Date: Thu, 17 Jul 2003 14:01:06 EDT
From: Biracialkman@aol.com
Subject: What's Happening to Me?..Part 4

Disclaimer:

This story is partially true and is loosely based on my
life.  Names have been changed to protect the innocent.  If you are
interested in reading a real love story and not just a graphic sex story,
then this is the story for you.  This is my first attempt at writing, so
suggestions will be greatly appreciated.  I will enjoy hearing from each of
you and and will answer all emails.  Please let me know what you think of
if you feel that I should continue.

Email me at Biracialkman@aol.com


Chapter 4

	Nick slowly pulled away and looked me in the eyes.  I stared at
him, still swooning over what just happened.

	"I wanted to do that since I first laid eyes on you."  He said, as
he placed both his hands on my shoulders.

	"You have?"  I answered, thinking to myself that this sounded so
cliche.

	"Is that ok with you?"

	"Yeah!"  I whispered barely audible.

	This time I leaned in and kissed him, slipping my tongue into his
mouth, as I grabbed him by the head with both hands.  We stayed locked in a
passionate kiss for what seemed like an eternity.  He gently pushed me back
on the bed and positioned his body so that he laid next to me.  For a long
moment, he stared into my eyes and traced his fingers over my lips.
Neither of us said anything.  I was scared as hell.  I couldn't have said
anything even if I wanted to. He leaned in close and kissed me again.  I
wanted him so badly. My dick was rock hard, straining to get out.  He
licked my neck, as his hand roamed over my chest, stomach and stopping at
my hardened dick.  He must have noticed the swell because he began to
squeeze it.  I gasped.  I'd never felt anything so electric in my life.

	"Are you ok, Zuri?"  He asked in the most caring way.

	"Yeah, I'm fine."  I whispered.

	"I can stop if you want me to."  He said, as he gradually leaned up
and looked at me.  This dude had the most captivating smile that I'd ever
seen.

	"No, I'm ok."  I was experiencing the most indescribable feeling
that I'd ever felt in my life.  It was a mixture of excitement, horniness
and fear of what was to come if we continued.  Horniness won out, as I
placed my hand over his hand, forcing him to squeeze my dick.  He began to
undo my belt and unbutton my jeans.  I inhaled, holding my breath as he
reached inside my boxers and grabbed my throbbing hard on.  I think I saw
stars.  No one that I'd ever had sex with made me feel what I was feeling
right now.

	"Man, you have no idea, dude.  You're so hot."  He said to me.  He
pulled my jeans and boxers down some more and gently rubbed my nuts with
his fingertips.  My dick was leaking like a faucet.  His eyes moved from my
dick to my eyes.  I held his gaze a moment, then he lowered his head.

	Before I had a moment to realize what he was about to do, he
wrapped his lips around my dickhead, licking at my precum.  Then, he
began to take more of it in his mouth.  Using his tongue, he licked my
dick while slowly sucking it.  I laid back on the bed while he sucked
me.  He slowly took my pants and boxers off, leaving me with only a
shirt and a pair of socks on.  The more he sucked, the more I moaned.

     "Oh, Nick!  Fuck, man!"  I moaned. My breathing
became shorter and shorter, as he spread my legs apart.  He was sucking
me, using one hand to jack my dick and the other hand to gently play with
my nuts. No girl had ever made me feel this way before.  Normally, it
took me a while to get off when I got a blowjob, but I felt it almost
immediately when he did it.

     "Nick, slow down, man."  I managed to get out.  "I'm
gonna blow, if you don't."

     He slowed down a little then took his mouth off my dick.

     "How was it?"  He asked, looking at me with wet
lips.  I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I couldn't move from the
position I was in.

     "I ain't ever felt anything like this in my life. 
You've sucked a dick before?"  I asked.

     "Nah."  He answered.  "I mean I thought about it,
but never acted on it.  I just did what the girls who sucked me usually
did."

     "They must have been damn good, man, because you sure
fucking are."  I said, smiling at him.

     "Oh yeah!  I've had some girls do some freaky shit to
me. I might try them out on you, if you return the favor."  He had a
devilish smile on his face, as he told me this.

     "Like What?"  I asked, becoming a little scared, but
smiling.

