************************************************************** * A Story Outline for Jake * * (part 2) * * (Correspondence between Luke and myself) * ************************************************************** | Copyright 2005 by Vince Water March 18, 2006 | -------------------------------------------------------------- 4/13/05 Vince wrote: Thank you for providing me with the information I needed about Jake. It seems that to get him legally into Winna's hands will take a bit of story time: a SD court appearance and then that flight to Montana. Not even wild horses could keep Winna from going to SD herself to meet her sister's son and obtain guardianship of him. Mike himself couldn't do this as you would like. Also, I agree with your colleague that the school would be wrong to 'dump' Jake after his John claims the boy had stolen from him. That in itself doesn't make sense as the man would himself be in much more trouble with the police for being in a position where the boy could have stolen from him. Jake would say that the man wanted/had sex with him in his defense. We need to come up with some good reason why the school would release Jake into his next-of-kin's hands - Winna. Not from the boy getting into trouble with his John which would become part of his discharge report. I'd want to keep that part of his life hidden until Mike learns of this from Gleaning, Jessie Peers into his cousin's head or Jake himself admits that he's prostituted to them at a later time. I like your suggestion that Jake's school would send a letter to Mrs. Winnapah in care of the Blackfoot Nation. Elder Quiet-before-the-dawn in his role as their legalist would receive it, open the letter and read the contents which would mention that Jake is Judy's son. The Elder realizes that Winna is the person it was meant to go to. 'Winnapah' is a common name used by women in the tribe. Judy was Winna's sister so that clinches it in his mind. As to WHY the SD school would want to find Mrs. Winnapah has yet to be determined by us. Perhaps Judy was found dead (murdered? O.D. on drugs?) and from I.D. found on her, it ties up with that old FBI missing person's report filed by Winna or their parents when Judy had ran away from home. The police investigation would find court records that Judy had transferred guardianship of Jake to that SD school so they inform them of his mother's death year(s) earlier that was becoming a cold case. The school informs Jake of his mother's death and in his records, they find Mrs. Winnapah listed as next-of-kin when Judy had filled out her son's entrance papers to the school when he was five. A photograph had been taken of Judy during the legal process when she transferred guardianship over to the school. This will help prove that Judy IS Winna's sister. What do you think about this as being the motive for the school getting in contact with Winna? 4/16/05 Luke's response to the above paragraph: I think that this is an excellent idea. Given Judy's lifestyle it is certainly quite feasible that she overdosed accidentally or maybe even died of AIDS. Since she was both using drugs and prostituting herself, it is unlikely that she would have lived very long. And, yes, they might have been able to trace Jake back through the system and eventually found out where Jake is living. Now that she's dead and given what they found out or suspect about Jake's sexual activities with older men for money, they decide it's time to send him back to his family. Jake is a likeable kid at the school and maybe they would have kept him under other circumstances but given their fears of his sexual behavior becoming widely known and the scandal it might cause particularly in view of the sexual abuse crisis among priests in the Catholic Church, they want him gone. I don't know if a photograph would have been taken of Judy when she turned him over to the school but that's a good idea. Anyway I think your idea about this really works well. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: Jake, obviously, is in grief to learn that his mother is indeed dead. He suspected it since she never came back to see him as she promised. A way to get Jake quickly into NtTL would be that the school is giving the boy leave to be with his aunt over this tragic news. Winna would still have to go to SD to assure the school that she IS Jake's aunt, a photo of her sister that matches what they have would work. Mike would go with to support her and be in a position to Glean things from Dr. Karl and Charlie as you've outlined to me. Jes would come too. They bring this disheartened youth home to Montana on leave from school to deal with his grief with family. Transferring guardianship and all that entails could come later. I don't want to delay your character's entrance into NtTL any longer! A leave of absence from school would work. I'm thinking that if Winna, M&J have gone to all the trouble of flying down to SD, why not extend their visit with the grieving Jake to Saturday and just get that transfer of guardianship over and done with on Friday in court there. Again, the school must have a compelling reason to do so. 4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs: Yes, Jake wouldn't have been completely shocked to hear about his mother's death. However to have it confirmed would really shake him up. He would probably have to work hard to cover over his grief and tears. Maybe he would have been able to confide in Dr. Karl and allow himself to cry with him. Maybe also with Charlie. I think that Winna, Mike, and Jessie all going to South Dakota is nice from a number of points of view. For one thing they would have this one chance to experience Jake on his home turf. Also they would have the chance to meet and talk with Dr. Karl, Charlie, and maybe others. I'm just thinking that it would be expensive for the three of them to fly there and for the four of them to fly back. Who would pay for this? Mike? Beyond this, however, it would certainly give Mike and Jessie the chance to "read" or intuit what Dr. Karl and Charlie might not be saying. It is certainly reasonable that they could meet both. Dr. Karl might have been called by Jake once he learned of his mother's death and of the school plan to contact Winna and send him back to Montana. Dr. Karl would have been heart broken to think of losing Jake and might have come up with some excuse to come to the school to see Jake and comfort him. Maybe the school's social worker would have suggested that some or all of the three-some meet with Dr. Karl to get a copy of Jake's medical records. Maybe Dr. Karl would have assured them that he almost felt like a "father" to Jake and would miss him terribly. Maybe he and Jake had been in e-mail contact or something and that would give them a way of continuing contact once Jake goes back to Montana. The Jesuits are very "literate" religious order and would have done a good job at educating their charges at the school. Jake probably would be well read, well spoken (if he wanted to), and clearly able to use a computer easily. Maybe Jessie would glean that what Dr. Karl was not saying was that he had given Jake medical tests for HIV and also for STDs-he was "clean" on all counts. Jessie might glean why Dr. Karl did all this testing and of the fact that Dr. Karl had sex with Jake many times and that the sex was filled with love although Jake was not consciously aware of it. Also I think that it make much more sense from a time, travel, and money point of view to get the transfer of guardianship over and one with on Friday while they are there in South Dakota. The school would have done this "guardianship" stuff a lot given the number of kids coming and going at the school. They probably have an attorney-maybe somebody who volunteers time to the school-who handles this for them. Maybe the court makes things easy and a judge or magistrate arranges a hearing in his/her chambers and it's all easy and almost automatic. So, yes, I do think it makes sense for Winna to leave Rosebud School having full guardianship of Jake. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: Why did Jake turn tricks? For the money, the excitement and/or his innermost need to find a loving father figure? You mentioned that he stopped having 'fun' with other boys in his dorm to get it on with men. He likes having sex with those older than himself. They're mature, have more developed bodies and Jake likes the 'power' and attention he gets by being with them as he'd felt in his childhood when having fondling sex with some of his mother's tricks. What did Jake do with the money he 'earned'? Buy gifts for Charlie, a neat stereo system and expensive gym shoes for himself or save that money? Did the school notice that Jake had a lot of pocket money and from rumors, learn that he was prostituting himself hence their secret motive to transfer guardianship to Winna after Jake's leave of absence? Winna would want to have her sister's son with her and the school easily agrees to do so. Another motive: They've been supporting Jake all these years and Catholic schools are going broke as we know. Gotta pay off all them lawsuits of priests molesting boys... They're happy to get the boy back to his family and that's one less mouth to feed, clothe and send through school. What do you think? 4/16/05 Luke's response to the above paragraph: Yes, you are exactly correct in what you're saying about Jake's motivation in turning tricks. I don't know exactly how he started. He's a bright boy and had been having "fun" with other boys at the school. It wasn't a tough transition to go from "fun" with boys to making money doing it. Maybe some guy surprised him while he was in town when he was 12 or so by offering him money for letting the guy blow him or vice-versa. Jake quickly realized that he could make money by doing what he liked anyway. The Jesuits had taught him to be the best at whatever he did-school work, sports, and so forth. So he just applied this to his sex-for-money behavior and became a very skilled prostitute. I'm not sure what Jake did with his money. Obviously he couldn't turn it in to the school! Maybe he could somehow hide it but given the fact of this being a boarding school, that would be risky. In one of my earlier letters to you I suggested that maybe he gave it to Dr. Karl to hold onto for him. This would certainly keep the money safe until Jake needed it. Since Dr. Karl was one of Jake's "johns", he certainly knows of Jake's sex-for-money activities. Also it might mean that he would want to get the money back from Dr. Karl before he leaves South Dakota. Or maybe Dr. Karl assures him that he will send him whatever money he needs through a money order or something like that. Jake certainly trusts him and knows intuitively that Dr. Karl would never cheat him. It's likely that he did buy some gifts for Charlie and some things for himself. However, he would have to be careful not to attract attention at the school or they would quickly realize that he had this alternate source of money. Maybe this is, in fact, what happened and how they discovered that he was turning tricks. Maybe he had a locker or something in town where he would keep clothes he would change into when he would turn tricks. Maybe he was building up a nest egg of money for whenever he decided to make his break with the school. Yes, you're right. They have been supporting Jake all these years. The funding for the school probably comes from some combination of donations to the Jesuit missions from generous folks elsewhere in the US, maybe some funds from the Indian Nation itself (do they have casinos?), and maybe some from the Bureau of Indian Affairs in Washington, DC. But costs would have been going up. There would have been fewer and fewer Jesuits to staff the school for essentially no pay so they would have to operate more and more with paid lay people and some volunteers. So all this would motivate the school to unload Jake given the opportunity. Maybe they have been paying off lawsuits for sexual molestation and that sucked up much of the available money. Anyway, all this would be true. