Date: Wed, 19 Dec 2012 19:35:38 -0800 (PST) From: Bob Subject: Dad, the Man In the early spring of 1995 when I was 31, I flew down to Arizona to visit my parents who had moved there for their retirement a few years before. Since Dad's retirement from his aerospace job in Seattle, they decided to give up their status as winter "snowbirds" and move down full time. Although I didn't really see them that much back home in Seattle, I still missed them, especially my dad. He had a strong head on his shoulders, as you can imagine for an engineer. I often counted on him for straight-laced, prudent advice whenever I asked for it. He never interfered in my life, but he was there if I needed him. He was accepting of my homosexuality (I came out to my parents while in college), and I could tell he tried not to come across as too judgmental. You might say he was a typical modern American male from the 1960s generation. In some ways he was more upfront about my sexuality than mom. She had accepted my coming out with open arms and kisses, yet over the years she had shied from asking me questions about who I was dating. Dad, on the other hand, always wanted to know what was going on with my personal life. Sadly, I had very little to tell him. My love life had not been all that great. At that point I had given up even trying to look for "Mr. Right." Despite my good looks and having a burgeoning career as a young attorney with a boutique law firm, I was having a hard time finding anyone who was even remotely interested in me, and vice versa. The older I got the more I realized I just didn't seem to fit into any gay "circles" anywhere on earth. I guess that's why I always found myself more attracted to straight men. Their unassuming, laid-back natures were very appealing to me. I had my share of rendezvous with straight men, but of course such men would never commit to a serious relationship. They were usually just after good sex and to be worshipped. Even the straightest of American males sometimes tired of the constant competition and challenge from modern females, which left them demasculinated and frustrated. I was like a small island in the midst of a vast ocean. Drop anchor and move on in the direction Mother Nature intended for them, as vigorously as they might have fought against the current. As far as my love life went, I was on a slow-moving treadmill. And so that was partly why I decided I needed a break from Seattle and to visit my parents in Arizona. I looked forward to not only getting away from the lame Seattle scene, but to feel some warm sun on my winter-weary body. I had planned the trip a few weeks in advance so when my mom picked me up at Phoenix's Sky Harbor Airport and she informed me of her plans to be gone during my five-day stay, I gave her a surprised look. "I'm sorry, sweets," she said as she drove me from airport back to her and Dad's place in Mesa. My dad stayed behind as he usually did. He hated to deal with traffic now that he was retired. "I have a cruise scheduled from Los Angeles to Puerto Vallarta with my bridge club. It's just for a few days. It's a bridge cruise. I hope you don't mind. At least I'll be able to spend tonight and your last night here with you before you leave." "That's fine," I said, none too upset. I really didn't mind. I actually liked that my mom was doing something with her life. Growing up I always thought she was somewhat of an overly domesticated fussbudget. Finally she was spreading her wings. It had been nearly a year since I had last seen my parents and I wondered how much my dad had spread his wings. Back at my parents place Dad meandered into the hallway to greet me. He wore typical "retirement" garb: t-shirt-, Bermuda shorts, flip-flops. I couldn't believe how much weight my dad had dropped. He was down to what he called his "pre-daddy" weight. "Retirement looks like it's treating you nice," I said, releasing my hug from him and smiling bashfully. "Your mother gives me no choice." Dad chuckled. "She's always gallivanting around the globe, leaving me here alone. I have way too much time on my hands. So I took up water polo. Can you believe it? At my age!" Indeed Dad looked great for 62. He still had strong legs and since losing weight his stomach looked as flat as an ironing board. He looked years away from when he would slide into the old-man with stick legs and protruding belly. After dinner and catching up, I did what I had been dreaming of since the rainy season hit Seattle in October—I went swimming in my parents' pool. It felt great to swim with the setting sun splashing pink highlights off the cresting waves in the pool. Their pool was enclosed in a screened atrium and though it wasn't exactly huge, it was nice with a hot tub attached. "Looks like you've been working out a lot," Dad said as he stepped into the atrium wearing his terry-cloth bathrobe. I blushed. "Well, yeah. When I'm not at work there's not a lot else to do, I guess." "You mind if I join you?" "Sure," I said. "I was just about to get out anyway." Dad flung off his robe and I had to suppress a gasp his body looked so firm. It was moderately hairy but the dark hairs were bleached from the sun. His skin, still fairly tight for a man in his early sixties, was a deep tan, far more tanned than mine, of course. He was almost cute in his blue board shorts, as if he were forty years younger. Dad jumped into the water and splashed me a bit in my face. He reemerged from under the water and wiped his face with his strong engineer's hands. "Woah!" he said. "Feels good. Best thing we ever did was get this pool. Glad your mom talked me into it." I swam over to the side of the pool and hoisted myself up. Sitting with my feet dangling over the side, I watched Dad swim a few laps before he stopped in the middle of the pool near me and blew out some water from his mouth like a fountain. The artificial lighting from the atrium glistened off his wet shoulders and brown hair flecked with a few gray strands. He studied me a minute with that dad look: contemplative, scrutinizing. He