Date: Sat, 31 Mar 2012 16:09:23 -0700 (PDT) From: Joey Young Subject: Untitled Love Story, Chapter 22 Usual Disclaimers Apply Author's Note: To all my fans, new and old, thank you. Without you I wouldn't have been able to continue with this story. I know it's been a slow progress with the movement and urgency of the story, but it's very hard to finish the story, while still trying to maintain my primary fan base. I want to please all of you by having Caleb choose who you want him to choose, but inevitably the choice comes down to the last chapter. So hopefully you'll stick with me until the end. As for my awesome editor, Lisa Blackburn, you are a vision of pure beauty. And I thank you for your continued friendship and editorial skills that make me the writer I am. May your ninja editing skills never cease. -Joey Young Untitled Love Story Chapter 22 I laughed. His large hands enclose my shut eyes. We had driven a full hour and a half to the farthest reaches of the state. I was pretty sure we were near Oregon, with its dense foliage and woodsy smell. Even Drew's warm fingers seemed to permeate the smell of the outdoors. It was refreshing, if not familiar. This was a memory. From another lifetime. Ages ago it seemed to have occurred. "I swear you're gonna reveal yourself to be a serial killer, I know it." Drew laughed and rested his broad chest against the heat of my back. He carried most of the equipment, the bags, the food and the tent. I was just in a flannel shirt and a pair of loose-fitting jeans, no noticeable weight to carry. "It'll be worth the wait." I sighed, but continued to let him guide me to wherever we were headed. It was nice to have this time together. To actually get away from all my problems for a while. Maybe even enjoy myself. "How much farther," I complained. "Ow!" My foot had tripped over a rock and I landed on my ankle. "Oh," Drew breathed and hooked his arm around my waist. "You okay?" I smiled faintly, "I'm fine. Just can't walk straight with your big grizzly hands covering my eyes." He laughed and hitched me up from the ground. "Alright, alright, I get it. But look. We're here." I looked then and exhaled softly. It was lovely. A small meadow the size of my back yard, stood out among the dense tree trunks. The grass was barely growing around the edges, near the trunks. The center of the clearing was empty, save a few patches of lush grass. The earth was visible beneath the green ferns, making one truly appreciative of dirt. In the distance a small stream trickled a path through the forest, making a small murmur of noise like rainfall. I stared skyward at the setting sun, which peeked through the trees. Stars were barely blazing in the red ambient light. The canopy of trees seemed to part exactly right to reveal the sky above. It was magical if not romantic in its gesture. I turned my head every which way to take in my surroundings, before my gaze settled on Drew and his handsome grin. "Okay, what's the catch?" I asked, drawing my shirt around me. Drew blinked in surprise, "No catch. Just a friendly camping trip." I laughed, "You are such a liar. You know how much I wanted to go camping and it just so happens you find the perfect spot, knowing I'll love it?" His grin returned, "I'm telling the truth. I swear." "Yeah, yeah. So let's not waste this, shall we. Do you need help setting up?" And with that the evening began, Drew all smiles the whole time. We set up the tent in a patch of dry dirt, the color reminding me of brownie mix. He busily moved through the woods, combing for branches and stray pieces of wood. I just put the tent up and attached it securely to the ground. The small shelter was cozy and had enough room for the both of us. A long thick sleeping bag lay flatly across the floor, our supplies pushed to one corner. I turned and watched as Drew slowly coaxed a flame out of the small tinder he found. His face was set in a determined scowl, which was endearing, especially when the fire burst to life. He grinned widely and glanced at me, his blue eyes sparkling in the firelight. I smiled impishly. "I was always scared to light a fire, when I was a kid," he stated innocently, before gesturing to his creation. "Now, I can make a campfire with ease." I laughed, "I was too. Still am, I think." He got up and dusted his hands on his pants. His eyebrows knitting together cutely. I watched as he strolled smoothly towards me. Any fear I had upon entering this trip had erased the moment he looked at me. I felt strangely at peace. I wondered if Drew felt this connected as I did. To this moment. To this time. We paused a moment to look away from each other and stare at the ground, either out of anxiousness