Date: Sun, 28 Mar 2004 09:04:07 EST
From: Nightmared78@aol.com
Subject: my new life part 1

you know the rules you know the law what you say you saw you saw and as
long as your 18 no one will care you saw this. if you like it and want to
see more send me word at Nightmared78@aol.com


It's been 92 years and I can still taste my moms home cooking and smell
the perfume she would wear. Its the small things you never forget a warm
summer day or the taste of apple pie. They say in time you forget you
know out of sight out of mind what a load of bull shit. You never forget
you cant there are to many reminders all around you in winter its people
shuffling in to there houses to sit and warm themselves by a fire while
you stand outside you cant feel the sting of a cold wind. The ones that
say how great it is are only saying it because of the feeling of being
powerful where once they were slaves now they are masters in reality
their are only slaves of a different kind slaves to themselves. My name
is Cerny Safir I was born in 1893 at the age of 19 my life changed it was
not a change I was ready for or expected. I had always known I was gay
but in that time you never talked of things like that. I was on a trip
with my family to our summer home in South Carolina. We had just arrived
and I was getting ready for another dull summer in the heat and humidity
boy was I wrong. A few days after we arrived just after dark there was a
knock at the front door I went to answer it. On the other side was a
young man he was about my age 18-19 had raven black hair fair skin and
the most beautiful green eyes to say he was handsome would not even come
close to what I thought of him. He introduced himself as Chad Rickmen and
said his folks had just moved in to the old plantation down the road he
shook my hand he had a grip like a vice and his skin was cool to the
touch even though it was a warm night. I invited him in with that one
simple act i set it to motion the events that would end my life as i knew
it and save me from a dull eventless summer