     "Well," he said as he jack my dick and rub my nuts.  "I
had a girl blow me from behind, while I was in the doggy-style
position.   Then she started licking my butthole.  I almost lost
my mind when I felt her tongue in my ass.  I never felt anything like
that in my life.  That girl could fuckin' toss a salad, man."  He
said laughing.

     My dick seemed to leak more and got harder at hearing him
talk about that.

     "Do you wanna try it with me?"  I asked

     He smiled and asked if I was serious.  I told him that
I was.

     "Sure, if you want to, Z.  I'm game."  He said.

     I thought about this for a moment.  I couldn't exactly
imagine putting my tongue in anyone's ass, but since he was willing to do
it, `what the hell?'

     He got up and told me to hop up on the bed.  I couldn't
believe that this was happening.

     "Wait!"  I said.  "Let me suck you some before we do
that."

     He was more than happy to do this because before I knew
it, he had his pants off and was standing in front of me with his dick at
full attention.  I looked up at him, then I looked back at his dick. 
I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and closed my mouth around his
dickhead.

     He gasped.  "Oh yeah, Zuri.  That's it, man.  Oh
baby, yeah."  He muttered.  I went down deeper on it, trying to fight
my gag reflex.  When I went as far as I could, I began sucking him. He
kept moaning and was gently playing with my braids.

     "Play with my nuts, please?"  He asked, breathing
hard.  "Oh yeah!  That feels so fucking good."

     I got down off of the bed and got on my knees in front of
him.  I never thought in a million years that I would be doing this. 
I looked up at him while sucking his dick.  His eyes were closed and his
head was thrown back.  This was really getting me so hot.  My dick
throbbed as I sucked him.

     "Ok, ok.  Stop, Z.  I'm about to cum."  He
whispered.

     I pulled off his dick and looked up at him again.  He
looked down at me, then bent down and stuck his tongue in my mouth.  We
kissed as he kneeled down on the floor, putting his arms around me,
sucking my tongue without mercy.

     "This is so fucking hot."  He said, pulling away from
our kiss.  "I've never felt anything like this in my life."

     "Me either!"  I said, trying to catch my breath.

     We stared at each other for a few minutes, then he told me
to get up on the bed in the doggy-style position.  I couldn't believe
how I felt and how normal this all seemed to me.  Maybe I was just
caught up in the moment.  Who knows?  Anyway, I did as he asked. 
Before I knew exactly what was gonna happen, I felt his strong, big hands
on my ass.  I loved the way he massaged it.  I felt as he spread my
ass cheeks apart and as his tongue touched my nut sack from behind.  I
got lightheaded.  He licked and sucked on me from behind for a
while.  Then, his tongue began to explore some more.  He used one
hand to stroke my dick as his tongue moved farther up until I felt it graze
my asshole.  My body began to shake. Goosebumps crawled over my entire
body.  He flicked his tongue a few more times across my hole, then he
zeroed in on it.  He sucked at my ass unmercifully as he jacked my
dick.  I didn't know that ecstasy like the one I was experiencing even
existed.  I lost all reasonable thought by this time and was muttering
gibberish.  He moaned as he sucked my ass.  He continued for about
10-15 minutes before I knew I was about to blow my load.

     "Nick, I'm gonna cum, man.  Oh shit!  I'm gonna
come, man."  I yelled.

     "Turn over, Zuri."  He said, as he pushed me over on my
back and engulfed my dick.

     "Oh, Nick.  Don't stop.  Keep doing it.  I'm
about to cum.  AAWWWWWW, yeah.  Take it, man.  Eat my fucking
cum!"  And with that, I blew my load deep into his mouth.  Squirt
after squirt of cum erupted from my dick and he tried to swallow it
all.  He sucked as hard as I came.  He did manage to get most of it
down, but some of it escaped and was running down his chin.  He kept
sucking until the flow subsided to a dribble.  I laid there, trying to
catch my breath.  We were both panting.

     Finally, when I was able to rationally talk again, all I
could get out at first was, "Wow!" He chuckled, then I chuckled.

     "No one has ever made me feel like that."  I said. 
He got up off the bed and looked at me.  He looked so hot!