or pure innocence. "I've never met anyone like you before, Caleb," he said. Again I laughed, "Is that a good thing? Wait. Don't answer that." "No. It's good. It's really good." Very slowly he put his hand beneath my shirt and rubbed my lower back. My skin tingled where his fingers touched. I fell into him. I rubbed my face into the nape of his neck and moved my lips against his skin. It wasn't so much kissing as it was mumbling into his body. He took my face in his hands and really kissed me. The feeling of his mouth was so familiar and amazing that I wondered if every kiss in my life would lead back to him, to the taste of his skin, to the blue of his eyes and the smell of his cologne. There was so much meaning in his hands, in the way they cupped my cheeks and kept me still. We had sex that night in the grass. He kissed my ears and ran his hand over the curve of my hip. I kept waiting for the moment where he would become the other Drew. The one that would pull away and slowly get dressed, but that moment never came. Instead he just kept murmuring softly in my ear as our bodies moved in synchronization. Afterward we lay there side by side in just our T-shirts. Up in the sky the stars flashed brilliantly as they moved across the clouds. The blades of grass scratched the back of my legs and bugs bounced off my naked thighs, but I didn't care. Suddenly all my insecurities came to the surface. "I'm afraid when you get to know me, you won't like what you see." He turned and shifted his arm under my head. "Where did that come from?" I didn't dare look in his eyes, for fear of what he might see. "I was just thinking of this moment and what will happen when we return to our normal lives." He sighed, "I told you, it won't matter, because we'll know the truth. Okay?" I smiled softly, "Okay." ~*~ Trudy paced the floor repeatedly. Her small sturdy frame, looked weary with worry. I just sighed and tightened my grip on Justin's hand. His firm caring hand. It was rough, but velvety if that was possible. His large fingers wrapped easily around my dainty ones, but I loved this fact. He steadied me, especially now, when Caleb was.... I couldn't finish the sentence. "Has it been an hour?" Dante asked, breaking the silence. He was still agitated with the whole situation. Agitated with Caleb. With Drew. With everything. But behind that mask of agitation was pain. I could see it, even now when he looked so angry. It was in the set of his shoulders and the color of his eyes. No longer gold-green with sternness, but sea green with anguish. It was like watching someone slowly burn, their only form of relief gone. "Another ten minutes," Justin's hoarse voice croaked, like he was holding back tears. I looked to him then and rested a hand on his shoulder. He grabbed it with the other and kissed my palm. I sighed sadly and nuzzled my nose into his neck. Trying to comfort. He just held me lightly. "He'll be fine," I whispered only for his ears. "He would never leave us. Leave Trudy." He nodded. "Why don't we get some coffee," I suggested softly. "It would get your mind off everything for a while. Kay?" Again he nodded. I turned and looked to Dante and Trudy. Dante was glaring balefully at the floor, his elbows on his knees. I stood and walked to his side. "Do you need anything?" He blinked as if waking from a stupor and stared up at me. He smiled dismally and sat up. With a deep breathe he rubbed his weary eyes. "No," he finally replied. "I'm fine. Thank you." His dark caramel skin bulged with tension. When I had first met Dante, I had thought he was exotic and handsome. Someone worth getting to know. And he was. But after he found his soul mate in Caleb, my feelings of attraction had faded and I saw him more as a brother than anything. Which was good, considering how close me and Justin had become. I looked to Justin now and smiled affectionately. Justin my beautiful dark angel. He was leaning back in his chair, popping his back. His light brown hair tucked behind each ear, came loose and hung gently. His broad chest and shoulders moved with his lean, muscled body. His bright blue eyes droopy with sleep. He yawned once, which only made him more adorable. I was glad I had found Justin. Trudy kept pacing as I passed her. For the past hour and a half, she paced furiously, but neither one of us had the courage to interrupt her. I reached for Justin's hand and pulled him to his feet. He smiled sleepily and gestured to Trudy. I shrugged and urged him to ask her. His eyes widened apprehensively, but spoke. "Hey, Mrs. P?" he asked softly. Trudy came to a halt and looked up. He gulped and smiled kindly. "Did you need anything? Me and Stace are goi-" "No, I'm