Ash and Dad - Continues
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Dad, I'm not usually much for country music, but there is some that I like. After
hearing this song this morning I knew I wanted to give this lyric to you. It doesn't fit perfectly, because we've not actually met and touched, but I think you'll get the sentiment.
"One More Day" by Diamond Rio (Steven Dale Jones/Bobby Tomberlin)
Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished for one more day with you
One more day
One more time
One more sunset maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishin' still for one more day with you
I'd like to thank everyone who sent emails about the story and a personal thanks to Leo for his suggestion of a possible scene.
Once again, a special thanks to my brothers, Clay and Tim, for their continued support in my writing this little fantasy. Love you all!
Ash - email@example.com
Ash and Dad - Chapter 3
When I next woke up, the sun was high in the sky and, from
the temperature in the bedroom, it was going to be a
beautiful, warm, Indian summer day. Realizing that I was
alone in the bed, I rolled onto my back and began to wonder
just what Dad was thinking. Would he be apprehensive,
angry, happy, sad? I tried to place myself in his shoes. He
hadn't reacted with disgust, he'd seemed to enjoy himself.
Was that just an automatic biological response? Personally
I'd be wondering how to face me this morning, running every
possible scenario through my head. He'd be asking "Why?",
and probably wondering about me. Was I gay, when did it
happen, how long ago, did he do something wrong raising me?
What a can of worms I'd opened. This chain of events, while
something I had dreamed of, was, I'm sure, something
unexpected for Dad. Rolling over, pushing the blanket back,
and throwing my feet over the side of the bed to the floor,
I decided that another shower was what I needed before
This shower was quick, hot and definitely not erotic at all.
Too many conflicting thoughts were making themselves known
to me at this point. Why had I done it? That was easy, it
was something I'd dreamed about for years. What would this
do to my relationship with Dad. What was "at risk"? How
would he react? Was he even home? I hadn't heard any noise
when I'd woken up. Hurrying to finish, I dried quickly and
returned to my bedroom. Dressing hurriedly in briefs, shorts
and a tee shirt, I went in search of Dad.
Glancing at the clock as I passed the kitchen, I realized it
was after noon. I guess after last night`s activities I
needed the rest. I found Dad where I expected, curled up on
the couch in the sunroom. Pausing in the doorway I watched
him for a moment. He seemed to be staring through the
window at nothing in particular in the yard, a large soup
cup in his hand, and the remains of a sandwich on the coffee
table. He had obviously, to me anyway, retreated to his
favorite spot to think. He was startled and almost spilled
his soup when I said hello, and when he turned his face to
me I could tell he'd been crying.
Sitting next to him on the couch I took the soup cup from
his hands and set it down. Pulling him into my arms,
snuggling his head in the crook of my shoulder as I would a
child I asked, "Why have you been crying? Are these happy
or sad tears?"
"I'm not sure at this point. When I first sat down here
they were sad, when I thought back to last night's events
they were happy, and right now, I think they're tears of
"Let me say right off the bat that you have nothing to worry
about. Like I said last night, what happened is something
that I've dreamed about, longed for, for quite some time. I
wanted it to happen and finally saw my chance. I hope you
don't hate me for that!"
"I could never hate you. I hate myself for succumbing to
something that I've struggled to suppress for so long. I've
had homosexual tendencies all my life. Your mother knew and
married me anyway. The thoughts didn't go away, but I
suppressed them for all our sakes. When you were younger I
used to look at you and marvel at how handsome you were. I
found myself thinking about you and how I could love you
physically. I would never, could never, act on those urges.
They're wrong, horribly wrong!! I hated it when you left
for college because you'd not be here and I loved it because
that temptation was gone. I looked forward to every visit,
just to see your face again. No matter how much those
thoughts invaded my mind, I should not have allowed what
happened last night to happen."
Laughing to myself, I shifted so I could look directly into
Dad's eyes and said,
"Do you really think you could have stopped it? When you got
hard with my head in your lap while watching the movie, what
may have been an involuntary biological response to you, was
an oasis in the desert to me."