     "Come here!"  I said, as I pulled him to me.  I
kissed him hard, driving my tongue into his mouth.  I tasted my own cum
it.

     "I wanna do you now."  I said to him, after pushing him
away and looking into his eyes.  I could see the lust in them.

     "I wanna lay on my back while you do me."  He said. He
moved and laid on his back with his hairy legs already spread apart.  I
wanted so much to please him.  I lowered myself on the bed between his
legs and sucked his hard dick.  It had to be every bit of 8.5 inches and
thick as fuck.  I sucked him some more then lowered my head to his
nuts.  Sucking them must have really pleased him because his moans got
louder and louder.

     "Yeah, suck those fat nuts."  He ordered, as he placed
his hands on my head and massaged it. He must have really wanted his salad
tossed because as I sucked his nuts, he began to raise his legs. This was
my cue.  I sucked on his nuts, trying to get up the nerve to lick his
ass. 

     "Fuck it!"  I whispered to myself.  I took a deep
breath, pushed his legs up higher and stuck my tongue on his hole and
licked.  To my surprise it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. 
In fact, it wasn't bad at all.  I smelled a fresh, soapy fragrance down
there, much like the one I smelled in his pubic hairs.  I relaxed and
began tonguing his ass.  He loved it!  He was whimpering like a little
girl.  I laughed, as I dove deeper in his butt.

     "Oh, Zuri!  That's it, man.  Suck my ass, dude. 
Oh yeah, suck it!"  He whispered, breathing hard.  He was jacking his
dick a mile a minute.  I knew it wouldn't take him long to blow his
load.  Just as I was getting into eating his ass, he told me that he was
gonna cum.  I was about to tell him to cum while I ate his ass, but he'd
just swallowed my load and I had to return the favor.  I got up and took
his dick and put it in my mouth.  I jacked him and sucked on his
dickhead.

     "I'm cumming, Zuri.  Take it!"  He yelled.

     I closed my eyes tight and held my breath while I
jacked.  I heard him breathing hard.  He blew ropes of cum in my
mouth and immediately, without any thought, I began swallowing his cum. 
I was thinking that it was gonna be awful, but to my surprise, again, it
wasn't bad at all.  I liked it.  Actually, I wasn't quite sure if I
liked the taste of it or the fact that I was sucking him, but all I knew
was that I was enjoying my time with Nick.

     After he finished, I let his dick go and fell back on the
bed between his legs.

     "That was fucking awesome!"  He said.  (He liked
using the word 'fucking'.  What can I say?)

     "Yeah, it was."  I added.

     We laid there for a few more minutes in silence, trying to
gather our thoughts when he said, "Zuri, I like you a lot, man.  I like
you a helluva lot."  I could hear the sincerity in his voice.  I
don't know why, but I stiffened.

     "I feel that same, Nick.  I think you're a cool, guy."
                                                           
     "Hold up a moment.  I gotta take a leak."  He said.

     I moved so he could get off the bed.  He looked back at
me, bent down, stuck his tongue in my mouth and kissed me.  I sucked his
tongue into my mouth and savored the moment, all the while feeling that I'd
just done something wrong.   'What's wrong with me?'  I thought to
myself.

     "Be back in minute."  He said, as he headed to the
bathroom.

     Guilt had immediately taken me over.  "What have I
done?"  I whispered.  I got up off the bed and walked over to the
window and peered out into the darkness.

	When Nick walked back into the bedroom, I was looking out of the
window, lost in thought over what just happened between us.

	"You ok, Zuri?"  He asked, looking at me with a worried look on his
face.

	"I don't know.  I mean, this is new to me, man, and I'm not sure
how to deal with it."  I said, continuing to look out of the window.

	"Oh, man.  I'm sorry."  He said apologetically.  "I thought you
enjoyed what we did?  I know I did."

	"I did, too, dude.  That's the problem.  I honestly did and I know
this is something I wanted to do with you, but I'm just not sure how I am
feeling about it right now."

	"Is it me?  Did I do something wrong?"  He asked.

	"No, Nick. It has nothing to do with you.  You were awesome and I
don't regret what we did at all, but I'm just not sure what it says about
me.  I mean it's not everyday that a guy has to face the fact that he's
gay, all in a matter of days, you know?"