alright, Justin." Without another word she began to pace again. This time with more force than before. Justin shrugged solemnly and pulled me to his side. His large bicep wrapped easily around my waist as we moved down the hall. I rested my head on his shoulder and held his chest. The coffee was easy to find. It wasn't the best, but it did the trick. The caffeine buzzed through my veins, awakening me from my dejection. Justin and I sat at the nurses' lounge, sipping from our mugs. A nurse had given us a plate of cookies to offset the bitterness, but we ate those all in no time. Now all we had was the black liquid. "You tired?" Justin asked as he peered over his coffee mug. I shrugged, "Kinda. But the coffee's helping." "Are you sure?" I nodded. Another nurse slipped in and smiled at us, before she ran to the fridge and rummaged inside. She pulled a sandwich from the fridge and with another smile disappeared out the door. I sighed. "What?" Justin asked, concerned. "I can get you something to eat." I smiled faintly and grabbed his hand. "Nothing," I replied softly and kissed his big hands. "Stace," he pushed. Again I sighed, "It was just an errant thought. My imagination getting out of hand. I watch too much daytime television." He chuckled, "What does daytime television have to do with a hospital?" "It's just....I-I was thinking 'bout Caleb....and that nurse." His smile slowly started to fade. "And?" I looked at him and blinked faintly. "And I was thinking....what if she was his scrub nurse, taking a break. You know?" My voice shook slightly and I looked away in shame. I didn't want to have these thoughts about my brother. Not when he was in surgery. I could feel hot tears start to run down my cheeks. Caleb always teased me about easily crying and here I was crying about something so trivial. I wiped furiously at them and stared skyward. "Hey," Justin murmured. "Babe?" I sniffed and dabbed my nose. He titled his head to the side and smiled lovingly at me. "Don't be ashamed. You know what Caleb would say?" I tried to smile, but it crumpled. Suddenly I started to cry. "Hey, hey," Justin soothed and gestured to me with his hands. "Come here." I stood shakily and walked to his lap. Immediately he pulled me to his chest and cradled me in his arms. My voice hitched with my sobs and I wrapped my arms around his warm body. He just shushed me softly and rubbed my back. His voice was soothing. Like a lullaby. "Don't, cry, babe. Caleb will be fine." I just held him tightly and buried my head into his solid chest. His muscles were comforting and radiated with warmth. He hadn't held me like this, since we first made love. "It's just so unfair," I whimpered into his shoulder. "The world is just so unfair to him, it's not even funny." "Shh, shh, shh." "Oh, Justin." "I know, baby. I know." I pulled away a bit and looked up at his handsome face. "And yesterday, the whole time I felt jealous of Caleb. . . .I mean it was petty jealousy. . .I-I wanted to be engaged, you know? To know that I have you for the rest of my life. And I was jealous. . . ." ". . . .I so wanted something like that to happen to me, but then all this happened. Why is the world so cruel?" I sniffed and saw that Justin's face had softened immensely. "It all seems so stupid now." He grinned lovingly, "No, Stace. Feeling that way is never stupid." My eyes started to water again as I stared into his face. His expression was nothing but warm and endearing. There were no signs of discomfort at my statement or indications that he would flee at the next opportunity. Instead his eyes were a fathomless blue that only appeared during a serious conversation. "You okay, now?" he asked gently. I nodded, not ready to speak. "He'll be fine, Stace. Like you said, he wouldn't leave us. Remember?" He moved a finger beneath my chin and lifted it. His eyes were tender and amazingly blue. I caught my breathe. With a shaking hand I caressed his stubbled jaw. His hand glided to my hair, running through it, while his other latched onto my waist. Without another thought I reached up and kissed him. He exhaled in surprise, but didn't resist. Instead his fingers tangled themselves in my hair and his arm slid tighter around my waist. His lips were soft and pliant against mine. His breath was a combination of tastes. Dark and creamy from the coffee but fresh with youth. It only added to my desire. Kissing Justin was like kissing freedom. All my troubles vanished in that one moment and heady thoughtlessness took its place. His lips moved in deep synchronization with mine, knowing just what I liked. His tongue fought valiantly with mine, tasting everything from my teeth to my lips. And his hair. His hair was