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: If you agree with what I've outlined or can come up with something else that would grant Jake a sudden leave of absence from his nearing end to Spring classes, this is how events would fit in NtTL time: Elder Quiet-before-the-dawn delivers the school's letter to Winna on Monday evening. From work on Tuesday, she calls the SD school to speak with the school master and also speaks with Jake. They agree to give the boy a sudden leave of absence but she must come to them with proof that Judy was her sister. Jake cannot simply fly to Montana on his own as I'd originally planned. Winna would want to fly out to see Jake as quickly as she can. This obviously would be a 3-4 day trip there and back: Wednesday morning to Friday or Saturday evening. To get Mike to travel with Winna means that the judge at Monday's court session hearing motions from both the prosecutor and defense will take them under consideration with Mike's next court appearance being on Monday, May 12th where his legal woes come to an end. It make sense that the judge would take a week to schedule Mike's next court appearance instead of only three days later (I'd originally planned it to be Thursday, May 8th). 4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs: This all sounds fine with me. Yes, Mike would be taking a chance. However, I sure hope he can travel and get back without anybody "official" finding out. It would be important that he be there with Winna and Jessie. Also he would probably be a great help to Winna in dealing with all these folks at the school and also in the court system. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: Not to confuse matters, I should mention that Mike will be breaking the terms of his bail by traveling out of the circuit court's district without permission. Only Mike's attorney will realize this after his client's return. Jake's entrance into NtTL would come Wednesday evening, May 7th. Thursday is spent packing some clothes, saying bye to friends (Charlie) and teachers though they think he'll be returning after leave. If transfer of guardianship happens on Friday, Jake will be making his big goodbye to everyone and cleaning out his room. 4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs: Yes, this is what I think, too. The good-byes from the life he has known for these 11 years in addition to feeling the grief of knowing that his mother is dead and how she died would make Jake a very upset kid. It all is happening so fast. And he's leaving for Montana for a life and family he doesn't know yet. He's leaving Dr. Karl and Charlie. He's leaving all his friends and all the experiences he's had. He probably feels like screaming. He may feel like sobbing, He may feel like running away. Maybe Dr. Karl has told him to go with Winna and his mother's family-that this would be the best thing for him. They will keep in touch by e-mail. Maybe Dr. Karl promises him that he will come to see him in Montana in a few months after he has gotten settled there. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: We're not going to play him as a cool hard-heart character (from his prostitution experiences) but more soft now that he's found family (Judy's sister) and grieving over his mom's death (if you agree to this story plot incident). Obviously, Jake will keep his secret life away from school from being known. That's behind him now. Does this hick town of Havre even have a 'sex strip' where Johns cruise along for pretty boys? How easily will it be for Jake to give up prostitution? Why did he do it in the first place? 4/16/05 Luke's response: This would fit in with Jake character. On the outside he might act like the tough guy but given all he's gone through in the past week-learning of his mother's death, learning that his aunt has been contacted and is coming for him, learning that he is leaving the school, learning that he is leaving Dr. Karl and Charlie, learning that guardianship of him is being officially transferred to Winna so that he will never be returning to the school-all these things would easily almost overwhelm anybody but certainly a 16 year old boy like Jake. Yes, he would keep his secret life away from school from being known. Your idea is good that when he sees Havre he realizes that it's a much smaller place than he thought. Any thoughts about turning tricks there would be unrealistic. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: Oh. I need to know how devote a Catholic Jake is. Will he feel compelled or want to attend church on Sundays? Gotta confess them sins of beating off to the Father while in Jake's case, has he confessed sucking on a guy, getting sucked and asshole play with tongue and fingering? He'd be muttering Hail Mary's night and day in penance! I've heard that when boys get older, they stop confessing beating off and in this day and age, the boy's parents would have warned him not to say anything during confessional that would give the priest a 'thrill'. I'm sorry for making that pot shot. Back to my main point. How does Jake feel about his religion? Mike is Lutheran Christian which shares many of his beliefs and religious practices when compared to Blackfoot teachings. Winna would NOT thrust them onto Jake if he upholds his Catholic upbringing. Mike has come to learn that his God is the same as the Blackfoot's. I think that grandfather had told Mike that his People consider Jesus a great teacher sent to the People by his Father. 4/16/05 Luke's response: I haven't really thought about how devout a Catholic Jake is before you asked. Given that this is a Catholic institution and run by the Jesuits, I'm guessing that all of the kids there would have had to go to Mass and would have been educated as Catholics. The Jesuits are very good at that. However, I doubt that Jake is a "devout Catholic" despite his being required to be at Mass. Yes, he probably would have gone to confession but probably would have discovered some years ago that he didn't really want to "confess" the sexual things he was doing. Maybe he didn't feel he was doing anything wrong. My own thought is that Jake is probably educated pretty well in theology from the Jesuits. He's a bright boy. He will probably get into some kind of "discussion" with Grandfather or somebody else in Montana if the subject of religion comes up. However if/when Winna asks him if he wants to go to Mass on a Sunday when they get back to Havre, Jake would probably say "no". And I would imagine that he would be very interested in whatever Native religion he encounters back in Montana. But I do not think he would be particularly devout. I do not think he would think of himself as being "sinful" in terms of having sex with other guys even for money. I know this is not what the Catholic religion teaches but Jake has begun to leave that behind him long ago. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: What is the name of Jake's school? I've just caught your desire to use 'rosebud' as that's a very nice part of a man, eh? Who are the Jesuits in reference to the Catholic Church? I know that Jesuit missionaries went into South American to Christianize the savages in the jungle. And they were responsible for taking Native children away from their families to 'modernize' them in white ways, cutting off their long hair, wearing clothes and forbidding their People's religion even to punishing those who spoke in the Native language. Now, they're helping these poor kids with religion and education that wouldn't otherwise obtain. 4/16/05 Luke's response: I don't know the exact name of the school. Probably it would be "Rosebud School" or maybe "Rosebud Indian Mission School". And it would be run by the Jesuits. The Jesuits are like the "Catholic Marine Corps". They were founded by St. Ignatius Loyola who was a soldier. He founded his religious order, called officially "The Society of Jesus", along military lines. They go through a very long period of training and education-maybe 13 to 15 years-before every being ordained a priest. They run colleges and high schools in addition to being missionaries. They founded and run Georgetown University in Washington, for example. Robert Drinan is a Jesuit priest who was the elected Representative to Congress from Massachusetts until our dearly departed Pope ordered all priests, nuns, and brothers out of politics. I think what you're referring to is the movie "The Mission" starring Jeremy Irons, Robert DeNiro, and Liam Niesson. In that movie the Jesuits were operating a mission in Brazil and were educating the Indians including teaching them music. The Portuguese authorities did not like this at all because that meant that they couldn't take away the Indians for slaves. The Jesuits were strongly protective of the Indians and effectively stopped the slave trade much to the fury of the slave traders. A Cardinal came from Rome to tell the Jesuits to close down the mission and get out of the country. They decided to stick with the Indians and were all murdered by the soldiers. One of the most famous Jesuit missionaries was St. Francis Xavier who was the guy after whom the order of Brothers that I belonged to was named. We were not Jesuits, though, before you ask! Also the Jesuits do have Indian missions here in this country. I actually think that they have one among the Rosebud Sioux Indians although I am not sure. That's where that name came from and NOT from the other reference you suggest although that is a very interested connection! The Jesuits provide quality education so it is very likely that Jake has gotten an excellent education at the Rosebud Indian Mission School. While Jake has taken care to try to perfect his body, the Jesuits would have been sure that his mind was "perfected". So although Jake might be able to talk like a typical teenager, he is probably also able to speak in a very sophisticated way. This is probably how he talks to Dr. Karl after their initial sexual encounters when he would have been using his "tough guy" persona. I imagine that whenever he does this with Winna, Mike, and Jessie it will blow them away. Jake is a very bright, well educated young man so far. I also imagine that he will find high school in Havre to be boring compared to the intellectual stimulation of his Jesuit school. Maybe somebody at his new high school will become interested in Jake and get him involved in some kind of "honors program" or "advanced placement courses". We'll talk more about this later. The Jesuits have several very well known high schools in the Washington area, for instance - Gonzaga High School very near the Nation's Capitol and Georgetown Prep School which is in suburban Maryland. It costs a lot of money to go to either of these schools - money that many parents, both Catholic and non-Catholic alike, are happy to pay given the quality education that their sons receive. There are big waiting lists to get into both schools. Jake and his fellow students in South Dakota would be getting this same quality education "for free". 