Date: Mon, 11 Jan 2016 19:03:29 +0000 (UTC) From: JoshRJosh Subject: A Brothers Love (2) part 18 Please do not read if you are not of legal age or if this material is illegal where you live. This story belongs to JoshR. Copyright 2015. All Rights Reserved. Nifty.org is a great site and it is FREE and run by a dedicated person who gives of his time and energy. Please DONATE. Oh yeah, and thank you for the kind emails. They are very much appreciated. A Brother's love (2) part Eighteen I let Jamie in. He followed me into the kitchen where my parents were finishing up lunch. "Hi Jamie," my mother said. "Would you like something to eat?" "No thank you. I just finished lunch." My father said, "So you're in town." "Yeah, my parents went skiing." My father said, "How old is your dog?" I looked at him. I felt my teeth clench. He was checking up on what I said. He couldn't give a shit about the dog. Jamie said, "Molly is eleven I think. They usually board her, but last time, well, I don't know how a dog gets homesick but I guess she didn't do well. So they don't want to board her anymore. I told them I'd come in." "When did you get here?" he asked. "Friday. They left Friday morning. They left her food and water. We have a doggy door. I have class tomorrow at ten, so I'm staying the night but leaving at around six to avoid the traffic." "Maybe Josh can look in on her after school." "They'll be home before he's done with practice, but thank you. Besides, I have to lock up the house." "What are your plans for the day," my father said. "Where you thinking about going to dinner," my mother asked. "I thought we'd hang out with some of the Bolts. Then there's this Thai place in town. It's my treat, as a congratulations gift for him getting both an athletic and academic scholarship. You both must be so proud." "Well, say hi to your parents for us," my father said. Jamie and I left. He said, "What the fuck was that all about?" "Not sure. Probably checking up on me or maybe it's about your parents. I don't know." He handed me a bottle of water. I took it even though it seemed odd. "Drink," he said. "I'm not thirsty. Where are we going?" "My house. Drink." I felt my face getting hot. "Ah, what's going on? I thought we were going to hang out and then go to dinner." "I thought we'd spend time alone, you know without Aaron." I felt odd. I guess the idea of having sex with him sounded okay, but this was not what we agreed to. "Drink," he said. "And you know I don't have any kind of diseases. I thought you could fuck me without a condom. I want your cum up my ass." I sat quietly, confused and getting angry. I had fucked without a condom and I was sure he was telling the truth, but I had said we were using condoms. Then I remembered the video. At the end the four guys piss all over the other guy, making him drink their piss. "Ah, I said I wasn't comfortable with this. And I said we'd use condoms." "When we talked I got the impression it was because of Aaron." I felt sad, almost crying and I wasn't sure why and then angry. "You piss don't you? So what difference does it make? I'm not pissing on you." When he and I talked about this earlier, he had said the same thing. It sounded reasonable to me, but I held to what I had said. No. Maybe just to be stubborn or just to say no to something. I sat in the car and again it sounded reasonable. Then I realized why I was upset. I was feeling pushed. "I said no. I get to say no. We got to his house. My dick was hard, but I really didn't want to have sex. Again confused. "How's your ass?" I asked. He smiled. "Sore, but I can take you again. Drink." "You need to take me home," I said feeling sad. Not because he wanted me to piss on him but because he wouldn't take no for an answer. "What's wrong?" he said, opening his door and staring at me. "I don't want to do this." He sighed. "I don't understand. You were into it yesterday." "Yeah, I guess. I don't know. I'm not today." "Okay, so how about this. Let's compromise." "Compromise?" "Yeah. Pick one or let me pick one." "One what?" "Do the piss or fuck me without a condom." I stared at him and felt angry. Very angry, but tears welled up in my eyes. "I don't understand why you're being this way. You've never been like this." "You've never said no, so you've never been like this either." I opened the door to the car and got out. I walked down the driveway. He ran after me. He said, "Okay, okay. I'm sorry. Josh, stop." I stopped. "Come inside." I stared at him. "I'm sorry. You're right. I just got so into that video. It was like I just wanted to live it out with you. It's like stuck in my head and I keep thinking about it." "You've never been like this." "I know. I'm sorry. Come inside." I followed him into his house. We went to his room. He put his hand on my junk and I got hard. My body was horny, but my mind wasn't. He pulled my cock