put his hands on his hips and cocked his head to the sides back and forth shaking out the water from his ears, all while analyzing me. I knew it was coming. The concerned "nurturing" dad was about to come forth. "How's the law firm?" he asked, building to what was really concerning him. "Good, good," I said, watching the light play off the waves in the pool. "Busy." "And how's everything else going?" "Okay." I kicked the water with my toe. This was what he was really interested in, "everything else." "Just okay?" "You know how it is." "I don't," Dad said. "I don't know how it is at all. I know you're unhappy. I just don't understand what it is gay guys are looking for. If it's not you, then who or what?" "Dad, we've been over this. It's different for gay guys. It's not like you and mom." I sighed and kicked the water around some more. It wasn't easy talking to my dad about this. He knew that I was interested in a committed long-term relationship, and often puzzled over what was taking so long. He was simply baffled by "gay culture." He wasn't the only one. "I know you are who you are, and I don't judge that," Dad said, moving the water around with his hands, "but it angers me that you might not be happy with your choices." "It's not a choice, Dad." "Don't quibble over words with me. You know what I mean." "I'm actually really happy," I said, trying to look at him directly in his brown eyes without feeling cowardice. My dad always demanded truthfulness when you spoke with him. The engineer in him refused to be toyed with. But I wasn't exactly being untruthful. I really was happy with my life. I just had a major part missing. "You're happy?" "Well, yes. As happy as I can be. I just accept what is. With gay guys, meeting each other is, well, it's not like with you and mom. It's not about finding someone to breed with, not that straight people are only looking for that. But it's an important aspect that keeps two people bonded together. Gay men don't have that. I don't know..." I grew flustered. My philosophizing over gay life for so long was wearing on me. "I don't get all this hoopla about gay marriage if no one even wants to date," Dad said. I snickered. "I agree. But irony is to man what water is to swimming pools." Wanting to end the subject, I slid into the pool and dunked my head. I broke the surface and shook my curly head and splashed my dad. He splashed me back lightly, half-heartedly, as if still pondering his confusion with the gay lifestyle. I knew he loved me, and only wanted the best for me. But there were some things he simply could not make any better. Or could he? The next morning my mother's bridge partner picked her up for the airport. She was in a giddy, gleeful mood as she left for her flight to Los Angeles, and on toward her cruise to Puerto Vallarta. Her absence left behind a somberness in the air. I felt restless and bored. After my conversation with Dad last night, I felt kind of empty and lonely. Aching for a man—a real man—I had done what I hated doing whenever I visited my parents but sometimes can't resist—I masturbated under the bed sheets. Dad seemed distracted too. At my age of 31, he expected me to be "married" by now and he worried about my obvious frustration with the same sex. But he left well enough alone and asked if I wanted to play a 9-hole golf game to avoid any more talk about relationships. We spent the rest of the day golfing, lunching and him touring me around the ever expanding development where my parents lived. Mesa at the time was almost as large as any medium-sized city—300,000 residents. Today it exceeds 400,000 and, although a mere suburb of Phoenix, it's one of the fifty largest cities in the United States. In a few more years Mesa will be more populous than Seattle. I loved the green palm trees juxtaposed against the rising purple desert mountains. The day relaxed me and I looked forward to another swim once we returned home. I swam alone and afterward we ate Italian take-out talking about work-related matters at the law firm and Dad's retirement. He was truly enjoying himself. He seemed to have the best of everything. I envied him so much. He stayed clear mention my lack of a love life, and I was grateful to say good night to him around eleven without him bringing it up again. But I couldn't sleep. Still restless, I climbed out of bed and almost absentmindedly wandered to the glass doors looking into the atrium. I was completely naked since I always slept in the buff. I figured Dad would be sound asleep, and with mom gone I wasn't too shy about wandering out of bed in the middle of the night naked to just stare and think like I did back in my apartment in Seattle. I watched the full moon's reflection off the pool water in the atrium and tried to sigh away my frustration. My vacation in some ways only exacerbated my longing for a man. If only I had a real man to be with, a "husband" to cuddle with, to stroll down the palm tree lined streets with, to frolic in the pool with, to make love with... "Thinking of a midnight swim?" Dad stood behind me. I turned to him slightly, careful to keep my penis from his view even though the house was dim. "I was thinking of getting in the hot tub," I said. In the sliding glass door's reflection, I could see Dad was wearing his boxers. He had slept in his boxers since I could remember. It was comforting to know that some things never changed. "I just wanted to sit and think." "I'll join you." He headed toward me. "If you don't mind." I stepped onto the pool deck and dropped into the hot tub before he could see much of my naked body. It was a little odd being naked in front of my dad and although I was no prude, I still didn't feel like putting on a "show" for him. I also didn't feel like bothering to slip on the bathing trunks I brought with me that were still damp hanging in the bathroom. Dad turned on the tub and peeled off his boxers and stepped in opposite me. I tried to look casual, but I hadn't seen my dad completely naked in many years. I had forgotten what a swinger he was. I