Date: Mon, 1 Aug 2011 19:00:52 -0400 From: RayC Subject: Growing Up With Dad Part One The usual disclaimers apply. If you shouldn't be reading this please don't. This is a true story and happened years ago to me and my father. The copyright of this story is held by the author. Story code: Incest, mm, mb Growing up with Dad part one I remember humping the mattress during the night. I'd lay there on my stomach and rub my hard little cock against the mattress. It felt really good to me and I'd even have this tingly climax thing that happened. I was way too young for cum but I didn't know anything about that. yet. At first I didn't know why I did that and I didn't think of anything while I did it. I just did it because it felt good. I was very young and did that for some time before I took another step and learned a little more. One day I got sat in the tub by my mother and sitting at the other end. naked of course. was my father. It was shocking to me at first. seeing his dick. it was so big and so hairy. I know I looked at it too much. it was hard not to. My dad didn't seem to notice. either that or he didn't care if I looked. After that first bath I was hooked and thought it was the most fascinating thing I'd ever seen. Now. I did have a thing for my father. always have. but. other men probably had one of those too and I wondered what theirs looked like. The only chance you ever got to see one was at a urinal somewhere and that's if he let you look. most didn't and it was very frustrating. The locker room at the community pool was a good place. saw a lot of men there. Those high school boys were amazing to watch while they changed or showered. or dried off. and the occasional one would parade around a little or even get semi hard in the shower or at his locker while he dried off slowly trying to give you more time to look at it. It was sad because you didn't go to the pool and hang out in the locker room. You had a few minutes at best. if you stayed longer you got disapproving looks or your mother was the entrance calling your name. It was always very frustrating. so close and yet not quite there. Those early years were haunted by those feelings. always wanting what seemed like you were never going to have. At times it was painful. the level of frustration. There were neighbor boys my own age. a few of them were always interested and so was I. We'd hide somewhere and drop our shorts. check each other out. stroke each other. It was fun and I enjoyed that. looked for it whenever it seemed like it was possible There was a boy or two in every neighborhood that would do that. as I learned over the years. As fun as that was. it was that adult I was looking for. some man like my father that would do those same things with me. My dad had a friend from out of town that would stay with us when he was there on business. We only had three bedrooms in the house and during the winter my grandfather would stay with us and he took my room. I was put on the pull out sofa in the family room. I didn't mind as it was like an adventure doing that and I loved the pull out bed. My dad's friend. Gordon. had to share that pullout bed with me. He said he didn't mind at all and I had no choice in the matter but I certainly didn't mind either. That first night he came back from the bathroom wearing pajamas and got into bed. he smiled and winked as he shut off the light. I lay there for a while wondering what his dick looked like. thinking about it as I drifted off to sleep. I woke up the next morning very early and rolled on to my back. It was just getting light out and I looked over at Gordon. He had the sheet off and his dick was sticking out the fly of his pajamas. It scared the shit out of me seeing like that and I quickly looked up at his face. his eyes were closed and I thought he was asleep. I looked back down at his dick as it stuck out of his fly. not very long but very thick with a big flared head. he was cut. I looked at it intently for a while wishing I could touch it. it was so beautiful and exciting to me. I went back to sleep and when I woke up Gordon was already up and in the kitchen with my parents. He smiled when I came in and sat down at the table for breakfast. He was friendly and attentive all of which I liked very much. Gordon stayed over again that night and all though it was difficult I did manage to sleep some. I woke up when I felt something nudge me a little. just a slight shoulder bump. It was hardly light out. very early as I lay there letting my eyes adjust. I rolled on to my back and looked over at Gordon. his dick was hard and poking out of the fly again. I looked up at Gordon's face and his eyes were closed. just like yesterday morning. I leaned up on my elbow to get a closer look and noticed just a little bead of clear stuff on his piss slit. I leaned in closer and looked at it wondering what it was. I was so close to touching it. it was so hard. I wanted to touch it so bad. I looked back up at Gordon and his eyes were open. he was watching me. I was going to panic but he smiled and winked. he nodded at me. he was fine with me looking. I relaxed a little but was still very nervous over getting caught. I wasn't sure what to do. should I lie down and go back to sleep. or was it all right to look. I was frozen on the spot with Gordon looking at me too afraid to move. