Date: Tue, 4 Dec 2012 11:09:20 -0700 From: Mark James Subject: Reminiscences 6 by Mark James Reminiscences 6 by Mark James Somebody said, "We are all crying. That is so sweet." Somebody else said, "I've got a hard-on. That never happens anymore." "I've got dibs to suck it." "Me too, I'm hard too." "Let me suck that one." "If we are gonna have an orgy, has anybody got some Viagra?" "I have some Cialis it works faster." So we took time out for a group orgy. Then somebody said, "Alright Chris what happened then." Chris continued, I was almost finished with the story. We lay there side by side after I came; finally I asked him, "Have you ever kissed a guy?" "I've never kissed anybody but my mother and sister." "Well, I'm not talking about that kind of kiss. I've kissed lots of girls and frankly I thought it was kind of icky; I've never kissed a guy before. I'm asking, because I keep having this urge to kiss you and I don't want you to freak on me. Most of this stuff is new to me too. I expect we will make a mess of it like we did sex. Do you want to try?" He said yes so we did. "You have to open your mouth." "Not that wide." "Don't try so hard. It's not a contest." "That's my tongue. I know it's probably in the advanced course, but I wanted to try." "Do it however you would want somebody to do it to you." "Yeah, I like that, soft and sensual." "That is your cum, that's what it tastes like." "I don't know. What did my pre-cum taste like?" "I think it depends on what we eat." "I think hard, fast and rough is in the advanced, advanced, advanced course when you are really, really horny." "I think the best we can do initially is to learn how to keep our noses out of our way and not to slobber all over each other". Then our conversation drifted on to other subjects. "Yeah bad breath would be a real turn-off." "No. I don't mind if you suck on my nipples; within reason. No. it doesn't do anything for me, How about you? It does, sure I will, well be sure to tell me if I am doing it right." "Yeah, I noticed that turned you on. Hell yeah, I love to have my ass licked. I don't know you are the first person I've done it to. I wouldn't want to do it if you didn't like it. Yeah we need to make sure we have clean assholes." "You want to try anal sex sometimes? Yeah I expect it does hurt. I've fucked a couple of guys. No, I've never been fucked. Yeah, I think it is called an enema. Yeah always use a condom, how clean can the inside of your rectum ever be. I know guys who used broom handles, coke bottles, bananas, and even cucumbers. Yeah cucumbers work because they come in different sizes. Yeah, it's hard to do in a barracks full of guys." "I think we get out within days of each other. I have applied for a job with McDonalds, the new fast food chain. Yeah they are getting large very fast. Purchasing. Yeah my navy experience fits right in. You could apply for a manager trainee position." "Yeah we could get a place together. It would have to look like we are just roommates, nothing more. I don't like hiding either, but we don't make the rules." "Yeah, let's try a few more kisses. I think they call this cuddling. Yes it is nice." "Yes, I'm ready to go again, but this time you have to dry me off the way I did you. Yeah, but we will need a bucket nearby in case you or I throw up. That doesn't mean I won't the second time. It's like fucking, something we have to learn how to do." "We have to spend enough time in the sun to get a tan or guys will ask what we were doing. We will have to get out when the maid needs to get it. Yeah, there is nobody next door right now. At night we need to be extra quiet and careful; we don't want to attract the hotel detective. I know it's not their business, but they think it is. Yes, it is against the law." We stayed in the room almost the whole week-end. When I got back to the unit again everybody I met looked at me and said, "You got laid, didn't you?" I couldn't hide the way I felt and looked so I had to make up some tale about these two chicks and well you know how that goes. We got out of the Navy a couple of months after that and we both went to work for McDonalds. They were just getting started in their growth stage. We put a lot of our salaries into McDonald's stock. When the company went public in 1965 we were instant millionaires. We bought franchises and eventually had 30 stores. We were together 47 years. We got married in Massachusetts, the first state that allowed gay marriages in 2004. Two years before Joe died. "I loved him so much and I really miss him". Chris broke down in tears and we all pretended to do something else and dried our own tears while he recovered his emotional equilibrium. That was the end of our meeting for that day. When we got together again