	"Zuri, what we just did does not necessarily mean that you're gay.
Let's just chalk it up to experimenting.  All dudes go through this, man or
at least they think about it."  He said, trying to make me feel better
about the entire situation.

	I turned and looked at him.  He had an agonizing look on his face,
like he'd done something that he's sorry about.  "Nick, sucking another
guy's dick, licking his butthole and swallowing his cum does make me gay,
especially if I enjoyed doing it.  How could I deny it, man?"

	He stood there for a moment in thought.  "Yeah, I know how you're
feeling.  What can I say?"

	"Listen, I'll be ok."  I smiled at him.  "Just something else to
get used to, I suppose.  I'll be fine."

	He walked closer to me but suddenly stopped. "So, where do we go
from here?"  I could tell by the look on his face that he wanted to say
something more, but didn't.

	His actions and facial expression made me smile and sorta giggle.
This guy must really care about me, I thought to myself.  "Nick, I'm ok,
man.  I just have to sort things out but we're cool.

	We were both quiet for a few moments.  "Nick, I think I need to get
on home."

	"You sure?"  He asked.  We could go and hang out in the village
with your friend or something.  I just really wish you would stay around a
little while.  Will you do that for me, please?"

	"Why is it so important to you for me to stay around?"  I asked,
knowing all along I was dying to stay.

	"You are important, man.  You're my friend and considering what
just happened between us, I just wanna spend more time with you."

	I could see the sincerity in his eyes.  My heart was thumping a
mile a minute.  I couldn't believe this was happening to me and most of all
with this dude that I'd only recently met.  `Do things happen like this?' I
thought to myself.  "Ok, we can hang for a while, but let me call my
parents first."  I said, reaching for my cell.

	{{{Ring, Ring.}}}  "Dad!  Hey, this is Zuri.  Would it be ok if I
hang out with Nick for while?  Mouse is staying at his dad's this weekend
in the village and we might go scoop him up and hang.  I'll be home later,
ok?  If we are out too late, I may spend the night over here.  I'll call
either way."  Nick was looking at me as pure delight spread across his
face.  This caused me to smile at him.  `This was gonna be a night to
remember.' I thought.  "Ok, Dad.  I love you.  Tell Mom I love her, too,
and I'll speak with you later.  Bye!"

	I hung up the phone.  "Dad said that it's ok.  So, what do you
wanna do?"

	"Let's shower and head on out."  He said.  "You can use my
bathroom; I'll use dad's."  He offered.

	"Why can't we shower together?"  I asked, moving closer to him.  "I
mean, I guess there's no use in us being shy now."  I stood in front of
him, and he bent down, planting a wet one on my lips.  `Damn, this dude
could kiss!' I thought.

	"Z, I like you a lot, man.  Everything will be ok, I swear it will.
I'll never do anything to hurt you and I'll always be here for you, if you
let me."

	This meant more to me than he could ever know.  I always needed
this type of friendship in my life and now here it is.  I guess it really
doesn't matter much from where it's coming along as I accept it, I thought.
"I'm sorry for freaking earlier, man.  I was just overwhelmed after what
happened.  You mean a lot to me, too, dude, but let's just keep this on the
down low, if you get my meaning."

	"Oh, you know it.  My business is nobody's business and I'll treat
your business like mine.  It's all good."

	"Thanks!"  We smiled at each other.

	"Zuri, I'm going through the same thing, dude.  We'll go through it
together, ok?"

	"Yeah, ok."

	We stood there hugging each other for a long moment.  I could
imagine how funny we would've look if someone would've seen us.

	"Let's shower."  He said, as he took my hand and led me into his
bathroom.  We both stepped out of our boxers.  Nick turned the shower on,
checking that the water was a nice temperature.

	"He motioned me in first and then he followed, pulling the curtain
behind him.  The water felt good as it sprayed all over my body.  Nick
grabbed the soap and standing directly behind me, began soaping my body.  I
felt his massive body pressing again me as my dick rose again to attention.
He must have been feeling the moment too because the next thing I knew his
dick was pressing into my back.  He turned me around to face him.  The
water sprayed over us as he leaned down to kiss me.  I was lost in his
warmth and his embrace.  I took the soap from him and lathered my hands.  I
reached out for his dick and stroked it. I got into a rhythm and he was
lost in ecstasy.  He threw his head back and his breath shortened.