thick and silky beneath my fingers. I had always wanted to touch his hair, to tame it to my liking, but he refused. Now my hands roamed it freely. His teeth dug into my lip, making me hiss, before abruptly he pulled away. I stared at him in confusion. His eyes were mirrored pools of hunger, but he had turned to the doorway. I turned too and straightened up in surprise. Trudy was staring at us, her face firm but awkward. She smiled uneasily and cleared her throat. "Caleb, is getting out of surgery," she said. "I thought I would find you two, so we can see him." I jumped from Justin's lap, his hands moving with my hips. "Of course, Trudy," I answered as I twisted my hair back into a pony tail. "We were just discussing....the idea of returning." "I see," was all she said, before Justin spoke. "We'll follow you in a bit, Mrs. P." She nodded and silently exited without another glance. I groaned and slumped into Justin's chest. He chuckled lightly and wrapped his arms around me. Very gently I felt his cheek rest against my hair. "Oh, god," I whispered in horror. "Trudy's like a mom to me. I wonder what she thought....?" Justin was silent with thought. "I think she has other things on her mind right now, Stace," he answered as he slowly started to tug me to the door. ~*~ Drew held me softly in his arms. The flicker of light from the flames danced across his sculpted arm. It was beautiful and sensual to be held like this, sitting between his legs. The campfire had been lit hours ago and the tent was just a few feet away from us, but we didn't rush it. It was something we could take our time to get too. I liked that about him. The way he allowed me to adjust. Especially after our first time in that dark attic. This made all the difference. "Are you cold?" I shook my head. He chuckled and nuzzled the back of my neck. "You know, this is the first time I came out here with someone else, besides my family. . . It's nice." I smiled faintly. "You hungry? Cuz I could make something for you." I laughed, "Drew, I'm fine. This is great. Peaceful." His hand found mine and slowly tangled with it. The rough calluses a stark contrast against my palms. "I like it when you say my name. It makes it sound new again, like I've only just received it." I sighed at his words, they were beautiful. "Drew," I whispered, making his chest heave with a deep breath. "Drew, can I ask for a kiss?" I turned in his lap and rested my chin on his chest, staring up at him beneath my hair. His face was handsome. Sculpted by angels themselves. His golden hair glistened in the firelight, shimmering with each flicker of the flame. His sharp nose guided his lips to my temple where he planted a soft kiss upon my forehead. It was light and sweet, innocent in its gesture. "There," he breathed, his voice husky with passion. "I gave you a kiss." I smiled for a second, before I reached for his lips and parted them with mine. He shivered with surprise, but kept me close against his chest. Our bodies practically merging as one. He explored my anatomy as we continued to slowly kiss each other. Tongues fought with tongues and whispered murmurs of passion could be heard. It was mindboggling to think that we were alone for the whole night. Alone in our world, where dreams never died and love flourished like the open sky. Suddenly he pulled away and stood. His body effortlessly graceful in its arches and curves. He was tall that much I could remember and beautiful. Beautiful like the statue of David itself. He reached for me and guided me into his strong sinewy arms. I fit perfectly in the crook of his bicep, my shoulder resting easily between his jaw and his collarbone. "Are you ready?" he asked, his mouth quirked in a smile. Even his soft breath was lovely. "Ready for what?" He chuckled lightly, his chest moving beneath my fingers. "To go back, silly." His arm released me and he moved away. Gradually he began to walk to the other side of the camp, his gait smooth and careful. I watched as he started to weave through the trees, his silhouette disappearing in the darkness. "Drew?" I called as he drifted away. Immediately I began to follow him. In the distance a small light began to widen into a soft sphere. I could see him ahead, gesturing me to follow. I smiled, knowing he was there waiting for me. "Don't leave me," I whispered, knowing he could hear me. "Don't ever leave me." "Never," was his reply as my hand enclosed his. ~*~ We followed Trudy down the hall, my hand in Justin's. He squeezed it rhythmically as we made our way to Caleb's room. Already I felt some sense of terror, which was gut-wrenching. It was strange this feeling of terror, because it was new and unfamiliar. I had