4/13/05 Vince wrote: During their short stay in SD, how does M&J meet Dr. Karl or at the very least, how does that man learn that Jake is leaving for Montana? Perhaps Jake goes alone to say his goodbye to this man and upon his return to the school, Jessie picks up on his cousin's sadness and learns why. We have to give Jes a chance to employ his abilities instead of using Mike all the time! 4/16/05 Luke's response: As I said earlier, I think that M&J might meet Dr. Karl in the context of obtaining a copy of Jake's medical record to take with them back to Montana and to give to whatever doctor would be treating Jake in the future-like maybe that Indian doctor who came to treat Jessie when he had the "flu". Maybe Dr. Karl had told the headmaster at the school that he would like to meet them when they come to get Jake. Maybe Dr. Karl wanted to check them out to be sure that they are good people and weren't people who would abuse Jake or something. Dr. Karl might have learned that Jake is leaving for Montana through a call or an e-mail from Jake. Probably the school has lots of computers which were donated by corporate donors when they junked large numbers of computers and equipment for newer ones. Or maybe the headmaster's office called Dr. Karl to tell him that Jake would be leaving and to make a copy of his medical records so that the people coming from Montana could pick them up. In any case, I think that Dr. Karl probably also wants to impress on W, M & J that Jake is a good kid and they should take good care of him. Maybe J or M in gleaning how deeply Jake and Dr. Karl feel about each other will say something about Dr. Karl being welcome to come to Montana to visit if he wants. 4/13/05 Vince wrote: I have a good physical description of Jake and he would have short hair, wouldn't he because the school would demand this? I still need a 'feel' of how Jake acts and talks. If you could give me some dialog of how he speaks, the expressions on his face and body language, that will really help. For example, when Winna asks her nephew what he remembers about his mom (though that was at age 5), what exactly does he say about Judy? Please give me a word-for-word dialog. 4/16/05 Luke's response: I am drawing a blank in how to respond to this. Maybe Jake will be largely unresponsive at first. Maybe he will give only one word answers or not answer at all. After all he is very upset about all these sudden changes in his life which are all experiences of loss plus one of "gain" - moving to Montana to be with his family for the first time in his life. I imagine that he's scared and maybe a bit panicky. Probably Jake would not look any of them in the eye when they were talking to him but when the focus was temporarily off of him - like when they were talking to the headmaster or something - he would be looking at them intently. I imagine that when Winna asks Jake what he remembers about his mom, he might say at first "I don't want to talk about that." I think he will talk about his mom only after he is on the way to Montana. Don't forget, he just found out that she's dead and he will be on the edge of tears-tears that he is desperately trying not to shed because he does not want to look "weak". That's why I suggested in an earlier letter that maybe he could talk with Mike and, perhaps, cry with him. In the context of NtL and NtTL, Mike has certainly shed some tears and has been told by RW, Grandfather, and others to not do that. Mike would understand Jake's tears and just hold him without criticism but maybe acknowledging that he understands how it's not OK for Indian men to cry. W, M & J would probably rent a car at the airport and drive to the school. They would go directly to the Headmaster's office. He is the head of the school and might be a Jesuit priest or maybe a layman. They would also talk with the school Social Worker who would brief them on Jake's background. Maybe she (I'm guessing that it's a "she") would have the Social Worker who was there when Jake was first left there by Judy. Maybe she snapped a Polaroid photo of Judy which was put into Jake's file. After all, it's only been 11 years since Judy dropped him off and it's very realistic to find somebody still working there after that period of time. And it is the Social Worker who would talk about them needing to get Jake's medical records from Dr. Karl. It is also probably she who would go with them to the court to change the guardianship. Probably she's somebody who's well known at the court and is on a first name basis with the judges, magistrates, attorneys and other personnel at the court. When W, M, J & J fly back to Montana, the guardianship change should be complete and there would be no reason for anybody to return to South Dakota. Jake would probably be able to get all of his possessions into a duffle bag or large back pack. Maybe Jake has been keeping a journal of his thoughts, feelings, and experiences and that's in his duffle bag. Maybe he would eventually give it to Mike and/or Jessie to read. You predicted that Jake and his story would really grab me. It certainly has! I will look forward to hearing back from you on all this. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: Your last letter was very good in helping to answer my questions about Jake. Okay. I'm glad that you agree to my clarifications regarding Jake and here's some more solidifications about him: * I'd think Jake would have been closer to 14 or 15 when he began turning tricks. Any younger, and he'd still look too young for his Johns to dare 'play' with least they risk going to jail. Maybe Jake passed himself off as 'almost 18' to his Johns to assure them they wouldn't get into trouble. If Jake had been prostituting himself for too many years, he'd have been corrupted by drugs and alcohol (like his mother) and have caught a disease such as AIDS no matter how careful he was. It's easier for Jake to leave this lifestyle if he's only been at it for under two years. I know that Jake would have been very selective of his customers; he's not in it for the money but to find that 'father figure' he longs for. 4/23/05 Luke's response: I agree with you on this. However, maybe 13 would be possible. After all, these guys are still risking going to jail because Jake is still under age at 14 or 15. And the johns are clearly looking for younger ass or they wouldn't be drawn to Jake, right? I'm guessing that few of the johns would have asked his age but if so, maybe he would have passed himself off as older. Regarding the drugs and alcohol, I think that Jake would have remembered what happened to his mother in terms of these addictions and may well have completely sworn off drugs and alcohol. With respect to the disease issue, remember that Jake wouldn't let the guys fuck him - or do you think we should change this? However, your point is well taken and I have no problem with saying that Jake had only been turning tricks since he was 14 or 15. And, yes, his psychological motivation is to find a "father figure" to love him although this would be completely unconscious. Only as he talks later to Mike & Jessie and/or gets into psychotherapy would this wish become conscious. However, as I said before, I do think that Jake is a kid who will eventually end up being lovers with an older guy. Maybe with Dr. Karl. Maybe with somebody else you will bring into the story at some future point. Jake was introduced to male-on-male sex in the Rosebud Indian Mission School from his first days there. He was not completely innocent in this because he had seen a lot living with the crack addict woman and also with his mother after she started turning tricks. However, besides touching some adult men's cocks, he had not actually done anything sexual himself until he got to the school. So his decision to start charging guys money to have sex with him was an opportunistic decision one time when he was in town and somebody offered him money to allow the guy to give Jake a blow job. After that, he "learned on the job" so to speak! About whether Jake has allowed anybody to fuck him or not, I am guessing that he has been fucked by other boys at the school. Maybe part of his building up his body and his personal sense of pride was to stop this. Maybe he longs unconsciously to get fucked by an older man but certainly not by another teenager or boy. Maybe he has read something somewhere about the dangers of HIV and that receptive anal sex is the most dangerous. Maybe he has somehow gotten the message that using a condom is absolutely necessary. Maybe he has not let johns fuck him but maybe he has let them rub their cocks in the crack or his ass or between his legs and get off that way. Maybe he has never used a condom but has just been lucky. Dr. Karl's testing of his blood and physical examination of his body will show that Jake is healthy. After that, maybe Dr. Karl will put the fear of the Lord into him about safe sex. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: * Jake has saved most of his 'earnings' then. Yet some purchases for Charlie and himself has caught the attention of his school who quietly discovered or only suspect his secret life. They hadn't acted on it with a confrontation with Jake yet when news of his mother's death came to them. This only adds to their motive to put the boy in family hands. How much money has Jake saved? If he's been selectively prostituting for barely two years, how much did he gather or perhaps, he gave it to his church anonymously with cash in an envelope to help alleviate any guilt he's felt from prostituting himself. Money is NOT Jake's motive for getting it on with men. Yet he won't do that for free (or maybe he did!) but neither does he want to keep this money. 