	"Yeah, Zuri.  Oh, man.  Don't stop.  Please don't stop."  He kept
muttering as he held onto my shoulders with both hands.  "Oh yeah, Oh yeah
awwwww. I'm cumming."  This must have been an intense orgasm because he
shot four powerful burst of cum all over me.  I couldn't believe it.  He
had just cum a few minutes ago in the room.

     He regained his composure and looked at me.  "That shit
was good!"

     I smiled.  "I guess so."  I said, looking at the
thick cum running off of my leg and down the drain.  I looked back up at
him and stared directly at him.  He reached for my dick and began to
play with it.  It was already at attention.  I couldn't get enough of
this guy. 

     "Nicki!  Where are you?"  Someone shouted from out
in the living room.

     We froze.  "Shit!"  He whipered loudly. "It's my
dad."  He jumped out of the shower and ran to his bedroom, grabbing a
towel on his way out.

     I was paralyzed with fear.  I couldn't move.  This
couldn't be happening to me.  I listened hard to hear their
conversation. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity, Nick came back
into the bathroom.  He was smiling.

     "What the fuck?"  I asked.

     "It's ok.  He didn't come in my room.  He just
needed to pick something up before heading out with his girl."  Nick
said calmly.  "He didn't even ask about you, so no worries, ok?"

     I let out a deep breath.  "Yeah, Ok."  I answered.

     We stared a moment at each other and then burst out
laughing.  He howled.   "Man, let's finish showering and head on
out."  He said. 

     "Cool!"  He got back into the shower and we washed each
other off.  When we were finished, we headed back to his room.  He
dried me off and I dried him.  He got a serious look on his face.

	"I waited all my life for something like this."  He said.  "I just
never quite pictured it with a dude, but seeing that it is, I'm happy as
fuck that it's with you."

	"I know what you mean."  I answered, putting on my shoes.

	We were both dressed and after leaving his dad a note, we left.  We
spent the night hanging out in the village with Mouse.  Nick and Mouse
really bonded.  We were like the Three Musketeers.

	"Mouse, you're a really cool guy."  Nick said.  "Most of Zuri's
friends, for some reason, don't like me.  Especially that girl named
Stace."

	"Aw, don't worry about them.  Of all of Z's friends, I'm the only
that you have to worry about."  He said smiling and winking at me.  Mouse
was the biggest jokester.  That made all three of us laugh.

	"Well, I'm glad I meet your approval."  Nick said.

	"Not a problem!"

	"Ok, now that we have that understood, what do you two wanna do
now?"  I asked.

	"Who knows."  Mouse answered.  "It's about 1:30.  You guys can
crash at my place.  My dad and his girl are in the Pocono's this weekend.
We'll have the place to ourselves."

	"Cool," I said "let me call my parents."

	"Yeah, me too."  Nick added.


	After we both got okays from our parents, we headed over to Mouse's
place.  We stopped off at the pizzeria and picked up a large pizza.  When
we got there, Mouse got some drinks for us and we sat around and talked.
It was nice seeing my best friend and new friend being really cool with
each other.  We talked for a little while about different things.  Mouse
and Nick had a lot in common.  I mentioned that we'd gone to see X2 and
that sparked another in-depth conversation.

	"Man, I hear that movie was off the hook."  Mouse stated.

	"Oh yeah.  It was good."  Nick and I replied.

	"Why didn't you call and invite me to go?"

	"The thought didn't cross my mind, Mouse.  Sorry, man."  I said.

	"Aw, not a problem.  Next time make sure that you invite the kid,
ok?"  He said.

	"You got it."  I said.

	I think we all yawned and stretched in unison after eating the
pizza.  It had been a long day, despite the nap Nick and I took.

	"You two can crash on the living room floor if you like.  I'll get
some blankets for you."

	"Cool!"  I said.

	Mouse came back in the living room with some blankets and Nick and
I made a padding on the floor.

	"If you guys need anything, help yourself.  I'll be in my room."
Mouse said.

	"Night, man."

	"Night."  Mouse went into his room and closed the door.