out of my pants and started giving me head. I wished I hadn't come into his house. I thought about pulling up my pants and leaving, but then I thought that maybe it was just the video and maybe he didn't mean to be so pushy and weird and his mouth felt so good on my cock. We undressed. He masturbated while he gave me head. I wanted to sit down, but he wanted to be on his knees with me standing and fucking his face. When I came, he came and shot his load on my legs and feet while still sucking my cock. We lay in bed and held each other. He said, "I am sorry." I sighed. "Me too. It just felt weird." "Sorry." By then I had relaxed and decided it was the video. He wanted me to fuck him again with him on his back and me on top of him. "Isn't your ass too sore?" "Not too sore. I saw this really hot thing in a video we can do." I felt my stomach churn. "What?" "A guy put a condom on another guy by using his mouth. The thing is that he has to get it all the way down his dick." I smiled. "You're going to unroll a condom down my dick? You know you're going to gag." He smiled and nodded. "Put lube on your cock. The lube on these tastes terrible. I want to wash it off." I lubed up my cock. He went into the bathroom and came out with his erection swinging and the condom in his mouth. I was kneeling on his bed and he was working the condom down my cock and gagging, but his cock was still hard. He got it most of the way down my shaft, lay back and pulled me on top of him. We kissed. We held each other. He reached between us, took hold of my cock and held it against his butt hole. I pressed in. He sighed. I began thrusting. He turned his head and began kissing my face. I turned mine. We kissed. Kissing is somehow connected to the level of excitement I experience while having sex. It was like it made my cock more sensitive. Not only did my cock feel the excitement of what I am doing, but my body felt the stimulation. My hips moved faster. My eyes danced in my head. I pressed fast, hard and deep into him. He moaned and groaned and we kissed, biting and licking. "Fuck," he called out. He reached between us. He started stroking hard. "Fuck me, fuck me, Josh, fuck. Come while you fuck me." I bit into his shoulder. He moaned loudly. I pressed hard into him and shot my load. He shook in my arms. I felt his cum splashing against my stomach. Our bodies fell into the rhythmic body spasms of climax. He held me tight against him. My abs were still tensing, pushing my hips tight against his body. Finally, my body went limp. Breathing hard I said, "I'm not sure I can come again for at least another 24 hours." He began to laugh. Then I began to laugh. I pulled my cock out of him. I looked down to take my condom off but it had broken. "Ah, my condom broke." I said. "Your ass is full of my cum." "I'm not going to get pregnant." I felt my face tingling. I took the broken condom off my cock. "I'm trying to be safe. You know safe sex." I stared at him feeling angry. "You don't have to worry with me. Jenny, you and now Aaron have been the only people I've had sex with. I swear." I stared at him. "Josh, would I be going through all this trouble if I was fucking around with other people." "So, what, this was just an accident?" "Yes, I swear. Maybe because we didn't put lube up my ass. I don't know. I guess I shouldn't have washed the lube off the condom. And don't you think I want to be safe. I mean, I wear condoms with Jenny" I nodded. "Why do you?" "Pregnancy. She uses the pill," he said getting up. "But that's like the last thing I need." We went to the bathroom and stepped into the shower. He put his hand behind him and came back with cum. "It's coming out." "Where else would it go," I said, rinsing off. "I guess." We showered and dressed. "Josh, you don't think I did this?" I wanted to say yes, but I said, "No. I know you wouldn't bullshit me." We went to the kitchen and got bottles of water. We sat and talked about college, UX, David and the summer. I was still feeling angry. I said, "Are we really going to dinner?" "Yes." "We'd better go now." We ordered. He knew what to order. We were going to share. While waiting he said, "I know I shouldn't say this," "Then maybe you shouldn't." "I want to." He sighed. "I want to see a lot more of you. It's just been too long. Way too long. We need to figure out a way to get together over spring break." "I won't be here. I'm visiting my grandparents." He stared at me. "Well, I think we should make his like a regular thing." I stared at him. "Jamie. I really can't right now." "I'm just saying. I think I'm falling for you." I played with my fork, not knowing what to say. I felt nervous. "I thought you said you could never fall for a guy." "I can't." I was confused, but I felt my teeth clenching. Silence. He said, "My father isn't anywhere as bad as yours, but he would never ever tolerate