Date: Sat, 26 Apr 2003 21:34:27 EDT From: KissAndCuddleGem@aol.com Subject: Dad's Just Desserts (Installment 5)(by KissAndCuddleGem) This story is purely a work of fiction and any resemblance to persons living or dead, or to events that may have occurred, is purely coincidental. Moreover, none of the actions of the characters in this story is presented with the intent to condone, approve, or sanction their behavior. The above-expressed disclaimer also does apply to any and all installments of this story, including those preceding and following this installment. All questions and/or comments are welcome; and, if you wish to contact me, please feel free to email me at: KissAndCuddleGem@AOL.COM; and I will most definitely respond to email, as appropriate. Casey was a bit baffled just moments after he found himself at the pre-arranged meeting spot in the mini-mall area of the terminal. He was one-hundred percent certain that he had followed Ryan's explicit directions to the letter, leaving Augusta International Airport and taking the tram in the lower level two stations travelling north. Well, he was a bit antsy about being in Maine altogether; but when Ryan was nowhere in sight still after fifteen minutes beyond their meeting time, he began experiencing one of his intermittent panic attacks. Casey felt in his chest a pounding sensation and his palms were perspiring profusely. He kept saying to himself: "Casey, get a grip on yourself." He took a deep breath; and very slowly exhaled. He took out his cell phone and dialed Ryan's cell phone number, leaving a very specific message as to exactly where was standing and to the effect that he would wait there however long it took. He was surprised that calling Ryan for whatever reason did not occur to him to begin with. Casey, frankly, was in a major way just first beginning to know the real Casey. He understood the origin of his panic attacks just as well as he understood himself, which was not very well, admittedly, at all. He wondered if Ryan would be glad to see him. But he also wondered if Ryan truly would be in a position to help him find the answers to all these lingering questions as to: primarily, his father and this family history business that his father simply was not opening up to him about; and also, hopefully, where he himself fit in with regard to this mysterious past. Ryan was defintely taken back by Casey hugging him so rambunctiously when he eventually did show. "Sorry, cuz, I got delayed in traffic, it was murder...", he said in a very casual manner. Thankfully, Ryan did not pick up on the fact that Casey still felt a bit shaky inside from the earlier attack. As Casey looked at Ryan now, he could not help but marvel at the striking reseblance to Ryan's father, Uncle Don. Casey recalled that before Ryan moved away, he seemed to take after his mother, though he still had her roseate complexion and thick, full lips. Casey mused to himself that if he were indeed gay, he might perhaps want to kiss those lips sometime. He was glad that Ryan was here, most glad. Ryan began grinning away, finding himself all caught up in Casey's glee. Ryan had packed up Casey's tree bags, including one light carry-on, neatly in the trunk of his crimson convertible. Ryan began speaking about details, at times pausing to switch radio stations but otherwise speaking virtually non-stop: "As I explained to you in the email, this Doctor Chambers had been in Caribou, Maine for about ten years; as I understand it, he was doing some part-time clerical work there for the National Weather Service for about three or four of those years. Anyway, sometime shortly after Valentine's Day of 2000, he and his wife and two sons relocated to nearby Waterville, reprtedly to do some hands-on research on the French-Canadian community there that he had an interest in as a diversion. The last that I know right now is that in March, 2003, he became widowed and his older son moved out after marrying some model in California, is this; and so he decided to packed everything up and relocate to right here in Augusta, the state capital of Maine. It is a rather convenient coincidence I must say, be being here and all; and, no, I don't know this doctor, but a friend of mine says that the last name does ring a bell, so to speak. So now I am waiting to hear from John, this friend; and hopefully he will have something further for us." Casey was intently listening to Ryan; but he also was looking over Ryan and admiring him sort of in the way a museum spectator would be admiring some remarkable sculpture. He thought it was safe to do this then; as Ryan was evidently pretty focused on the road, the turns, etc. The Ryan he remembered from his early childhood was shy, very pale, and a snobbish intellectual-, even preppy-type that liked to play with erector sets and literally enjoyed