	Nick and I stripped down to our boxers and laid on the padding on
the floor.  We knew Mouse was still up so we just talked.  I was hot for
him and he was for me, too.  I noticed the bulge in his boxers and I know
he noticed mine.  He reached over and tried to grab me, but I stopped him.

	"Mouse is still up.  We need to chill.  I don't want him walking in
and catching us."  I said.

	"Yeah, that wouldn't be cool."  He said.

	After talking for a few more minutes, we must have drifted off to
sleep because the next thing I know, Nick was lying close to me and
squeezing my dick.  It immediately rose to attention.  I looked at the
clock and it read 5:40 am.  We'd been asleep over two hours.

	"Don't you ever get enough?"  I said to him still sleepy.

	"Not enough of you."

	"Come on, man.  Mouse is in the next room.  He might come out."  I
said smiling somewhat.  "We don't need to do this."

	He sighed.  "Ok." He said.  He kissed me, forcing his tongue into
my mouth.  I gladly opened and accepted it.  Man, I loved kissing him.  He
pulled away temporarily.  "I'm glad that we met, Zuri.  I'm really enjoying
my time with you.  More than I thought I would."

	"I feel the same way."  I said to him.

	We kissed a while longer then I told him that we'd better stop
before we got caught.  He kissed me once more and then he pulled back.  We
laid there, facing each other.  We both stared at each without saying a
word.  Eventually, we both dozed off.

	I woke up to the sound off someone walking around.  The noise was
coming from the direction of the kitchen.

	"Hey Mouse!"  I called out.

	"Yeah!"  He answered.  "I'm in the kitchen.  You hungry?"

	"Yeah, I'm starving."  I said.

	"What about Nick?  I'm fixing some breakfast now."

	I looked over at Nick and he shook his head yes.  "Yeah, he's
hungry, too."  I shouted.

	"Cool, I'll bring you two something to eat in a few."

	Nick and I got up and went to the bathroom to wash up.  We had no
toothbrush, so we used our fingers and toothpaste to clean our teeth as
best we could.  We also shared a washcloth to wash our faces.  The whole
scene was funny to me.  We laughed and played around a little bit before
returning to the living room.  When we got back, Mouse had prepared us a
nice breakfast.  I thought this was really cool of him.  This was a side of
Mouse that I'd never seen before.  I mean he is cool and all, but I just
never imagined him serving breakfast.

	"Wow!  This is cool."  I said, walking into his living room.  "You
didn't have to do all this."

	"Man, this is nice."  Nick added.

	Mouse looked a little out of it but nonetheless he was cordial.  He
wasn't as talkative as he was last night.  I just figured he was tired or
something.  We all sat there and ate.  Nick and I monopolized most of the
conversation.

	Noticing how quiet Mouse was, I turned my attention to him.
"Mouse, you ok?  You look like you don't feel well."

	" I'm ok."  He seemed to be in deep thought about something.

	"You sure?"

	"Yeah man, I'm fine."

	We finished breakfast and cleared the table, thanking Mouse for his
hospitality.  He told us that we were welcome, but was acting so strangely.
Immediately my mind began to wonder, but I quickly squashed that thought.

	"Mouse, can I use your bathroom again?"  Nick asked.

	"Yeah, help yourself, man," Mouse said.

	Nick left me and Mouse alone.  We both sat back down at the table.

	"Mouse, what's wrong, man?  I know you.  Something's up."

     He looked at me for a moment.  "Let me ask you a question. What was
all that about last night with you and Nick?"  Mouse said, looking nervous.

    	 "What are you talking about?"  I answered, hoping that he was not
referring to what I think he was referring.

  	  "Come on, man.  You know what I'm talking about.  What's going on
between you and your boy?"

 	 "Nothing!  What are you talking about??"  I had the nervous laugh
thing going on.

     We looked at each other for a moment.  "Listen, I'm your friend and I
don't appreciate being lied to, especially from my best friend.  Now, you
can tell me it's none of my business and I'll accept that, but don't tell
me that there is nothing when I know that there is."

     Just then Nick walked back in the room and noticed immediately that
something wasn't right.  "What's wrong?"  He asked, looking from me to
Mouse and back to me.