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Gordon's dick move a little. it throbbed. got harder momentarily. I looked at it quickly and then back at Gordon. he smiled again. he winked. he nodded. almost like he was encouraging me. I wasn't sure what. he wanted me to do. look. or not look. It seemed we were like that for some time. just lying there wondering what the other was thinking. Gordon reached down and lifted the sheet that was over my lower half a little. he looked down at me. It occurred to me that he wanted to see me like I was looking at him. I looked up at him and he smiled and winked. he nodded. I pushed the sheet down and moved my pajamas so that my hard dick stuck out of the fly like his was. He looked at it and smiled. I smiled back. It was so hot laying there with this big man. our dicks out and hard where we could look at them. I trembled as Gordon's hand moved over me and he traced my hard dick with a finger. just let it travel up and down the shaft. It was like a jolt to me. the pleasure that finger gave me. He did that for a few seconds. that finger traveling up and down my dick. He stopped and then nodded at his. it was permission for me to do that to him. I reached up with my finger and did what he had done. his dick throbbed as it reached up to meet my finger. It was warm to the touch. and smooth. so thick and hard. All the things that crossed my mind. things I wanted to do with Gordon's dick. now that I knew he would let me. As luck would have it. my grandfather opened his bedroom door. it squeaked. Gordon pulled the sheet up quickly over us and we both pretended to sleep as my grandfather went through to the kitchen. I lay there quietly and was disappointed when Gordon got up and went to the bathroom. His business was finished and he went back home. I was so disappointed. My dad wore white Jockey briefs... he'd shower and then put on a clean pair and then a robe before he came into watch TV after dinner. It was his routine and he rarely varied from it. The bathroom he and I used was down stairs with the basement split up into the bathroom and furnace room on one side and a small family room on the other. His robe would sometimes open a little and I'd get a glimpse of his underwear. that and the bulge in them. I loved looking at my dad in his robe and underwear and I always looked. One night after his shower he put on clean clothes and went to the neighbors to play cards with my mom. I was home alone and I thought about my dad showering and then putting on clean clothes. There was a dirty clothes hamper in the bathroom and out of curiosity I went in and looked in the hamper. There on top was the pair of underwear my dad had taken off before he showered. I looked at them laying there. I wanted to touch them but worried I'd get caught or somehow he'd know if I did. What if he had them arranged just so. he'd know if I touched them. it was a big risk but I picked them up and looked at them. They were big. really big. or so it seemed to me. In all reality they were average size. My dad wasn't that tall and he wasn't that big. he was just bigger than me. Over the next few weeks his underwear became my passion. or rather obsession. I'd sneak down there every chance I got and take them out and look at them. I grew brave enough one day to hold them up to my nose and smell them. it was totally erotic for me. I'd get so hard with his underwear in my hands. As the weeks want by I got braver. I'd take several pair out and compare them. look for the one that had a yellow pee stain. or a random pubic hair. I'd smell them deeply thinking about my dad as I did. I wanted to try them on but didn't dare. the risk would be too great. I thought about it a lot during the days ahead. I had to find a way to try them on. feel them against my skin and raging hard on. thinking his dick had been where mine was. I admit it occupied my mind a lot during the day. One night my mom went out with some friends and my dad took his shower. he got dressed and told me he was going next door to play cards with some friends. I heard the door close as he left and I waited for a few minutes. I went upstairs and looked out the window. no one in sight. I ran back down the stairs and went into the bathroom and over to the dirty clothes hamper. There were three pair in there and took them out examining them closely. I was nervous and very excited. I felt the need to be quick even though I had plenty of time. I pulled off my shirt and then pushed down my shorts. I listened carefully for a few seconds in case he'd come back. but it was quiet. I held up a pair of his underwear and stepped into them and pulled them up over my achingly hard dick. That initial feeling was so intensely sexual for me. the pleasure they gave me was incredible. They were so big on me. I looked in the mirror at how they hung on my small frame. I could see the fly and thought about my dad's cock being right there where mine was. I lay down on the floor and closed my eyes as I rubbed his underwear on my dick. it felt so good. I was so into what I was doing that I didn't hear the door or my father come down the stairs. The next thing I knew he was standing there looking at me with big wide eyes. I was so terrified that I couldn't move. I was frozen to the spot in fear of what was going to happen next. My dad gave me a pathetic look. he sighed as he looked at me. "What are you doing?" he asked quietly. He didn't seem all that mad. maybe a little perplexed was all. I had no answer so I didn't say anything. What could you say at this point? I was embarrassed beyond belief and was worried my life was over. surely he'd kick me out and I'd have to find somewhere else to live. "I have to go back