Dad looked at me quizzically and I knew that I was blowing
"I've always found you sexy, Dad. You're not a big guy but
you`re well put together, and you take care of yourself.
You always showed me love, and tried to make me think for
myself, work through problems and issues. I always admired
you for that. When I realized that I was at least partially
attracted to guys, you were first in line. But at 16 I knew
that it was wrong and could cause trouble."
A tear rolled down Dad`s cheek as I said this, and I reached
up and wiped it up with my finger. Absentmindedly, I licked
the tear from my finger as I studied Dad for a moment. The
look in eyes, his position on the couch, his furtive
glances, suddenly struck me. How could I not have seen just
how much Dad, was hurting? I needed to find the right words
to help him.
Trying to pull together my thoughts before making matters
worse I continued.
"I knew when I went off on my own that I would never NOT
want to make physical love to you. It's one of the reasons
that I left home even though I didn't go to college right
off. I'm just glad that I managed to wait until we were
older, mature enough to realize that it won't hurt our
relationship, our love. I wanted this to happen, I love
that it did, and I have to tell you that it was the most
wonderful love making of my life. Even if it never happens
again, you've, to paraphrase a corny movie line, "you've
completed me." I just have to know now, from you, that
you're OK with what happened."
Dad looked at me with tears on his eyes, breathed a ragged
breath and started to speak, so softly that I just about
couldn't hear him.
"I've longed for you for more years than I can remember. I
know that society condemns me for thinking those thoughts
about my own son, but they've been there for years. Your
fellatio last night was the crack in the dam"
I smiled inwardly at Dad's oh-so-correct term for the blow
job. That was him, never able to be crude around me. I had
very much the same problem. It was always tough for me to
tell my father an off color joke. I knew that he would enjoy
them, it's just I couldn't see myself saying things like
"cock" or "pussy" or "fuck" to my Dad.
As Dad continued, I tried to concentrate on what he was
saying and not lapse into memories of his fucking me in the
early hours of the morning.
"After your ...." he was having trouble with the term so I
"Blow job", I laughed, "Dad, it was a blow job" He grinned
and laughed that wonderful soft laugh that he has.
"Okay, BLOW JOB, after the BLOW JOB, I knew that nothing
would be the same. The way you took control, wouldn't let me
do anything, I knew that you wanted it and I was thrilled.
Your taking control also meant that it wasn't my fault, I
couldn't control it. It gave me an out, and I find myself
ashamed for thinking that. I don't really want an out, I
just don't know where this leads us, and I worry that it may
change what has been a first-class father/son relationship.
By the way, the blow job was great." he smiled." What
concerned me, still concerns me, is whether you really
wanted to do it. I didn't want you to feel coerced into
I laughed. "Coerced would definitely not be a word I'd use
to describe last night, or this morning."
Dad laughed, too, and I could tell he was relaxing, which
relieved me no end.
"Dad, I have to tell you that I've always looked up to you,
admired you. You're definitely smarter than me, with
classroom learning anyway, but you never put me down. You
always pressed me to be the best I could be, to take the
risks and to learn from mistakes. You let me try and fail
and then didn't try to sugar coat it. Learning that
everything doesn't have a happy ending was a tough lesson to
swallow, but you prepared me well for life. I never heard
you spout hate toward any person or group, and on occasion
you stood proudly with the underdog. You're what I want to
be, and at some point I realized that I didn't just want a
loving, mentoring Dad. I wanted the next level. That you
might want me the same way is more than I had hoped for."
I had tears in my eyes, and Dad was sitting there staring at
me with tears in his eyes again.
"If we keep this up we'll need stock in Kleenex." I quipped.
He smiled his wonderful smile and pulled me into a killer
"Son, I've probably not actually said it out loud to you,
which is my mistake, but I'm so proud of what you've done
with your life I could bust."