     Mouse sat back in his chair, folded his arms across his chest and
looked up at him. "Yeah, suppose you tell me wassup?  My best friend here
seems to take me for an idiot.  I know something is up with you and Z, but
he won't tell me."  Mouse stared at Nick intently.  Nick looked at me with
a somewhat embarrassing look on his face.  "Suppose you enlighten me?"
Mouse said.

     "Mouse, I think you're jumping to conclusions, dude."  I said, trying
to assure him that nothing was up.  I hated lying to him but I wasn't quite
ready to risk anyone finding out about me and Nick.

     "Bullshit!"  He yelled at me. "You're such a liar, Z.  I saw you two
last night.  I got up to go the bathroom and saw dude here laying over you
and you under him.  He kissed you and you kissed him back.  You know, the
type of kiss that guys give girls.  Then, he said something about how lucky
he was to have met you.  How can you deny that shit?"  I could tell he was
pissed.

     I was stunned.  I didn't know that he was anywhere around.  My heart
was racing and my eyes began to tear up.  I didn't know what to say.  I
looked at Nick and he looked equally stunned.  I had a bad feeling in the
pit of my stomach.

     "Listen!"  He said, "I have no hang ups about gay people or what they
do.  Shit, I lived half my life in the Village and have known lots of gay
people.  It's no big deal. I don't have a problem with it.  I just wanna
know wassup with you two?  You two like a couple?  Are you two gay?  And if
you are, why haven't you ever told me?"  He was shooting off questions a
mile a minute.

     "Mouse, it's complicated."  I answered.

     "It's not complicated.  You either smoke meat pole or you don't."  He
said, as a wide grin began to spread across his face.

     I didn't find that analogy quite as humorous as he did.  He must have
noticed this by the look on my face.

     "Yo, man.  Chill!  I was only joking.  I ain't got a problem with you
doing your thing.  It's your life."

     "So, you don't hate me or are disgusted with me?"  I asked him
pitifully.

     "Hell no, man.  You're my dude.  You know I love you, but I do have a
question.  If you two just met a few days ago, how did all of this happen
so quickly?"

     "Your guess is as good as mine."  Nick said.  This was the first time
he'd said anything since returning from the bathroom.

     "Yeah," I said, "it just seemed right.  I'd never had those thoughts
about a guy before but all of a sudden it happened."

     "Me either, but like Z said, it just sorta happened.  You know,
chemistry."  Nick added.

     "I know how that can happen. Cool, and don't worry, your secret is
safe with me.  Just you two butt pirates leave my ass alone."  He said
laughing, covering his butt with his hands.

     I could tell that he was fine with it.  I decided to take it farther.
"Oh Mouse, you know I've always wanted you." I said, as I got up from my
chair and grabbed him and tried to kiss him.

     "Rape, rape!"  He screamed laughing.

     I grabbed him in a bear hug and wrestled him to the floor.  We were
rolling around like kids.  Nick joined in and the three of us had a good
time playing around.  It seemed now that I could finally share my feelings
with someone that I cared about.  Mouse was a friend and I felt safe and
comfortable that he knew.  I just wanted so much to share this with Keni,
but wasn't quite sure how he'd handle it.  Judging from his behavior over
the last few days, I don't think he'd take it well at all.

     "This was a lot to take-in in one day."  Mouse said, as he stopped the
horse playing.

     "I know.  Sorry that you had to walk in on us."  Nick said
apologetically.  "We should have been more thoughtful in your house."

     "It's just that this is new to us, dude, and so far, we really like
being together."  I added.

     "Let me ask you two another question."  Mouse said.  I should have
seen this coming.  "Have you two done it yet?  I mean, have you two
butt-fucked yet?"

     "Why?"  I asked laughing.  Nick was laughing, too.

     "I just wanna know."  He said smiling.

     "Are you interested?"  Nick asked.

     "No way, buddy.  This is an exit only ass." he said, pointing toward
his butt.  "And that shit hurts bad enough."

     "We'll talk about his later, Mouse.  We really need to get going.  Dad
told me to be home this morning, so I need to get going."

     "Yeah, me too."  Nick added.  "Mouse, thanks for letting us crash here
last night and for being cool about me and Zuri.  I wish my friends were as
cool as you are."