me having a male lover. I mean he wouldn't disown me, but I'd never be allowed to mention it and I'd never be allowed to have my boyfriend in the presence of anyone in my family." "He told you that?" "He knows I'm fucking Jenny. He will not have her at my house for a meal. He says doing that honors the sin." "Wasn't she here for Christmas?" "Yes, and I had dinner at her house. She visited my parents but my father never sat down at a table with her and he was very distant. He wouldn't even do that if it were a guy. If I marry Jenny, then he says he'll `break bread' with her." "That's big of him. Will you marry Jenny?" "I don't think so. I just don't know how to break it off." I started to feel angry at him and didn't know why. "But no boyfriend." "No. I just can't. I mean I guess I wish I could. Guys turn me on and the sex with you is fantastic. I guess I'm lucky girls turn me on too." "I guess." "But Jenny is shit in bed. I mean we fuck. But sometimes I think I'd rather watch a video and jerk off. If the choice was between a video and you, I'd be all over you." I was starting to feel very uncomfortable and still wasn't sure why. I really enjoy the sex with Jamie and I had always liked and trusted him and was very attracted to him, but I was feeling weird and I couldn't stop thinking about the broken condom. I said, "Are you asking me if I'd be your secret boyfriend?" He sighed. "Not boyfriend, but just like secret friend with benefits. I was thinking that maybe I could figure out a way for us to hook up more often. And once you're at UX, I can drive there every couple of weeks and we can hook up." I continued playing with my fork. The more he said the more confused I was about what I was feeling. I liked us meeting to have sex. I didn't want a boyfriend. So, why wasn't I excited about this, I wondered. He said, "I'm only an hour away. I can drive here and get a motel room on a Saturday. Maybe we can get together. Then at UX we can spend a night or two together. You won't have to worry about your father." "Right now, that's too dangerous for me. I can't make this a routine. He's watching what I do. He thinks something is up. I think he only said yes today because you have a girlfriend and your parents go to our church sometimes." "There has to be a way." "Maybe you need to break up with Jenny and either find a girl who is more into stuff you like, there has to be girls that are bi, then she'd be okay with you being bi, or find a guy and forget your father." "I told you I can't just walk away from Jenny right now and I can't give up my family. I just can't." I sighed. "You know I like being with you. You know that don't you." "Yes." "But what you're asking isn't good for me. I told you that I'd talk to David and see if I can make that happen, if you still want to, but I can't meet you at a motel. I just can't. And," I sighed, feeling really lousy about myself saying what I was about to say, "I'm sorry, but I want a boyfriend someday, when I get to UX. Not a friend with benefits thing." He looked angry. "So you're just going to throw this away?" I shook my head. "Jamie, I really like you. I do. A lot, but." "No, I get it. But answer me one thing. What was the kissing about?" I felt embarrassed. "Ah, well, you had stuff you wanted to do. I wanted to see what it was like." "So, it meant nothing?" "It meant I like you." "Okay, whatever. I just thought it meant something more," he said. Soon I was the one apologizing. Finally, our food came. We did share. It was very spicy and fantastic. We talked about Aaron and what our relationship was about, but he was acting distant, maybe hurt. I felt terrible. When he dropped me off at my house he said that he hoped he hadn't said too much. "No. You know I have strong feeling for you. I mean," I sighed. "Jamie, I do care about you, but I don't want to be a friend with benefits." "I understand," he said. "I guess it wasn't fair to ask, but I thought maybe with your father and my father we could figure out something. You know so that they wouldn't know. You could have a girlfriend like me and we could hook up secretly." "At some point, after I graduate, I'm telling him. I know what will happen, but I don't give a shit." "You won't say anything about me." "Of course not," I snapped. He sighed. "Sorry, that was stupid. I know you wouldn't." We said good night. I went into the house. The next morning, Aaron called as I was getting ready for school. "I'm walking," he said. "Call me when you get here." We met on the corner. "Thank you for Saturday," he said. I looked at him. "Why are you thanking me?" "You invited me. It would never have happened." Even though there was no one around us as far as I could see, he leaned in and whispered, "You shared him with me. You didn't have to. I got my first blowjob and fucked for the first time because of you." "I guess. Aaron