved that both his parents were supportive.
When Hap sat us down and confessed, I was shocked.  I've always thought of
Hap like a brother, and even though he was incredibly sexy, I never really
thought of us together.  I didn't know what to do about telling him I was
gay also.  I told him our friendship was still in good standing, as did
Greg.
    That night I called Hap and told him I needed to speak to him in person
about the news he dropped on Greg and me.  We met at the local Dennys
(major hangout for the Three Musketeers,) and sat at our usual table in the
back.  I didn't say anything at first, but sat there quietly sipping my
soda and looking at Hap.  Hap finally broke the silence and told me he knew
what I was going to say; that I thought about it and decided I didn't want
to be his friend.  I started laughing, took a deep breath, and told him,
"Not even close!"
    My exact words were, "Hap, I wish I knew this four years ago.  There
wouldn't have been so much time wasted."
    He looked at me and I knew what I said didn't register.  I said, "Hap,
I'm gay too."
    We both sat in silence for the next few minutes and then, almost at the
same time we said, "Poor Greg.  He took the news about one of us.  How will
we feel when we tell him two out of three are gay.
    Hap immediatly called Greg on his cell phone, and within 20 minutes,
Greg joined us.  Hap was the one who broke the news to Greg and Greg didn't
say a word.  He just stared at the both of us.  He then half smiled and
said that as far as he was concerned, he could live with us being gay, if
we could live with him being straight.  We wound up laughing about his
comment, and relieved that our four year friendship was still intact.  We
also decided that since we live in a "redneck" town, we needed to keep it
our little secret.
    We left Denny's well after midnight and Greg went home and I went to
Haps.  It was a regular habit that the three of us would alway crash at
Hap's or my house on the weekend, and it was one of the few times it wound
up just being Hap and me.  I followed Hap in my car and I don't even
remember driving to his house.  My thoughts were focused on the fact that
after all these years of keeping my secret, I finally felt relieved that my
secret was out, at least to my two best friends.  I had no thoughts of Hap
and I "getting it on," as it was still overwhelming just finding it out
about him and he finding out about me.
    We were up most of the night just talking and trying to figure out why
neither of us had a clue to the other's secret.  As the conversation went
on I started thinking that Hap and I would "get it on", but then he kind of
dropped a bomb on me.  He admitted he had always had "a thing" for Greg.  I
was crushed.  Here I was thinking Hap an I were going to become one, and
he's telling me he has a thing for Greg.  I didn't say anything to Hap, but
in the morning, I left before Hap was awake and spent the rest of the
weekend avoiding his phone calls.
    Monday morning, back in school, I tried as bet I could to avoid Hap,
but he caught up with me at lunch.  He wanted to know what happened and I
told him that I wasn't sure about the feelings I had inside, and just
needed time to think.  The week continued without us saying anything more,
but on Friday, Hap asked me to spend the weekend at his house since his
parents were going to be away.  I told him I would, but I was reluctant to
share with him that what he said about Greg was bothering me.  Hap, Greg,
and I went out to dinner that night and during dinner, Hap told Greg that
he and I were spending the weekend together to build on our relationship,
and informed me that he had fallen in love.  Back at Hap's house, we
proceeded with small talk, and before I knew what was happening, Hap leaned
over and kissed me.  He caught me by surprise at first, but as he was
kissing me, I could feel my body start to tingle and before I knew it, my
hardon was trying to escape from it's prison.  Hap started to remove my
shirt and I followed by removing his.  His hands exploring my body made me
melt, and as he started unbuckling my pants, I knew I was in love and that
Hap was only thinking of me.  He started kissing my nipples, sending
shivers up my spine and as he proceeded to move down, I just lay there, not
knowing what to expect next.  Hap reached for my hardon and gently started
to jack me off, making me moan.  As I spread my legs wider, he lowered his
head and took my dick in his mouth.  Now I've gotten a blow job from a girl
before, but having Hap on my cock was the first time I ever experienced
true feelings.  It was amazing how turned on I had become.  My head was
spinning as he continued to suck on my cock and as I felt my dick swell up
I warned him that I was going to cum any minute.
  He proceeded to clamp down on my dick and take it deeper into his throat
when I felt myself explode.  I have never experienced an orgasm so intense
and it felt like my heart was going to burst as well.  Hap stayed on my
cock as I began to get soft and when he finally released me from his mouth,
he lay next to me and we started kissing.  As I took his tongue in my
mouth, I could taste the saltiness of my cum.  When he looked into my eyes,
I knew that I was in love and I started reaching into his pants to return
the favor.
  Hap told me he just wanted to lay in my arms for a few more minutes and
just feel our warmth.  As I never had experience with a guy before I was a
little nervous, and so just lying in nhis arms was fine with me.
  We continued to embrace and we didn't say anything to one another.  I
needed to use the bathroom, so I joking told Hap not to lose the pose, and
I got up to relieve myself.  When I returned, Hap was laying there naked.
  As we've seen each other naked before, either in the lockerroom or on
weekends, I never thought anything of it until now.  Seeing his beautiful
body naked before me brought an instant hardon and I got back into bed and
I got on top of Hap, kissing his mouth, his neck, moving down to his chest,
tonguing his navel and continuing down to his cock, which I could see was
ready for my mouth.  Trying to copy what Hap had just done to me, I took
him into my mouth and proceeded to perform my first blowjob.  I licked and
sucked him reaching underneath him to grab his ass, and taking all seven
inches of him slowly towards the back of my throat.  He put his hands on my
head and proceeded to face fuck me.  After about ten minutes he warned me
that he was going to cum and told me I didn't have to keep him in my mouth
if I didn't want to.  I grabbed his ass tighter and held on as I felt him
begin to explode into my mouth.  I took most of it down my throat, although
I had trouble taking all of it.  After he finished, I licked his dick
clean, and proceeded to lick his balls where some had dripped.  When I went
to kiss him he laughed and told me I missed a few spots, and he proceeded
to lick his cum from the corners of my mouth and again, we lay together in
an embrace and before I knew it, he was asleep with his face buried in my
neck.  For the first time, I truly felt I was in love, and I remember
thinking that although we had been friends for four years, we had a lot of
catching up to do.

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    This is my first attempt at writing, and although I usually don't kiss
and tell, this story had to be told.  Soon after our first time, we made
plans to spend the rest of our lives together.  As we were both graduating
from high school this June, we were planning to attend colleges in
Massachusetts and get an apartment together.  Hap was going to become an
Architect and I was planning on following in my fathers footsteps (because
of his brainwashing) to become a lawyer.
    As it turns out, it was discovered that Hap had a rare form of cancer
and after fighting to beat it, Hap passed away this past March.  As he knew
the end was near, Hap and I spent his last months living together, thanks
to the love and support of our families.  About a week before Hap died, we
were holding each other and Hap whispered in my ear: "It is better to have
loved and lost, than never to have loved at all."
    He's been gone six weeks and I can hear him saying that to me each
night as I lay in bed.  For those of you in love, if you feel it as
strongly as we did, than you have truly been blessed.