Science fair projects. This Ryan had a real nice healthy tan and sort of a sexy, cavalier manner; he was eighteen and a-half, about 6'2", though it was hard to tell exactly looking at him seated; and about 155 pounds with large-sized pecs very much evident through his periwinkle blue tight tank top. Casey thought it was nice the way his reddish-brown hair bounced in the breeze while the covertible's top was not up, as now. He wanted to reach out and touch this lustrous head of hair before him, it was all sensually-appealing to him. There was not even a hint of shyness about him; he looked you directly in the eye, except of course while driving for the most part and came across as very confident and in control. Suddenly, Casey turned his head completely away from Ryan, staring with a blank expreession out of his passenger-side window. "I should not be doing that, I don't even know anything about his personal life. Why am I so focused on his looks?", Casey was saying to himself as if pronouncing a verdict of his guilt on all counts. Ryan, upon their arrival, tipped the doorman to his condominium unit building to bring up Casey's bags to his seventh-storey unit. Within minutes, they were seated together on the living room taupe leather sofa; and Casey was contemplating the entire situation, trying to absorb all aspects of what was potentially involved in this arrangement. Casey was disconcerted by the decor of the dining room and the romantic nature of the table setting: Candlesticks neatly arranged in the center, what looked like expensive floral-print china set out on the fancy autumn-leaf-design place mats. The Polynesian-theme wall hangings and the palm fronds in the corner really threw him for a loop. Ryan, as if guessing his thoughts from his fixed gaze in that direction, quickly related that he had had a noon-lunch date with an old flame from high school; but that something arose and the plans were a "no go". Casey was thinking just then: "'Arose', I wish he had not quite put it that way"; and crossed his legs, almost without even realizing it, though subconsciously trying to camouflage his arousal regardless of whether it was truly evident. Casey and Ryan dined peacefully with things set up as is. Ryan served the meal that he planned to serve for the date; and everything was gourmet, delicious, and, even if re-warmed, still quite moist. Casey especially loved the duckling with the orange sauce on the side. Everything was served and presented in an artistic fashion; and it was obvious even from something as minute as the dots of garnish encircling the rims of the plates for the various courses that Casey was very much mastering what he was being instructed in at his culinary arts school. At one point during the meal, Ryan gently held Casey's hand when he was trying to emphasize a point about the fine art of cooking. Casey was feeling a bit lightly-headed by the whole thing and very much caught up in the effect of the romantic ambience they were in. The touch of Ryan's hand was arousing him. He excused himself as casually as possible to use the bathroom; and while examining himself saw that a drop of pre-cum was now oozing from his slit. His chest began to tighten. "This is crazy, get it together, Casey", he was urging himself in his mind. To curtail the evening, Casey made an excuse after dessert that he was absolutely exhausted from the plane trip; and requested that the discussion of their course of action be left for the morning. A guest room with a queen-sized water bed and peach-colored satin sheets was his assigned quarters, as it turned out. Casey began to wonder to himself what it meant about what he was feeling. At the same time, he reasoned that perhaps it did not matter in the long run what he was feeling. After all, his cousin's last email made it pretty clear that he was straight. Casey wondered whether Ryan might have been trying to seduce him. He found that thought upsetting; but, at the same time, even more unsettling to him was the realization that on some level he actually wanted to be so seduced. The next morn, both of the cousins were definitely well-refreshed and as chipper in spirits as a pair of chirping birds on a limb. In between sips of high-pulp Florida orange juice, Ryan related that he received a near-dawn call from John. "Yes, what is it? Please tell me", Casey responded, seeing Ryan's hesitating expression. "Well, there is no other way to put it than this: Casey, Doctor Chambers will not be much help to us with our little 'investigation'. unfortunately." "Oh, and why may I ask is that?" "You see, he's dead." Ryan almost dropped his glass, upon hearing this. There was then a period of respectful silence. Casey looked into Ryan's intense green eyes and very much realized that he wanted nothing better than to just kiss Ryan right then and there.