was grateful that the heat could explain my blushing cheeks. The gurgling of the tub along with the steam distracted us from having any conversation at first. We simply slid into the hot, massaging water and relaxed. The full moon was high and everything was aglow with a hazy blue. It was almost dreamlike. My worries seemed as far away as Puget Sound. Dad shook his head. Beads of sweat on his forehead dribbled down the side of his chiseled face. Now that he had lost weight I could see the square line of his jaw more clearly. He was a handsome, masculine man, I thought, even still into his sixties. Dad moved over toward me and adjusted some knobs close to me. There was a calming aroma of lavender floating under our noses. I asked him what he had just done and he told me that the hot tub had a mechanism that released scented oils into the tub. "They say it's not exactly good for the pump, but I like the smell." Instead of sliding back to his spot opposite me, he rested by the scent knob, about a foot from me. He laid his head back and closed his eyes. Under the blue moon I studied his face. I only hoped to look as good as he did when I was his age. I hope that I inherited his side of the family's "aging" genes. So far so good. My mother was what you would call cute, but she was clearly looking her age. Although she was five years younger than Dad, she looked several years older. "So you go out with friends?" he asked toward the moon, his eyes still shut. "I go out for drinks, dinners. Sure. Typical things." Dad looked at me. "You deserve more." I just smiled and shrugged. Sinking lower into the hot water, I allowed the bubbles to pop over my face, tickling my nose. The smell of the lavender calmed me. One of the jets pulsated against my lower back. "Feels good," I said. "You're lucky to have a life like this." "It's pretty good." He turned his head back toward the nighttime sky. "I worked hard though. Maybe you'll get there quicker than me. I just wish you had someone to get there with." "Maybe someday." "Well, you have me and your mom, and your sisters. I'm sorry if I've been prying into your life. It's just, well, I'm your dad and I worry..." "I know, Dad. I know. Thanks. You're sweet. Really. I'm lucky to have a dad like you." I couldn't help but reach over and give Dad a hug. His soothing words along with the soothing, hot water and massaging bubbles and the luxurious lavender scent made my head light. Perhaps even the full moon encouraged a bit of giddy and uninhibited feeling. Dad hugged me back, almost like he had when I was a boy. The weightlessness of the water shifted me almost on top of him. We both chuckled, but I did not feel awkward and I sensed either did he. Clinging onto his strong neck, I lowered myself next to him and rested my head on his shoulder. Our legs touched. We were an affectionate family, but it had been a long time since I had "snuggled" with my dad. "Maybe someday I'll meet a man like you," I said. I wrapped my arms tighter around his neck. I had meant those words almost jokingly, but for some reason, instinctively without even thinking, as if an invisible force were guiding my hand, I reached down toward my dad's lap. My hand met his penis, still limp but obviously growing. I wondered if he was getting excited because I was so physically close to him. Was it possible for a man to be aroused by his son simply by physical closeness? His dick was big even for being at half-mast. It was thick and solid. "Wow!" I said, shocked with my own forwardness. "You're a big man, Dad." Dad snickered and stroked my back. "I haven't had any complaints." He didn't seem too shocked by what was happening. In fact, it seemed to relax him further. "I hope this is cool," I said, keeping my head on his shoulder and my hand firm around his growing penis. "It's okay. You probably need this. Maybe I need it too." He pulled my head from his shoulder and looked into my eyes. Blushing, I laid my head back on his shoulder as he cradled me. His penis began to pulsate against my palm. "It's been so long since anyone touched me," I said. "It's okay," Dad said. "I understand." I realized then that I had longed for male affection stronger than I had ever realized. He wasn't just my dad, he was a man, a man who I had always admired. A strong man's man. A man with smarts and a firmness to him, a value I found in few others. I held onto his rock hard dick as if it were a masculine life force, full of vitality and vigor. I let go realizing I was perhaps hurting him, although the even, relaxed expression on his face did not indicate he was in any discomfort. "It reminds me of when you were a boy," Dad said, gazing at the moon. "What?" I jerked my head at him. Dad chuckled. "When you were a boy and we'd snuggle like this, you used to do the same thing. You would grab onto my penis. You were just a little boy. It was all so innocent of course." Blood rushed to my face. "I don't remember that." "You probably wouldn't. You were so young. No more than three or four. I would push your hand away, but you seemed to just want to naturally hang on to it. I guess it made you feel safer and secure. I finally would give up stopping you. Even your mother would be there sometimes and she would just smile. It was kind of cute in a way. You were so little." I rested my head back on Dad's shoulder. I tried to picture myself as this small boy snuggling with Dad, my tiny hand wrapped around his man-sized penis. It seemed completely natural and relaxing for Dad and me talk like that in the hot tub. I did not foresee it coming, and never dreamed of it, not even as a horny adolescent. Of course I had stirrings once in a blue moon, but they were nothing tangible enough to think that I had longings for my own father. In a sense, I felt as if I wasn't really with my dad, but with a man, a man who, if he wasn't my dad, I would be more than happy to be with. I reached again for his penis, which was poking toward the bubbly surface almost teasingly. "I'm sorry," I said again, holding onto his stiff cock. "I know