never felt this much fear going into a hospital room before, especially when it was usually Caleb's room. And now as we neared the door I squeezed Justin's hand in a cold vice, wishing for a miracle. ~*~ Amazingly soft, warm light enveloped me. Like standing in direct sunlight. It was gentle. Peaceful. Very peaceful. I stepped lightly into oblivion, hoping that I would finally reach my destination. But I was in no rush. I could take my time. Time was meaningless to me, only the thought of returning to those I loved kept me moving. With each step my body began to feel a sense of solidarity, like a gravitational pull linking me to wherever I was going. Slowly the feeling of peace began to disappear and was replaced with a sense of unease and claustrophobia. Suddenly it appeared. With one blink of an eye, I was in a hospital room, staring at my family. "Why doesn't he wake up?" Stacey asked, her delicate hand covering her mouth. She was leaning into Justin, who was holding her tightly. His face mirrored everyone else's. Pain and agitation. I glanced around the room, seeing my mom at my bedside. Her small frame had become smaller and the difference was evident. Dante was on the opposite side, his broad shoulders slumped in dejection. He wasn't looking at any of them, instead he was whispering softly into my hand, his head bent over our interlocking fingers. And I knew. I wasn't awake. This was still some kind of limbo. Some form of punishment for my selfishness. I was trapped here, only able to watch my loved ones, not to interact with them. This was the consequence of my indecision. I looked at my body and grimaced. I was a wreck. A large padding of gauze was wrapped tightly around my head, where a strange looking piece of tubing stuck out. My mouth was slightly open around a plastic mouth piece, which kept me breathing. I had large stitching across my collarbone, which looked ghastly and purple with bruises. My left eye was barely closed around a black eye and I had cuts and bruises lining my right cheek. My breathing was hollow and labored. The only sound came from the heart monitor and its perpetual beeping which alerted me to my active life. "The doctor said, he should be able to wake on his own," my mother replied, her voice hoarse. "We just have to be patient." I moved to the edge of my bed, just next to my mother. I glanced fleetingly at Dante, who hadn't even looked up at my mother's words. I turned to my mother and kneeled by her side. She wasn't even aware of my presence, her eyes still rested upon me. "Mom," I whispered. "Mommy?" My voice shook with unshed tears, which were threatening to breach my control. "I'm right here," I hissed urgently. "Mom, look at me, please. I'm not asleep. I'm right here. Just look at me. . . . Didn't I promise?" Nothing. I wiped furiously at my cheeks. A few tears had escaped. I glanced angrily at my lifeless form, before my gaze flickered back to Dante. His head was still bent over. "Dante?" I called, hoping he would hear me. "Dante, I'm right here. Come on, baby. Don't give up, I'm right in front of you." I stood and moved around my bed. They all continued to stare at me as if my physical shell was the only one in the room. Again I kneeled next to my bed, but this time beside Dante. His strong capable arms were inches away from my grasp, but the ability to touch him was beyond my control. Even the simplest attempt went unnoticed. "Please, look at me," I whispered into his ear. "I'm fine, Dante. I'll wake up, I promise. Please just don't give up." My voice hitched at the end and more tears began to escape. It was useless. I was a ghost. Nothing more than an apparition that was cursed to watch as his life dangled by a thread. "Argh! Wake up!" I screamed at myself. "We should eat," my mom whispered her voice hollow. "Were not helping much if we starve ourselves." I screamed again and tried to shake the bed. "Wake up!!!" "Stace, can you go to my car and get my purse?" "Sure, Trudy. Justin do you wanna go with me?" "No, no, no!!" I exclaimed and tried to grab them as they reached for my mom's keys. "Don't go. I can wake up. Just give me some time. Wait." But they were already heading out the door. I glanced frantically between them and my mother and Dante. I wanted to follow Justin and Stacey, to try and make them aware of me, but I also wanted to see if Dante or my mom could do something about my body. I growled, but kept my place in the room. ". . . .love him. It's just a quick break." My mom said to Dante across the bed. I had missed the first part of what she said. "Just to get something to eat. You can't starve yourself, honey. Caleb wouldn't want that." Dante looked up and for the first