4/23/05 Luke's response: Yes, I do think that Jake saved most of his earnings except for purchases for Charlie and for himself. But he tried to be very careful about this. That's why the authorities at his school suspected something was up but didn't know for sure. I'm not sure how they would have suspected or discovered his secret life but it wouldn't be surprising that they did. Like many adolescents he thought he was being so secretive and careful but, of course, he isn't a professional at this and maybe somebody discovered something. Kids at a school like that would be very nosey and maybe somebody, somewhere saw something. And, yes, the news of Judy's death gave them the impetus to try to put Jake back into family hands. I don't know how much money Jake may have saved. I hadn't thought about him giving some of his money to the Church because of them taking care of him and also to assuage his guilt at prostituting himself. That's a good idea, though. You're right in saying that money is NOT Jake's motive for having sex for money with older men. However, I think he might have kept some of the money for is eventual departure from the school whenever he thought that may have been. Again, it is possible that he had entrusted the money to Dr. Karl depending on how their relationship developed. I don't know how Jake would have kept the money out of sight otherwise. However, like somebody else we know, maybe he buried it somewhere in multiple plastic bags under a specific rock in a specific place so nobody else could find it. Even Charlie wouldn't know where it was. That way, Jake could get it before he leaves with Mike, Jessie, and Winna. Or maybe he leaves it for Charlie. I don't really know. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: * For story reasons, I'd think that Judy was murdered some five years ago. That would get the interest of police investigators instead of simply O.D.ing. Learning of his mother's death would impact Jake hard and give reason why the school would contact next-of-kin to come down and console the crying boy. He sees his own prostitution (especially if the murder report said that a John had brutally raped and murdered her for fun) as following in her doomed footsteps and cause a small break down in how he thought of himself. 4/23/05 Luke's response: This is also an improvement on what I originally suggested. Getting murdered, as horrible as that is, sounds a little more "noble" than overdosing on drugs. Yes, Jake would take this news hard. He would probably make the connection between his own prostitution and that of his mother. Maybe Jake had been roughed up by a john in the past. Maybe his returning to the school with bruises and cuts might have made them suspicious. Also I would think that Jake would have thoughts of revenging his mother's murder although I don't see how he could ever track down whoever did it. But the connection between Judy's prostituting herself and then Jake doing the same thing is a good one. And a good life lesson for Jake. Maybe this is what he talks with Dr. Karl about. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: * Dr. Karl is called by Jake. This man helps console him before Winna's arrival and he's called again when Jake learns that he's leaving for Montana. This doctor can present medical records for use by the Social Worker during Guardianship transfer. He was not hired by the school but by Jake himself a year ago when his foreskin had hurt him a lot after a John 'chewed' on it too much. Hence why Jake didn't go to the school's doctor. This is also a better way for Karl & Jake to have met than 'on the street'. Jake confided in this doctor as to how he got 'hurt' and Karl's fatherly instincts kicked in. Their medical meet turned to friendship (and then more) when Karl saw Jake over dinners to try turning the boy away from that lifestyle but the good man found himself falling for him and they go to a motel. Their relationship has been going on for only a year then but it was strong. 4/23/05 Luke's response: Again, I like your creativity in refining Jake's relationship with Dr. Karl. I think that Jake hiring Dr. Karl himself would be possible although how he would explain Dr. Karl to the school if/when he presents medical records for use by the Social Worker during Guardianship transfer? Maybe Dr. Karl is a volunteer at the school. You know - a sort of Big Brother who "adopts" one of the boys, takes him out regularly, and so forth to give him an experience of a "normal relationship". Maybe somehow Jake and Dr. Karl met at the school. Then when Jake needed help with is hurting foreskin (I NEVER would have thought of this!!) he decides to contact Dr. Karl directly since he has already met him although Dr. Karl is not the school's doctor. After that the relationship can develop. Maybe Dr. Karl gets Jake, for medical reasons, to tell him how he got this bruised foreskin. This would lead Dr. Karl to do the baseline blood tests and so forth to check out Jake's health-HIV status, any STDs, and so forth. Maybe Dr. Karl can arrange through the Headmaster at the school to become Jake's "Big Brother" and, thus, give them the official OK to get together for dinners, conversation, developing intimacy, and eventual time together in the motel. And, yes, the relationship with Dr. Karl would be very strong, intimate, and loving. My own thought is that Dr. Karl comes back into Jake's life in Havre. I'm proof reading this letter and I was thinking about a very interesting scene where Dr. Karl tells Jake that he needs to give him a thorough physical examination including blood work and urine sample. Given what Dr. Karl now knows about Jake's prostituting [Maybe Jake would have a more defensive way of describing this to Dr. Karl and to himself. Like maybe he would talk about these guys as his "friends" who were very generous with him financially and that, sometimes, they wanted him to get naked, hold him, and so forth. You know as much about how he might describe this to himself as I do. That is, he would do this in order to not face the fact that he was a prostitute. Know what I mean? Maybe Jake didn't just go into town to sell his body but developed a very selective clientele who would talk to him as much as have sex with them.] he would obviously have to do a thorough examination of Jake's genitals and his ass. He would have to do an external and internal anal examination to check for warts and/or other damage even though Jake assures him that nobody has ever fucked him. Dr. Karl would be aware of the "classic denial" around such issues in guys and would just go ahead and check anyway-maybe telling Jake that he is professionally obligated to be "thorough" in his examination. I can imagine Jake up on the examining table. Naked. Kneeling up with his ass in the air. Dr. Karl puts on rubber gloves and gets the KY. He puts some KY on his finger and rubs it across Jake's anus and then goes inside. As he's rubbing his finger inside, Jake's cock begins to get hard. Jake is blushing with embarrassment but also seems to be enjoying it. Dr. Karl realizes that he's gotten quite hard himself. When he hesitates in his anal examination of Jake to look down at himself, Jake turns his head around a bit and sees what Dr. Karl is looking at. Well..... Mr. Writer, you can surely take it from there. If I were writing this, I would suppose that this would puzzle both Jake and Dr. Karl. Jake would wonder if Dr. Karl would then initiate sex with him as his johns have done. After all, maybe Jake has allowed his johns to rim him and stick their fingers in his butt. Never their cocks but maybe, for regular customers whom he likes, he allows rimming and finger fucking because he really gets off on it himself. However Dr. Karl is strictly professional during this examination and just ignores his own erect cock. Maybe he reaches down and tries to rearrange himself and Jake also sees that. Dr. Karl is maybe really embarrassed by his own sexual response to this examination of Jake. After all, he's probably done many of these in the past and it has rarely affected him like this. He would maybe examine Jake's testicles to check for lumps and any evidence of cancer or infection. He would palpate (stroke) Jake's cock to see if there is any leakage that might indicate an STD. Jake would probably get hard but Dr. Karl would "stay professional" and act like it is the most natural thing in the world. Dr. Karl would notice how the erect end of Jake's cock pushes out through the foreskin. Maybe would look carefully at the slit in the end of Jake's cock. Maybe he would be tempted in his palpation of Jake's cock to just make some excuse to masturbate him to orgasm and ejaculation. Maybe he would have some reason to send a sample of Jake's ejaculate to a lab for a testing of some sort. Or maybe this would all just be going on in Dr. Karl's head. In any case, it would really upset Dr. Karl to realize his response to Jake. And Jake would be puzzled that Dr. Karl doesn't put the moves on him or in any way take advantage of the situation. This would, of course, make the sexual tension for both guys even more intense for eventual resolution later. Maybe Dr. Karl would ask him if he would like to be his "Little Brother". Jake would say "yes". Dr. Karl would arrange it with the school and they would begin weekly get together with Dr. Karl coming out to the school to pick up Jake and spend an afternoon with him. They would go to dinner. They would talk. They would get to know each other nonsexually. They would actually fall in love. Eventually something would happen where Jake was very upset and Dr. Karl would hold him to comfort him. Jake would really let his guard down and allow himself to be hugged and comforted like this-almost like a little boy instead of the "tough teenager" that he is. Dr. Karl might kiss the top of his head. Maybe Jake would turn his face up, kiss Dr. Karl on the lips, and then jump out of the car and run into the school. On their next visit they might talk about what happened and one of them would suggest that maybe they could go someplace where Dr. Karl could just hold Jake without anybody seeing. Dr. Karl would know of a motel where nobody would know him and would go with Jake and rent a room. They would, at first, just lie on the bed holding each other. Eventually maybe one of them would need to take a shower or something. And then... well, you can imagine! As I've told you before, I certainly feel the sexual pull of a hunky adolescent guy. However, I would never allow myself to follow through on that for reasons I've told you about in earlier letters. In your story, though, such sex between an adult and an adolescent does occur. Maybe this could be written in such a way that Jake's sex with Dr. Karl is really "making love" and it allows both of them to grown through it and because of it. Maybe it's just when this is really causing Dr. Karl to question his own sexual orientation and causing Jake to become increasingly less interested in selling himself to johns that the news of Judy's death arrives at the school and things begin to roll in terms of Jake coming back to Montana. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: * I agree with you that the school has an attorney and their Social Worker can get the Guardianship passed through the court in the judge's chamber. The school has no objections to Winna taking the boy from them. At first, Winna is only coming to see Jake but the school suggests she take him home. What doesn't work out so well is that his classes end three weeks later. Perhaps he's so broken up over his mother's death that the headmaster thinks he's in no position to finish before leaving with Winna and forgoes those remaining weeks, dropping him one letter grade for each class for not taking finals. Jake's school records show he's an excellent student so he's 'passed' into his next grade whatever that would be. 4/23/05 Luke's response: Yes, I think this would work. However, I do think that probably the school would have told Winna on the phone that they wanted her to plan to take Jake back with her to Montana. Maybe they would have suggested over the phone that it be a first visit with his family. But when she got there and given everything that has happened, maybe they would have then suggested that they go ahead with the change of Guardianship while she's there and have it all done. The school would know - although I don't know if they would have told Winna this - that they would not be willing to take Jake back given what they know about his extracurricular activities! I think that something needs to happen so that Jake leaves having completed whatever classes he is taking and, thus, finishing his 10th grade. Maybe he's doing so well that his teachers will be willing to allow him to take the final exams right then and, thus, finish the year that way. I have known this to happen in the case of families that have to leave the area to go overseas on a State Department assignment or a military transfer. Schools tend to be flexible in such situations especially when they have a kid who is doing very well academically anyway and the leaving is so close to the end of the school year. Maybe Jake could take his finals as M, J, and W are flying to South Dakota. Between the phone calls between Winna and the school and the actual flight, there would be several days I would think just to get plane tickets, make arrangements, and so forth. Since the school would know that their plan is that Jake would not be coming back, they might just go ahead and do this. I'm not sure how much they would have told Jake. About the grade that he would be in, it would depend on what age you make him. If he is 16 and it is near the end of the school year, then he would probably be the 10th grade that he is finishing. Often 10th graders turn 16 before they finish the year. And he would then go into the 11th grade in the fall on the Reservation or in Havre at whatever high school the Reservation kids attend. He would not be enrolled in school when they return home because he would have finished 10th grade. So he would have the time between arrival at home until school starts in the fall to get settled and have whatever "adventures" he's going to have. 4/19/05 Vince wrote: Luckily, this is only a fictional story because I see other legal difficulties concerning Jake such as his birth in Mexico. We just won't deal with them. Judy was a U.S. citizen but there wouldn't have been a birth certificate for her baby son. What about Jake's last name? Could we use Marques (I'm not sure of that spelling) as that would be Miguel's last name. (My boyhood friend who entered the Catholic priesthood was named Michael Marques with his father named Miguel). 4/23/05 Luke's response: Regarding this, maybe Judy realized that eventually she'd be returning to the US and arranged to get a US Passport for Jake, somehow, showing that he is a US citizen. His birth certificate would show Judy and Miguel as parents. Maybe it would also show that Judy is a US citizen and not a citizen of Mexico. I have a colleague whose kids were born in Brazil while she and her husband were there on State Department assignment. The kids are now living here in the US and are married. Clearly they are both citizens. I will ask her how the birth certificates worked. In this case, though, since both mother and father were US citizens and they worked for the US Government while in Brazil, maybe all this would have been handled through the Embassy. Maybe Judy could have made a trip to whatever the nearest big city is while living with Miguel's family, taken the birth certificate and whatever proof she has that she was born in the US, and having the Embassy or Consulate do what is necessary to certify Jake as a U.S. citizen. I have no idea about Jake's last name. Surprisingly I haven't even thought about it. Since Judy and Miguel were never married, might Jake have carried Judy's last name? In terms of Miguel, the last name of Marques is fine with me. 4/25/05 Vince wrote: I've written a first draft for that 'letter' the Rosebud Jesuit School (have we 'locked in' that school's name as such?) for your review. PLEASE make any necessary changes, wording tone, etc. It was sent by the school's headmaster to the Blackfoot Nation in Chinook, Montana for forwarding to Judy's sister 'Winnapah'. Elder Quiet-before-the-dawn takes care of legal matters for the tribe so he receives this letter. He'll present it to Winna in part 12 NtTL on Monday evening, May 5, 2003 (story time). Anyway, take a look at this draft: April 30, 2003 Blackfoot Nation Chinook, Montana Dear Tribal Representative, We are searching for the next-of-kin to one of our students, Jake Marques who is now sixteen. He was admitted into our school at age five by his mother Judy whom we've recently learned was deceased in 1998. This news has impacted Jake terribly. There is no contact information regarding the boy's father, Miguel Marques who we believe is a Mexican National. It's not likely that he'll be found. I am writing to the Blackfoot Nation because Judy listed an older sister named 'Winnapah' who resided in Havre, Montana according to Jake's admission records. No maiden name was given for this woman. It's not much information to go on but we hope that with your help, Jake will find his aunt and other family members. A photograph of Judy with her son is enclosed for your review. This was taken by our {case worker?} in 1992 when Judy was twenty-two and her son Jake was five. If you can with certainty identify who Judy's sister is or can contact her husband Miguel Marques, we ask that this letter be given to them. It will help Jake to know that he has family to turn to in this time of grief. Most Sincerely Yours, Headmaster {name} Rosebud Jesuit School Rosebud, South Dakota [phone number] Luke - this is only a first rough draft. PLEASE help me to write it properly as this text will actually appear in NtTL when Winna hands it over to M&J to read while she discusses it with Quiet-before-the-dawn, shaken by the news. A letter from that school would be based primary on their motive to find Aunt Winnapah who they hope will come out to Rosebud to console a very begrieved Jake. It wouldn't give out too many details at this initial contact for several reasons. Does the Blackfoot Nation know who this Winnapah is? Do they know the boy's father, Miguel Marques? Details of Jake's personal information wouldn't be given to strangers. Enclosing that color copied photograph of Judy with her little son was done in the hope that she would be recognized. Details of Judy's grizzly murder would be omitted of course! The police Cold Case Investigation Unit found a 'Judy Marques' in judicial records for her Guardianship transfer of 5yo Jake to that Rosebud school. Only took them five years to do so... sigh. The police investigators visit the school and compare their grizzly murder scene photographs to that younger woman seen in the schools' Polaroid shot of Judy with her son Jake at the time of his admission. Yup. Could be the same woman. And the investigators know that she had a son from a photograph of him at age 3 or 4 found in her room where she was murdered that seems to match Jake at age 5. He's sixteen now and that jives with what the boy's age should be in 2003. Another photo found in Judy's room shows her at a much younger age standing with an older girl with the names 'Judy & Winna' written on back. With the school's permission, Jake is shown an only facial shot of this dead woman to identity. His mother had left him eleven years ago... Could it be her? Does the boy know who 'Winna' could be? "That's my Aunt Winna whom I've never met," says Jake. He remembers being told about his mom's older sister who'd taken care of her after their parent's death who was a Blackfoot Indian in Montana. Winnapah (longer name form for 'Winna') appears in the school's records as Jake's aunt but no maiden name given. That's because Indians don't have 'last names' but go by 'daughter of {father's name}' which can be very frustrating for U.S. Government agencies and to my own writings! I don't even have Winna's parent's names listed in my family tree yet. Jake learns the manner of his mother's death and he's naturally upset and filled with terrible grief. He'd felt that something was wrong when his mom never came back to visit him as she'd promised. But what really hits Jake hard is that by prostituting himself, he's following in his mother's doomed footsteps! Dr. Karl will be holding a crying terrified teen in the next few days, huh? How to find Winnapah? From Jake knowing she's Blackfoot in Montana and/or Judy's admission records listing her sister, they send off that letter in hope of contacting her. If an address/phone number for Winnapah was given the school, it's since out of date when Winna and her husband purchased a house in Havre after Judy ran away. Quiet-before-the-dawn gets the school's letter on Monday, May 5th and he recognizes the Judy/Winnapah as sisters connection though that Polaroid photograph of an older Judy with a son! isn't that identifying for him. He presents this letter to Winna that evening. She'll call the school on Tuesday from work and ask to see Jake of course! "I'll fly out tomorrow!" The school will NOT allow Winna to speak with Jake at this time on the phone and gives her an excuse