this is kind of weird." Dad shook his head. "That's okay. I understand. Everyone deserves to be touched. And you should be, too. It's just like when you were a little boy." "Did you get hard like this when I held onto you when I was a little boy?" I asked wonderingly. "Oh no." Dad shook his head. "I would naturally get a little aroused. It's normal to get some blood flow down there if someone touches your penis. But nothing like this." "Did I get hard?" I had heard that little boys sometimes get erections, but I didn't recall it happening to me. "A little," Dad replied, grinning. "Nothing like you are now." My faced heated. "I guess I'm really horny," I confessed. "It's been so long since I've been even touched by anyone much less, well, you know." "How long has it been?" he asked. I lowered my head embarrassed. "Almost two years." Dad held me back and looked at me hard. "You shouldn't go that long without being with someone. It's not natural. You deserve love. You're a wonderful man. You have so much to give." Dad's loving words made my head swoon, and I melded into him. The feel of his strong arms intoxicated me. As his masculine hands caressed my shoulders, I sobbed. "You'll be fine, Son," Dad said, holding me tighter. "You'll be fine. I know. I understand." I looked up at Dad and we gazed into each other's eyes. Mine were blue, having inherited Mom's looks, but his were light brown, sparkling and moist. Dad reached for my hair and stroked my curls. He pulled me closer and kissed me lightly on the lips. It was almost like a natural reflex. The kiss shocked Dad and I both. I felt as if I was going to melt into the hot tub. The bubbles popped emitting lavender scent all around and the sound of the night seemed to be sucked into a vacuum. My heart beat more wildly than it already had been. Slowly we brought our lips closer to each other again. I trembled but Dad held me steady. We head locked in a full kiss. I nearly fainted as his tongue opened my mouth. I gave into him, and allowed his strength to hold me up so that I would not slip into the tub. To feel a manly mouth on my own was electrifying. Oh, the feel of him. The feel of his moist mouth, the sense of his breath entering me. I didn't think I could ever break the embrace. But Dad pulled back, and looked away, as if ashamed. "Are you okay?" I asked. "Yes," he said, glancing out the atrium into the night. "I'm okay. You kiss very good. And I know you need this. It's just that..." "Dad?" "Yes, son?" "Will you stand up?" He hesitated. But as if he had no free will, he did what I had asked. He kept his ahead turned askance, to avoid meeting my eyes, as he raised his body above the bubbling water like Poseidon, and stood before me, his rock hard cock mere inches from my face. Leaning back, I looked at him, all of him. I wiped away a few tears that mingled with the sweat and water and kept looking at him. He looked down at the gurgling water. Once again, almost reflexively, I took Dad's raging hardness into my hands. The little boy in me, I suppose, would not go away. Yet I was a man, a fully grown, sexually vital man. Dad finally looked at me and smiled. By design I licked the tip of Dad's cock. I looked up at him after my tongue's initial swipe to gauge his reaction, surprised even by my own unexpected behavior. Oh, but how I needed to be with a real man like Dad. But Dad's smile did not fade. His moist, loving eyes said, "It's okay, Son. I know. I understand you need this. I understand and it feels too good to make you stop." Without even asking, I took my dad's penis solidly into my mouth. I took it full, all the way down to his balls. Dad did not protest. He shuddered and instinctively, though I could tell hesitantly, rested his hand on the back of my head. A quivering moan escaped from his lips. Soon he relaxed and resisted no further. His hand firmly held onto the back of my head as I pumped my drooling mouth up and down along his stiffness. "Damn," he moaned, "I can't believe you can take it all the way down. No one has ever been able to do that. Not in my whole life..." His words trailed off as I continued to deep throat him. To have a man's hard cock down my throat was pure ecstasy. It had been so long, too long. I needed my Dad's manliness. I needed it bad. I gobbled down on him for the life force that it was until he stood up and pulled me off him. Grinning with embarrassment, he said, "That was too good. You almost got me going. Maybe you shouldn't do that." "Sorry," I said, lowering my eyes. "It's just been so long since I've been with a man." In the ensuing silence, Dad brought me closer to him. His lips touched mine. He kissed me longingly, again probing my mouth with his tongue. I could tell by his deep kisses that it had probably been a long time since he had been touched passionately, too. I wondered if he had kept faithful to my mom over the years. Dad held me tighter as we stood kissing deeply, our erections pressed against each other. "Oh, Dad," I grunted between kisses. "Will you show me what a stud you are?" My passion overwhelmed me and took over any remaining bit of inhibition I might have had at that point. "Will you please fuck me?" "Okay," he said, simply. "If you really want me to." We toweled each other off, pulling on each other's erections, and spending extra time drying the pubic hairs on our low hanging balls. Taking my hand, he guided me into the bedroom he shared with Mom. I immediately lied on the bed face up and spread my legs. Dad looked down at me and stroked his cock, which looked as if it had grown even more since getting out of the hot tub. "You're beautiful ," he said, eyeing me as I lied naked on the bed. "When I saw you standing naked by the door looking at the pool, I thought how stunning you looked. I couldn't believe I was thinking how hot my own son's ass was." "Your masculinity was always something I needed," I said, my hands mechanically feeling my hard body. "I just never knew how much I really needed it until now." I thought I might pass out from the sensation of arousal