     "Well, consider me a friend, man.  Just don't do anything to hurt my
boy, Z, and we'll be alright."

     "Wouldn't dream of it.  Zuri is becoming too special for that."  He
smiled at me.  I caught the sincerity in his eyes, as he looked at me.

     "Mouse," I said, "I'll give you a call later this afternoon, ok?"

     "Yeah, I'll be here for a while but I gotta trek back to Mom's
tonight.  School tomorrow, you know!"

     "Ok, I'll call you there."

     Nick and I got up to leave.  "So, are you two like boyfriends now?"
Mouse asked.

     "No," both Nick and I said in unison.

      "We're just getting to know each other."  Nick said.  We smiled at
each other and I felt another electric shock run through my body.  I know
he felt the same thing.  Mouse must have noticed this.

     "You two really need to get a room."  He said laughing.

     "Bye, man."  I said, giving him a tight hug.  "You're a real friend,
man."

     "Yeah, thanks again."  Nick said.  They shook hands

     We left Mouse's apartment and headed to the subway.

     "Your friend, Mouse, is too cool.  I almost shitted my pants when he
said he'd caught us last night.  I was sure he was about to go off."

     "Yeah, Mouse is cool, but I gotta admit, I was a little worried about
how he might react to finding us."

     We were quiet for a moment, and then he said something that caught me
off guard.

     "Do you wanna try going together?  I know how this sounds, but after
Mouse mentioned it, it made me think.  I know we're both new to this and
we've only known each other for a few days, but I feel good about it."

     I looked at him.  "Nick, we can't go together, man.  I like you a lot
but I don't think I'm ready to go down that road quite yet."  I answered,
not quite sure how I was feeling about it at all.

     "Come on.  You know you like me, and I damn sure like you.  What's the
problem?"

     "Let's just give it a little more time, Nick.  I'm not going anywhere
and neither are you.  We'll see where this goes, cool?"

     "Ok, but I'm gonna bug your ass about it until you give in."

     I smiled at him and he smiled back at me.  "Thanks for this weekend,
Zuri.  I don't think I've ever had one quite like it."

     "You can say that again."  I laughed.

     We caught the train and headed back uptown.  This time we were both
able to get seats on the train.  We sat next to each other and talked about
what had happed to us over the past 24 hours.

     "So, you wanna come to my party Friday night?"  I asked.

     "What party?" he asked.

     "I thought that I'd mentioned that Keni and I were having our 18th
birthday party this coming Friday night."

     "No, you didn't or at least I don't remember you mentioning it.
Either way, I'll come, but will your brother have a problem with it.  He
doesn't seem to be keen on me and neither does your other friend."

     "Don't worry about it.  I told him that I was gonna invite you and he
doesn't have a problem with it."

     "What about your other friends?  That girl Stace definitely has a
problem with me."

     "Nick, this is not Stace's party; it's mine and I want you to be
there.  Forget her!  She's not important."  I said to him.  "Listen, why
don't you just hook up with Mouse and you two can come together.  I'll give
him your cell number or you can wait to see him at school and you two can
set something up."

     "Ok, cool!  I'll be there."  He said.

     We talked a little while longer about things in general.  My stop was
coming up, but he had a few more stops to go.  Before the train got to my
stop, Nick reached for my hand.  Luckily, no one noticed.

     "Thanks again for everything, Zuri.  This entire weekend meant a lot
to me.  You know I'm gonna miss you today."

     "Same here, Nicki."  I said.

     "Nick."  He said, "Not Nicki.  Only my dad calls me Nicki."

     I laughed, "Ok, Nick."

     The train began slowing and I stood.  "I'll give you a call later,
ok?"  I said, looking down at him.

     "Make sure that you do."  He said, looking at me with those dazzling
ice blue eyes and that bright smile.

     "That's so lame."  I said, smiling to him.

     He winked at me and I turned to leave.  After getting off of the
train, I turned to see him staring at me through the window.  I smiled and
he smiled back at me.  This was gonna be great, I thought to myself.  As
the train began to roll again, he winked again.  I laughed and wondered if
I was his boyfriend, how would my life change.  I turned and walked out of
the station.