that he's in class, can't be found right now, etc. The reason for this is to build story drama of their first meeting but also for practical reasons. The school will demand proof that Winna is indeed Judy's sister in their school office before allowing Jake to meet with her. The boy is very upset now from learning of his mother's murder so they want to protect him from a false hope. Perhaps Jake hasn't even been told that Winna is flying out to see him Wednesday! Winna will bring proof to them on Wednesday which will include childhood photographs of them together (matches a color copy of the police investigator's photograph of Judy with Winna in their childhood found at the crime scene), that FBI missing person's report filed by Winna when Judy ran away at age 16, etc. If Mike hasn't already, he'll reveal to Winna that he's Gleaned that Judy had run off with a Mexican worker. That matches what the school has on Miguel Marques as a Mexican National. Judy's admission record for Jake would list that man as his father out of wedlock, whereabouts unknown. Jake was born in Mexico without proof of a birth certificate but she'd taken her son back with her to the U.S. at age 2/3? Jake's legal entry into the U.S. recognizing him as a citizen occurred when the school took Guardianship of the boy at age 5. The school will be convinced that Winnapah is Jake's aunt and take the boy out of class Wednesday to meet her in the headmaster's office. When they hug, Jake will KNOW that this is his mother's sister from his ability to See into people he touches like Jessie does. M&J have been waiting outside in the hall where they see Jake first!, briefly, when {person who works for the school} escorts the boy to the headmaster's office. Mike Gleans this is Jake and Jessie's heart Feels this truth. Anyway, I avoid some difficult story writing by having Winna's first meet with Jake being done while Mike is waiting outside in the hall with Jessie. You and I will discuss what will transpire with their visit with Jake that Wednesday that turns into a desire by Winna to get Guardianship of the boy she requests from the headmaster on Thursday morning, the judge's sign off on Friday with their return to Havre on the weekend. During such, Charlie will be met by M&J, Dr. Karl who helps with his medical records (still awaiting your approval for how Jake met him as a doctor outside his school because of a chewed foreskin though that aspect may never come out in the actual story). Jake is YOUR character yet I must write him to 'life' from events that must make story sense, hence my modifications to your original Jake outline. I've had to figure out ages and dates of persons and events based on what's 'locked in' by my stories and your outline and luckily, it appears to be workable. Please review: ------------------------------------------------------------- Age/Date Calculations - Letter given to Winna on May 5, 2003 ------------------------------------------------------------- 2003-16age=1987 when Jake was born to Judy and Miguel Marques. 1986 was when the boy was conceived when Judy was sixteen. Judy age 16+9 months pregnant +16 Jake's age = 33. Therefore, Judy would be around thirty-three years old in 2003 story time but she was murdered five years earlier in 1998. 1970 Judy's birth year. Her actual birth date is: ______, 1970. 1986 Jake conceived by his mother at age 16 while in Montana. 1987 Jake is born in Mexico with Miguel's parental family. 1992 Jake at age 5 is given into care of the school. 1998 Judy is murdered unbeknownst to her son at his age of 11. 2003 Jake is sixteen. No birth date is given for Jake so keep in mind he's sixteen prior to May 2003 when born in 1987. Jake's birth date is: ______________, 1987. Judy's age 33+7 years older for Winna means she is 40? in 2003. Her son Jes-ee-ah was born on July 20, 1979 and is nearly 24 (this July 20th) when his mother was only 16 or 17?!! No way! Therefore, I'll increase Winna's relative age to Judy by a year to eight years older so she married Looks-from-mountain at barely 18 years of age and gave birth to Jessie right before she turned 19 to make it legally and morally acceptable. 1961 Winna's birth year if she's eight years older than Judy. 1978 Winna's marriage year at barely 18 years of age. 1979 Jessie born July 20th so he's nearly 24 years old. 2003 Winna's current age is nearly 42. There is a seven year difference between Jake and Jessie's ages. That means Winna married when Judy was only around 8 according to the given timeline. Judy was around 9 when Jes was born in 1979 and in NtL, he tells Mike that he doesn't remember his Aunt Judy (because he was seven at the time when she ran away with Miguel according to my calculations). Luckily, I don't believe that I've 'locked in' Winna's age anywhere in these two series and I didn't find an age given for her after a search of those texts. Therefore, Winna is around 41. According to your Jake outline, Winna took care of her kid sister after the death of their mother. Their father is also deceased. Maybe a car accident killed them both? That'll be up to me. Winna was taking care of Judy after their parent's death (as if Judy were her own daughter) would mean that Winna was doing so prior to her marriage at age 18; Judy was ten then. I would think that especially after Jessie was born, Winna couldn't look after Judy and she went with other family who obviously didn't do a good job or Judy felt abandoned by 'mother Winna' hence why she ran away with that Mexican immigrant worker at age 16. I'm just thinking out loud since this may come up when Winna explains Judy's childhood to Jake. We're getting Jake's introduction into NtTL ready! I look forward to yet am in terror of the writing challenges facing me concerning Jake. Will my view of him and writing thus meet with your approval? Please answer my previous questions concerning Jake and do provide ANY further insights into how Jake may act when Winna, M&J visit him at school, flight home, move into the laundry room and settling down in his new life. I don't need beyond that (yet, if ever) because I'll have him 'locked in' as a character to what I hope will be to both our satisfaction. Please remember that NtTL is from Mike's first person perspective though he can Glean past events from Jake and Jessie can Peer in for the boy's thoughts and emotions of the moment once Jake allows such contact. Shielding from each other will be a concept I'll demonstrate to readers when characters share a similar ability as we've seen already between Mike and Brings Wood to Glean things from the other. These next few weeks will be your chance to get Jake molded as you see him and communicated to me so I can write about your character. Here's yet more questions I need to be answered: I have memories of my Lutheran school days from 1st-4th grade. That may be some help to what I need to know from you regarding the functions of school personnel (nuns, priests, acolytes, regular people who serve food, teach, etc.) at Jake's Jesuit school, the rooms, Catholic terms, behavior of people there, etc. What will Winna, M&J SEE when they go to the Rosebud school, enter it, meet persons, their escort to the headmaster, his name (is he a priest?), Jake's 'dorm' (does he share this room with other students?), etc. How do you think Charlie will be met? Details! Dr. Karl offers his medical records to assist Winna with her assuming Guardianship of Jake out of his love for him and wish to get the boy out of this situation of being a prostitute here though that means he may never see him again. You've noticed my attention to details in my story writing. I demand this of myself. For example, I've done Internet and book/encyclopedia research of the places Mike has been to such as Fort Assinniboine. You now share that responsibility to help me KNOW Jake's haunt in Rosebud so I can write such images effectively to my readers. I'll take care of the Town of Rosebud when Winna, M&J go around with Jake to eat and sightsee, but when at his school - that's where I really need your help! I want to stop here in my letter but my fingers continue to fly over the keyboard and demand this to be written: If you're hoping to read about Jake having sex with M&J, it just isn't going to happen! Jes would see that as incest. Mike is getting pretty hard nosed concerning underage boys as we've seen with Simon especially after upsetting Winna. HFO will be taking Simon under his wing through a lengthy nonsexual 'courtship' of friendship and the man coming to terms that he 'likes' boys. He wasn't that sex role fixed when his balls weren't filled with sperm and that's why he married a woman. We've seen his 'gay' interest in Mike while denying he's gay. A hint is given in part 11 where HFO is now 'horny' all the time and his odd look given in reaction to Mike saying that them women better watch out for him. HFO didn't feel that lustful towards women before but he still loved his wife from his heart. Now, HFO wonders if Mike's Passing of male strength to him had also made him gay. Nope. With his balls restored and getting him more lustful than the man has ever been before, he'll discover (with Simon's help) that he is sexually interested in boys much to his shame. This is where Simon will help this man come to terms with their developing relationship that just feels right. HFO will then talk with Mike about it and gain his permission to be with the boy in his role as monedo. Back to Jake, my flying fingers! Let's get to know who this sixteen year old displaced person is first. Okay? He'll figure out pretty quick (in Rosebud) that M&J are a gay ouple. What the boy thinks about them, reacts outwardly towards them, etc. will make for an interesting story and build sexual tension. Winna wants to take care of her 'new' son and will protect him from 'bad influences' though it's already too late. Jake is gay. When she learns about that! Perhaps Simon gets it on with Jake in the hot tub when M&J make love over a towel nearby. No love between S&J but boys will be boys! HFO would have excused himself from the hot tub when M&J are getting passionate in shame by his excitement so he won't jump Simon though that boy wants him to. He turns to Jake for some simple male relief, perhaps hoping that would make HFO jealous. I don't know what'll happen. At this time in the story, it's difficult to 'lock in' events. Things develop in the flow of NtTL that I can't foresee and that's part of its great interest to me to learn myself what my flying fingers unfold in it as well as for my readers. I am able to set rules to what will/won't happen based on keeping true to my characters from their past behavior. Anyway, I don't want to dash your 'lustful' hopes concerning Jake when the next several story parts see him remaining in his clothes. We need to learn who this young man is first. Otherwise, he'll become another sexual conquest that Simon himself nearly fell prey to by my own lust 'Jes will break the boy in' until you helped me see this youth with my heart and head instead. I used to write very lust satisfying stories such as in my 'Willow Bird' series. I'm hoping that my writing is maturing so that along with entertaining my readers, I can make deep biting statements about the touchy issues in our society such as boy/love, being gay (in its many aspects), racial prejudices, etc. that may leave readers with something to think about. Let's get Jake settled. He will, with M&J's help become a 'love hopeful' young man per this NEW TO TEACHING LOVE theme of my series versus just being sexually gay if Jake has even consciously recognized that in himself. He's been seeking a father figure through prostitution and had done things to satisfy his 'daddies'. Dr. Karl was a true father to him from what you've told me and perhaps their lives will come full circle when Jake can teach love to this man in return when they meet again. 