and masculine sex that was to take place. "Are you sure this is okay?" he asked me, watching me finger my asshole, wet from the hot tub, as the passion began to take its toll on me. "Yes," I said firmly. "I need your masculinity. I need to feel your strong, firm manliness inside me." "Oh," he said, gulping for a breath. "It's been a while since anyone needed or wanted that from me." "You don't know how much I need and want it. Show it to me, Dad. Show me what a man you are." Those coaxing words seemed to send Dad over the edge. He threw his head back and vigorously gave his stiff cock a few quick squeezes. Then he climbed right on top of me and looked down into my eyes. He grinded his hips as he pushed his raging hardness against mine. "I'm going to give you what you need, Son," he breathed heavily. "I'm going to show you what a man can do." I opened my mouth to his and we kissed fully, our mouths as wide open as we could get them as if to breathe life into each other. I wrapped my legs tight around him so that I could feel as much of his manly weight on me. Our throbbing hearts and cocks seemed on the verge of exploding. I wrapped my arms tight around his strong manly waist. The firmness of his ass as he flexed his cheeks sent me over the edge. I wriggled and writhed under him. His power was revealed with those thrusts, and I was not sure how long I could go on without him fully taking me. I spread my legs as wide as I could and my dad responded by lifting my ass up and teasing me with the head of his thick man meat. Breathless in the throes of passion, he simply asked, "What do I do?" "Do you have any Vaseline or KY?" I assumed Mom, at her age, would need lubricants. Dad rushed into the bathroom and returned seconds later holding a tube of KY. Noticing the practically unused tube I guessed Dad hadn't been getting any lately either. Dad swiftly greased up and came back to me, eager to spread my legs even wider with his strong manly thighs. Gently he began to insert himself into me. I helped him guide it in since he clearly had never had anal sex with a man before. "Tell me if I hurt you," he said. "You can't hurt me," I told him. "I love it. I need it." I was so deeply entrenched in pure passion at that point that my dad could have been sixteen inches long and I could've taken it. There was a slight spasm of pain as he passed the sphincter, but then the fleeting pain gave way to complete and total rapture. My entire body shuddered with the sensation of Dad's enormous tool—it must have been nine inches!—plunging deep inside me . As soon as he slid in, Dad no longer needed instruction from me. He lost himself inside me, pumping and pushing. Each thrust was a powerful as the one before. I had never seen his expression as it was: pure ecstasy etched across his sweat-shellacked face. He pushed up on his hands to get more fully into me, to push more of his manly power deep inside his son's ass. I could smell the Old Spice he had been wearing since I was a boy. He looked into my eyes and kissed me deeply, our tongues probing into each other's mouths, his thrusts coming quicker and quicker. I spread my legs for him wider, my toes curled, submitting completely. I was his now. I belonged to him. And he knew it. He pushed and thrust, moving his hips from side to side as straight men often do when fucking women. I relished his innocent masculinity. The man, my dad, fucking his son. He fucked me harder and harder. I screamed for more. He humped and grinded my hole. Using his arms, he forced my knees to my shoulders and he sat up on his haunches, pounding deeper and faster. Sweat dribbled from his forehead and temples, merging with my own perspiration. I threw my arms aside, allowing him to take full possession of me. "You like this, Son? You need this?" "Fuck me hard, Dad. Show me what a stud you are. Give me what you need and want. Don't hold back. Fuck me!" His brutal cock moved in and out of my hole with fierce fast thrusts. "I'm going to fuck you so hard," he grunted. "You're going to get what you want and deserve from your dad. You want that, huh? You want your dad to fuck you good and hard?" I nearly fainted. I shouted to the ceiling, to the rafters, to the stars in the Florida night sky. Grabbing onto his faster and faster flexing ass muscles, I screamed, "Fuck me hard, Dad! Give it to me. Don't hold back. Please, Dad, give me what I need. Fuck me! Fuck me hard!" He leaned in deeper and harder, pushing his entire dad rod all the way to his pubic hairs. I could feel his swinging balls slap my ass as he plundered my hole with his cock harder and deeper. He released my legs from his tight hold and fell on top of me, pressing his full weight onto my body without missing a beat in his rhythmic pounding. I wrapped my arms and legs tight around him like a vice. He grunted louder and louder. "I can't believe how fucking good your hot ass feels," he moaned into my ear. "You're so fucking tight. I can't believe what those men are missing. Your ass is amazing to fuck. I'm going to give your ass a good fucking like you need. God, I can't believe how much of me you can take." "Give me all of it," I whimpered into his ear, biting on his lobe and holding him tighter on me. His glutes flexed faster, wet with sweat from the muscles tightening. "Give me your entire cock hard and good, Dad. Please, fuck me with your tool. Make me your yours. Make me your fuck boy!" He jerked up and locked his arms, driving farther and harder. I moved with the cadence of his thrusting, grunting and shouting. "Oh God!" he cried. "I'm going to cum! I'm going to cum!" With a few quick successions of thrusts, he tossed his head back, and I felt the searing heat of his cum fill deep into my hole. I came immediately after without stroking myself, shooting over my chest and chin. Dad rubbed his hands in it, spreading my jism over my smooth pec muscles. "How did you do that?" he said, breathing heavy. "How did you cum without touching yourself?" "You worked my prostate into a frenzy," I said, chuckling. "I couldn't help