time I saw what he looked like. I sighed sadly. His facial hair had darkened dramatically, which only made him look older. His hair looked un-kept and dirty, but still his hand stayed locked around mine. His eyes were the most shocking. They were blood shot with tears and puffy with exhaustion. His irises looked crazed and empty, like the eyes of a dying man. It pained me to see him like this. I stepped closer. "Please, Trudy, let me be. I'm fine." Even his voice was different. Deeper with grief. "I don't think it's best-" But I had stopped listening. Instead I moved to Dante's side, where my hand was and I stared at my battered face. "Say something," I ordered to myself. "Wake up. For him. Wake up and say something. Please." Dante slowly began to shake, his shoulders moving in erratic sobs. Again my eyes began to water. My mom was still talking to him, but I wasn't listening. "Caleb, wake up. Dante needs you. He's lost without you-without us. Open your eyes. Move your fingers. Something." Eventually Dante's voice began to sob tenderly. I watched as my mom moved from her side of the bed to his. She stared sadly at him as she rested her hand on his shoulder. "I know," she crooned. "I know." I turned back to my lifeless figure. "Please!! Just give him some indication." Nothing. I frowned and moved to the head of my bed. I leaned down to my ear. "Caleb Alexander Pierce. You move a finger, right now. Dante needs you to tell him you're alive. He's your happy ending, now move a damn finger. Now!" Abruptly Dante jumped. "He moved!" he exclaimed, his voice sounding like the Dante I knew. "Trudy! He moved!" A brilliant spark of hope lit my mother's features, which rivaled Dante's. She scanned the monitors for any sign of what just happened, but they didn't do anything. This didn't squish their hope, though. It only seemed to invigorate them. They excitedly began to chatter together and it wasn't until I focused that I understood that they were talking to me. "Caleb, love. I'm right here. Listen to my voice, baby. Come back to me." "-Caleb, honey. You need to wake up. It's safe now. We're here." "-I love you, baby. Come back to me, please." "-Honey, its mommy. We need you to wake up, okay?" "-Beautiful boy, I can't live without you. Wake up." "-Son, mommy's here. I love you, wake up-" Suddenly the monitors began to beep crazily. I was so mesmerized with their words that I hadn't even thought of reentering my body. But that was all lost as a score of doctors entered the room. Dante's face fell and the dying man returned. "What happened?" he demanded. "Caleb!" "He's in d-fib," someone called. "Let's charge to three hundred." "Can someone tell us what happened!?!" Dante cried, his fear turning into anger. "Trudy, what's going on?!?!" My mom was too shocked to respond. I just stared at the melee and felt useless to the situation. I was supposed to return, wasn't I? Dante continued to yell as the doctors tried desperately to keep my heart going. "Charge to three-fifty," a doctor called as they tore my shirt wider. "Someone get them out of here. Clear!" Everyone jumped away from my body as the doctor pressed pads to my chest. My body jumped once, which caused the monitor to beep a few times, before it went silent again. "Caleb!!" Dante screamed, his tall frame trying to reach my lifeless body. I wanted so badly to reach for him and hold him, but two male nurses had seized him. "Son, you need to leave," they stated calmly as Dante tried to shove past them. "You're in the way." "But he's my boyfriend," Dante growled as he shoved roughly. "Caleb!" I watched as the nurses steadily dragged Dante from the room. My mom was desperately handing things to her co-workers as they continued to keep my heart beating. Again a doctor shocked my body, making my body leap and buckle with the surge of electricity. I just stared dumbfounded at my tangled mess of a body. "Charging." "Clear." Instantly sharp pain coursed through my body. I gasped and buckled under the current of pain. My soul screamed in agony, but a force seemed to pull me back to my body. I could feel the tips of my fingers and the barriers it held. Cold blood rushed through my veins and I couldn't help myself from hating this feeling. I wanted the warmth and sunlight back. Something beeped in the distance. A machine? Then silence. Darkness. "Caleb?" an unfamiliar voice asked. I could feel the remnants of a distant pain, which slowly started to creep into my bones. Gradually a machine began to beep steadily. And a life force sparked within me. Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. And I opened my eyes. TO BE CONTINUED. . . Please Send Comments to untitledlovestory23@yahoo.com