over," he said meaning next door and the card game he was playing. "I just came over to check on you. Don't fool around like that much longer. your mother could be home soon." I nodded and he went back up the stairs and out the door. The feeling had gone. it was no longer exciting for me. I was devastated and not sure what really happened. I took his underwear off and put them back in the hamper and then put my clothes back on. As I was dressing I noticed the wall behind the hamper. it had all these little holes. pegboard. My dad had hooks in it where he hung his robe and other clothes. On the other side was the TV. where it sat in an alcove cut into the wall. I leaned in close and looked through one of the little holes. I could see the TV and all the things hanging around it. It occurred to me that if I were over there. I could look right into this bathroom. I turned and looked at the shower right across the small room. It was a big cement block shower stall without a curtain. It was big enough that it didn't need a curtain. My dad had built this bathroom for him and me didn't think we needed all that much privacy. The possibilities went through my head. I went to the other side. the family room and over to the corner where the TV sat set into the alcove. I squatted down next to the wall and looked through the holes. it was perfect. The same old thrill went through me like a shot. now just to get up the nerve to do it. It took me a few days to get over getting caught in my dad's underwear. My dad was fine and didn't bring it up. I wasn't in trouble. My mother was fine too so he didn't tell her about it. I'd been worried he'd tell on me. I was starting to think about his underwear again. wanting to do that again. the feelings were returning but I was still nervous over it. It was my father that got me over that nervousness. He came in from mowing the lawn and was sweaty. He smiled at me before he went down to take his shower as he passed me in the kitchen. "You're going to love this pair of underwear," he said as he winked and then went down the stairs. The emotions that went through me were huge. he didn't care that I did that. it was almost like he understood. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to run down there and take them from him as he took them off. I was beside myself thinking about it. I sat there with all these emotions not really knowing what to do. I went down stairs and into the family room. This was long before there were remotes and I walked over to the TV and turned it on. I squatted down next to it while I waited for it to come on so I could check all the channels to see what was on. As I waited my head turned to the peg board wall and I thought about my dad taking a shower. I heard the water start and figured he was just getting in. I moved the few feet to the wall slowly and looked through the holes. He was in the shower getting wet. from here I had a prefect view of him. He was facing away and I watched as water ran over his naked butt. it glistened from the water and looked incredible. His butt was small and waist narrow. his legs were well muscled. I never realized how beautiful his butt was. I was always so eager to see his cock I never gave his butt a second thought. but now. I looked at it longingly. I wanted to touch it. to feel the skin. even open those cheeks and look in between. My dad turned around as he grabbed the soap and began to lather up. His cock was incredible. the shaft hung down over his balls and was surrounded by a nest of black hair. His cock was a little darker than the rest of him and that fascinated me. I watched as he lathered it up. pulling on it a few times and then turning around to soap up his butt. his hand and the soap went between his butt cheeks and worked the lather in. I was so hard watching this. my cock ached. My dad rinsed off and then turned the water off. he grabbed his towel and dried off and then stepped out of the shower. I ran over and sat down on the couch as he finished up. He came out a few minutes later with his robe on. He sat down in his big chair and leaned back with the foot thing coming up. He looked at the TV surprised I had the golf tournament on. I hadn't been paying attention to what channel I had on. "I figured you'd want to watch it," I said as my excuse. The next few days went by with me making sure I was in the basement when my dad showered. I would be watching TV when he came down and then move over to the wall when I thought it was safe. usually when I heard the water start. It became a habit with me. one I always look forward to. almost like an addiction. I'm not sure when he caught on. or how long he knew I was doing that. The underwear incident might have clued him in and made him more aware of what I was up to. My father and I were opposites. he was darker skinned then I was with black hair where as I was lighter and blonder. I took after his older brother who was colored like that. My dad also was an avid sportsman. he grew up playing baseball and basketball and loved golf. He usually went on a yearly trip with his friends hunting or fishing up in Canada. I didn't really play sports and I didn't hunt or fish. That was fine with him. he didn't care that I didn't want to. I'd go occasionally with him. along for the walk or to ride around in the small boat. I did like camping and hiking. which was a good thing because we did a lot of that. Anyway. I don't remember exactly when he caught on that he an observer when he showered. I knew that first time I went down