it." "I've never seen you cum before. After thirty years, can you believe? Oh, Son, I should have seen you shoot your load a long time ago." Collapsing on top of me in exhaustion, Dad breathed heavy. For a man his age, his stamina was impressive. He was still inside me, his man meat pulsating with hot blood. I clenched my butt, to ensure he did not slide out. My legs ached, but I kept them wrapped tightly around his waist. "The look on your face just before you shot in my ass was awesome," I whispered into his ear. "I always loved looking into a man's face just as he cums. I have never seen you orgasm, and the look on your face was beautiful. It was pure man." Yes, I had brought out the total man in Dad. It was at that moment that I realized I had given as much of myself to Dad as he had given himself to me. Dad lifted his head and smiled at me, his brown eyes glazed. Snickering, he said, "Your hole was hot and tight. Pounding you was like fucking the tight leather sofa cushions coated in oil." And then, I felt Dad's cock grow inside me again. I responded by pushing him in farther with my hands firm on the mounds of his ass cheeks. I spread my legs wide, indicating submission. He began to move it back and forth. Dad got back to his hands, his elbows locked, and moved in and out of me, his eyes closed in ecstasy. He moved slower this time, as if enjoying the sensation of something tight and firm encasing his powerful, throbbing cock, yet he continued to drive deep. I released one hand from his glutes and jerked myself. Dad responded by thrusting faster. "I can't believe it," he muttered, "I'm going to cum again. I'm going to fill your amazing ass. I'm going to cum into your right hot ass." And he threw his head back and arched his back, grunting as he pushed his hot shots of cum deep into my wanting ass. I stroked my cock and thick globs of cum shot onto my belly. He collapsed on top of me again. My cum adhered us like glue. He began to chuckle. "I hadn't fucked like that since I was a teenager." I pictured my dad as a youth, his throbbing sex turning the girls wild, perhaps like it had at one time with Mom. He kissed me on the lips and slowly rose. His dick, semi-hard still, slid out of my hole and I winced. A few moments later I heard the shower run. I got up and showered in my own bathroom. I felt no regret for what my dad and I had done. The need for a man—a man like my dad—was so intense just having that need satisfied filled me not with lament but with a frisson that continued even as I toweled off. I was toweling my legs when Dad walked in. He did not speak. Still naked, he grabbed me from behind and held me firm to his semi-wet nude body. His penis swelled to its full rock hard length again. Yes, it had been a long time since Dad had gotten laid, almost as long as me perhaps. That explained why he was always so concerned about my sex life. He sympathized with my situation. He knew how much it hurt not to be close to someone. Realizing this, I turned to him, my cock now painfully hard again too, and held him tight, kissing him lightly on his lips. "I love you, Dad," I whispered to him, smiling and happy. "I love your manliness and your masculinity and how you fuck me like a stud." "I love you, too, Son." He smiled back, hugging me tighter. "I love how you submit to me completely, giving yourself to me like you would no other. From now on, I'm going to give you what you need when you need it. I'll take your hot ass whenever I want it." Dad turned me to face the mirror. I could see him in the reflection grip his hard cock. He slapped it against my ass, and teased me with the mushroom head pushed close to my hole. I reached back and spread my cheeks for him. He moaned, overwhelmed with the completeness of my surrender. He pushed his head into my hole. I still had enough lube in me, he entered with minimal trouble. I grimaced, gripped the counter, waiting for that initial pain to pass before transforming into sheer rapture. He gauged my expression in the mirror. Seeing that I was now smiling, he grabbed my waist with his large, strong hands and plowed into me deep. "I can't believe you can take all of me," he said, pumping in and out, forcing me to grip the counter harder so that my head would not bang into the mirror above the sink. "Fuck, your ass is hot. Fuck, I want to fuck you good." I did not speak this time. My silence proved my giving all of myself to Dad. This time, it was all for him. I pressed my stomach against the basin, allowing him total control. His thrusts pushed into me harder and faster, deeper. He slapped the sides of my hard ass, whooping and hollering as if he were riding a bronco in a rodeo. "You got a tight ass, Son. I wish I had known about this hot tight hard ass of yours sooner. I would've fucked you a long time ago. I'm going to fuck you good to make up for those lost years. I'm going to fuck you hard and good." I met each of his deep, hard plunges by pushing my ass farther out to him, giving him me without hesitation. His fingers gripped my sides harder, and I knew he was about to cum again. "I want to see you shoot," I said. "Please, Dad. Let me see your cum shoot out of that throbbing massive cock that's been fucking me." Dad grunted and moaned. He pumped me hard several more times. Through the mirror I watched him pull out his man meat and stroke his shaft, throwing his head back and squeezing his eyes shut while his hand worked over his thick vein-covered cock. He opened his eyes just as his cum shot from his purple and throbbing head, wanting to witness his cum soak his own son. His hot cum struck my neck and back. I couldn't believe after three times in a row, Dad could shoot so far. And at his age! I remained bent over the sink for several minutes with Dad inside me. We breathed hard. I had not cum again, for I had no way of reaching my aching dick. Dad formed his hard body over mine, his arm wrapped around my ribcage. Slowly, he stood and slid out of me. Barely able to walk, we wrapped our arms around each other's waists and guided