At that moment I loved him even more. He'd spoken words
that I'd longed to hear, he was proud of me, me who took 15
years to get his BS degree, me who labored on the front
lines, never really pushing to climb the corporate ladder.
"How could I not be proud of you? You married a great woman,
provided me with three beautiful grandchildren, you've
provided well for them, been there when your mother and I
needed you. I've witnessed your being there for your brother
and sister, and your friends. You'll go miles out of your
way to show a person how to get somewhere, and don't try to
deny it, I've seen you in action. You`re a good person,
you're my son, how could I not be proud?"
Dad's mentioning my wife and kids opened another point I
felt we needed to talk about.
"Dad, you need to know that this hasn't happened with anyone
else since Deby and I got married. I had a few
"interactions" when I was in high school, but because being
gay was still really looked down upon I suppressed those
urges. Oddly enough when I met Deby I knew that I'd met my
mate. She knows of my gay tendencies, has since before we
married, but I've never cheated on her, with a man or woman.
That doesn't mean that the urges have gone away. The
internet has provided a wonderful outlet for those
fantasies, and I indulge myself whenever I'm completely
alone. This tryst with you is a fantasy come true!"
Dad looked me in the eye, took a deep breath, let it out and
"See, how could I not be proud of you? You've made your
choices and lived with them. I've seen how you and Deby
interact and know that you're not faking your love for her,
and you`re wonderful with the kids. Remaining true to your
marriage just shows me that you've made choices in your life
that were right for you. But this scares me half to death.
This is the proverbial forbidden fruit and I've tasted it.
We can't let this little mistake happen again!"
"WHOA stop right there!" I cringed at the tone and volume of
my statement. "THIS WAS NOT A MISTAKE. We may not want to continue to do
this but it wasn't wrong. It was a mature father and son
showing their love in the ultimate way. Making physical
love, not fucking, not a quickie in some dive motel. I hope
we can continue to show each other physically how much we
love each other, but if we never make love again I will
never think of this night as a mistake."
Dad mulled that over for a moment before replying.
"I'd be lying if I told you that I didn't enjoy last night.
The BLOW JOB was wonderful!"
He said blow job with such emphasis that I laughed. I knew
that he was making fun of himself for his earlier fellatio
comment. It was one of the things I loved about him, his
quick wit and ability to make me laugh.
With a huge grin, Dad continued.
"Your forcing me to make love to you this morning was also a
dream come true.'
I laughed out loud. Dad was his old relaxed self now.
"While I have to think that continuing a physical
relationship will be full of obstacles, I know that I want
it to continue. Forbidden though your ass may be, it was
sweet. My choices in life were pretty much as yours. I had
my gay connection is high school and college, met your
mother and fell in love. I've ignored my gay side, except
for an occasional magazine or rented movie for almost
40 years. Having a loving son, to finally share those
feelings with, will be a dream come true. BUT.we will have
to be very careful. I won't do anything that might endanger
your marriage or hurt the kids. If that means that we don't
see each other as often, so be it, but I won't let our
physical relationship harm anyone even if doing that hurts
Grabbing Dad`s hand, I pulled him from the couch and into a
tight embrace. Kissing him gently on the lips I led him
from the room.
"Come on Dad, there's someplace I want to take you"
"A place I like to go to think. It's not too far, it's
pretty and we can pack a light dinner. After we eat we can
talk some more and watch the sunset. I've never shared this
place with anyone, not even Deby, and I want to share it
"Ok, let me change into jeans. It's getting chilly in the
evenings now." Dad said.
Then he looked me in the eye and laughed
"You should too you know, you'll chill the family jewels in
those shorts this evening."
I laughed as he continued to his room, "once a parent always a
parent"! Letting my gaze drift to the ceiling, I considered
just how lucky I had been today. I had always loved my
father. He'd always been there for me when I needed him.
Now we could love each other in a way few people could
understand. Their understanding didn't matter, we were
special people, loving in a special way.
Just as I was considering that, my brain's little trickster
"How long can it last?" he asked.
I didn't have an answer. I guess we'll just have to wait
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