to shower and he followed me down to watch TV that something was up. As I took off my clothes and put them in the hamper I could see him on the other side going through the channels on the TV. He was taking his time and going slow. I turned on the water and waited for it to warm up. I looked back towards the pegboard wall and could see his outline against the light from the TV. I could tell that he'd known all along. it was obvious when I looked towards that wall. I got in and got wet. I glanced over at the wall and could tell he was up close looking through the holes like I did. I was so nervous with him watching. I thought about the underwear and him catching me and not telling. that he knew about that too. It was one of those things you can't control. it just happens no matter how hard you try not to let it. My dick got hard and stood straight up. I was so afraid to turn around where he could see me. At some point I realized I had to. so I did it and got it over with. I lathered up quickly and turned around to rinse off. then turned the water off. I even forgot to wash my hair. I dried off with a hard on and had to step out of the shower and walk over to the wall for my clean underwear and robe. He was right there and hadn't moved. If I hadn't been so embarrassed I might have enjoyed it. I would have wanted that kind of attention. I came out and walked over to the family room and my dad was in his chair watching TV. he never acted like anything had happened. We watched the program without saying a word. I was relieved. he wasn't upset with me. at least I didn't think so. I was out with friends in the neighborhood the next day when he showered with it happening again on the day after that. Then he was late from work the next several nights in a row and I didn't get to watch him shower. It was starting to get on my nerves. I was so frustrated. The only compensation I had was his underwear and I made use of them. I had to be careful with that. and snuck a pair up to my room that I stuffed under my mattress. I would put them on when I went to bed and sleep in them all night. All the nights I'd missed watching dad shower were annoying but at least I had his underwear. I would put them on and hump the mattress in them. it felt so good doing that. One night I'd just gotten in bed with his shorts on and the door opened up and he came in. I was surprised. he was never one to tuck anyone in and once the door was closed that was it for the night. There he was closing the door and coming over to the bed where he sat down on the edge. "I know I've been late these last few nights," he said. "I'll be home on time tomorrow. you going to be here or out playing?" "I'll be here," I said. He nodded and smiled. "I'm glad I don't have to work late very often." "Yeah. me too," I said. He noticed that I wasn't wearing pajamas. that I was bare shouldered. "You don't wear pajamas anymore?" he asked. I shook my head. "Just underwear. like you do," I said. "Okay," he said as he stood up. He surprised me when he lifted the covers and looked at me. It was like being caught all over again in the basement and for a second my heard stopped. He looked at me in what had to be his underwear. they were way too big to be mine. He let the covers go and leaned over the bed. "You be careful with that," he said. "I don't want you to get caught." I nodded and smiled sheepishly. He leaned over and kissed my forehead and then left the room closing the door behind him. The next day was a long one and seemed to take forever. I couldn't wait for my dad to get home. He finally pulled into the driveway and got out. I was standing at the door when he came in. He smiled and said hi as he put his billfold and keys on the counter by the door. I smiled too and then followed him down stairs where he went left and I went right. I sat by the TV turning it on while I looked over at the pegboard wall. I moved over closer and looked through. it was odd knowing he knew that I was there. That he knew made it very exciting for me. that he knew made me love him more. He took his clothes off by the hamper and put them inside. His dick swung back and forth as he tossed them inside. He turned and walked over to the shower turning the water on. he waited till it warmed up and then got in. He got wet and then reached for the soap... he turned around to lather the front and as he did. his dick got hard. I'd never seen it like this before. it seemed so huge to me. My heart was pounding away in my chest as I watched and my dick was hard in my shorts. He turned around and lathered up his backside. he washed between his butt cheeks while I watched and then rinsed off. He turned the water off and then dried off. he walked over to the pegboard and hung up his towel with his hard cock inches from my face. He put on clean underwear and reached for his robe which was my clue to head back to the couch. He came in and we watched TV until dinner was ready. After dinner it was my turn to shower and my dad was at the TV changing channels while I undressed. I was already hard as my underwear came down but I didn't care. it was alright to show that to my dad. he wanted to see it. I took my time while I showered. it felt good to do it while he watched. I was hard the entire time. My dick was standing straight up as I dried off and put on my underwear inches from where he watched. He was in his chair watching TV by the time I came into the family room. -- Comments welcome. tell me what you think and about your own experiences. rc7448@gmail.com