each other into the shower. We used generous dollops of musk-scented liquid soap and lathered each other. I loved the feel of his taut skin mixed with the silky soap. I massaged his pectoral muscles and his thighs, thickened by his polo matches. We tongued kissed deep, and my hand found the smooth round mound of man flesh. I grabbed his ass cheeks and prodded his mouth with my tongue. My finger worked its way into his manhole, and he jerked his head upward, groaning. I had no idea how he might react to my finger in his ass. But then he turned his back to me and pressed his marble hard ass against my throbbing cock. His ass was gorgeous, even for a man half his age! I could not control myself. With the water cascading down my neck and back, I knelt before his ass, and spread his cheeks. I heard a low moan emit from his mouth above the rush of water. He pushed his ass out farther. I understood the implicit signal. All men understood it. Regardless of sexual orientation. I pushed my tongue into Dad's hairy hole and began licking without inhibition. He grunted and moaned and clawed at the shower tiles. I pushed my tongue into his hole deeper and nibbled on the sweet pucker hole and the tiny curly hairs, matted with spit and water, that encircled his delicious opening. Dad pounded a fist against the tiles. "Ah, shit! Goddam! Lick my ass, boy. Lick it up good. Let me feel that tongue in your dad's ass." Water ran down my face, and I spread his cheeks wider and probed my tongue down into his hole by at least an inch. I savored the burning sensation on my tongue from his asshole. I bit on his ass cheeks, teasing him. My lips found his hole once again. Devouring him with ass kisses, nibbles, and thrusts of my tongue, I soaked his asshole and crack with my spit. "You like that, Son? Huh? You like that taste of your dad's ass?" "Yes," I said between penetrating licks. "Your ass is so fucking hot. I could eat it all night." "Take it, boy. Take your dad's ass." But I surprised him—and perhaps even myself—by standing up, my cock poised near his moist pucker hole. "Have you ever had your ass fucked before?" I asked him. "No," he said breathless. "If you're thinking of taking your dad's ass, you'd be the first, and the only." I worked my cock from side to side, allowing the head to kiss his smooth cheeks. "Mom never used a toy on you?" "Once a long time ago. She used one of her tampons on me. I didn't like it." "You want me to fuck you? You want to feel your son's rock hard cock up your tight man hole?" "It's your turn to show your dad what a stud you are. Go ahead. Use your tool like you should. Fuck me, stud. Go easy." I lubed his hole with more soap, using first one finger then two, enjoying how he now squirmed from my massaging his prostate. I gripped the base of my agonizing cock and pushed the head between his ass cheeks. He tensed, anticipating the initial pain. Next, I slipped inside him. Dad's head jerked back, and he released an elongated moan. He clutched at the tiled wall, moaning and biting down hard on his teeth. I went slow, not wanting to hurt him. I kept silent, focusing. Soon his grunts turned to low groans, and I sensed pleasure rather than pain now coursed through him. He breathed, his hands relaxed, the fingers still. And he pushed his ass back farther into me. I grabbed his waist and began moving faster, thrusting in and out. I was not as big as Dad, but I had some girth and a good seven and a half inches. I used all of it. He moved along with the rhythm of my thrusts. I watched, transfixed, as I pulled my cock in and out of his ass. I'd pull out to the head, then thrust in my entire length while he squirmed and banged his head against the tiled wall. "Fuck me, boy. Fuck me good. I'm starting to like it. I can feel your throbbing cock. I want to feel your hot man juice fill me. Go ahead. Fuck me hard and give you old dad all you got." I grabbed his cock, rock hard and pulsating with blood. But his ass was what I concentrated on. I fucked Dad harder and harder, digging the fingers of my left hand into the hot flesh of his waist. I did not hold back. I slid in and out fiercely, slamming up against his cheek all the way to my bouncing balls. I could feel his hot flesh flex and twitch with each hard drive. I stroked Dad's hard man meat faster. He moaned toward the ceiling, dripping with condensation from the steam of our shower. "Fuck me, Son! Fuck me! Oh God, fuck me!" "I'm going to cum!" I screamed grabbing onto his shoulders with one hand while I stroked his engorged man pole. I slammed hard into him, bit his back muscles, and released into his ass what I knew was a healthy amount of hot goo. Dad's cock's pulsed in my hand, he squirmed, moaned to the wall. "Keep fucking me while you stroke it, boy. That's it! That's it! Keep plowing my ass." Dad shot all over my hand, brutally hot globs that trickled over my knuckles and through my fingers. I used his cum to squeezed his shaft more, forcing him to squirm and beg for mercy. We laughed, and I fell against him, hanging onto his midsection so I would not fall over in exhaustion. Dad rotated around and kissed my lips. Shaking his head with a grin, he said, "I can see why you might cum without stroking yourself when a nice hard cock is riding your ass." "Your hot hard ass felt so tight and warm wrapped around my cock," I said to him, holding him tight. We kissed fully, and our tongues swirled inside each other's mouths as the water from the showerhead fell over our heads. Dad sucked on my tongue a moment longer, and broke off. His hands clutched my shoulders, and he smiled. "We better take a break. We'll have the whole weekend for more fun if you like. But give your old man a rest." And that weekend, Dad and I certainly made use of our alone time with Mom on her Mexican cruise. We made love a dozen more times. Sometimes fast and furious, other times soft and sweet, taking time to feel each other's bodies press against each other, to gaze into each other's glassy eyes before we shot our loads. Dad permitted me to fuck him raw