4/25/05 Vince wrote: My last letter responded to your previous Jake letter and now, I'm responding to and locking in information with this letter in response along with asking you more questions. It's important that I know what's happened to Jake, his background and development even if this information won't reach our readers so I can carrying him through true to your view in NtTL. Eventually, Jake will confide in Jessie (versus Mike) through talk and Peering into each other while Jes Passes that on to Mike so reader will know too! That's how some of Jake's past will enhance this story just as M&J relay their own interesting past from former selves. What follows is what I think we've agreed upon though please feel free to correct, elaborate or change: POINTS OF FACT: * Name of Jake's school is: Rosebud Indian Mission School. * Jake messed around sexually with some of the boys in school from an early age that included getting himself fucked when he was around 11. He let younger boys stick in him (maybe sat on them to 'force' their cooperation) because their erections were smaller so it wouldn't hurt as much and he could remain in control of the situation. He enjoyed penetration and got off from it (in hand at that moment or when a kid's really long pole massaged his prostate and his dick shot off on its own, or reliving the experience later when he beat off). No strong emotional response though. When Jake was approached by an older boy of sixteen, it HURT not so much because of a larger sized cock but that 16yo said 'You my squaw now!' afterwards that shook Jake's identity of self so he stopped all fucking and no more sex with that insulting boy. * At age 13, Jake was offered $75 to get sucked off by a man in the local gas station restroom. That excited him both physically and emotionally because he saw how much the guy enjoyed servicing him and paying to boot! Thus began Jake's 'searches' to be with a man. They were rewarding for him both physically and emotionally when Jake saw how his smaller younger body satisfied a man's need and they TOUCHED him with hands and from kissing. Taking money helped Jake deal with being in control of the situation and he gave it all to the church at first but then hid his stash at school in its basement storage he had access to per his duties to move furniture and equipment (Jake was already physically strong from working out). * You're right. Them Johns want a 'boy' so even when Jake claimed he was older by three years from his true age, they chuckled to themselves and enjoyed him for his youth. No fucking. Jake's experience with that insulting boy kept him from having that happen to him again. * Dr. Karl entered Jake's life through the man's volunteer work for his school. I like your idea of Karl being a 'big brother' to some of the boys by taking them out to dinner, sports games, etc. Jake and him started their relationship based on friendship though both felt the sexual tension growing between them but it was kept secret from the other. Jake didn't want to risk making a move on this married man and jeopardize their friendship that Jake craved or get reported by Karl to the school. They met when Jake was 14. * Dr. Karl is a medical doctor. That was incidental to his volunteer work with the school. When Jake's foreskin got chewed, he turned to his trusted friend for help and that very good examination scene you've given me in Jake4 works! Jake would have claimed a mean boy at his school did it and arl appears to accept that while suspecting otherwise. On the follow up examinations (Karl checks his blood work for diseases and finds them negative) the two do more together on the examination table as you've described and fingering Jake under the guise of an examination obviously excites the boy while Karl realizes his sexual interest in Jake. That leads to them being together in that motel room as you've described. Dr. Karl did NOT fuck Jake since he felt that would betray his marriage to his wife yet he rimmed and fingered the boy to pleasure him and they handled each other off that led to sucking then belly rubbing with kisses that crossed the line in Karl's eyes regarding his wife but he couldn't help himself. Hey. I'm not cheating with a 'girl' and she can't get pregnant by me... * Jake was nearly 15 when he and Karl become 'lovers'. He called the man his 'dad' from then on instead of 'big brother' as during their nonsexual friendship. Their deepening relationship was mutually satisfying to them physically and especially emotionally. Usually, Karl only held/massaged Jake naked though the boy always felt the need to get off. When the man was horny, he surrendered to getting off in hand, sucking or belly rubbing where only then their kisses happened in he heat of the moment. Remember. Karl is married and he's trying to deal with having loving feelings for someone other than his wife and for a boy at that! * Jake stopped most of the prostitution after Karl became his 'dad' but they couldn't always get together (family duties) so the boy went to a few regulars to get off, compare how the sex wasn't as fulfilling as with Karl because of the emotional bond they shared. (I need Jake to still be prostituting for money so learning of his mother's murder in like profession will hit him very hard.) Of course, Karl doesn't know Jake is still with other guys thinking he's weaned the boy from that self- destructive activity from Karl's own 'self sacrifice' to relieve the boy's sexual needs. Karl needs to come to terms that he's gay, or a boy lover, and when Jake is gone from his life (Winna takes him home) that's when the man aches so much from his heart that he eventually divorces his wife as you've outlined and he will be with Jake later in NtTL. * About Jake and Charlie. Hmm... As you've outlined, Jake had become this kid's big brother to protect him from the mean boys at school. They've messed around with each other and during Jake's fucking exploration, had Charlie stick in his butt a few times yet the youth felt it was wrong since hat crossed the line of boys 'messing around' and too, Jake was his big brother who shouldn't be conquered. Jake had confided in him what that insulting 16yo had done to him. So as to not complicate the story, Charlie is not gay but acting out of sexual curiosity and friendship. Jake fulfills his need to be a 'big brother' to a needing kid while Dr. Karl was teaching him nonsexually in that role model. When Karl became Jake's 'dad', Jake stopped sex with Charlie who was in a way relieved to just be friends. By this time, Charlie can cum and he has feelings for girls. Sorry. But Winna is not going to run a 'youth hostel' and I don't think Charlie will see Jake again after they part. * The scool suspects Jake is prostituting because of the few purchases he made for himself and Charlie, the occasional bruises Jake displayed and word had gotten around that Jake messed around more than the other boys at night, in the showers, etc. known to certain priests who sought out boys. Jake resisted any involvement with them (though it would have satisfied his need for a 'dad') since he feared risk to those priests and himself from discovery and punishment. Jake had his Johns outside of school for that. What follows is a concise series of events for Jake leading up to Winna being granted Guardianship of this teen: the police Cold Case Crimes Unit go to Jake's school to investigate the possibility that he is the son of Judy Marques in late April as I've given you in Letter60. Jake presses them to reveal all they know about his mother's death once they're assured Judy was his mom. Jake is really shaken by the news. He loses interest in school, sleeps a lot and cries. This is a dead-end lead for the police so they're no longer involved at this point. Jake gets consoled by Karl who may learn why the boy is so upset - he was still prostituting 'a little' while they've been together and that sets up story tension between them. The Headmaster writes his letter to the Blackfoot Nation. Winna calls him on Tuesday from work and will come out to Rosebud on Wednesday. After satisfying the Headmaster that Judy is Winna's sister, Jake is brought into his office for their first meet while M&J are waiting outside in the hall. They spend the rest of Wednesday visiting with Jake and try to console him. Winna feels the need to get Jake back home and presents her proposal of Guardianship to the Headmaster on Thursday morning. Quiet-before-the-dawn had suggested this possibility last Monday night during their discussion o the letter. Headmaster agrees (sure would solve a lot of his problems as we've discussed) and fast speeds the paperwork through. Karl is looking for Jake at the school after thinking over their last difficult meeting, learning that Jake is being taken back to Montana by his aunt. He's of mixed feelings about this but thinks it's for the best, assisting her with medical records for Jake (omitting chewed foreskin incident from his report of course!). Friday, the court grants Winna Guardianship. Jake takes final exams on Saturday. Sightseeing of Rosebud. By the way, Jake had voiced his acceptance to the Headmaster for his aunt to take him home to Montana (and away from Rosebud!) after difficult meet with Karl. He also wants to break all ties with his regular Johns which he felt would lead him to the same doomed end his mother suffered. On Sunday, Jake packs and says goodbye to school friends (Charlie), teachers, etc. and he meets with Karl to thank him for his help in person, alone, and they make up. A last get together with both crying and secretly regretting decisions made that will now separate them. Yet Karl is happy that Jake has found family and will find his roots in Indian culture. He promises to fly out to see Jake in a month to see