Jim started us off. He said, All of the guys I hung around with were guys whose cocks I wanted to suck. I didn't realize it at the time but later I did. But they had to make the first move. I wasn't going to endanger myself by making a move on a guy, be rejected and then have it spread all over school that I was a queer. Needless to say I didn't get much sex either. Contrary to what I wanted to believe not everybody was gay. Actually it seemed to me that I was the only person who was gay or was interested in fooling around. When I was 14 I used to play gin rummy with a nice looking well built 16 year old guy for money. We usually played at his house because both of his parents worked and there was nobody home after school. At one point I was in the hole to him to the tune of $15.00. I don't know how many of you remember but in 1953 that was a week's wages for a grown man. I said, "Let's quit Gene, I'm not gonna get any further in the hole and besides I don't even have the $15.00 I owe you." He said, "Well I guess you will have to work it off then." "What do you mean?" He stood up. He had on tight jeans and a white t-shirt which was de rigueur for those days. His cock was hard and you could see the outline of it in his jeans. I thought, "God damn I hit the jackpot he wants me to suck his dick." He went and stood behind me and massaged my shoulders and said, "I'll pay you $5.00 if you let me suck your dick. Three blowjobs and we will be even." "What?" I quavered. He pulled me out of the chair and across the room and sat me down on the edge of the seat on the sofa and pushed me backwards. I wasn't sure what was going on and didn't know whether to resist or not. It wasn't what I had envisioned and I was confused. But I didn't stop him as he undid my jeans and pulled them and my shorts down to my ankles. My cock was already three-quarters erect. He was on his knees between my legs, had pulled out his own cock and was slowly jacking my cock when he said "Is it a deal?" Before I had finished saying "I guess so," he was sucking on my cock. "Oh, that's so good Gene. Suck it man." I have a big head on my dick and he seemed to like that. He socked and licked and licked and sucked on the head. Then he went all the way down on me. "Oh fucking shit man, that's incredible, do that some more." So he alternated between deep throating my cock and sucking on its head. Of course I didn't know what it was called I just knew it felt soo goooood. He leaned forward using his elbows to support himself and kneaded my stomach muscles as he sucked my dick. Every once in a while he would break off and ask, "Are you ready to come yet." Fuck, what he was doing felt so good he could suck me the rest of the day and all night as far as I was concerned. Finally after he had been sucking my cock for 45 minutes I said, "Yeah, I'm coming." as I felt that peculiar feeling of cum rising through one's cock. He sucked harder and faster and the sensation of coming increased geometrically. It was at that point where you want the sensation to build and build while you frantically try to keep from ejaculating and then it is too much and suddenly you are shooting cum all over the place. A hot, wet mouth is so much better than one's hand it is like a race car versus a model T. I yelled, "I'm coming," expecting him so quit sucking so I could shoot off into the air, but he kept his lips melded to my cock and when I grabbed his head and pushed down and pushed my cock into his mouth with my hips I unloaded wave after wave of cum into his mouth which he apparently swallowed. Finally I finished, my muscles relaxed and I lay back on the sofa. "Goddamn Jim that was fantastic. Was that your first blowjob?" I nodded in assent. He stood up and I saw that he had shot off all over his jeans. "Fuck, I gotta change clothes. Can we get together tomorrow?" I couldn't do it then or didn't want to but we arranged another time. He sucked me off twice more and then I hardly ever saw him again, my fault, not his. I could have sucked his dick and we could have had an on-going sexual relationship for many years, but I was too fearful of being identified as queer. As I got older and less desirable as a sex partner and AIDs showed up I often regretted not sucking and fucking with anybody I could when I was younger. I have always been in the closet and was never able to wholly enter into the gay lifestyle even when it became more acceptable. It's tough to live as neither fish nor fowl. I frequently feel that my whole life was a waste. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Van said, I know how you feel. I took a lot of effort for me to fit in with other guys as I was growing up. I wasn't interested in football, or car racing and all the talk about girls: who was putting out, what it was like to get pussy, the size of their breasts, etc. But I learned enough to fit in and could make ribald jests and talk about whom did what in the last football game with the best of them. What I really liked was when they talked about getting a blow job from or fucking some girl. That was when we all got those big bulges in our jeans and surreptitiously rubbed them while we were discussing sex. Sometimes one of the more reckless guys would take his cock out and jack it off while everybody else watched and wished they had enough nerve to do the same thing but most of us waited until we were alone to jack off. Of course most of my wet dreams were filled with pictures of me on my knees sucking off each and every one of them. I didn't know that I was gay I just knew I wasn't like all of the other guys. You've got to remember what guys were like back in the day though. They weren't like the hot, built, beautiful gym bunnies you see in all of the gay porn magazines today; they were just pimply faced kids. This was way before the days of clear skin, buff bodies and big cocks. I never saw a cock in person larger than 6.5 inches until I was 40. There were no gyms where guys went to build up their muscles. The only place that used to have weighs was the downtime Y.M.C.A. or the gyms where the boxers trained. But if you were hooked on boys your crush usually went to the best looking of the guys you knew. That probably wasn't much by today's standards. And as has been said you didn't want to be exposed. The term "Outed" had not been coined at that time. And again as has been stated, even though you had a crush on a guy you wouldn't normally know what to do with his cock if you got it. All you really knew was that your cock got hard when you thought about him and you had to jack off. At that time boys were probably helpless fuckers the first few times they tried to fuck a girl just as a boy having sex with another boy was. It wasn't the ethereal, sensation filled, sexual experience you see in today's porn videos; it was unguided sexual fumbling overridden by fear. With girls it was a fear of making her pregnant or having a premature ejaculation. With guys it was the fear of doing something that all of their upbringing says was wrong but that every sexual part of their being said was so right coupled with the fear that they would be caught in the act or that their partner would brag to his buddies about getting a blow job from so and so the night before-even if it was mutual and consensual. It was alright to try to fuck a girl. In fact it was expected, but to try to suck a guy was anathema and forbidden by society. It was like operating in a minefield. I am surprised that there weren't more suicides than there were or are today. But life goes on; I was over at Herbert's house. We were in the basement playing pool. I had a tricky shot and I wandered all around the table sizing it up. "Herbert grabbed my cue stick and said," Christ Van, we'll be here all night. Let me show you how to do it." He came up behind me, put his arms under mine and around me and tried to line up the shot. It shocked the shit out of me because he had a hard-on and he was rubbing it up and down my ass. Of course my cock got hard instantly. "Shit Herbert," I said, "You can't even see the shot from behind me." "You're right, we'll have to try this differently," And he lay down the pool cue, nibbled on my ear and stroked the hard-on in my jeans. He whispered in my ear, "Please say I can suck your dick." "Okay." I turned around; he dropped down, pulled my pants down and sucked on the head on my cock. He did that for about 5 minutes before I reached down and pulled him to his feet. I reached over and fondled his erection. He had his pants down and his cock out so fast I didn't even see him do it. I got down on my knees, slid my lips over the head of his cock and down his shaft until I had all 5.5." "Oh, Jesus, Van." As I sucked up and down on his cock his hands stroked my head and face. I stopped and got up. "Where did you learn to do that?" "I practiced on a banana." "God, I never thought of doing that." He got back on his knees and that time he sucked up my whole cock. My cock was only 4.5" long so it was not a prodigious feat but it was better than the first time. He sucked me for about 5 minutes and then he stood up. We jacked each other until we both came. As a sexual experience went it wasn't very good by the standards I have now, but for a first time it was pretty good. "You're not gonna tell anybody are you?" "Hell no, are you?" "Shit no. Let's finish the game." "We had a regular thing going for a while and we both got better. Then his father got transferred and he moved away." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Andrew said, When I turned 15 I got a motor scooter. I couldn't get a driver's license until I was 16 but nobody really cared in those days. I used it mainly for delivering newspapers, but it gave me more mobility than I ever had before. A lot of action took place in service station restrooms and parks according to scuttlebutt but you had to be able to get there. Once I went to a filling station about 15 miles away where I stopped in to get some gas and take a leak. I wasn't even thinking about sex. Well that wasn't true I was always thinking about sex, especially when I went into a public restroom. Well anyway I went in and took a leak at the urinal. There were a couple of stalls and I checked out the first one. There was a huge glory hole between the stalls, so I dropped my pants and sat down. I had never seen a glory hole before, but I had heard about them. Five minutes later a guy entered the stall next door. You could see right through the hole into the next stall. So I watched him take a leak and then stroke his cock until it got hard. He was probably 30, a workman of some kind wearing jeans and a t-shirt. He could see me as well as I could see him. "Hey, kid, you want to suck my cock." "Yeah," I said as if I did this kind of thing all of the time. He dropped his jeans and underwear, turned toward the hole and stuck his cock through. It wasn't a large cock, about 5.5 inches, cut, about the size of a small banana, but I had never sucked a man's cock before, it had always been boy's cocks usually Billy's, so this was a first for me. But I took it in my mouth and ran my wet lips up and down his shaft. "That's it boy, suck it. Play with my balls." So I took his balls in one hand and fondled them while I sucked. "Suck on my balls." I wasn't sure I knew how to do that, but I dropped to my knees, licked on his ball sac and then sucked one ball into my mouth and then the other. "Oh shit yeah, man." I was obviously doing it right, so I continued doing that for a couple of minutes then went back to sucking his cock. "Take my whole cock, boy; go all the way down on it." I wasn't sure I could. I had always just sucked on the top part of a dick when I was giving a blow job. But I tried going further up his shaft and was surprised when the whole thing fit in my mouth. "Oh God, yes boy, just like that back and forth, Oh yeah." He put his hand through the hole and held the back of my head and moved his hips back and forth driving his cock in and then pulling it out of my mouth. I later found out this was called face fucking, but of course at the time all I knew was that I sort of enjoyed it. "I'm coming," he suddenly said. I pulled my mouth away as fast as I could but I still got a couple of spurts in my mouth and the rest on my face. I sort of choked and spit his cum out on the floor. He laughed and said, "Haven't learned to swallow cum yet, eh kid. You don't know what you are missing. Stick your cock through the hole and let me blow you." I quickly got up and poked my balls and my 7 "cut cock through the hole. "Nice." He swallowed it down to my pubic hair. I gasped. "You like that." "Oh yeah." He softly fondled my balls as he expertly deep throated my dick again and again. "You want to come." "Yes, please." "Not yet." He pushed his hand between my legs and massaged my perineum while he held my cock in his mouth and tongued it. I spread my legs and squatted down a little and suddenly I felt his finger massaging my asshole. "Ooooh Fuuuck." "You like that." "Uh huh." He pulled his hand out from between my legs and then it was back again pushing on asshole, I could tell it was wet so he must have spit on his finger when he pulled it back. He maneuvered it up my ass to the first knuckle and started deep throating my cock. "Oh God." I wiggled my ass and tried to sit on his finger. He held his hand stiff and I drove his finger all the way up my ass. "Oh Jesus," I said as I suddenly shot my load down his throat. I didn't mean to come in his mouth it just happened. I expected him to spit out my cock and come up screaming and cursing, but he just pushed his finger up my asshole as far as he could and sucked harder on my cock as he swallowed my cum. "Oh, Oh, Oh fucking yeah," I whispered as I expelled my cum into his willing mouth. Sex had never felt so good. My cock softened and he licked the cum off of it as he pulled his mouth up the shaft and let it loose. "See boy, that's what you want to learn how to do. Swallowing cum and pleasing your partner is the best part of sex. Happy hunting." He pulled up his pants and left. I soon followed. I almost couldn't wait until the next time Billy let me suck his cock so I could show him what I had learned.