last night I was thinking about it all." "Yeah, me too and I jerked off three times." I laughed and shoved him. "What I was thinking was that I had a much better time with you there. I mean I enjoy being with Jamie. A lot. But I really enjoyed Saturday a lot with you there, so don't thank me." Silence. I kept thinking about how uncomfortable it felt Sunday. He said, "I think we do the same thing." I looked at him. He said, "A couple of times on Saturday I thought maybe I was getting in the way or maybe ruining it for you. It's weird that you say you were enjoying it more with me there." "Aaron you ruined nothing. A couple of times I almost busted a nut just watching you get head and I really enjoyed watching you pounding his ass." "Shit, I'm getting wood." I laughed. "The expression on your face when you sat on his face was awesome. I wish I had a picture." He laughed. "Fuck, no more talking about this," he said, as we approached the school. "I'm going to have to sit through first period with a hard on." Wednesday night we ran. He was doing much better. We talked about his weight training class. He was still nervous but he decided that he wouldn't drop it. He laughed. "What?" I said. "Me buff." I laughed. His parents were not home when we returned. We went to the kitchen. He handed me a bottle of water. I thought about Jamie handing me water. "Thank you," I said. Standing beside him, I cupped his junk with my hand. He smiled at me. "Can I do that to you?" "Really? You've got to ask." He pressed his hand into my junk. "As long as no is around, I don't care." "I was thinking," he said. "This should be good." He laughed. "No, just that we're jerking off with each other, jerking each other off every Wednesday night, right?" I nodded as I felt his cock getting hard. "So at UX when we're in the dorms. We ought to have a night like this, you know, each week. I mean if you don't have a boyfriend and I don't." I smiled. "A jerk off night after we run." "Well, it doesn't have to be after a run." I pulled his jogging pants and briefs down. His hard on popped out. "I think it should be after a run." "Damn. This running thing is going to kill me." He pulled my erection out. "But I guess it's a good way to die." We went to his room. He put on music. We undressed. He lay down on the futon. He spread his legs. I knelt between them. With lube, I began to slowly masturbate him while he looked from his crotch to my face. We smiled at each other. "What was your favorite thing Saturday," he asked. I thought as I stroked. "Ah, well, I guess it was fucking him while you were sitting on his face. You know when we were looking at each other." "Yeah, that was cool. I have two favorites." "Getting head and fucking him," I said. "Getting head for sure was number one. Him sucking me and you rubbing that spot between my legs." I touched it. "Yeah, that spot. And at the same time I was holding you cock. That was fantastic. Complete sensory overload." "And the second?" "When you and I were sharing his cock. That was incredible. I've jerked off thinking about that." I chuckled. "Me with cock in my mouth." "Us sharing. Yeah." "Yeah that was hot. What about it turned you on so much?" "Fuck, I don't know. But just talking about it now makes my body get chills." I squeezed his balls. He laughed and squirmed. "What about it excited you?" "Ah, okay, don't squeeze. Let me think." I stroked his cock and smiled. "You can't squeeze my balls if it's a compliment, right?" I laughed. "If I believe you I won't." He laughed. "Fuck. I've always thought you were the best looking guy of our friends, of the Bolts." "You're getting close to having your balls squeezed." He laughed. "I've always admired you so much. Look up to you. Was happy you were my friend." "Aaron anyone who is your friends is the lucky one. Don't do that to yourself." "No, I don't mean it as a put down to me. I know I'd have friends if I weren't your friend. But I've always been happy that I was. I didn't think you'd reject me, but I thought maybe you'd not be as much of a friend once you found out. I figured I'd find new friends to be close to and we'd be just kind of friends. But," he sighed. "Don't think I'm weird, okay." "Shut up." "Just thinking that your mouth was on a cock and then I put my mouth on that same cock. It just turn me on so much." I smiled. "Yeah, it turned me on too." "It was like we were sharing an ice cream." I squeezed his balls and laughed. He laughed too. I stroked him slowly for a while, but watched the clock. I slid my finger up his ass and tightened my grip. He moaned. I felt his prostate enlarge and become firm. I stroked him hard and aimed his cock at his stomach. His body tensed and shook. Streams of cum shot from his cock and landed on his chest and stomach. He lay still and breathed hard. I stared at him and gently touched his cock. I