twice more, but he preferred to top. And since I was a natural bottom, I had no problem with Dad dominating me whenever he wished. Each time was as wonderful as the first. We explored more of each other's bodies, especially while we swam naked in the pool. He would grab me as I swam by and push me up poolside onto all fours (by that time Dad knew how much I loved to be manhandled) and kiss me in places he once thought forbidden. With my ass at his eye level and my hole spread, he'd do to me what I had done to him in the shower. His hot tongue probed his son's smooth hole many times, and we'd leave spent cum floating atop the pool's surface, glistening in the sunshine like pearls. "You're beautiful," he'd say. "My God, even your asshole is stunning." His compliments and attentions filled me with joy. I needed his validation, I needed his love, I needed his manliness. " I savored our new inhibition. During that weekend in Arizona, I lived almost a fantasy. I had everything I had ever wanted with a man. I loved that a man could grab me whenever he wanted, especially when it came from love and not just lust. One morning standing naked in the kitchen as I poured myself coffee, Dad simply came up to me, bent me over the counter and slipped is already greased fully hard cock into my ass. He plowed me right there. He didn't waste time that occasion. He came inside me after a few minutes of hardcore pounding, his spent cum dripping out my yearning hole. Dad expressed so much happiness with the sensation of his full manliness inserted deep in a tight hole, after a lifetime of frustration and dissatisfaction. Never had he met a woman who would allow him to put it all the way in, not even Mom after all their married years. That time in the kitchen was the last time we fucked that weekend. Mom was to arrive that afternoon. Dad and I didn't make a practice out of having sex with each other over the years after that first weekend. We fucked three more times: once two years later when I was visiting my parents in Arizona and Mom was out shopping (Dad had stepped into the bathroom while I was brushing my teeth, bent me over the sink, tore down my shorts, and pounding my ass hard); and then again six months after that when he visited me alone in Seattle. It felt great to have Dad seduce me in my own apartment, to feel him take me and dominate me on my own bed. Spread and eager, I submitted to Dad, allowing him to pound my ass as hard as he wanted, and to stuff his tongue deep down my throat, the way he deserved. Today, Dad suffers from dementia. So far he seems to be hanging in there with three confirmed forms of brain disease. He still as a handsome look, although he certainly looks like an older gentleman today. I never mention our sexual encounters when I visit Mom and Dad; I don't know if he remembers. When I look into is aging, yet still bright, eyes, I sometimes wonder by the way he looks back at me that there might be a tinge of recollection. He struggles to smile, flushes, glances away. One day a few months ago while everyone was out of the house and I was left to care for Dad, I gave myself to him one final time. I was hand washing him, and I found he was sporting a nice woody. Surprised he could still get hard, out of complete reverence, I took him into my mouth. He let loose a low murmur, like a baby alligator's yipe. I worried he might have a heart attack by the way he clutched the armrests to the wheelchair, but I refused to release my lips from his man meat. I sucked his amazing hard throbbing cock until I gagged. Perhaps twelve years had passed since I last had Dad's cock in my mouth. Next I stripped off my pants and underwear, applied a good amount of lube in my asshole and on Dad's shaft, and, with my back to him, sat on his stiff rod. I rode up and down on him, beating my meat while listening to his odd low guttural grunts behind me. It had been so long since I had felt his massive dad meat inside my ass. I relished the sensation, and rode him good. For a moment his hands came to my sides, as if he wanted to grasp onto me, like old times, but they fell flaccid back to the armrests. I rode and twisted down hard on him, letting him enjoy the total sensation of my ass, still tight and round for my late forties. Like Dad, I kept my looks and body into older age. I heard a whimper break from his throat, and next felt the hot rush of his cum enter my ass. I shot on the floor by his feet, right about the same time he filled me with his juice. I pulled off him and studied him. He had laid back and rested his eyes after I rode his cock to orgasm. A smile had lifted the sides of his thinning lips. I don't know if he understood what had happened, or who he had done it with if he had, but I was happy that he'd received pleasure. I washed us both and pulled on my pants before my sister, Mom, and my boyfriend of two years returned home. That was Dad I mines third and final time having sex with each other. I can't imagine doing it again. His aging comes faster and faster and he has only a few years left. A few months after that incident, I dared to tell my boyfriend about what I had done with Dad that afternoon while he and my sister and mom were out shopping. I withheld the stories of our times together before that, some fifteen years prior. I figured those were private moments between Dad and me. My boyfriend surprised me by stroking my cheek with his thumb, and telling me that he thought I had given Dad a beautiful gift. Then he said he wished he had a son who might do such things to him in his old age. After that he rolled on top of me, shoved his raging cock inside me, and fucked me like he never had, exclaiming how my ass was made for big dicks, even big dad dicks. As I watch Dad fade away, my love for him grows, like a memory of a rose that lies withered in between the pages of a beloved book of poems. I love my Dad. I love his manliness. I love that he was willing to give me a part of him that I needed so badly, and in doing so learned that he too needed something deeper from me.