how he's settled in. Sunday early evening flight back to Havre. What do you think, Luke? We don't have to plan beyond Sunday as this material will take several parts to write in NtTL. Here's some information I need from you: * Name of Headmaster (a priest?) is: ____________ * Give me the names and roles of school functionaries that Winna, M&J will meet. I need the description of those parts of the school they pass through and any Catholic terms that may come up in conversation. * Your help with finishing the Headmaster's letter mailed to the Blackfoot Nation in care of Winnapah. * Answer questions posed in my last letter(s). Jake is YOUR character. If there is something I suggest that is NOT in your view of him, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! I've noticed all the 'maybes' or 'coulds' in your last letter. Let me know what you want me to write of Jake in NtTL. Together, I think we've got a good workable outline ready for his introduction. Jake will be an example of how M&J can help gay teens while learning about love themselves. They're so Connected tht it blinds them to how difficult and yet also so fulfilling a relationship between 'normal' people can be without Sharing thoughts and emotions in this kind of 'cheating' way that M&J have. Remember. M&J have their own lives in NtTL and Jake is in theirs only for the present. Don't take what I'm about to suggest the wrong way. Jake will eventually 'fly from the nest' when he's come into his manhood (emotionally and from wisdom) to be with Karl. This will take many story parts in NtTL to accomplish. After his exit from my series, why don't you pick up Jake's story from there? I can assist you with ideas, editing, etc. and you post them on the Nifty Archive! 4/27/05 Luke wrote: It was nice to get your last two letters about Jake. I will be responding to those two letters in this letter to you. Let me start by responding to your second letter. I agree with your "points of fact". I like what you've done in terms of fleshing out the story of Jake at school. What you say about him fooling around with other goys a school including getting fucked himself is good. It's very sexy to read even that little bit so it will be great when you fully expand it whenever it comes up in the story. The idea of being told "You my squaw now" and Jake recoiling from that is good. And then at 13 getting offered $75 to get sucked off by a man at the local gas station restroom is also very believable. As I sit here typing this, I'm imagining Jake's early sexual experiences! Yes, what you describe spinning off my own ideas about Jake and Dr. Karl is just what might have happened. The relationship builds up until both of them are feeling a whole lot more for each other than either even intended and certainly more than Jake has ever felt for anybody else before this. And, yes, Dr. Karl would be struggling internally with his own feelings for Jake vis-à-vis his being married. Having sex with another guy is one thing for Dr. Karl. But to begin to realize that he probably loves him is quite another! And for Jake, who has kept his feelings carefully hidden, to feel so tender and so vulnerable is exciting and very scary. Yes, Jake stopped most of the prostitution after hisand Dr. Karl's relationship began to develop. It would be tough for Jake to completely give up selling his body for money. He likes having the money. Also he probably likes some of his "regulars" and enjoys the time with them. Not only is it stimulating for Jake, but it is also clearly pleasurable for his client. Jake knows their likes and dislikes and is very skilled at pleasuring their bodies. But mostly he is doing his thing with Dr. Karl. The way you describe things with Charlie (the boy at Jake's school) sounds reasonable. Jake does fulfill the role of a big brother for Charlie. It's OK with me that Charlie drops out of the picture when Jake leaves for Montana. Can they have e-mail contact? Remember, the Rosebud School as a non-profit organization receives lots of computer equipment donated by companies who are upgrading. All of the donations would be tax deductible. Many of the laptops, desktops, and other equipment are perfectly useable but they are not the absolutely latest. Also the school, at least in the library, would have Internet access. And Jake and Charlie could both have Yahoo or Hotmail e-mail accounts, right. Both would be completely computer literate because most kids that age are and also becaus of the plethora of computer equipment at the school. I think your shift from the school discovering that Jake had been selling his body for money and that being the reason for dismissal from the school to the fact of the discovery of Judy's death being the reason for contact with Winna and subsequent leaving the school-this shift is a good one. Instead of leaving in disgrace Jake will be leaving to rejoin his family. And about the "certain priests who sought out boys" that probably would have happened. However, remember Fr. Jerry who never laid a hand on Jake although there was one situation when Jake was very young that and was sitting in Fr. Jerry' lap, that he became aware of Fr. Jerry's erect penis. He thought Fr. Jerry might "do something" with Jake but he didn't. Jake always remembered that. Your description of the "concise series of events for Jake leading up to Winna being granted Guardianship" is just fine. It all fits together. You've done well with this. When you say that Jake is my character and how to I want to develop Jake, I've been giving you as much detail as I an. When I say "maybe this" and "maybe that" I'm really saying that Jake's character development could go either way and I'd be fine with it. Exactly which direction it takes is up to you. I will tell you if you suggest something regarding how Jake is and what his experiences are that I am not at all comfortable with. So far, though, that has certainly not been the case. In answer to your questions: Yes, the Headmaster is probably a Jesuit priest. His name could be Fr. Sean McMillan. The school functionaries that Winna, Mike, and Jessie meet would include the school social worker who originally interviewed Judy and who will "hand hold" Winna through the Guardianship transfer. It would probably be a woman and she could be Ms. Kathleen Klein. She would be a woman in her early 60s who's really been around and "seen it all". Nothing shocks her including whatever she knows of Judy's background and what Jake has been doing. She also knows the way things are done at the courthouse and the whole change of Guardianship proess goes quite smoothly with her leading Winna through it. They would also include Jake's dormitory prefect - probably one of the male, lay faculty members who live in a larger bedroom with bath at the end of the dormitory. He would be responsible for keeping good order during the night. Maybe his name is Mr. Devlin (Ralph Devlin). They would also include some of Jake's teachers who would be a mix of priests and lay persons. Maybe there would also be a school nurse who runs the school's infirmary. Probably Mr. Devlin would have been Jake's teacher. Maybe even Fr. McMillan himself would have filled in as a teacher himself. I like the plan that Jake "fly from the nest" at some point - possibly with Dr. Karl. I don't know if I'd be able to pick up "Jake's Story" at that point but maybe so. I certainly feel into him now! I'm now going to work on your first letter of the two. Since it has such specific content, I'm going to send this letter off to you this afternoon and then send my respose as another "Jake letter". I may not finish it until this weekend but I plan to give you all the detail about the school that you request including a description of the physical layout and use of each of the buildings, a polishing up of your very good letter to the Tribal Representative about Jake, how the interview with Fr. McMillan might have gone with Winna, some background on the school and its founding given to Winna by Fr. McMillan in response to her questions about this, anything specifically "Catholic" about the school that the group of three might encounter, and so forth and so on. I am impressed with your Age/Date Calculations. I told my partner this morning how impressed I am with all the work you go to in order to get all this straight. As I read it now, it all makes sense. I always thought of Winna as a plump lady in her early 40s. 4/28/05 Luke wrote: Here's the letter. I decided to write it tonight and send it off to you. I will respond to the rest of questions ver the weekend. This way you can go ahead and add the letter to part 12. {Letter sent to Blackfoot Nation in the hope of contacting Jake's aunt, Mrs. Winnapah}: ROSEBUD INDIAN MISSION SCHOOL ROSEBUD, SOUTH DAKOTA ------------- ESTABLISHED BY THE SOCIETY OF JESUS 1973 April 30, 2003 Blackfoot Nation Chinook, Montana Dear Tribal Representative: I am writing to request your assistance in locating the next-of-kin of one of our students, Jake Marques, age sixteen years. He was admitted into our school when he was five years of age by his mother, Judy, whom we have recently learnd died in 1998. This news has had a great impact on Jake who has had no contact with her since she left him here with us. We do not have any contact information regarding the boy's father, Miguel Marques, who we believe is a Mexican National. It is not likely that he will be found. I am writing this letter to the Blackfoot Nation because Judy listed an older sister named "Winnapah" who resided at that time in Havre, Montana, according to Jake's admission records. No maiden name was given for this woman. It is not much information, I know, but I hope that with your help, we will be able to locate Jake's aunt and possibly other family members. I am enclosing a photograph of Judy with her son. This photograph was taken by our school social worker, Kathleen Klein, in 1992 when Judy left Jake with us. At the time that this photograph was taken Judy was twenty-two and Jake was five. If you are able to identify with certainty who Judy's sister is or are able to contact Jake's father, Miguel Marques, I ask that this letter be given to either of them. It will hep Jake to know that he has family to turn to in this time of grief. My phone number is given below. I would very much like to talk with either Ms. Winnapah or Mr. Marques as soon as possible. Yours sincerely in Christ, Rev. Sean McMillan, SJ, Headmaster Rosebud Indian Mission School [123-456-7890] Please note, Vince, that "SJ" are the initials of the "Society of Jesus" or "Jesuits". Any priest or brother in the Jesuits would put SJ behind his name to designate his membership in the Order. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- End of file: JAKEOUT2.TXT My correspondence with Luke continues Folder: A-STORY-OUTLINE-FOR-JAKE in JAKEOUT3.TXT