thought about kissing him, but I didn't, remembering what Jamie said. I smiled and said, "Ice cream." "And oatmeal chocolate chip cookies," he said. After he masturbated me, we showered together, soaped each other and played with each other's junk. He asked me, "Do you love him?" "Love him, like in love with him?" "Yeah, I guess." I thought for a moment. "I think I had a crush on him at first. He's always been nice to me. Mostly, I like him. And no I'm not in love with him." "Like you feel about me." I was surprised by the question. He grabbed my balls and gently squeezed. I smiled. "No. I think the way I feel or felt about Jamie is crush like. If Jamie said we weren't going to see each other anymore, I'd be sad." I thought about our Sunday night talk and since then thought it was likely I might not see him again. "But I'd go on. I mean I wouldn't feel sick over it. It's different with you. I'd be very sad is we weren't friends." I looked at him. "Is that a good enough answer?" He nodded. He said, "I'd feel sick if you said you didn't want to be my friend anymore." "Me too. Now let go of my balls," I said and smiled. He laughed. I stuff my erection back into my briefs and ran home. I went to my room, undressed and hit the books. Sarah and my parents returned home about a half hour later. Sean and I found time for him to double blow me a couple of times on Saturdays after swim practice. His mom usually did a big shopping on Saturdays so we'd head to his house after practice. I was never sure why he was so into getting on his knees and getting me off twice while he masturbated. If I asked to suck him, he'd sometimes stand and let me give him head for a few minutes, but he was really into just sucking my cock, licking my balls, which he said tasted like chlorine. My father wasn't happy about me being away for spring break. But I knew he'd never say no to my grandparents. As the day of my flight approached I became more and more nervous. I practiced with Aaron. He thought they probably knew, but I was sure they were, like my father, thinking that I was fucking some girl that no one knew about. I thought they'd still love me, but I kept imagining the disappointed looks on their faces. I asked Aaron to drive me to the airport. On the way he said, "So, I was asked to keep a secret from you and I said no." I looked at him and felt nervous. He said, "Jamie email me and then called. He wanted to get together over spring break." I felt my face tingling. "What did you say?" "I was really confused by it. I mean why should it be a secret from you? That bothered me. I mean if you and I got together with him again I'd be fine with it, but he's your friend. But when he'd talk to me about it, my dick would get hard, real hard." "What are you going to do?" "I was going to ask you if it was okay, but I knew you'd say yes even if it wasn't. Anyway, my mother always says that when I'm confused about something that involves someone else, I should put myself in their shoes and ask how I would feel if I was them. If I were you I'd feel bad and I'm not sure why. But maybe it was because he didn't want you to know. Anyway, I said no." He glanced at me and said, "I told him if you got together with him and you wanted me there I'd be happy to join in, but I wouldn't do this and keep it a secret from you." I felt sad. Really sad. "You're a good friend." He smiled and said, "I know. I mean I'm driving you to the fucking airport." I smiled. "Asshole." I wondered about telling him about hooking up with Jamie on that Sunday and our conversation. I said, "Jamie and I had a conversation after that Saturday. He wanted me to be a friend with benefits. He suggested that maybe I could have a girlfriend as he does and he and I could hook up. He wanted to come here every two or three weeks and go to a motel and then when we were up at UX, he'd just come up for a weekend and he and I would go to a motel." Aaron kept glancing from the road to me. "I told him I wanted a boyfriend. I think he thought he and I could still hook up. Anyway, I said I couldn't while I was here and that I wouldn't while I was up there. I told him that I'd talk to David and try to get a weekend set up during the summer. I mentioned it to David and he said no. He said that he thought this was getting to be more than just sex play and getting complicated and weird." "Wow. I'm glad I said no." "I feel bad. I mean I like him. I don't know. I just hate being a jerk to him." "I don't think you are being a jerk. I mean sometimes you are a jerk, but not this time." I looked at him. He smiled. "Sometimes, just a little, right? Right?" "I'll give you that." "I know if you could this is a time when you'd squeeze my balls, right?" "Wishful thinking," I said and smiled. He laughed. JoshRJosh@Yahoo.com I hope you are still enjoying my story. And thank you all for the emails.